March 4, 2015

This is the 4th day that we begin texting. We had been talking on the phone a lot. A lot of very personal and great conversations. Flirting. A lot of flirting by both of us. I am a southern guy. If you don’t flirt, you aren’t alive. She was flirting back with me and wasn’t telling me to knock it off. I loved our beginning. It was so exciting and new. She is a completely different woman than I thought. And she took me by surprise. I had a huge crush on her.
So how did I get all of this stuff if I deleted everything? I actually did delete every thing off of my phone. The calls logs, the texts, anything on twitter DM. All photos we were exchanging. It was gone. Then I got a new phone and wanted to donate my old phone. Lindsay put the old phone on a program called Dr Fone Wondershare. To make sure there was nothing work related on there. When she ran it, all of this stuff came back. So she stuck it all on a flash drive for me and I put it on a desk drawer. I had forgotten about it until Meri’s friend started harassing me. Then I pulled it out, shoved it on my Macbook and saw it all again. That’s how I have most of it. Some of it became corrupted during the backup process so some is lost forever. But I have most everything.
On the phone was the first time Meri talked to me about Utah. She said I needed to go someday to check it out. That it is gorgeous and she would love to show me around. Since we both love to travel.
This was the day there was a shift of us just casually talking, into more flirting and us talking about a chance of more. She confided in me that her marriage was not what it seems like on the show. Not that I watched much of the show, to know anything. I’ve seen last year’s season but maybe a handful of any of the other seaons. I couldn’t even name the other wives’ names or any of the kids to be honest. Until she would tell me things. I usually asked who is that and she would laugh and tell me.
We were both feeling something neither of us could describe. It just felt good. We wanted to talk more. We were both scared and I knew for me, this would be a bad idea. But it felt so good and she was also feeling the same way so I went for it. I’m romantic and I believe in fate, destiny, love, souls connecting.

So I went for it.
Have you ever felt like that before?