Sharing is good

5106e2e3610e2f8d226e272bec798ae3  I have found out that by sharing my story a lot of other people are beginning to share theirs. I think it’s helping people. I love the stories. I get to hear how people met people they really loved  deeply. I’m also hearing stories that would break your heart. I’m so happy to be here for all of you. I’m doing my best to get back to all of the messages. Some days I can keep up. Sometimes not so well. I didn’t think this would happen.

I’m here. If you guys want to tell me your story, share your experiences I would love that. I’m here to learn. I have made a huge mistake with my life by having an affair. But for some reason it has turned out to be the best thing that has ever happened to me. I’m building a new group of friends that aren’t judging me, aren’t demoralizing the things I have done. I take full responsibility for all of my actions and words. I want to learn. I want to do better. I want to learn from your stories.

My favorite topic to discuss with anyone is love. It has been the elusive dream of mine. I have never truly found the love that belongs to me. I want it so bad but I know God will bring it to me when I am worthy and ready. I thought I knew what love was 3 times in my life. 3 relationships that all turned out to be wrong for me. It’s hard to accept it. The further away I move from the feelings of love the more the clarity sets in. It’s hard to swallow. But I can’t give up.

I know there is a woman out there that will capture my heart and attention again. I know that she is waiting for me right now. And through the magic of the universe again I know we will find our way to each other. That’s the best part of love. The beginning. It’s so fresh and exciting. All the things you learn about each other. The things that you fall in love with.

Anyone else that is starting over, go out and date. Don’t say no to everybody. It makes you feel alone. If your friends want to set you up with someone, go for it. It might work out very well. I know for me I’m not ready to date. I need more time to deal with all of this. It’s been a roller coaster. With everything that was going on, being said, I really didn’t have anytime to grieve the loss of her. That’s where I’m at now. I’m still grieving. I really wish I wasn’t, but the truth is here I am. Still missing what we had.

I have hope to find love again. Someday. Not Yet. It’s worth it. Love really is something worth fighting for. I hope you all feel loved tonight. That you have found your special someone. And you can say I love you to the one person in the world you chose to be with. I remember what that felt like and it was darn good. Hold onto all of the good times. Life is so precious.

I wished we could all just love each other. And not have any conflict. I pray we all know what peace feels like. I know I am still seeking it.

I’m going to mass tonight then hitting the grocery store. I hope ya’ll have a great evening. God loves you. I love ya’ll too. Thank you for being here!

About Samuel

Single dad of 4 beautiful kids, Heston & Alex my twin boys, and my daughters Peace and Sky. Dad of 2 angel babies in Heaven, Ryan and Talon. Divorced. Semi-retired app developer, business partner, Commercial Real estate investor, Chicago Bears & Chicago Cubs fan, vegan, lifelong Catholic, voting independent party member, guitar playing singer who owns a dog, and 2 cats. We live in beautiful Denver, Colorado. I started my first blog Janaury 1st, 2012. Official owner of and @NotBatmanYet Twitter account.
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  1. I truly believe that these hackers need to get a grip with themselves. Why can’t they just leave you alone? We all want to believe in our hearts that you are real which is why we comment on your blog. I can’t wait for your book to come out and I am hoping that it will prove to all the haters that they have no clue what they are talking about with all the fake stuff they are pulling up on the internet..

  2. I think the best part about you, Samuel, is how real and genuine you really are. You have proven that the material life is not what makes a person happy. It is all about love, kindness, and doing for others. God will not fail you. You are faithful. You are forgiven, and it has been cast into the ocean of forgetfulness. He knows your heart and what you long for. He will give you your hearts desire when the time is right. Truthfully, I don’t think she was good enough for you. For if she really had a true and genuine love for you, nothing would have stood in her way to be with you. Not even a TLC check. You deserve better than that. I wish you all the happiness in the world…

