Well it is Los Angeles

downtown_los_angeles-normal  Good morning from Los Angeles. I’m into the last part of my work trip. I will be here until Thursday. This office is small, only 3 employees but it makes us the most money. Well at least until Lindsay can start making money off of all 3 of our casino investments. We are all working hard to help each other out. Teamwork, it’s the only way you can do business. I appreciate every one of my employees, they are like family to me. It’s been nice talking to this group here about what’s been going on and what we can do to make things easier. Across the board they want more employees. So we are going to hire 2 people. My plan is to first shoot out an email this morning offering anyone from my other cities to move to LA. That doesn’t always pay off, but I like to give them first dibs. If no one wants to pick up their life and move, we put an ad in the paper so to speak. Right about now is the time we start getting apps for Summer Interns. I had a big issues last summer with one of the kids. This year we will do a better job vetting people.
I am finally feeling better. I was battling something over the weekend. I thank the Lord I was not at home with my boys. That would have been a disaster. I think it was a sinus infection mixed with some crud. I went to the oncologist Monday to run a bunch of tests. All routine, they did not find anything to worry about which is a blessing. I’m a little anemic, and dehydrated. They pushed an IV and I’m back to my old self. Thank goodness, I don’t do very well when I’m sick. I get really crabby.
Dang I miss my boys! We have been Facetiming a few times a day. Sarah said they are fine but I miss their little faces. I can’t wait to get home. I am going home Saturday night late because we are doing their Christening on Sunday. Such a great dad, I had forgotten it was coming up so soon Lol That still makes me feel horrible and guilty. Lindsay and her family will be coming back to Chicago with me. I have to swing in Friday night late to visit her. She wants to have a “sit down” which means she’s going to yell at me about her budget. She had it good while I was on paternity leave. She allocated a lot of funds to her west coast offices. Then I came back and reversed some of it Lol We have got to communicate better. I know she needs the financial backing but until some of our bigger construction jobs finish up this month we have to watch things a little closer. It’s always a balancing act with the money. That’s why each city only has 2 or 3 employees so I don’t give in trouble with a huge payroll.
What I need is an accountant type person to come in, look over all of my books and tell me at what percentage profit can we expand a little in each market area. I may need to look into that. I have some really big checks coming in soon. I want to set myself up for more expansion this year. And I want to buy more buildings to develop. That’s my passion.
Did I mention I’m missing my boys? Facetime is making it a little easier but I want to be with them. I think we need to schedule shorter trips from now on. I really thought I would tough guy this out and it wouldn’t be such a big deal. Being away from them like this, I don’t like it. I think some of it is the guilt that I’m all they have as a parent right now. I can’t rely on a step-mom to help out. I have to rely on the nannies. I’m so thankful my cousin and her daughter have stayed. That helped the guilt. And they are really enjoying their time together. We have all decided to start doing a 3 trip a year open adoption schedule. They want to come in March, August and December. But not around their birthdays or direct holidays. They are being respectful that this is my family. We agreed they will come to my home, stay there with the boys for a few days are up to 1 week, then it’s time to go. We also agreed to revisit the visitation schedule when they are old enough to go on fun trips like Disney. I think when my boys are 6 we will do Disney for the first time. I want them to remember it. I want them to be kids forever, but I think by the time they are 6 years old they would remember an experience like that. I never liked Disney growing up. Seeing how happy the stories were just made me realize how crappy my childhood made me feel. I like their birth mom wants to stay in touch. She said she wants to watch them grow up and not deny them as a part of her life. It’s all very healthy. I’m proud of her. Her therapy has helped her see her decision was the best for her and best for them. She is so selfless for giving me this gift. It’s the biggest thing she will ever do in her life, up until she gets married and has more kids. I asked her if someday she wanted more kids and she said yes. I said that would be awesome.
Today is my friend Brooke’s birthday! Happy birthday, sugar! I pray your birthday is the best yet and you have a great day.
I signed a contract to work my book into a screenplay for one of those tv movies. I only agreed to it because I have some say on the screenplay they write. I didn’t want them to twist my book into their version. They want to stay true to the storyline and only embellish and sensationalize certain parts. To make it steamy and interesting. Well that relationship was steamy and interesting so go for it. And if I don’t like the screenplay, I can axe it. That was written into the contract, thank you to my lawyers for looking out. I won’t, because I do believe the writing team can just adjust the concerns I have. I’m excited. I’ve never been apart of something like this before. It’s going to be very cool watching the whole thing take shape. They wanted Lindsay’s approval to use some of her content and to talk to her about her part, she refuses. Typical Lol I tried bribing her. Nothing works. So we have to go around her, but still include her because that’s going to be the focus of the whole film until the big suspenseful ending. So we are officially in Pre-Production. Whatever the heck that means. They are hiring a bunch of folks to work on this. I can’t wait to see what actor they get for my part. I really can’t wait to see the actress they get for Lindsay’s part. That will be hilarious. I told them to hit a mental hospital and find the girl who no one will sit by because she’s just straight up crazy, then hire her Lol Lindsay started laughing when I told her that and she said “whatevs”.
All exciting things going on in my life. So much responsibility. I feel like this is a little vacation but even at night I’m still working on emails. Tonight I have some friends who were near by fly in to hang out. We are going to hit some clubs. I have to figure out where to meet them for dinner. There are some phenomenal restaurants in LA. I want to try them all. I finally got some BCD Tofu yesterday for lunch and dinner. Man is that place amazing! It’s literally right near my LA office so I walked over to grab my food. Delicious and healthy. I’ll probably do that again today for lunch. No one makes great tasting Korean food near me.
I went for a run early this morning. I need to shower and make my way into the office. My hotel isn’t too far away but it took me 25 minutes to get from the office to my hotel last night. Just love downtown traffic.
My Amazon book sales are doing great! I had the little sale tracker bar at 5 units per increment but now that it’s done so well the sales tracker bars go by 25 units per increment. That’s amazing. My best day I sold 53 books. In one day! That’s exciting stuff. I knew the sales would not be crazy high but it is still selling every day and it fluctuates. It’s also still selling on my website. I like that too. The paypal moves the money a lot faster into my bank account. I only have to wait a week. With Amazon you have to earn $100 then wait 60 days from the time you hit the first $100. So I can’t cash that money out for another month and a half or something like that. All of it is still going to those 2 Utah Charities. I want to make this book worth it. I want to help people who need it. That part was always important to me. I’m glad so far the money has helped and I’m doing good. I wanted to pay back in someway. Glad it’s for a great cause.
I still can’t believe I forgot all about their Christening on Sunday. My head is soup right now with everything I have going on. My whole family is coming into town Saturday. And some of my friends. I guess I need to call the party planner lady back. She has left me at least 10 voicemails Lol Whoops. I trust her, she knows what she is doing. I’m sure whatever she has planned will be just fine. The party isn’t even the important part of this. It’s us standing before God in Church offering their souls to Him forever. To me, it’s the only way my kids will live this life. And from that moment on, I know they will get into Heaven. No matter what they do in life, Heaven will be their Eternal Kingdom. IF…we make it through their teenage years Lol Oh boy I don’t even want to think about that yet.
Hope ya’ll are having a great week! I’m feeling better, I miss my boys, and I can’t wait to get home soon!
God loves you and I love ya’ll too!

