Season 7 Episode 8 Recap

Mariah announces that she’s gay. What a very brave, very important step for her to take. How awesome is that! I like her grandma hugged her first. Then Robyn. Kody stays seated, Meri stays seated. She really didn’t know her own daughter was gay? I told her I thought Mariah was gay. Lindsay told her she was “def gay, omfg are you blind?” We both told her. She said nooooo. She is just really busy with school and work. Um okay Lol That doesn’t mean she’s not gay. That just means she’s busy.

Meri admits she did not see it coming. Honestly, in this moment thank God for Janelle. She was excited, talking, so sweet and supportive. That’s everything she needed. She just needed them to hear it. Because all of her life she needed to say it. I’m so happy for her. I really am. What a great moment.

Oh here we go again. Blame me for your relationship with your daughter being bad. I did not catfish Meri Brown. She is lying! I have proven that over and over on this blog. We had an affair. That’s it.

Meri has always used Robyn as the buffer. She doesn’t want Kody to yell at her and he won’t do that in front of Robyn. So she has Robyn come in as a therapist to explain what each side is really saying. That’s so sad to me. My wife and I don’t always think alike but we always find a way to talk to each other. You have to.

Meri is upset about not knowing Mariah was gay. All of the signs were there. Anyone can log into her Tumblr at and see it written there for the past year. There’s even a photo of her kissing a girl Lol


If you process this without showing the real emotions, it’s no different from hiding the affair we had. You have got to be real, be up front, and be honest with this kid. She’s way too smart to not pick up on it. And she also has been through enough. That’s bad advice from Robyn. If you are upset, be upset. If you have questions, ask the questions. Hiding it because you are crying, that won’t help anything.

If Meri would admit things to Mariah and stop lying, I’m pretty sure Mariah would talk to her mom. If she would take ownership and say yes I was leaving for Sam, yes we had an affair. Yes I have lied to you. If Meri would do all that I have done, things would heal. I took ownership. I went around to all of my family and friends and told them I had an affair. I answered their questions, I asked for forgiveness. I lost some people in my life. I stayed true to my truth. And I showed them the proof they wanted or needed. That’s the only way I got my wife to start dating me. By showing her everything. She needed to know I wasn’t lying to her. She deserved it. After that, we had a clean slate together and ended up married. I love my wife. I know I say that a lot but I really really do. She just walked by and saw I was writing this blog and kissed my forehead.

If Meri really wanted to fix things, if she really wanted to heal. She would sit down and just fess up. I did. It scared the shit out of me. It was one of the hardest times in my life. Thank God for Lindsay. She got me through all of that. The months after we broke up were hell. And Lindsay took very good care of me. Then when it was getting to a bad point she called in Drew and they both took me to where I needed to go and we got through it. Meri doesn’t know how to talk to Mariah because she can no longer control her. Meri is a control freak. The best thing she can do is just fess up to the affair. Tell her everything. Stop denying it because all of my proof and the opinions of so many people are all over the place. The entire world agrees Meri is lying about me. They just haven’t figured it all out yet. They aren’t sure what she is lying about and what part might be true.

It’s so odd to me how much she oppresses herself. She wasn’t like that with me at all. She said what she wanted, she confided, she was truthful and honest. Now she’s just this fragile scared empty person. It really is sad. I wish she would get over me. So she could find happiness with someone new like I did.


Season 7 Episode 7 Recap

First I want to say thank you for reading this entire thing. I had a lot to say and I was mostly pissed as I watched it and wrote this. I’m calmer now. I just laugh at all the lies.

Speaking of lies. Judge Judy said this once about a woman lying:


She can’t stand a liar and can read right through people spinning a tale to save their rear:  “Well, first of all the most important thing about the truth is, if it doesn’t make sense it’s probably not true. So you start with that as a premise. If it doesn’t make sense to your common sense its usually not true.”

Sometimes a liar is easy to spot:  “There are certain people, unfortunately women, who wear low things and when they lie this gets all red, bright red, oh, and you cant do anything about it.”

Every single time Meri lies, the part in her hair where you can see her scalp, her neck and her chest turn RED. That’s how you know she is lying. Look at this where she was talking about how we used to talk and laugh a lot. Not red at all. Because that is very true. We laughed a lot.










And when she lies about me or us it turns RED:

See the redness?


It starts off with  Meri telling Robyn and Kody she’s going to Georgia to go meet Cheryl. If you need to know who Cheryl is read this and this. That will explain that I don’t even know Cheryl and she is the one that has admitted to stalking me since 2011. Never met her, never talked to her. She offers no proof that we know each other. She just makes shit up. My only guess I have ever come up with is that Cheryl used to be on my old blog website. And that website has turned into this website. She claims to know a lot about me and that would be the only way she could know things. Keep in mind the information she has is either so old or it’s completely false.

