It’s already 2016 and I’m getting really excited about what this year will mean to my life. I am currently in Las Vegas for all of January. Lindsay goes back to Australia one month a year to keep up her dual citizenship and see family. She took her mom with her. I can’t imagine how they will survive that trip together. They usually last 2 days before one of them calls me and tell me to come get them Lol She will be available via email but with a 15 hour time difference (I think that’s right?) it will be hard to stay in touch as we are used to. She needs a break from all of our friends. She amasses so many people to hang out with it gets a little too overwhelming. I already miss her. There is no person in my life that can make me laugh as easily as she can. On the other side of that, there is no one else that frustrates me beyond belief. A break for our friendship is good. Especially after our New Year’s Eve events.
We went to dinner at SLS. That food is amazing. I’m biased because I own a certain stock portion there, but they really do it up big time. They cater their menu to your specific food needs. Being vegan, this is perfect for me. The Wynn is the only other downtown casino restaurant that will cater vegan. After dinner we made our way down to MGM. Lindsay was asked to host a VIP party in one of the upper suites for some friend of a friend. I didn’t realize what I was getting into. She told me her hosting would be mostly making sure the party kept going and everyone was having a good time. At the end of the evening we had all trashed the room. She told me they had expected that, it happens every year, and you put down a certain deposit if you will be hosting a party like that for cleaning purposes. I don’t how many people it would have taken but it looked sort of like that scene in The Hangover movie when the guys wake up. It was bad. We left the hotel around 5am. She got drunk, sobered up, got drunk again, and half way sobered up throughout the night. She also managed to sneak in about 20 of her closest friends which hopefully went unnoticed. She said the people who asked her to host told her the next day everyone was asking who she was and if she did party hosting for a living. A few of them wanted to hire her for certain birthday or bachelorette functions they would be needing in Vegas later in the year. They offered her an obscene amount of money and she said no. I don’t really understand how her mind works. I would have said sure, sounds fun. She only likes to do things if its her idea. Otherwise it’s an instant and definitive no. Stubborn.
I slept all New Year’s Day. I don’t drink and didn’t drink at the party. But I was so exhausted for staying up all night. I don’t do that. I have insomnia but I am at home and comfortable. Talking, dancing, and having that much fun wore me out. Lindsay woke me up at 1pm so I could drop her off at the airport. Her connecting flight in Los Angeles was where she would pick up her mom before they went on to Sydney. She was fine. I saw her knock out so much alcohol and she was walking around like nothing happened. I was still out of it and I only drank water with lime juice all night. I’m supposed to pick her up February 2nd sometime in the morning. I hope they have a great trip and stay safe. It’s summertime there.
I wrote out a list of goals or dreams I have for 2016. It will be fun to come back to this in a year to see if any of it came true.
- Continue working to adopt the twin boys, it wont be legal until May 2017
- Hopefully get a court order in place so they came be with me after their birth
- Fall in love, again
- Maintain my renewed relationships with my family and friends
- Work hard and succeed at whatever projects I take on this year
- Practice prayer, kindness, and forgiveness everyday until I no longer have to make it a conscious choice
- Thank God daily for my life and all that I am
- Travel once a month to places I have never been before
- Continue my healthy lifestyle, eating vegan, working out, taking time off when I am overstressed
- Make new friends
I think that’s a pretty good list. I’m working with my adoption attorney weekly to get things going. I have to go through a lot of hoops to make things happen. Even when my cousin’s daughter is willing or has already signed things a judge has to approve it all. She has to go through some mental health assessments is her next step to make sure she knows how this will impact her the rest of her life. I already went through mine. Yes I did pass it Lol I’m not crazy, despite internet rumors. It’s a lot of things to go through. It feels like I have to prove I have a safe home environment every other day. I guess I thought it wouldn’t be so hard. And it’s frustrating. If this is the process, God bless anyone that has adopted. It can really weight heavy on you. I know it’s going to be worth it, so May of 2017 isn’t a scary date to me. I just need to keep myself healthy and in a good place for the next 17 months.
I don’t really do resolutions each other. They don’t seem appealing to me. I prefer my list of 10 dreams. I guess they are hopes. I hope I do fall deeply in love and find the special someone God has waiting for me. I know she’s out there somewhere, but I’m not sure where or who it is. I will continue waiting. It’s worth all the wait.
I hope you all had a great New Year’s so far. I pray everyday for all of you to find happiness and joy.
My book is coming out soon. I strategically will be releasing it on a specific date, because I can Lol You will understand very soon why. Getting some positive feedback. I am a first time author. I wanted my book to be in my voice. To sound exactly as if I’m talking to a friend across a dinner table. Yes I am aware of grammar errors, probably misspellings and whatever else mistakes there will be. I fought with my publisher to leave it in. I don’t want it to be a cleaned up version of my story. It’s my words. Let them be as they are. I am not going to make money or fame or anything off of this. I’m going to clear my name and share my truth. That is my only interest in writing it. And I hope you all will enjoy it. I worked very hard on it for several months. It’s my baby 😉
I went hiking yesterday in Red Rock. My legs are killing me but I need to hit the shower and get to work. Have a great week ya’ll!