March 6, 2015

This was a big day for us. We were fully feeling something going on. And it was not changing. There was a lot of conversation about the Disney trip and how to behave. How to avoid being obvious. But all I did was make her laugh. I couldn’t help it. She got me. She was the first person to really get me. And I loved her laugh.
This first attachment. When she sent me that I was dying laughing. This was the kind of thing I’m talking about. She has a great sense of humor. She sent me stuff like this often. It still cracks me up. I had forgotten all about it until I found it writing this.
This is when we started talking about What If. As in what if she left. I started to realize how unhappy she really was in her marriage. Leaving was something she had been thinking about for years. At least 5 to 6 years, she later told me. We were assessing what would happen if she did leave, how it would affect her. How it would affect me. My only problem is, I knew once it got out I would lose clients.
And what has happened to me now is that because of the false story Meri told the entire world, not only have I lost clients, I have lost deals. I have lost money and I’m still losing money. It’s bad. On top of which, my employees are pissed. I’m having huge issues with all of my businesses. And I blame myself. I shouldn’t have had the affair. But I don’t regret it. I still do not regret it. It was an amazing 6 months.
The flirting was nonstop. Even on the phone calls we would say stuff to each other about love and relationships and just sit there and sigh. And drive each other crazy, but it was all sweet, affectionate stuff. Nothing dirty. That comes in the next post Lol
As you can see, it was Meri that named my cat Penelope. And it fit her. My cat has recently passed away. The trolls thought it would be great to send me photos of deceased cats. Which broke my heart even more that day. They are horrible people.
This is when we came up with a code to start posting stuff to each other on twitter that no one would find out. She began putting ……. behind stuff for me. I would up a 😉 on messages to her. This is also the first love letter I wrote to her. Which she has. Or had I’m sure it’s in the toilet by now. Just a one page love letter. Telling her how I feel about her.
I flew into Denver to pick up Mike. Meri was very excited. And then I flew into Las Vegas with Mike. I have owned a house in Las Vegas for 8 years. Long before Meri moved to Vegas. So no I am not the reason they moved to Vegas. That rumor is ridiculous. It was a condo to me and my friends. We used it for Boys Trips for the weekend. To have wild, party weekends and hit the strip. I also used it for any of my friends or family wanting a Vegas weekend. But I had been trying to sell it and m realtor was not doing anything to move it. My accountant told me to yank it off until closer to summer. So the Vegas trip was a planned thing at some point. Meri inviting me to Disney just pushed it up a few weekends.
Mike and I got into town. We got groceries and then McDonald’s for his supper. I went to my house. Got the house ready. Made sure Mike’s room was good to go. Then I went outside to talk to one of my neighbors that I hadn’t seen in months. We went outside of the gate to look at something. Meri called me. I was standing outside of my gate at that point. I told her I would call back in a few. Then we started texting as I was walking back into the gate and over to my house.
This is when things went to a whole new level!

 

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March 5, 2015

The flirting is non-stop on both sides. On the phone mostly. We had talks about what was going on. How it felt. Why she was flirting with me but she was married. She kept telling me her marriage was not what I saw on the show. She kept telling me how it wasn’t working anymore. How it hadn’t worked in years. She was opening up to me because I was being so honest about my feelings for her. She struggled. I asked her to stay open to her own feelings. And whatever she felt, tell me. So she did. She began to open up to me more and more. Because she felt happy. She felt wanted. All the things she wants to feel all of the time.
The butterflies became a special thing for us. She used to post butterfly photos or quote photos all of the time. She started posting them after I would say something sweet that would make her feel butterflies in her stomach.
This was the day my secretary found out I could get free for the weekend and go to Disney. I decided to take Mike with me. He lives in Denver. I called him to make the plan and he was excited. I’ve known him since he was 8 years old. He’s graduated college and is working as an intern now. So this was a big trip because I hadnt seen him in a while. Plus I really didn’t want to go to Disney alone and meet up with Meri and whoever she brought. It felt weird so I invited Mike.
This was the first time Meri was going into class. The rest of that semester I called her every time, we talked as she drove there. She called me after every class. And I only missed once because I was working. It became a special thing for us. This is also the day when the endearments started.