Meri wants to tell Kody and Robyn about the trip because they are the 2 that have been in the middle of all of this. Meri confided in Robyn first that we had an affair. For an entire week Meri and Robyn kept it a secret until they could come up with a plan. Their story is that I “catfished” Meri. TOTAL LIE! I have plenty of proof and after you read this blog post please go about reading all the rest of them. My entire story is here. I offer mountains of proof that we did in fact meet, have an affair, have sex, and talked for 6 months.

Just to remind everyone, Meri started out the affair story with this:

To catch you up with my life. I got married to a beautiful woman in November of 2016 and did not tell anyone on this blog. The only reason I’m telling ya’ll this now is because Lindsay posted it on her Twitter last week Lol So I had to talk to my wife about it being public now on the internet and get her ready for the onslaught of things that will now happen. She is on my Twitter and I am on hers but we do not communicate with each other that way. We met at a work party. She is an attorney. She was giving me shit the first night we met. I told her there’s two sides of every story and just because I chose not to share my entire life with the internet does not make me a bad guy. She was curious to find out more about me and over time we started dating off and on. I was also dating other women. No one serious. We were friends and slowly she gained my trust. After having such a public breakup, public scandal and very public bashing from the affair I have major trust issues with women. We reconnected at another work event and she asked if I was dating. I told her I was now the proud father of identical twin boys (Heston and Alex) and had sworn off women until after their first birthday. She asked to see their picture and I said no. I said they are too private for me to share with a smartass lawyer and that she would have to take me to dinner before I was ready. She laughed and said Deal. The rest is history. We dated, became engaged and had a huge, wonderful wedding. Her family is still warming up to me but having instant grandkids helps. They love my boys. My wife loves my boys and I know she understands the pre-nup. If we should divorce she gets ZERO custody of them. She can have visitation with me and my boys but she will not take them away from me. Since their legal adoption, also in November of 2016 I have made a lot of arrangements on their behalf. They both have college funds. They both have trust funds and they both have savings accounts. I’m already putting money aside for their lives. I want them to go to college and get a good job. I don’t care what they do. I don’t care what they want to be. I want them to be educated. She understands the reasoning and the fear. These are her stepchildren and as much as she loves them, she can’t be their full-time parent like I am. She works way too much right now to stay at home and raise my kids. I told her I have 3 nannies so that Sarah doesn’t burn out and so that the other 2 can trade-off and work a schedule out. It has been awkward at first but Sarah has been really great. She loves seeing my wife with the boys and we have open dialogs frequently about my need for Sarah in our life. Sarah is not going anywhere until Sarah decides. Which means I’m keeping her forever Lol It’s been me and Sarah from Day 1. My boys depend on her and love her. When Sarah goes out shopping, my boys want her back. When Sarah goes home to see her family my boys cry and hug on her when she comes home. My wife is working on becoming a mom to them. Their birth mom is still in the picture and I had to marry someone who can handle an open adoption. My family is weird and tangled but everyone is someone I need around and that will never change. My wife and Lindsay get along great. Thank goodness because that was the one concern I had. Lindsay is a huge part of my life and the boys’ life and I need those 2 women to be at least nice to each other. Drew is the one that doesn’t like my wife. He is also an attorney so that’s no surprise. I did not want to share anything about my engagement or my wedding on here because of the internet trolls who still bully and stalk me daily. You can see all of the rude comments and lie these people post to me on my twitter, just go to and search @notbatmanyet That’s what I have to deal with on a daily basis. I have muted or blocked most accounts and I rarely respond. My wife sees it and just laughs. She has been so great about that part of my life and does tease me when she sees a picture of Meri. She can’t believe I had an affair with an older woman and the lies Meri tries to tell about me. I’m happy to have her support and love as well as her quick logical thoughts on how all of this has played out. She told me from the beginning if I did not stand up for myself against all of the lies she would have nothing to do with me. It’s because I’m still here fighting for my truth to get out there that she knows I’m telling her the full truth. She has also seen and heard the things I won’t post here. The photos of Meri and I together, the videos of her and I that we made and some very explicit proof. Nothing I’m proud of but all things that seal my truth into 100% proof. My wife really is the best. And she’s gorgeous. I am a very lucky man. And she reminds me of that everyday Lol

Meri talks about how it took her a few months to figure out that I was “catfishing” her. More lies. That never happened. So let’s see how this goes according to her. I’m so glad she is finally saying my name. I have been waiting for that to come out so I can sue her and TLC Lol We have had the paperwork sitting there for a long time.  I knew her ego and her incessant need to keep me in her mind would boil over at some point. I also knew weeks ago that she had filmed with Cheryl and that Cheryl had completely made up a mountain of bullshit to get Meri’s friendship and to try to make me look bad. Again, I don’t know Cheryl at all. Cheryl is what a real live internet troll looks like. And I will dismantle her story one lie at a time. She is full of shit. They both are. It also shows you that Meri is the one that can’t move on from the affair. She devotes all of her time to this lie she has created. I wish she would move on but whatever keeps her with the most attention I guess. Who knows why she has drug this affair out for 3 seasons of her show Lol Keep cashing the checks because the more she talks about me the more books I sell. And the more money I can donate to charities for people who want to escape polygamy.