California week


Good morning from Sacremento. I’ve been here a few days on business. I feel like crap. I was fighting allergies or so I thought. Turned into something else with a fever. Very glad I was not home with the boys when this started up. They are doing great. My cousin and her daughter, their birth mom, are at my condo visiting until I get home next Sunday. She only wanted to stay until today but asked if I would change their tickets to stay longer. It’s a healing process for her. I am trying to do anything I can to help her but I don’t know what to do. I’m so happy she gets this time with them and I am able to give her space to just be with them. She asked for an open adoption so this is part of it. My cousin loves seeing her grandkids. She keeps sending me pictures of them. I miss them but work goes on.

I missed Easter with them but not really. We did our Easter stuff the weekend before. We had our family photos taken. The girls and I made colored eggs. We were all reliving our childhoods on that Lol The boys got Easter outfits and cards from family. Lindsay sent them ridiculously overloaded baby Easter baskets with clothes shoes and baby stuff. Drew found out and sent them 2 huge stuffed ducks and a check for their college funds. I can see the competition between god parents has already started Lol I figured it would start at Christmas but I was wrong. My boys are so blessed to have so many people love them.

I’m going to an oncologist this morning for a routine checkup and to get paperwork filled out for my adoption judge. He wants current medical records to make sure my leukemia is in remission and I do get regular check ups to deal with it. He told my lawyer if we submit all of this paperwork he will move the adoption date up into this year. I will do anything to make that happen. Even all of these dang tests.