The guy in the Batstash photo is not me. I’m sure some people will think it is because I’m such a huge Batman fan, but it’s not Lol Meri found that photo online 2 weeks before her and I started talking publicly. She kept it and didn’t know why. I call that fate. I believe in those things.
This was the night her daughter flew into town. We were on the phone while she was driving to pick her up. She called me back when she got home and got her settled in. We talked for 2 hours. Then she called me back after 20 minutes and we talked more.

 

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March 4, 2015

This is the 4th day that we begin texting. We had been talking on the phone a lot. A lot of very personal and great conversations. Flirting. A lot of flirting by both of us. I am a southern guy. If you don’t flirt, you aren’t alive. She was flirting back with me and wasn’t telling me to knock it off. I loved our beginning. It was so exciting and new. She is a completely different woman than I thought. And she took me by surprise. I had a huge crush on her.
So how did I get all of this stuff if I deleted everything? I actually did delete every thing off of my phone. The calls logs, the texts, anything on twitter DM. All photos we were exchanging. It was gone. Then I got a new phone and wanted to donate my old phone. Lindsay put the old phone on a program called Dr Fone Wondershare. To make sure there was nothing work related on there. When she ran it, all of this stuff came back. So she stuck it all on a flash drive for me and I put it on a desk drawer. I had forgotten about it until Meri’s friend started harassing me. Then I pulled it out, shoved it on my Macbook and saw it all again. That’s how I have most of it. Some of it became corrupted during the backup process so some is lost forever. But I have most everything.
On the phone was the first time Meri talked to me about Utah. She said I needed to go someday to check it out. That it is gorgeous and she would love to show me around. Since we both love to travel.
This was the day there was a shift of us just casually talking, into more flirting and us talking about a chance of more. She confided in me that her marriage was not what it seems like on the show. Not that I watched much of the show, to know anything. I’ve seen last year’s season but maybe a handful of any of the other seaons. I couldn’t even name the other wives’ names or any of the kids to be honest. Until she would tell me things. I usually asked who is that and she would laugh and tell me.
We were both feeling something neither of us could describe. It just felt good. We wanted to talk more. We were both scared and I knew for me, this would be a bad idea. But it felt so good and she was also feeling the same way so I went for it. I’m romantic and I believe in fate, destiny, love, souls connecting.

So I went for it.
Have you ever felt like that before?

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March 3, 2015 Evening

  1. I’m not sure how to add the attachments in where the link is showing up so forget that. I’m attaching the photos I have. During the backup of my phone I did lose somethings. But as you can see I still have a lot. Okay let’s get to this section of the texting.
    I sent her the poem that is one of my favorites. Then I had to sit through a meeting at work. I was distracted. At this point, things are fresh and new. And you just want to talk to each other all of the time. I kept daydreaming about her. Have you ever been through that before? You meet someone and it’s not just a boom but a sonic BOOM in your life. And you can’t stop smiling? This is how I was feeling about this. The more we talked, the more we liked each other.
    During my meeting I drew a Mickey Mouse. A horrible rendition, but it made me laugh. It made her laugh too.
    When she said Lord give me strength. This is when she was filming the scene with Janelle coming over to talk to her. We were texting right before that. She asked me to make her laugh to calm her nerves and I tried. I don’t know how well I did. But she appreciated it.
    She called me around 8:30 and we talked about filming. This was the first time we ever talked about the show. I didn’t really ask anything because I wasn’t really into it. I was more into why Janelle felt she needed to talk to Meri about something privately. I didn’t know they had issues. And Meri really didn’t go into depth at this point with me. She just explained they had issues for years and she wasn’t really wanting to work things out with her. It bugged me when she told me that. I put a pin on that and left it alone for that moment.
    We were both exhausted heading into the night. She was doing homework. I was doing work emails and we were texting.

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