Updates & Skype

I am on Skype all day today while I work on my work emails. Lindsay is also on Skype. We are updating my blog. Watching her work on this stuff is hilarious. All I see is her squinting at the screen then saying the occasional f-bomb and then she gets quiet again looking intently. My skype name is Notbatmanyet73 if anyone wants to add me. Okay I had to check to make sure that’s what it is, yes it’s correct.

So far this morning she has put on photos in a gallery that I had labeled. 65 to start. She has updated the Call log page, the Book Review page, and fixed some minor errors. She has run a backup of this entire blog and the datebase? Database? Something like that. And now we are working on adding the voicemails and texts into each day together. So it’s all cohesive. And because I wanted them all together from the beginning but she didn’t listen so now we have created twice the amount of work to get it fixed. At least she is still sitting there working on it. We shall see how much longer I can get her to do that.

Church was great this morning. Awesome message about salvation and the trust we bring to each person. Kind of ironic for today. Everyone keeps checking on me like a big bomb is about to blow up in my face and I don’t understand why. I’m fine. There is nothing that hasn’t already been said coming my way.

There will be more lies though Lol In a 3 minute clip Lindsay said there were 3 lies already. So I guess there is no real trust that anything will be resolved by the end of today. All that will happen is a potential lawsuit because I’ve absolutely had enough of this. It’s gone on too long. The games her trolls play are getting worse and now we wait to see if my name actually comes out of her mouth. If she continues to use pronouns to describe me (He, She, It, They) I can’t do anything. Meri has to say my name, Lindsay’s name or Jackie’s name. Otherwise she is protecting us from all of this for some weird reason. Not really keeping her word on “helping” others. And seeing how there are zero victims here despite all the wild rumors floating around, I’m anxious to just get it over with already. Hopefully this will be the very last time she ever discusses me on tv. I mean how much more mileage can we get here, folks? I’ve been mentioned in 4 episodes? Why? I wasn’t even worth her claiming me in our relationship, why keep bringing me up? It’s sad really.

She is fine. Everyone needs to know that. She has been fine this whole time. The people who aren’t fine are her family because they honestly don’t know what the heck she did for that entire 6 months. They were there but she wasn’t talking to them or barely spending any time with them. She was on the phone with me, texting me or with me. All of our free time was together. Always.

The final point I want to make before I go enjoy my Sunday is this. This catfish rumor that her friends created, that didn’t come out until after we broke up. After I walked away from her. She sent her friends out to start that one. I have text messages with her saying I know you aren’t a catfish. And those will get posted tomorrow if I need to. Other than that I just really look forward to waking up in the morning and knowing this is over with. Finally.

Does she miss me this much to go to all of this trouble to keep me around? My gosh.

All aboard!

I’m running on about 3 hours of sleep since Friday evening. My boys are more active than ever during the day and at night they think it’s play time. We are trying to get a handle on this and learning how to deal with their new developmental changes. I love they are growing up, it really is all going so fast, but the best thing is knowing they are okay. I’m not screwing this up. Why do you think I have 3 nannies and not 1? Because I wanted to provide them with the absolute best care I could, even if that meant hiring it out. I take care of my boys everyday. I am home 99% of all nights. I don’t go hang out with my friends, my friends come over to see me. That’s how it has to be. My boys are too young for me to continue living my life the way it was before. The trips I have taken came at a time I was absolutely burnt out. All of us were. I took time off, I had my nannies take the same amount of time off and let my family come in to take over for a few days. It was much-needed. Remember, this whole experience completely changed my life and it is an adjustment. Nobody tells you that part of having kids. Oh, you need to run to the store real quick? No. Oh, you haven’t picked up the dry cleaning in a week? Sorry. There is not enough hours in the day for me anymore. I’m trying to do too much and the end result is a bad week, like last week. I finally broke down and cried because I felt like a failure. I’m trying, really, really hard, to be the best for my boys. I was overwhelmed, overworked, and completely exhausted. And that was just one week. Sarah said she feels like this every week. We are implementing a new schedule now. So she can split things up a little more evenly. Her school schedule has changed, she is taking online courses right now, and she can take a day off during the week. She is taking 2 summer classes online. I’m proud of her. She has an enormous amount of responsibility and has been great through all of this.

