I did not get my usual weekend update post out. I didn’t even attempt to write one. Things are really busy right now for me. I love it but I’m constantly tired. So here’s a quick update.
My boys are still learning how to be mobile. They are both scooting. It’s hilarious and they both make weird baby sounds but this is just their process. It has gotten much easier to tell the boys apart finally. I can 100% look at them and point out who is who. I hate that it has taken me this long. I’m with them as much as humanly possible but it was still a trick or two. Sarah had it down within a week. She’s that good. Let me get into the latest Sarah news. Sarah has been doing online classes to start herself on the path to become a nurse that Teaches classes. It’s a lot of reading and answering questions on the computer. She said she wants to be the nanny for the money and to help us out. But after the kids get into school or she sees that I’m doing fine on my own she wants to be prepared and ready to move into the next phase of her life. I love that. I wish her well and I told her she is welcomed to stay even after she knows I can handle all of this. I told her I never want her to leave us. Unless she gets married because that would be weird but I told her even after that she can still be here and work for us. She said she wants to stay and save up as much money as she can to put herself in a great financial position to have a nice apartment to start out in, a new car, and all of her tuition and school bills paid off completely. That is her goal. Happy to help with all of that. Sarah did start asking me about if I wanted to put the boys into baby classes. What’s that? She said baby classes are like mommy and me where they get to socialize with other babies, they get to do fun activities and it’s all about helping them learn with different stimuli and a teacher. I knew about the mommy and me thing. I got invited to one Lol But I declined because I did not want to be the only guy in there with all those women and I knew my boys would get all of the attention because they truly are the cutest babies ever. So I declined. I told her we’re not ready! She laughed and said you have to let go at some point. They need it. I said get me the book on it. I will read it. We can talk about it but if they go somewhere you are going with them. I don’t want her to just drop them off and come back. She said she would be there the entire time. I said how can you do a baby class with twins all by yourself? She said they have people there to help. She would find one that would accommodate twins and that she would figure it out. She said this is the age where they are learning so much every single day and it’s good to get them out a little and experience the world. With her protection of course. I don’t wanna. They’re too young. I’m being silly I get that but I just don’t know. I need more info to make that decision. They are both drooling like crazy. It’s getting out of hand. Sarah said that means we are about to get our first tooth. She said it will come up from the bottom first. I am not ready for that! We just switched to solids Lol This is going way too fast for me.
I have 7 month old twins. Well in 2 days they will be 7 months. It is not easy. I have so sleep deprived most of the week that I don’t know how I function at work. And this time it’s not their fault. My boys sleep through the night. Finally. I lay awake at night and can’t sleep. I’m constantly worried that I am screwing up with them and no amount of therapy will ever fix them Lol I also worry about myself. I am going out a little. About once every 2 weeks I get out at night. Or I go to a Bears game or a Cubs game. I do something. But it’s not like it was before the boys came. That part of me is itching to get out more. But I can’t. I do not have time. Okay well I do have the time. I just don’t want to. I really think that I had these kids so that I could raise them. My nannies are here to be here when I’m at work. Or the few times a month I do get out. I have completely adjusted my work schedule and got rid of my overnight work trips. Someone else in my office goes or if it’s a bigger meeting I send Lindsay. She is doing great btw. She is working hard. The whole Ben break-up is getting easier and she is enjoying living in her new house all alone. Ben is still my friend. We talk a lot. He is still holding out hope she will want him back but he said he won’t wait forever. Maybe a few more months. At least she has began to talk to him again. I guess when she told him it’s over, get out, it got emotional. She is actually showing up for work on time now and staying all day. That’s a shocker. Lindsay has always worked to get the work done. Then she leaves. And you can’t find her. On weekends she completely disappears. You won’t get a text back from here until Monday morning. I know she’s reading everything because I see the Read Receipt on our Iphones. She’s just taking her weekends to do whatever it is that is fun. Her entire life has always been about really living. It’s kind of her motto. Live like you will die. So she does all of this crazy stuff, makes all kinds of friends everywhere, and has a great time. I envy that. It makes me want to hang out with her all of the time but I can’t. I have a family now. We are still very close. We talk a lot but it’s not everyday anymore. I’m busy, she’s busy. We email about work. And she might throw in a few personal things in there. I’m sure I do the same. She said I need to be at home for a few years. Get the boys ready for their great big lives because they will not have a normal childhood. Amen to that. I don’t even know what normal looks like. All I know is that I will show and tell them how much I love them and that will be their lives. No matter what my kids do, say, or become, I will love them the most. I have since I first heard the heartbeats. I fell completely in love with my kids!
Work is busy. I wish it would slow down but I keep expanding my businesses. The money is really great right now. We are all preparing for the financial hit that’s coming in a year and change so we are being cautious. But at the same time you have to make the deals that produce recurring income. Being a venture capitalist has never been easy. I have to make the best informed decision I can to move forward. When we lose a deal, it’s tough. You get your hopes up and really see potential then things don’t work out and you get bummed out. Lindsay goes with the F’ It Approach and charges full steam ahead without really looking at everything. When she hits a big deal, it’s really big. When it’s bad, it’s really, really bad and I get angry. But she makes us all money. I’m making more money now that I have ever made in my life. She is my only investor and she is the only account we run. Everyone else comes to us for advice and everyone else comes to us for help. I feel like a bank half of the time. You insert cashflow into someone’s business, you take over their management until it’s all straightened out and you expect them to continue running things within the new system. Most folks go right back to the same mistakes that got them into trouble. So we come back in, take a higher % of the profits and try again. Some people just don’t know how to change. I hope I’m not like that. I am stubborn but not immovable. I am so thankful to God for all of this good business. I’m putting more into my savings accounts than ever before and it really feels good that our monthly income margins are getting bigger and bigger. I have always wanted to retire early. I’m setting myself up to retire in 2 years. That’s my goal. In 2 years I will have 2 year and 7 month year olds. I will be able to do everything for my boys and we will be able to travel the world. That’s the dream. I don’t want to educate them in America. I want them to have a much broader scope of the world. I know we will be moving at some point. I keep wanting Paris but with all of those attacks it scares me. I have plenty of time to figure it out.
One last note so I can get back to work here. One of the ladies I had been dating, well she and I decided to end it. She has a chance to date someone new. She said he’s on the same page she is. They have only begun talking but he asked her out. She told me over lunch yesterday. I said I hope we can still be friends. I hugged her and told her to be happy. She told me the same. Great girl! She will make a great wife someday, for someone else. I am nowhere ready for a full on relationship. I’m not even in any hurry to start having sex again. Although that has been wayyyyy too long Lol I have had a lot of offers for hook-ups but that’s not me. I want to take things slow and develop love before I ever jump into bed with someone. I’m still working on me. I’m still learning about me. And I’m happy. I really am happy!
Thanks for reading this. Have a great day ya’ll! I know it’s y’all. I have never spelled it the right way so I can be unique. And who really cares anyway? Texas Forever! God bless you guys and I love you.