Meri did not break up with me. I broke up with her. We mutually agreed to end it. Then she continued to contact me. The last voicemail from her proves this. That is here:

The End August 30th, 2015 10:26am

Sam I need you to know that I love you. Okay? I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. You told me once that you were not going anywhere, well you told me lots of times, that you weren’t going anywhere either. I know the last couple of days have been a struggle and I’m really, really sorry that it’s been hard for you. I just need you to know that I’m just working on what I’m working on and I hope that you come back to me. You know you’ve said that you would never leave, you said that you would always be here. You’ve said that you would wait for me. Lindsay said the same thing that you were never going anywhere. She’s said to me  too many times how much you love me. And I’m just going to have to trust, and hope, and pray that that’s really, really true. And that you really do and that you are coming back. So I just want you to know that I love you and I’m just going to focus on my stuff and pray that you’ll come back to me. I see that you’ve blocked me off of your twitter and I don’t know if you’ve blocked me off of your phone so I don’t know if you’ll even get this message or not. I just don’t know how that works, but, anyway. I just love you and I’m not going anywhere. And I’m not saying goodbye. I promise. I made you a promise. And I’m keeping my promise. I’m not saying goodbye. I’m not going anywhere. I’m just going to stay working for you, working towards you, and hope that you’re there. I’m really sorry that you’ve had a rough couple of days. I’m really sorry that in your words that I’ve fucked up your life or that you’re in, you’re in, your life is all fucked up because you are with me is more how you put it now that I’ve messed it up. Anyway. I love you…

Does that sound like she cut ME OFF? That’s her begging me to not leave her with Kody. That’s her not saying goodbye. Because as she says she’s not going anywhere. She was going to stay working for me and towards me. No thanks. I’m very happy with my wife Lol

Meri doesn’t want to be a victim because she knows she is lying. She had an affair. She isn’t a victim. If she truly believed she was catfished by me she would own and go around shouting she is a victim. Claiming she thinks it gives a catfish power is just her way to control the situation in the way she feels more powerful. Whatever floats your polygamous boat, sweetheart. She claims now that I’m a she. Despite the many pronouns of he at the very beginning of her coming out with this. She is the one that flip-flops on pronouns. She is the one that claims there are multiple people involved. She is the one that can’t keep her story straight. And you are about to find out how much of a liar Meri Brown really is.

Kody chimes in with his wisdom that if they ignore me I will disappear Lol How’s that working for ya, bro? I’m not going anywhere. I have a right to defend and reply to every single thing these liars say. They are the ones that are professional liars because they decided not to even be truthful about their family life. They told everyone for years that Janelle was Kody’s sister. Which is disgusting. And I don’t even know how Janelle got over that. I would never in my life want to reference my wife as my sister. It’s gross. But these people know how to life to keep their secrets. Nothing they present adds up. You will see as we go along here.

I like how Kody makes sure it’s a woman Lol He really doesn’t trust Meri anymore. I don’t blame him. Kody wants to know what Cheryl thinks about his opinion. He is such a narcissistic ego maniac that he also wants to control this. That’s fine but how can he think he can control me or my story when he couldn’t even keep his wife away from me. Remember they both admit that Kody told her to stop talking to me and she said no. She said she wouldn’t do that. Then she turned around and kicked him out of the house and kept me around Lol He’s still bitter over that.

Kody wants Meri to stop looking at my blog and my twitter. Kody wants Meri to let this go. I wish she would to. But I don’t think she can. Meri still has feelings for me. I honestly don’t know what those feelings are, I will assume she’s not able to really let me go yet. This is her way of keeping me close. If she can still talk about me to her trolls than I am still in her life. Even when I’ve moved on in every possible way. And I still refuse to talk to her. We have had some communications but I have never told her I got married. She found out a few days ago and was devastated. What did she think would happen? That I would sit around and wait for her to finally leave him? No way.

If she’s saying it’s a year after this was filmed in late August. So her trip would be in September of last year when she went to go meet Cheryl. Kendra sent Lindsay a screenshot of when Cheryl tried talking to her back in May of 2016 wanting to get in touch with Meri. So since May of 2016 until September of 2016 Meri and Cheryl have talked about me. 4 months it too Cheryl to weasel her way into Meri’s head. Not cool. You will see what happens.

Meri admits she still has no way to safely talk to Kody. She uses Robyn as the buffer because she’s still fearful of him. Why else would she put Robyn in the middle of this? See what I mean? Kody is abusive. And Meri is scared of him. If you notice Meri hugs Robyn but not Kody. She also admits it’s Robyn that is trying to heal things with Meri. And Robyn keeps trying to get Meri back into the family. It’s been a year and they still aren’t over this? My gosh. That’s sad. Aren’t all of these adults in therapy? That therapist is not very good. I hope she’s getting her money out of them. I would ask for a refund at this point. What kind of therapist lets this shit go on for this long? Take accountability, work through it, talk through things and get on with your life. I had no idea I was that important to Meri. Well actually I did. I just didn’t think she would be still talking about me a year later. That part is shocking.