After that I have to wait 3 hours before I can fly myself down to LA. My office there is very behind and I came out to help get it back on track.

I will coming back to Sacremento on Friday to pick up the keys to our investment house we purchased. We went in a slightly different direction than what I was working on. It will maximize profits in about 12 months. It’s one of the biggest house flips we have ever done so I’m excited to see the progress. Plus I just want to demo some walls Lol That’s my favorite part.

I can not wait to hit LA and eat some really good vegan food. LA has so many awesome restaurants. I haven’t been eating much since I became sick and I’m finally getting my appetite back. My friend Tracy told me to find a Gatorade like drink called Recharge. Man was that a genius idea because within 24 hours I felt a lot better. I’m sure I was dehydrated from throwing up so much. Thanks Tracy!

I’m going to stop in to see Lindz and her fam on Saturday. She wants to yell at me for spending some of her budget on the new investment house. She was not feeling it at all and argued the whole thing. Also her mom is not doing very well. She is starting to forget words and wander off. Ben has had a heck of s time trying to help but not trying to take charge. He’s a good guy. Perfect fit for her and her crazy life.

Hope ya’ll have a great week. Mine will be very busy until I get back home to my boys. I miss them. I can’t wait to hold them again. I love my boys!

God loves you and I love ya’ll too!

Disqus or not?

disqus  Lindsay is working on my long list of blog fixes, error messages fixes and about 25 items of things I wanted done. She is hung over and mad so it’s going faster because she’s annoyed Lol

We installed a brand new commenting system. It’s called the Disqus plugin. You will be able to login using your Facebook, Google, Twitter, or Disqus account. If you do not have one I will put a link down below where you can register for free. All you need is an email address and off you go. Easy.

The reason why I’ve been wanting to switch to this system is because it’s much easier for me to be able to help Lindsay moderate the comments. Right now she is the one that reads your comments. Then she decides if your comment gets left in the que for me to read and reply. Sometimes she doesn’t like someone’s name (Anyone named Emily or Jeffery, don’t ask me she is weird like that) or maybe you pissed her off on twitter. Either way she deletes about 50% of all of my comments and I would actually like to see them. This new system will let the comments go to both of our email addresses and we can go from there.

What took so long to switch over is she had to figure out a way to make the older comments go into the new system so I wouldn’t lose them. There was something about merging a database? or a table? or something? I have no idea. But because I have over 5,000 comments it was going to take over an hour to do it because as each thing goes in, an error may come up. She has to stop, fix the error and continue. It took over an hour (I sure heard about that Lol) and it’s not working.

Now this does not guarantee all of the errors are gone. If you find one please let me know. This comment system is built on a tree dynamic. If I start a comment, you reply and others can either reply to me or reply to you. How cool is that? It’s also a way to build community amongst yourselves. You can edit your own comment. You can delete it. You have control over your words, finally.

Also (Trolls), there is a big fun BAN button on this thing. And I’m sure we will be dealing with some of that from time to time. Let’s hope this was a good idea. Lindsay thought it was a dumb idea and told me now for 2 months before she finally agreed. And like I said, she’s hung over so I’m sure that’s the only reason she caved.

Please be aware, if you do not want to use your facebook, your twitter, or your google, then create your own disqus account. For your privacy. We all know the trolls stalk me and my friends online. To avoid that you can create an account and put any name or nickname you want.

I’m excited to see if it actually works. If it’s a bad idea I’m sure I will be hearing about it. But I’m trying to get my blog back to what it was a few years ago. I’m still getting a lot of hits per day and I want to build a community of friends that can begin to talk to other blog readers. It was a lot of fun back in the day.

Thanks for being patient as we have had errors the past 2 hours here. I think we are up and running again. She must have passed out again Lol

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Rowboat Book Club Book #39

I’ve been excited about sharing this book for a while. We will be reading Loving What Is by Byron Katie.

Out of nowhere, like a breeze in a marketplace crowded with advice, comes Byron Katie and “The Work.” In the midst of a normal life, Katie became increasingly depressed, and over a ten-year period sank further into rage, despair, and thoughts of suicide. Then one morning, she woke up in a state of absolute joy, filled with the realization of how her own suffering had ended. The freedom of that realization has never left her, and now in Loving What Is you can discover the same freedom through The Work.