The thing that really pisses me off are the racist comments I get about her. Yes, she is african american. Why does that matter? My nanny was african american and a great woman. I loved her from the first day we met when I was 3 years old. She took very good care of me and my brother. Her granddaughter is taking very good care of my boys. My weekend nannies are caucasian. Still doesn’t matter. They are the best people in the world to help me take care of my boys and that’s all I care about. They love them. They help me. We all are a family now. My family. And anyone that wants to take shots at me go for it. I don’t care because I don’t take any of this personal. You can’t. The comments come from anonymous jerks that have no idea about my life. They sling out hateful rants and think their words hold any power over me or at the least ruin my day? Guess what, doesn’t work. I don’t see it, I don’t care, and I let everything go. Keep your comments to yourself when it comes to my nannies. Your opinions are not wanted here.

Speaking of crap circling the drain, anyone ready for some big reveal today? Yeah, me neither. What is going to be said is the same story with maybe 2 new sentences added into it. And please keep in mind the fabrication on this story has gotten to its peak. I’ve been waiting for my name to be called and so have my lawyers. We are ready to file and serve papers on a $100 million dollar defamation, libel, slander, lawsuit on her and her network. I have every confidence in the world I will win that case. So do my lawyers. All 6 of them Lol My lawyers will be watching all of the shows tonight taking notes. So they can amend the wording in the paperwork. If my name gets called out of her mouth, BOOM! We strike sometime in the next few weeks. Because this whole time I’ve been right here fighting to save my name from this. Fighting to tell my truth and story. I’m right here. Still, fighting.

I’m actually getting a lot of support. I have not seen any of the shows at all. I am only hearing what people tell me and answering questions that come up from all of it. The consensus is she is lying. A lot. She is not giving details, she is generalizing it and she is avoiding the truth with her eyes wandering around searching for the next lie to cover the only real fact in this.

We had an affair.

To me this is how it has always been. Let me try to explain it the only way I know how. She admitted this in October of 2015 to People.com.


That is what People.com reported it as. An online affair because she told them that’s what it was.

This is no different than this in comparison.


Which word do you pay more attention to? She is trying to hide the affair, the one thing she admitted to, with this, my god circus show of theatrics and non-responses. Why has not one dang reporter ever asked her to address these voicemails and photos? Why is TLC parading her from couch to couch making big time $$$ off of her “pain and suffering” and throwing her out there to share her story yet avoiding at all costs, any culpability?

Do you think Kody and the family are ignorant to the voicemails and photos? Well guess what folks.

Lindsay installed something on here a long time ago. It’s called WP Anti-proxy. We don’t really use it to stop anyone from using a proxy server to hide their identity to read my blog. It’s common. A lot of folks do that and I don’t mind. But what ya’ll didn’t realize is this Plugin Wp Anti-Proxy does this:

This plugin will fetch and auto-correct the user’s ip address in the event that the user is hidden behind a proxy or load balancer.


She installed it to find out which one of you yahoos was spamming up my comments anonymously with hateful photos of dead cats and babies. And it works great. We are able to view ALL IP address with location and she has a GEOlocation plugin to look up the IP. So using a proxy, kind of not worth it here. We know who you are.

So when somebody LOL was on here last week reading my blog and listening to all of my new voicemails, shit hit the fan. Because that’s when we also noticed and had heard somebody was sniffing around my twitter account also. Take one guess who it was? He will never admit to it even though he is caught and I’m throwing this out there now that Lindsay did catch him but he is curious what I have to share. What husband wouldn’t be? I’m sorry but if my wife or girlfriend had been a part of all of this mess I would be on that blog reading and looking at all of it. Then I would go to her with my phone in my hand and say explain this please, tap voicemail play button here. That’s most people. They would want to know WTF is this?