And just like I said, Kody agrees with me he does not believe Meri is past the experience. Why is that? Does anyone want to guess? Then Kody goes into blaming Meri and himself for the affair.

Oh god. That’s Cheryl? Wow Lol She is not even close to my type and she’s 50 something? I think Lindsay told me she’s 55 when she looked her up months ago. No way would I EVER GO FOR someone like that. She’s not even blonde! Everyone knows I only go for blondes. Geez. She’s also bigger. Not my type at all. Sorry Cheryl. Nice try.

Her name is Cheryl Crisafulli. And she’s a stalker. She’s also an internet troll. If ya’ll wondered what a troll looks like, there ya go. Cheryl contacted my former friend Jodi Salata and they have been talking for months. Cheryl stalked Jodi on Facebook while Jodi and I were still friends. This was years ago. I had no idea because Jodi never told me until last year. She said that Cheryl had Facebook messaged her about 5 years ago to ask how I knew Jodi. Then Cheryl tried to get Jodi to stop talking to me and I had no clue. Jodi Salata and I used to be good friends. For several years. We stopped talking 3 years ago and I haven’t spoken to Jodi since probably May of 2016. We talked briefly on the phone a few times and a few texts. She is out of my life and we are no longer friends. I will expand on that later. So from all of this mess Cheryl reached out to Jodi and they are now friends. Because Jodi knows a lot about me so Cheryl has used that to gain info. This shows how twisted this woman really is. That’s what she does. She attaches herself to anyone that talks to me and tries to become their friend. She does it to get details about me and my life. Because that’s what stalkers do. Why Cheryl stalks me I have no idea Lol I did get the police to go to her house and tell her to leave me alone. I also got Twitter and facebook to shut down her pages. That’s proved by looking up just 2 of her many accounts that are still suspended on Twitter, @cher711 and @truthseekerllc

Meri is finally using my name. The thing is if I really was a catfish why would she ever put power and meaning to my name? Why not just go with the female name she claims I am? Why not use this opportunity to completely bust the name out there, continue to call the catfish a SHE and just blow the whole thing out for public knowledge? This is Meri protecting me still and I don’t get it. You will see how she flip-flops in her story.

Thank you I am a southern gentleman 🙂 Raised in Nebraska and Texas. Still got my Texas drawl! I spoke very respectfully always. I am very kind and I am funny. At least I think I’m funny. We did laugh a lot. Everyday. I really did enjoy talking to Meri. She is not at all what you expect. But it wasn’t just a friendship. We connected very deeply early on. We had a very strong connection. And we fell in love fast. Meri says she spent a lot of time in her house alone. Where was Kody at? Why wasn’t he spending his days with her? Even just to pop in?

Is anyone else noticing her body langauge? Here she is telling the full truth. She’s almost grinning and smiling a little because she is remembering how great we were together. Now if you had gotten catfished by someone would you EVER say anything nice about them? Would you ever sit there and rub it in your husband and families face like this? Wouldn’t you stick 100% with its a woman, she, she, she. Would you go back and forth saying He? Them? Wouldn’t you be pissed? Does she look pissed as she reminisces here? Nope.

She envisioned me coming to save her from her husband. That’s exactly what she wanted. She wanted to meet me so I flew to Las Vegas the first weekend after we talked. We had sex the very first night I was in town. About 3 hours after I got into town. All of this is on my blog. Go read it to see that story.

I would meet Kody Lol O M G Meri. Why would I want to meet Kody when I have said from day one the guy is a douchebag. I would meet her family yes, but not him. If she wanted me to meet Kody why didn’t she ever tell Kody we were talking as much as we were? Why didn’t she tell him we had gone to dinner together several times? If I was just a guy friend why didn’t Kody know what was going on? Come on, sweetheart. America is not that dumb. And keep in mind in May Kody and I had words on Twitter. He was pissed that she kept talking about me all of the time to him and said this on Twitter:




Then I said this back:


Does that look like I want to be friends with him? I wanted to knock him on his ass and I told her that several times. For all the ways I heard him yell at her on the phone and all the horrible stories she told me about him, I wanted to punch him right in his big fat mouth. There was no hope of him and I ever being friends. And she’s lying.

Oh Lindsay Lol She just got mentioned. This should be good. Lindsay HATES Meri Lol She calls her Big Hair. Lindz and I have been best friends with Drew for 22 years in July it will be. We all 3 are inseparable. She just said she had never heard the word catfish. That’s a lie. She knew the word but didn’t really understand what it meant. Neither did I. But she was the one that told me what it was and what it meant. And I had to go watch part of a Youtube clip to really get it.