  3. Do you know the song “I Want To Know What Love Is” ? The first time I heard that song I was going through my divorce and I felt so totally alone. My family did not live close so I had no real support. I had three children and I loved them with my whole heart and soul but they were kids and I needed to take care of them not them take care of me. Anyway the first time I heard the song I was driving and had to pull off the road because I started crying so hard. I was in a very abusive relationship with my ex who was my childhood sweetheart. I always supported him even though many people did not like him because of how he treated me.i defended him constantly and in the end he left me for another woman. I loved him unconditionally and he caste me aside like I was yesterday’s garbage. I was so lost and broken and did not believe I would ever love again. I felt a huge hole inside of my heart. I felt so worthless and unloved. I was alone for 10 years raising my sons and trying to make a life for us. The pain was always there. Fast forward years later I met a man who was my customer at my store. I was instantly attracted to him. Something that has never happened to me. I had a mad crush on him but I found out he was married so I kept my feelings to myself. Time went by and every time he came into the store I swear my toes would curl. I would pray and yell at God. that he was playing an awful joke on me. I finally meet someone who I am so attracted to and he is married.
    I began interviewing for another job because my work situation was not good. I came close to leaving the store and he came in. I told him I wanted to say goodbye because I may not be here the next time he comes in and he was my favorite customer. I told him I was in the process of getting another job. He looked at me and said I don’t want you to go. My situation has changed too. I thought he was getting another job. Then he said I wanted to ask you out for coffee. I swear I excused myself and ran in the back room because I nearly passed out, I couldn’t catch my breath. That Saturday he picked me up from work and we went out for dinner, not coffee. We became inseparable and was so totally in love. It hit us both hard right between the eyes. We were like school kids all ga ga over each other. The both of us were broken from really bad marriages and we healed each other. I never felt love like that before. I found out what love was suppose to feel like. A short time later we got married, that was almost 25 years ago. Our marriage is not perfect we have our ups and downs but through it all I know that I am loved and he will always be there for me. He is my best friend and I thank God everyday for bringing him into my life. I should have never trusted any man. My whole life men have hurt and disappointed me starting from my father. Yet, I trust my husband with my whole heart and soul. I no longer walk around with a hole in my heart and now when I hear that song I still cry but I cry because I do now know what love is.
    Thank you for allowing me to share my story, Sam. It brought me back to 25 years ago and I feel crazy in love again. It is good to share.

  4. Sam,

    I’ve been reading your blog for a while now and really feel compelled to finally leave you a note. I think your story is so compelling because at the core, it’s a story about finding love, then losing love. And I think just about everyone has experienced that at some point, so I know for myself at least, much of what you write resonates deeply with me. I truly do appreciate that you’re willing to share such a difficult time with us. It can’t be easy at all to put your feelings, emotions, and heartbreak out there, in real time, while it’s all so fresh. So I thank you, and appreciate you.

    Also, like the other posters, I also appreciate the positivity and hope you maintain here. I’m glad you don’t post any of the negative comments, as well. It blows my mind – and somewhat frightens me – how many people are out there who seem to take such delight in harrassing and trying to hurt others. I’ll never understand why people spend so much time immersing themselves in something they obviously feel negatively about. Why not use your time to do things that make you feel good?? So very bizarre to me.

    Finally, I just wanted to add that while new love is wonderful, there’s something very sweet and special about an enduring love as well. My husband and I have been together almost ten years and married for six, and it’s really very wonderful to have someone in your life who knows you so intimately, with whom you have a history, who’s seen you at your best, and your worse, and who loves you anyway. I hope you find that perfect person for you as well, because when you do, you’ll get to enjoy and savor all the different phases love goes through – and it’s pretty amazing. 🙂

    Best wishes to you – and thank you.

    – Elizabeth

  5. Could have not said that better myself.

  6. Sam,
    I have no doubt that the woman you marry will value, love and cherish your kind heart and soul that I’ve gotten to see through this blog. And as I’ve said time and time again I wish you so much luck in that endeavor, whenever you’re ready for it.

    Sometimes I forget how my husband and I met, and when I am reminded it shocks me all over again. We met randomly in a game, and love blossomed pretty quickly. We’ve been together ever since. January we will celebrate 11 years together, and on the 8th of this month it will be our 5 year wedding anniversary. Our relationship has always been unconventional and unique in a lot of ways, but I am so blessed and thankful to be married to my best friend. I wish that happiness and joy to everyone.

    The world would be such a more peaceful place to live if we all were just kinder to one another. That doesn’t mean we have to agree with each other all of the time, but keeping a level of kindness and respect for people, even through disagreements. Well, I hope we get there some day. I try my best to surround myself with people that are positive, kind hearted, honest and compassionate… it makes me a better person.

    Have a good night!! 🙂

  7. Wouldn’t it it be cool if it was as easy and enjoyable to fall out of love as it is to fall into love? 😉

  8. That’s beautiful, Sam and No Name Poster. My sentiment exactly. Have yourselves a wonderful evening. Good night, God bless.

  9. Sam,

    Your post is kind hearted and a message that many can relate to. It was nice to read to me. I don’t think I care whether you’re “real” or not anymore. Catfish, shark fish , bat fish or blow fish…if you utilize your blog to express positivity and love without hate or judgement I’d say good for you.

    I’m disenchanted, to say the least, to read so much negativity and hate on the net over this situation. It’s sad that so many find value in being mean. I don’t know you, Meri, Lindsey or ANYONE in this mix for that matter yet I feel sadness for all regardless. Your blog has not been hateful, albeit raw with your own truth at times, yet not hateful to me.

    I’ve been a vouyer of this drama that is unfolding and truthful in saying I wait with baited breath for the conclusion. What I hope in the end would be what I have. I am a happily married 47 yrs old Christian woman with my husband of 25 yrs. My priorities in order are God, husband, children, family and work. Truth leads my path and integrity is my sword.

    I have only good thoughts to you and wish you the happiest holidays that are around the corner. God speed to you and yours.

    And happy holidays to everyone else on Sam’s blog as well! Cheers to another year coming to a close and still being ABOVE THE GROUND😀👍🏼👏🏻

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