8th Voicemail, 9 Voicemail – March 14, 2015

This is when Meri started to realize that during my working hours I was pretty busy and couldn’t answer my phone. I explained it to her a few times that I would call back when I could but it may be hours and hours.

We had begun expressing how we felt about what if she really did leave. It was scary for both of us. It would be a huge change with a giant spotlight on both of us. I kept telling her I wanted her to be with me but I also knew it was impossible. She was very reassuring and kept telling me she loved me a lot. She said we had to wait and we needed to figure things out. This is when I started talking about making an exit plan. I was still unsure of this whole thing but she was strong in her resolve to leave. She kept reassuring me she was not happy with him. She wanted to still be around for the family, but not for him. She told me several stories about how bad things had been for years. This was not her wanting to leave suddenly because she met me. This was something in her heart for years. She had wanted to leave 5 years ago at this point but didn’t know what to do because of the show and the kids. She told me she would leave him, stay involved with the family and family events and had hopes that one day I would want to be welcomed into her family life. I said no Lol

8th Voicemail 3-14-2015 5:25pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YTzQ7rFNrts&feature=youtu.be

Sam I’m so sorry. I’m really sorry. I’m just so scared right now. I just know what I want and I just don’t know how I’m going to get it. I don’t know if you are going to walk away from me. I just wish you’d answer your phone. I wish you’d talk to me. I’m just so scared.

9th Voicemail 3-14-2015 8:08pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8K1en7MYOUU&feature=youtu.be

Hey babe, I guess you got tied up again. Just call or text when you can if you want to. Okay I’ll talk to you later, bye.

 

4th Voicemail, 5th Voicemail, 6th Voicemail, 7th Voicemail – March 12, 2015

This was a few days after her brother passed away. We didn’t talk the night before because the phone messed up and she wasn’t getting my text messages to go ahead and call when she could. She woke up to my text messages finally coming through. She wanted to come over that night and I said yes. She had my address at this point and I told her I would come out to the gate and let her in. She told me she wouldn’t have much time to stay at all she would need to get home. We had a nice visit. I was starting to express this was going to be too hard because she was married and not able to leave until the show was still filming. I was a mess. She was very loving and reassuring. She said we would figure it out somehow. She knew she wanted to be with me and if I would wait for her, she would leave as soon as she could.

4th Voicemail 3-12-2015 8:36am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tbq6pq2bZGs&feature=youtu.be

Baby. I’m getting flooded with texts from you this morning. Did I not get any of these last night? I wondered what happened and I’m now getting all of your texts and I totally understand your frustration. Oh my gosh. Oh, baby just answer your phone and talk to me, okay?

5th Voicemail 3-12-2015 8:24pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaNxDzDBBVE&feature=youtu.be

Sam Cooper. I’m right out here waiting.

6th Voicemail 3-12-2015 9:47pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RrhXB1nqUUs&feature=youtu.be

Baby, don’t be giving up. Hey. What is going on with you? I know you are really stressed. I really do. I understand that. I’m just trying to make it easier. I’m like. I’m good here, okay? I’m good here. I don’t know why you are saying that about this, my love. I don’t know what’s going on. Call me, okay? I’ve got plenty of time, I’m driving. I love you. I, dang it honey give me a call. I’m fine doing this thing without you. I don’t know, I don’t know why you’re not. I’ll make it fast, so.

7th Voicemail 3-12-2015 9:52pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tn72XzrSVJA&feature=youtu.be

Baby, I’m sitting here smiling and thinking about you, okay? Things are good, okay, we’re good. So, yes. I don’t know just call me. I’m fine. I’m fine, I’m good. I don’t even know. Just call me, okay. I’m thinking about all of the fun that we have together and I know that work is really stressful for you and having to be away and stuff like that. So I understand that okay. I’m not quite sure why you said you wanted to give up. I don’t know what I said to make you react like that and I’m sorry for whatever it was. Anyway, just call me, you know. I’m here okay, don’t shut me out, don’t break up, just call, I’m trying to…

1st Voicemail, 2nd Voicemail, 3rd Voicemail – March 10, 2015

Meri’s brother passed away early in the morning. She told me via text that woke me up. Then I called her right away and we talked for a few minutes.

This was a hard day for Meri. I tried to say the right things but I didn’t know what to say at all. As soon as she told me I called her. I prayed for her and her family. I prayed for her brother. I was in shock, so was she. I felt so bad for them. It was so unexpected. She was still in Utah. I was in Las Vegas. She went up there for her mom’s birthday party. She had planned on coming home that day but then when she got word she was trying to figure out what to do.

I offered to come up there and help out. I knew I couldn’t be with her around her family but I wanted to support her. I told her I would fly up, hug her, give her a check for the funeral expenses and take off so she could get back to being with her family. She told me to come up if I wanted to.

Later that afternoon I flew back as she was driving back and you can hear how happy she was for the time we had spent together. She said no one has ever done so much for so little time before. She did not need a check for the funeral costs she and her family figured it out so my offer was declined. This was a big step forward into our relationship deepening. Me being there for her. It was this day and everything that went on when we really started to feel and trust in the love we were creating together.

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1st Voicemail 3-10-2015 12:56am

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8pQkzgu5Do&feature=youtu.be

Hey Sam it’s me. Listen, I know you’ve had a really rough day and I’m really sorry about that and I wish there was something I could do to help you. I just need you to know that I love you and I care about you and I care for you and I just. I’m just really concerned about you right now. And I just, I want to talk to you I want to make sure you are going to be okay. I know you needed to check out and just get away so I’m sorry I’m calling you again. I’m just really concerned about you right now. Take the time that you need I guess. Take an hour or a day or a couple days. I don’t even know. I don’t know what you need and I don’t know how best to help you right now. You are just such a good guy. You care about people and I don’t know if other people that for you and I just wanted to make sure you are okay. I’m just really concerned about you. You are just really down right now. So anyway, know that I care. Know that I love you, know that I care. Know that I’m concerned about you.

2nd Voicemail 3-10-2015 8:48am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JkaN4xbadoQ&feature=youtu.be

Hey. So I’m driving so it was easier and safer to call you than text you back. But, as far as you saying you want to come up here just to hug me. I think that is just really sweet, but I don’t want to make you do that at all. It’s too out of the way, you know whatever thing and I just, I mean, I don’t want you to think that I’m turning you down. But I, you know how I am about not wanting to ask somebody to do something and that’s a huge thing to do. But I really appreciate that. So, it’s up to you. If you want to, I would love to see you and if you don’t, it’s a hassle, it’s an all day thing, I’m totally understanding of that. The other thing is…

3rd Voicemail 3-10-2015 3:47pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLfETAe9fqo&feature=youtu.be

Mr. Sam Cooper. I wanted to leave just a quick little message for you just thinking about you, just wanted to say I’ve had a fun time getting to know you. You are a great guy, I’ve totally enjoyed it. We’ve had great conversations and I’m just having fun with it. This is, just really sweet. I am on my way home now and I was just thinking about you so I thought I would leave you a message. Anyway, I will drive safe, I want you to fly safe and we will talk later. As soon as you touch down and have some time you should shoot me a text and let me know that you got there all safe and everything is all great and I can’t wait to talk to you again.

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