We made it! And I know I have messed up a lot on raising my twins, but we have made it. A huge milestone for anyone with a new baby. Well double that, that’s how relieved and proud I feel today. My boys are 6 months old. They are both healthy, happy, and perfect. I can’t believe how much they have grown. I can’t believe how much my life has changed.
A year ago I was not even thinking about these 2 little blessings. I wanted kids, it was a discussion but I had no idea a few months later it would be a real decision. I don’t regret anything in my life. Well okay a few things, but not these babies. Not for one second. They have been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I saw them both come into this world. I saw their first cries. I saw that 10 seconds of when Alex was not breathing and I had a complete panic over that. Then crying as soon as he did let out his first cry and all the relief that washed over me. I remember it all. I think about it every day. They came into this world wanted, needed, and already so loved. And I intend to spend the rest of my life doing exactly that. Even when we hit the pre-teens and I am no longer cool.
I hold my boys every night and I thank God for them. I tell my boys how lucky I am to have them and how much I love them. And our nightly prayers speak of how much I pray for their happiness throughout their whole lives. I want nothing more than my kids to feel loved. I tell them all of the time. Because you never want to stop hearing that. And that’s what happened when I was a kid. It just didn’t get said much anymore. Why? I don’t know. That was how my parents were. I’m nothing like that. I’m probably way overboard Lol In every way. I can’t help it.
I’m excited the adoption will happen this year and not next. I’m so thankful to my nannies. I’m very happy my boys have God parents who worship them. Not so excited about the competition to buy their love. That’s getting way out of hand.
We will be getting our family photos back in a few weeks and I’m very excited to put a few of them up on the wall. They turned out great. Even the candid ones are funny.
I never thought I would have twins. It’s hard. I really was not prepared for how hard it was going to be. But I made it. We made it. We survived. I feel like having a cold beer tonight. I won’t. But that’s the kind of feeling it really is. 6 months. Wow. Time flies. I’m just trying to spend as much time with them as I can. All of my traveling has slowed down. I needed those breaks and to allow my family to get to know my boys. They need to bond with all of their cousins. And I need to remember I’m not alive just to feed and change kids Lol
I can not wait to see what happens in the next 6 months. I know we are pushing forward with the adoption of a little girl. I’m still going through that process. I think sometime next year we will begin the search. Their birth mom made a joke about don’t ask her for anymore babies she’s done for a long time. She’s so great. She has been so supportive for me. This has worked out well and I’m glad we have an open adoption. I want my boys to know her. She wants to know them. She wants to know they are okay and that she made the best decision for herself and for them. She said she feels happy thinking about them now. It’s no longer a pain she feels. She says she gets the pictures and her heart feels really good. Because they look so happy and healthy.
One more quick story from last night before I get back to work. I had both of the boys on the couch with me. One on each side. We were watching the Olympics and when the American runner was running so fast I raised up both of my arms to cheer her on. I wasn’t shouting but I was saying GO GO GO! And Heston raised up his fist a little Lol It was hilarious. He was doing what I was doing. We all laughed which made them both laugh. Sarah said she wished she had gotten a picture of it. I’m going to have to go back through the Nannycam video and see if I can pull an image from it. It was pretty funny.
I just uploaded a ton of photos on my Facebook this morning to mark our 6 months. Lots of great comments from my family and friends.
My boys. My perfect baby boys. I love them!