welcome-iron-coffee-lg  It’s been a great first week back in Chicago. I have been running all over downtown checking out my buildings and projects. I love surprise visits to see how things are going.  It catches people off guard, I only stay a few minutes but I get to listen first hand on what people need or want. Then try to accommodate reasonable requests. Keep your customers happy and they will stay forever. 


My personal life is getting back to normal. I’ve been hanging out with my buddy Josh. He’s worried about me. He says I’m different. He says my soul seems sad or I lost my smile. I’m not sure if both or none are true. I feel okay. I feel like I’m working hard and going home proud of what I accomplished that day. But that has never been good enough for me. I push myself. I have to. I’m it. My employees have no one else to steer this ship. And I have all of our money tied together. If one fails, it will be a ripple effect across the board. This past month has been very tough. I’ve lost clients, leases, and a few will not be renewing with us. I understand, but I don’t understand.

I had planned on going up to my Lake house for the weekend. To really sit down and start writing this book. I have notes together, and an outline but no pages. The curve ball I got thrown this morning is that Peyton bought a flight out here and wants to come visit. I stunned her with my silence as soon as she said it. It took me a few seconds to recover and be the gentleman my grandmother taught me to be.

Sure, sounds like fun! What time do you get in I will pick you up?

Are you really sure it’s okay? You sound surprised?

No it’s fine. I mean it’s great. It will be great. Uh what time again?

My flight gets it at **:**pm.

Great. That’s really great. Haha Okay see you then. Fly safe. Bye


That’s what this feels like. I’m trying to be cool but I don’t understand this. I don’t know why she wants to come visit me. We have talked everyday on the phone, texted some. We are friends now. FRIENDS. I guess that means friends get to visit each other. But I was prepared to see her in December, with her sister. She’s coming alone. Staying at my house. Wants to see the big city.

Okay? I’m okay? Okay Lol Dang, it’s going to be fun. She’s a beautiful young woman and I have a great time with her. I’m just…

Wow, okay. Peyton is really coming here this weekend. Why?



    1. She came here to get away from work for a few days and she said she missed me more than she thought she would. We stayed up until 3am talking. She says she is starting to have feelings for me and wanted me out of Las Vegas to see if I can focus on her or if I’m still not open to letting her like me. She said I’m so guarded it was hard for her to get to know me there, and here there might be a chance for something to develop. She said as crazy as all of my life is, she sees something in me. And can’t walk away from that without at least trying. So she came here to see what happens.
      We agreed we are not falling in love we like each other. She asked me to try. She asked me to focus on her and give her a chance to see if anything develops. I told her I can’t. She was very upset. We had a nice time and a lot of deep talks but she’s not Meri. No one is Meri and I am not in any shape to get serious with anyone. So she asked me to think about it when I dropped her off, I said nothing and she got pissed off and hopped out. I did not call or text her last night so this morning she texted me a very long message and I’m still trying to figure out how to respond.

    1. She reads it and knows exactly what I think of her coming out unexpectedly. She also knows I’m still in love with Meri and am not wanting a long distance anything with her.

      We have talked on the phone two more times since this morning. She said she has something she needs to tell me face to face. So I guess I will find out soon what’s going on.

      I’m very open about what I think and feel so she has always been aware of what’s going on with me.