The Work is simply four questions that, when applied to a specific problem, enable you to see what is troubling you in an entirely different light. As Katie says, “It’s not the problem that causes our suffering; it’s our thinking about the problem.” Contrary to popular belief, trying to let go of a painful thought never works; instead, once we have done The Work, the thought lets go of us. At that point, we can truly love what is, just as it is.

Loving What Is will show you step-by-step, through clear and vivid examples, exactly how to use this revolutionary process for yourself. You’ll see people do The Work with Katie on a broad range of human problems, from a wife ready to leave her husband because he wants more sex, to a Manhattan worker paralyzed by fear of terrorism, to a woman suffering over a death in her family. Many people have discovered The Work’s power to solve problems; in addition, they say that through The Work they experience a sense of lasting peace and find the clarity and energy to act, even in situations that had previously seemed impossible.

If you continue to do The Work, you may discover, as many people have, that the questioning flows into every aspect of your life, effortlessly undoing the stressful thoughts that keep you from experiencing peace. Loving What Is offers everything you need to learn and live this remarkable process, and to find happiness as what Katie calls “a lover of reality.”

Last weekend, babies!

picture13707253107424  I have to go back to work on Monday. I don’t know how I’m going to balance the twins and work. I had all of these goals in my head before they were born. I would take my paternity leave for 4 weeks. I would be able to take conference calls from home, do my emails, and maybe go into the office for half a day on Fridays.

None of that happened. None. I mean I was able to do some emails. But that’s been it. Lindsay has managed to piss off Chicago, Oklahoma City, and Reno all in 4 weeks Lol That’s hard to do. She said she was trying to piss off Los Angeles but everyone there is too chill to rattle. So instead of 6 weeks that I am legally entitled to, I need to go back in.

We made it to the lakehouse a few hours ago. I like coming up here. It’s completely different living. Slower, more relaxed and I feel like we can do whatever we want. In the city I always feel rushed or guilty for not doing something when I have some free time.

I don’t want to leave my babies! Did anyone else go through this? It gives me anxiety. I love taking care of them. I don’t mind any of it. I have never gotten frustrated or upset. Not even once. Yes I have a lot of help but I get in there and do all that I can. I have gotten up with them every night except a few. And that was out of pure exhaustion. Who knew 2 little things could make you work so hard and drain you so emotionally in 24 hours. This has been easy but it’s tiring. It really is. Thank goodness Sarah has been with me helping out so much. She is the perfect nanny. I told her I want her to live with us forever! She laughs and said it would be cheaper for her to do that but she said they will not need her in a few years. I wanted and needed my nanny even when I was 21. I kept in touch with her. That’s why it wasn’t a big surprise when I called Sarah to ask her to come work with me she started screaming and said yes, grandma’s legacy lives on! We are so in sync with our routine it’s like clockwork. I don’t even have to finish my sentences half the time.

Can you grab the….wipes, got em.

Pass me a diaper…here.

Where did I…it’s in the 2nd drawer down.

Crazy how well she knows me by now. Great girl. Very young, very smart. Just an amazing heart. She is going to make a fine nursing teacher someday. So proud of her continuing her education while she’s here. She wants to teach nursing at the college level. I’m helping her pay for school, not all of it, because she wants to do this on her own. She wants to leave here with a few more degrees and be ready to take a job at a great college anywhere in the U.S.

Sarah came up with us this weekend. It’s her day off so she’s going shopping on her own. Then she got invited to dinner at Cam’s bar. There is live music there tonight and he said she gets the VIP table. I assumed she was going to invite me to go with her but she said sorry bub Lol She has made a new friend and invited her to come up after the girl gets off work tonight. The more the merrier. All friends are welcome in my home. I want the girls to not feel isolated.

We made our grocery list. We all still laugh at some of the food cravings everyone is having. I looked at the list after the girls finished writing what they wanted and said Okay I’m not buying Tampons! Ya’ll need to go get those yourself! Who wrote down Jellybeans? What kind do you want? So now I have to go find Dr Pepper Jelly Bellies? Or it is Jelly Bellys? I forget the name of those things.

This is bad but I’m craving a KitKat candy bar. I haven’t had one in a long time. Probably a few years. I don’t eat candy at all so for me to crave that is kind of funny. I break the bars into single servings then dip them in peanut butter. Mmmmm, good stuff. Try it if you haven’t done so before.

We are heading out to the grocery store. Hope ya’ll have a great weekend! We are going to stay in and hang out. There is talk about a big time Scrabble game tonight. I brought it with this time in case the girls want to play. I’m pretty good at scrabble despite my poor spelling errors from time to time.