The truth is, she is fine. She’s over there living her life, alone, again, and doing more with her family and kids. That’s awesome. That’s all she ever wanted. And please remember, according to her we were just an online thing. So why the BleeP didn’t she just block me? Or block my number? Or at the most ignore me? Why did she “catch on early but carried it on out of fear”. Listen ya’ll, if Lindsay wanted to threaten anyone she would straight up threaten them Lol She holds nothing back. And she would 100% admit to threatening them. She has openly said numerous times she not only threatened Kendra if she didn’t remove my name from her group conversations but she went in and did other things to a lot of Kendra’s accounts. Kendra can and has verified all of that.

So what threat did Lindsay lob at Meri? She told her 1 time when they were talking, don’t hurt him. He has been through enough. And what friend meeting a new person would not say the exact same thing to someone in this situation? Meri hung out with Lindsay. Meri wanted to talk to Lindsay about me. Because Meri had no one else to talk to about it. It was an affair! She was always gushing with love about me or anxious and worried I was upset with her. The rest of the time they just hung out together as friends.

If Meri was so scared of Lindsay why did she go with Lindsay and her friend to Circque show O and sit there for 2 hours watching the show with them? Lindsay paid for the ticket. It had nothing to do with me at all. It was a fun girls night out thing. Why did Meri go hang out at the Stratopshere with Lindsay and her friend at 11pm one night? Why did she drive 4 and a half hours to take her to Disney? And drive 4 and a half hours back? Why did she go eat breakfast with Lindsay at an egg place near Lindsay’s hotel, which Lindsay paid for. Why did she take Lindsay over to PF Chang’s for lunch, which Lindsay paid for. Why was she seen at Lindsay’s hotel 12 times over the course of 4 months talking to Lindsay or up in Lindsay’s room while Lindsay’s friend was out. Why did Meri have Lindsay go over to her house and work on the project together 4 times? And why at 2am the morning after Lindsay and her friend went on their own trip to Disney did Meri have her come over to talk, while Lindsay took a shower in Meri’s upstairs bathroom, did a load of laundry and sat there in her pajamas with no makeup on talking, crying, and gushing in love about me? At what point was there fear in hanging out or being around Lindsay? And why, did Meri send texts and call Lindsay so often? Ya’ll don’t know this but Lindsay is not much into texting or talking on the phone. At all. She never returns a voicemail request for you to call her back. She texts back, yea, no, k. That’s the extent Lol And she doesn’t really say anything to anybody. She listens. She never threatened Meri. I never threatened Meri. That is a lie and she will pay for that one. I know that. There are multiple more stories that no one knows about Meri and Lindsay’s friendship. They became friends. They were very nice to each other and they got along great. Meri confided a lot in her. Lindsay has stayed loyal to her about that. She doesn’t talk about it.

So where was this threat at? In a text? A call? A voicemail? In person? When? Where? How? Details please.

If you are holding your breath waiting for Meri to ever talk about the voicemails and photos, you will pass out. She is never going to take full responsibility for it. What Lindsay told me because she got an advanced copy of this catfisher show, she is arrogant, distant, and eye wandering through her small snippet. She adds in a few added details but completely sluffs off the affair part and sticks to the main topic, this alleged catfishing.

I did not catfish her! Or anyone. I’ve said that so many times it’s like a mantra now Lol Love the sinner, hate the sin. It’s what God teaches us.

So please watch that show. Get the ratings. They are needing it because Lindsay said their ratings are below 1.6 million viewers. I hope her show goes on forever. She needs the money. I hope ya’ll go visit her jewelry website and buy things. Or order Liv products from her. They are all awesome products that I do use and I promise they work. Do what you can to support her and her family. They need the money.

Because that ship is sinking.

What gum did I chew when I was a kid?

Just sat down to start typing this out and my kids woke up. Sat down again and the dog needed out. I think everyone is all settled now for a little while. I’m up late. Which is normal but instead of sleeping like I normally do I’m trying to get things caught up. I am very behind in my work emails. It’s bad. In fact it hasn’t been this bad in a months. Thus causing all of the stress in my life. I’m fielding phone calls about work and because I haven’t read all of my emails I have no idea what people are talking about. They all say the same thing, “Well it’s in the email, didn’t you read it?” Insert long deep breath in and fiery ball of exasperation out. No! I haven’t read my emails. No I am not up to date and no I don’t know what you are talking about. Calm, kindness, patience. All things I am trying to do a better job of.