Do ya’ll see when Meri lies she looks to the left or she looks down? That’s her tell. She wouldn’t be very good at poker. Every time she looks to the left or down she knows she has just lied. So sad.

So now I’m Fake Sam. And I’m friends with Fake Lindsay Lol Awesome. Lindz will be so happy to hear that.

Meri is again making shit up. Cheryl didn’t talk to Meri until May of 2016. We just proved that by the screenshot from Kendra. Meri is going to make up this entire story and by now I’m sure her and Cheryl have worked on their script of how it goes. This should get interesting.

It was Cheryl who has lied to Meri to befriend her in order to continue to stalk me. It was Cheryl that went after Meri when all of this went public to make Meri believe that I know Cheryl. When the truth is I don’t know Cheryl at all.

So if they really don’t want to give ME, a man btw, anymore attention why would they film this scene Lol Why continue to even mention me on the show or on Twitter? It goes against all Kody says he wants. Right?

So now there’s a lot of us? Who Lol And where are they all at? This story has been public since October of 2015. Where are they all at? My wife just said A lot of us huh and laughed. I said yes baby, you have sister wives Lol

9 LMAO Wow. That’s awesome. I would love to know who. Because that’s bullshit. Total bullshit. The proof in that statement is that no one else is coming out of the woodwork. No one ever has. No one has ever proven anything in any way that I dated or have known them. No one. So for her to claim there are 9 people, ALL LIES.

Yeah it blows my mind too Lol Because it never happened.

Wrong. Meri asked if I would be interested in investing in her company. She said they needed money. I said I would look at her financials. She sent me a Non-Disclosure agreement which is here:

She asked me to sign it and to have Lindsay sign it. Then she said she would give me financials to review. I never signed it, Lindsay never signed it and we never got financials. So I didn’t mention it or even think about it again because I didn’t care. She mentioned to me several times they needed money because she told me from 2014 to 2015 it only made enough to support 1 wife which equals about $70,000 a year. I know that number has significantly dropped because the website was hacked and attached to some porn site for months before anyone did anything about it. I did not hack it (As if I know how to hack, come on) and Lindsay (Who does know how to hack) didn’t touch it either. Ironically on twitter when someone mentioned that website was attached to porn and not online, Lindsay said all they need to do is blah blah blah to fix it, I posted that on Twitter and within the next day the website got fixed. After months of being down. So you tell me that the Browns aren’t still watching my Twitter Lol They are. If you want me to invest I have to see financials and a business plan. I told her that. She said they did not have a business plan. They had a few documents that outlaid the entire business but not an official business plan. She said they had taken a $150,000 loan from the owner of a Pawn Shop in Utah that was a family friend to support and grow the business. To date I found out they still owe that guy money. Somewhere near $85,000. That shows you how little business the website is doing. So if you want to support crappy jewelry and lying women, go visit

I NEVER SIGNED it. I have it. I just posted it but I didn’t want to give her money for her business. She told me Robyn is the one that was doing everything and I basically would be giving money to Robyn. So I let it go.

More lies. We did meet. And have sex. For months.

I still have leukemia and I’ve been in remission for years. So at least that part is true.

I just texted Lindz to ask if she has colon cancer. She said yea it’s all over Lol She never had colon cancer. She never claimed to have colon cancer. That’s a lie. Why Meri made that up is starting to show me what direction this is going to. Meri doesn’t want to just stand up and say I had an affair and I fell in love with a guy. She wants to make all of you feel sorry for her. She wants to make you all believe she was fed some heart-wrenching stories and THAT’S WHY! It pisses me off she is using this cancer thing to make her seem more truthful. That’s disgusting. LINDSAY has NEVER said that. Not ever. Because it’s not true at all. My gosh Meri! What the hell is wrong with you.

The truth is I wanted Lindsay to hand Meri a box of stuff. Lindsay did that and it was Meri that kept her in the La Quinta parking lot in Summerlin to talk. They stood there for an entire hour talking to each other. Lindsay did not want to talk to Meri or meet her. She wanted to give her the box and say bye. So that her and her friend could sleep. They had just arrived in Las Vegas for the post divorce bash weekend and had driven 18 hours. She wanted to crash. Meri kept talking to Lindz and asking her questions about me. So Meri to sit there and lie with the story that Lindsay is the one that wanted to meet and talk or I wanted those two to meet is wrong. I was already in love with Meri and we had already met and had sex. The LAST PERSON IN EARTH I would want to hang out with Meri would be Lindsay Lol Because Lindsay would figure out very very fast something was going on between Meri and I. Which is exactly what happened because Meri was giggling too much to try to play off that we were friends. After Meri got the box from Lindz, they talked, Lindsay texted me and said so you’re fucking a sister wife? Isn’t she like married? Which led to a very long phone call where I tried not to tell her. But she figured it out anyway and that’s how Lindsay found out I was having an affair. She was PISSED. She told me stop. I should have listened.

Again do you see her eyes darting off. That’s all made up. I didn’t want them to be friends at all. That sort of just happened and I hated it.

