fresh.start  I have decided to start fresh on this website. I haven’t had any free time the past few months and am finally making time for myself. I need to. I am so unbalanced with working too much that it has become unhealthy. I like to stay centered.

There are so many changes happening in my life and it’s only going to get better. I have so much love in my life right now I almost don’t feel worthy of it. I am humbled by all of my family and friends that have taken the time to talk to me. I love my family a lot but we struggle to stay in touch. Everyone is so busy and when the weather gets nice most of them take off for Florida to summer there. They don’t get back home until the beginning of fall. Such an unusual family I have. I wouldn’t trade them for the world. My friends are always calling or texting. Keeping me up to date on who is having another baby, who is getting married, and unfortunately who is getting divorced. I love that I’m still in the loop with them after everything the past year. I am thankful. I am humbled.

My mind often goes to what loves means to me. I think it means creation. I believe we are born to create love. That doesn’t mean in the Bible sense. It means we build relationships, friendships, momentary acquaintances that really touch your heart. People come into your life the moment they are meant to. It is by nature, an act of God. And they leave the moment they are meant to. The ones that stick around for a long, long time, they are meant to heal you. They know you well and know your story. They are the ones that carry on your essence. I know my story is so big I need several people to carry it. I want to be known as a kind and loving man who did the best he could. I would be happy with just that much. I know I am so much more, but I don’t feel the need to have a goal other than kindness.

I can’t wait to get back home to Chicago. I have a business trip next week. I’m so excited to go. I had planned on meeting up with an old friend but she decided that would not be in her best interest. So I said okay and take care. She is in her own world and I’m happy to leave her where she is happiest. I am a little sad to not be seeing her but I know it’s for the best. The food there is amazing. I plan on bringing a bunch of my favorite stuff back with me. I will only be there a few days. I wanted to stay a week but with all the bad weather in Oklahoma recently I need to stay focused on getting it all cleaned up.

I miss Chicago. It was my happy home for a long time. Now it’s a stopping place to rest and visit. I’m glad I had all of the experiences I had and I move on with joy in my heart. I know my strength now. I know my weaknesses. I know who I am and I am glad for that.

I hope everyone is doing well. I am taking each day one by one. I am still an avid reader and will be sharing the books I read once again on here. I look forward to all the comments and reconnecting. Have a great day. Know that you are loved!

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