So a friend of mine, she’s female, oh yes and just a friend, called and started talking to me about a very random topic. Then she remembered that I had pissed her off June 7th, 2012 at 8:17pm and decided to rehash that fight all over again Lol It wasn’t that exact date or time but it sure felt like it. So she started up the exact same way she did before and I sat there and listened to her going off on me, again, and did remember that’s what she said the last time about this. The problem is she feels or felt, no it’s definitely still feels, that I have taken the side of my buddy Chewtoy. That’s his nickname and I can not write on here how he got it because it’s both Rated R and disgusting. So Chewtoy did something to her, I was expected to handle it. I didn’t because I honestly didn’t even know what he did until she told me and then when I did find out I still didn’t do anything up to her expectations. Now I did go over to his house, not a dog house, and ask him did you do _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ with her _ _ _ _ _ _? He said sort of. I took that as yes. I told him to fix it and I left. In guy talk that was the proverbial, you’re an A-hole, don’t do that again warning. I think she expected me to go punch him out but that’s not my way anymore.

Apparently it’s Lindsay’s way still because she punched a girl tonight in the mouth according to her and Ben’s 2 very different versions and they are patiently waiting for the police to come get her from her home. She said she deserves it and was happy to do it again if the situation came back up. I just shake my head because it’s always something from her. Oh and it is never her fault, not even this one Lol Getting back to my story. My friend chewed me out, I listened, I apologized without any real meaning of sorry behind it and she said she would talk to me later. That is the moment I often want to hit the Block Caller button on my IPhone but I also realize that never works because even when you do block a number, the person can still leave you voicemails and it goes to a special place in heck in your phone called Blocked Voicemails Lol Meaning you can still listen to it and out of human curiosity you will listen. I know this because my ex-girlfriend was blocked, she’s unblocked now, and left me ohhhhhh about 5 blocked voicemails in a row a few weekends ago. She had a lot to say. She was hurt. I listened to all 5 then deleted them without responding to any of it. Ignore is my policy. Ignore the blocked caller and I can pretend she is fine now. Which she is. She just wanted to vent at me. Or actually on me because by the 3rd voicemail I was no longer a topic it turned into “Why do all the men in my life treat me like this!” Maybe it’s because you leave blocked caller voicemails on your exs cellphones?

Lindsay is still working on getting the photos page up. She is making the Call Log page also. It will have all 1560 phone call details from the entire affair. Yeah, I was shocked too. Together we made a combined 1560 calls Lol And out of that came 233 voicemails that I made public. Now there are a lot more voicemails. Some are in the Rated R section because they are dirty Lol Very dirty. And not appropriate to be out in the public. Still shocked to realize that many calls. Wow. It’s a wonder I kept getting chewed out for not answering my phone or calling back with that large amount of call volume! 1560 calls in between us wasn’t enough, I guess Lol

My boys 3 month check up went great. They are now 13 pounds, 25 and a half inches long each. They are wearing 6 months old clothing already. We sort of zoomed right past the 3 months outfits. We did put them on for I think 2 weeks, but they are getting big. So big I struggle now to carry the diaper bag and both boys by myself. The car seats with baby in each is cumbersome and it does make it a challenge to get them downstairs.

We did not go to the lake this weekend because I have way too much work to get done. If I would have went there nothing would be done. I am probably looking at another 4 hours of work here. I better get back to it. I just needed a little break.

I was asked what my favorite gum was as a kid. It was fruit stripes. I would shove in 3 pieces at a time. Random but okay. There is your answer 😉

Please say a prayer for my friend’s mom. She had a heart attack today and needs prayers. I sent one up the moment I heard. God bless my friend and her family. It is scary.

God loves you and I love ya’ll too!