Meri and I had our own trip to Disney with Mariah and Mike. The trip that Meri is referring to is the time that she told Lindsay she would take her to Disney so Lindsay could have a good time. It was to celebrate all the business stuff we all 3 were working on with Liv products. That’s a supplement company  Meri works for. She was my distributor and we were working on a huge order. They girls on their own decided to go. I was not even invited. They wanted to hang out and go have fun riding rides. This was on April 27th, 2015.















And the back of her ticket with the timestamp on it. Lindsay paid cash for her ticket. It was $99

Now keep in mind Meri is claiming to have figured out that I was “catfishing” her. It’s a lie. I didn’t catfish her at all. What happened is Lindsay and her were talking on the way home. And Meri slipped up and finally admitted to Lindsay that was in love with me. She admitted to the affair. And Lindsay called her out. She said she told Meri it’s about fucking time you stop lying about it. I have known you two were screwing around. She said Meri freaked out and told her to please not tell anyone. That she really did love me and wanted to leave Kody. Meri said don’t tell the tabloids don’t say anything. Then Meri pulled over at a rest stop and got out to walk around. She was panicked because the biggest secret of her life was just put on blast with my best friend. I’m sure it scared her thinking Lindsay now knows this huge secret. While Meri was gone Lindsay immediately texted me and said Big Hair just gave it up finally lol. I have all of these texts. So I began texting Meri just to see what was up. All of those Texts are on this blog. Go look at the end of April. You will see that entire conversation. Meri is lying here. She wasn’t freaking out at all because of anything Lindsay said or did. She freaked out because she fucked up and confirmed the affair. Meri was scared that would go public. That’s the whole story.

Wow Meri is really full of shit here. Lindsay and her friend had went to a Las Vegas show the night before and Lindsay got shit faced. She said she drank probably 12 beers in a 3 hour period. Meri picked her up at 6am so she was still hung over. On the way to Disney they stopped at Burger King and Lindsay got a breakfast sausage value meal. She got sick to her stomach as soon as they got to Disney and went into the bathroom to throw up. It was hot, she was hung over and she really thinks she was food poisoned off of the Burger King. She did throw up in the Disney theme park also Lol She said behind a trash can. Which made them leave the park about 2 hours after they got there because she was so sick. Meri is trying to make a hangover/food poisoning into colon cancer??? Really? Wow. Just wow. I had already put that story on this blog a year ago. Go read that. Search Disney to find that post.

Lindsay and I both have 2 phones. One for work one for personal. So that part is true. But Lindsay is NOT a texter. You are lucky to get more than a k from her. So Meri is making shit up again. Geez. Meri never questioned Lindz about anything. Not ever. That is a lie.

So if Meri was very fearful of Lindsay why did she continue to show up at her hotel to hang out and talk? Why did they go out to eat? Why did Meri go with Lindz and her friend to a Cirque de Sol show? Why would Meri continue to text Lindsay up into August? The last texts from Meri to Lindsay’s phone are on this blog. It says she wants me back. Meri was not at all scared of Lindsay. It’s made up. All of it.

Lol So now Lindsay hired a guy to be me. I hope he sounded southern Lol Come on. Do ya’ll really buy this shit? Do you see how twisted and non-sensical it all is? Does this sound like me? Ya’ll have been on my blog for how long now. Meri just won’t tell the truth. I’m convinced she will never admit to meeting me. She can’t. Because Kody will kick her out. And she knows it.

Meri took money off of me and Lindsay. Thousands of dollars. On top of which Lindsay and I both paid for EVERYTHING each time we went out to eat or did things. Meri never paid for anything. Not the Disney trip that her and Lindsay went on, not any of the meals. Nothing. Meri never even gave me FREE Liv products. I paid for them and Lindsay paid for them. Meri’s boss Jeff is the only one that gave me Free Liv products.

Lindsay and I never told Meri what she was wearing. We were not stalking her. We were not doing anything. That’s total bullshit. Notice how Meri never comments on how I would have seen what she was wearing Lol Maybe she slipped up here and just admitted that I have seen her. Which means we met.

Here’s how we know Meri is lying about being in fear of me or Lindsay. According to her we just talked on the phone. So why didn’t she just hang up and block our numbers Lol Easy solution right? Why would she keep talking to either one of us if she was in such desperate fear. AND WHY didn’t she ever go to the police? We talked to the police in North Las Vegas and in Las Vegas. Meri never filled out a police report. She’s a reality tv star. The police would take her fear very seriously. She could have gotten help at any time. She is lying. And her story is just pissing me off more. This woman will do anything to sell her lies. My goodness.