Twins are great! Alex is not crying as much but he is crying louder. Heston, that boy of mine is so chill. Love my boys so much!

Last weekend before I juggle being a working dad. This is going to get really hard.

Where did my book go? Nowhere Lol

Last night I was talking to my Amazon helper person assigned to my account about my book format. He was telling me I needed to fix some things. I asked what things. He said he could run it through their publishing software for general errors to help me out. So that’s what he did.

This morning I got this email saying why my book was yanked.

amazonNote the 41 reviews on there from this morning. My book went under review because I asked for help. That’s it. No troll or troll army did anything at all to get my book removed. If they are trying to claim they did anything, once again, they are lying. After it was yanked I received this email showing me what errors to fix and to help me with the formatting tools. All things I had requested help with.







How cool is that they tell you the location in the file to find it. It made it a lot easier to fix. I went through fixed all the spelling errors. Also fixed the grammar errors they suggested and ran it through their reformatting tool. I had uploaded it in PDF file first. They accepted it but said it was better in .mobi file. So I called Lindsay and woke her up. She was thrilled and greeted me with a few “nice” words good morning Lol She converted it and sent it back. Then I re-uploaded it again.

While it was being submitted they told me to set up my Author page. So I did that.


It looks like this and you can click on the link to go see it. It’s pretty cool! I have an author page!



Pretty cool huh? I’m going to change the photos on that. I just added that photo of me for now. I have some really nice work photos of me that we use for headshots in marketing materials or in newspaper or magazine stuff.

And by 11:30 this morning it was fixed and back up with all the changes I made to it.


This afternoon I did find a few more errors. I just resubmitted it again. Now everything will be fixed and ready to go. These Amazon tools are amazing. I wish I had known about them before. I would have gotten rid of that editor lady that did nothing for me. She is ridiculous. So glad my book is finally edited correctly and in the right formatting.


With Amazon you have to use your real name. They make you fill out all of this information. They verify it before they even give you an account. My name, my book, my verified information. On Amazon. What more do ya’ll need? It’s Amazon. They do not let someone use a false name to set up a KDP account. You have to type in your Social Security number or an EIN number for your business.

The trolls have tried to screw with my paypal account. That didn’t work. My account is fine. They tried to screw with my website/twitter/facebook. All of those are fine. Now they are trying to screw with my Amazon account. It’s not working trolls. I’ve been gracious, I’ve blocked and ignored all of your games. I don’t care what you have to say. None of my friends care either. They block and ignore you too. Might as well give up because at some point I will become irrelevant and you will look back and see how much time you have wasted trying to harass me Lol Nothing you have done works. You claim all of these things are happening to me and nothing ever does. Please stop lying and move on with your lives. I swear ya’ll are crazy women. Am I really that important to you?

And to further help me out, Amazon removed over half of the nasty book reviews that I reported for harassment. I talked to the guy last night about it and he said he would get it taken care of. It’s down to 20 something reviews. I will get the rest of them tossed tonight.

Thank you Amazon. Ya’ll have been great! I will be using your services again with my next book!

I was on the phone earlier today with 2 of my friends. And each time Alex starts popping off crying Lol I’m sorry ladies, that’s what my house sounds like all of the time when they are up. Alex cries, Heston is chill and I’m holler at Sarah. Welcome to my life!

Adult content being loaded

maxresdefault  All anyone had to do was apologize to me. I’m not asking them to take ownership, you don’t even have to make a public one. Just a simple I’m sorry would have stopped all of this. The blog would be cleaned up, the voicemails gone, photos, deleted. Everything gone. But nope. That’s not what happened so I’m going to finish this.
I was trying to think of how to announce that. Pretty funny. We are building the page for the last 102 voicemails. A lot of them are very sexually graphic. As well as the texts that go along with it. And some other things, photos, voice memo messages. It’s the rest of the story. You may have noticed there are big holes in the story where a lot of weeks were left out. There was a reason for that. That’s when our sex life was the most active. That’s why I left it off of there.
Right now it’s going to be password protected while Lindsay gets it loaded up. She works for about an hour then gets bored so this may take a day or two to get on here. It’s all uploaded it’s only a matter of sticking it somewhere. Because of the content my lawyers (Who said don’t post it) said at the least put it under a password protection area with an adult content warning. So that’s what she is building. When it’s ready I will do a blog with the password and warn you all about the adult content within that section.

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