When Meri invited Lindsay over to the house she was working on a spreadsheet with Meri sitting over her shoulder watching. Meri didn’t even know how to make an Excel Spreadsheet. Lindsay had to show her and create the one we needed for the Liv order. That’s the only time she was on Meri’s computer and Meri was sitting right there. What a liar she is. If she was really concerned that there was a bug or some hidden video device in her house why did she keep inviting us to her house? I have photos proving I was in there. Lindsay has photos that she was in their working on the Liv order. This is bullshit. It’s ridiculous at this point. The fake crying really sucks you in doesn’t it. Well don’t believe it. Mariah was never a part of anything. It’s just one more lie to make you feel bad for poor Meri. And remember according to Meri all we did was talk on the phone. She could have just hung up, right? Come on. America is not this stupid Meri.

So now Lindsay died Lol Awesome. I just texted her and said did you know you died? She said I did? Well I hope I went out with a bang Lol So funny. I never told Meri that Cheryl would contact her because at that point I had no idea Cheryl was stalking me. That’s bullshit. And again Cheryl slips out by saying “Well HE was right about that”.  Thought I was a girl? Do ya’ll catch their lies here? It’s subtle and if you aren’t paying close attention it goes right over your head. Good thing my wife is a lawyer and studies dialog. Even I didn’t catch it the first time. She hit reverse on the remote and said right here babe. Duh. Good catch baby!

So that’s it? We never see any PROOF at all from either one of them? This is Cheryl’s 15 minutes. Why wouldn’t she whip out some kind of proof? You are going off of her stories? Wow. How stupid can you be.

So now Meri is seeing yet another therapist? Wow this affair must have really fucked her up Lol And now she’s dragging a troll into therapy. That’s awesome. Did Cheryl not change clothes? Isn’t that the exact same shirt? My wife just said Oh look your little girlfriend can’t even bother to shower and change her clothes Lol So funny.

So here we go. I have NEVER been on an online dating website in my life. Cheryl is claiming that’s how we met. She also says I was going to move to Miami. Also a lie. My family has had houses and buildings in the Miami and Miami Beach area since the 1970s. But I have never planned on living there. I have visited there. She’s so full of shit. My wife just said I LOVE MIAMI Lol I have never had a Miami phone number. Cheryl just messed up again. She just said “You want that person that HE PORTRAYS HIMSELF TO BE”. See what I mean. She is constantly getting caught in her lie. Cheryl claims I’m a girl. Then why would she ever say that? This is too easy Lol

The therapist is telling Meri to move on. So why doesn’t she? Let me go, move on and stop talking about me. She doesn’t because she makes the choice everyday to think about me. Even when I don’t think about her. I do when someone asks me about it. I do when I get sent nasty comments. Meri is the one that continues this. Not me. I have a wife and kids now. I’m happy. The affair ended for me in August of 2015. It took me a few months to start dating again but I did. And I let it go. I let her go. I think that’s why she doesn’t stop all of this. Because if Meri stops thinking about me she has to accept the fact that I never came back to get her. I never came to save her like I promised I would. I left her in a shitty marriage, all alone, with all of the world now knowing we had an affair. If she lets me go, she will finally realize that I don’t love her anymore. And that she hasn’t accepted yet. I think in time she wil. But still, even a year and half later I’m on her mind. And I just don’t know why. I must have treated her very well for her to continue to hold onto me this way. Which goes against everything she normally might feel. Why isn’t she pissed at me? Where did the angry Meri go to? Because this self-realization isn’t really about me. It’s about her. She’s trying to figure her new life since I left. She’s trying to find a way to stay married and cash those big tv checks. My wife just said she holds on to hope because you have money enough to save her house and to pay for her life and her daughter’s life. My wife just said I will make sure I spend all of your money so she can’t have any Lol Just great. My wife is getting way too much fun out of this. I’m trying to write this and she keeps pausing it to make a joke. I guess that’s her way of coping with it. I’m sorry babe. I really am. But this is my life. I had an affair with Meri Brown.

The wisdom from Janelle shows how much Meri was hiding me from everyone. She secluded herself not out of fear. She did it because she was in love with me. All of the voicemails prove how much Meri loved me. And I echo that. I’m not trying to be disrespectful of my wife. Meri is in my past. I did love her with all of my heart. I did want to marry her and have kids. When I was considering adopting my boys I did wonder what if with Meri. Meri would be a great mom to them. Meri and I could do this. And I had to put that in its place. Because it would never happen. I’m so thankful it didn’t because it opened a hole in my life big enough for me to reconnect with my wife and begin our life together. My wife is the best woman on Earth and she’s been so great about all of this. Yes she does tease me but she knows I’m a million percent hers. I make sure she knows it and feels that everyday. I will never, ever have another affair. I saw the destruction that caused in everyone’s life. It’s hard. It’s really hard seeing Meri’s douchebag husband sit there and have to deal with all of this crap that her and I caused. And then he goes off on Twitter calling me Fake Sam Lol And then I feel like Well that’s why, because you are an asshole and you still don’t treat Meri right. He still doesn’t love her, he’s not going to fix anything with her. And they will be civil and not romantic. I feel bad for Meri. But she stays. That’s on her.

Oh look we get to revisit when  Kody blasts Meri for kicking him out. How many times over the last year did I explain my side and give ya’ll the inside scoop on everything and I was proven right time after time? Because I’m not lying. I have proof and I’m not going to stop telling the truth.

Meri claims she’s going to ignore “her”. Which indirectly means me. I’m not a her. And Meri won’t ignore me because she is really obsessed with me. So much so she goes into a therapist to figure “me” out. Come on. Meri will read this post. That’s why I will add a message directly to her and Cheryl after I finish my recap. And my wife also wants to write something for both of them. Meri still reads my blog. Meri still looks at my Twitter. Last night was the first time Meri has EVER BLOCKED ME. I had a few not nice replies to what her and Kody were saying and I was tagging her in them. Her and Kody both blocked me. Finally. Does that sound like someone in fear of me? Why was I never blocked before? Because they both wanted to still see what I say about all of this. Because he wants to know the truth and wants to gain information and she can’t let me go. That’s why. I’m glad they blocked me because they both need to leave me alone and move on. Unhappy and with no chance to repair their marriage. Because neither of them want to. Meri told me they both are “not feeling it anymore”. That’s exactly what she said.

Well hell yes I was trying to get her to leave we wanted to be together. We were in love. Why would I want to stay in just an affair? The whole point of us making a plan in May was for her to leave her husband and be with me. I’ve always said that. Meri is the one that denied in. She has denied it and I need to go find the Youtube videos that prove she has said “I was never going to leave”. Do ya’ll remember those? I will insert them later. But it’s her on video saying “I was never going to leave Kody”.

But now…

Meri lies again. Now I did call Kody a douchebag and I did say Janelle was emotionally immature. Meri had told me why they hated each other and I felt tha Janelle is in need of some serious anger management therapy. You know the old saying, the quietest one is always the one that’s most violent. That’s because they internalize their rage so much when they are able to express themselves it’s usually a big blowout. For Janelle she used to get physical and verbally abusive with Meri. Of course Meri denies ever dishing it back to her in such a way. But she did tell me a lot of stories about her and Janelle. I was NEVER nice about talking about her husband. She has told me really horrible things he has said and done and I just felt horrible for her. So yes I encouraged her to leave and I still do. She needs to get away from him. He’s abusive.

In Alaska Meri admits she wanted to leave. That’s because we had a plan for her to come back and move out immediately. That’s also on video I will go find that link and insert it in here.

Her family and her daughter still think she was off with me having an affair. They go along to support her lies and story to keep the money coming in. But they all believe there is more to her stories. And they are just trying to let it go since she didn’t leave them. Her daughter is full on pissed. Because Mariah knows a lot more than they do. And the last time she talked about it, it was very clear her and her dad have never sat down and had a very detailed conversation. No wonder they are all in therapy and all look unhealthy, unhappy, and a mess. Geez, get it together. Ya’ll have a therapist, a pile of money and no jobs. You have all the time in the world to fix your life.

And see, Mariah even disagrees with her dad. She said that’s what she says. Mariah doesn’t believe Meri at all. And to point out again when Kody says “She never met this person” Mariah says I know then says well. Because she knows that I met her mom. She knows and believes that.

And here comes the truth. Finally. Been waiting over a year for her to say it but here it is. Meri just said “I considered leaving, I really did.” It pisses me off she denies the part of leaving with me but I’m glad she is at least saying the truth. She was going to leave Kody and the family. Yes for me. Yes we had a plan. Yes I had a house and a car and money just waiting for that phone call. She finally admits it. After all of her denials Lol BUSTED! Thank you Meri. You are making my side of this so much more believable.

Keep in mind and I’m really not trying to hurt or disrespect my wife here, but Meri and I had phonesex while she was in Alaska Lol And we were talking on the phone everyday. She had not figured anything out because it’s a lie. She was not just playing along. She was excited to come home to me.

So now Meri is claiming I sent her fake photos of myself. Which is a total lie. And claiming I sent her photos of Mike Vogel. That’s easy to prove. Where are they? Where are these photos on Meri’s phone or even a print out of any photo I ever sent her that would be matched up on a simple Google search with Mike Vogel. Where’s this proof? She says she has it. Let’s see it. Nows the time. And she can easily whip out her phone while she’s in the interview and show it Lol Why doesn’t she? Because it’s bullshit. I never sent her fake photos. I wouldn’t do that. Total bullshit. Who catfishes someone with a world-famous actor’s photos? Those catfish people use everyday people in their photos. Not something someone can do 1 Reverse Google image search and say BAM. Found ya. Come on. This is ridiculous. In over a year and a half what proof has Meri ever came out to show anyone? Ever. Not one damn thing. And where is Cheryl’s “research”. She has nothing at all to prove her and I know each other. Because I don’t know Cheryl. It’s sick and fucked up but let them align themselves. One stalker to another I guess Lol

There was no ultimatum. Meri got back from Alaska and started shutting me out because Kody was pissed at her telling everyone she wanted to leave. They had a big blowout fight and Meri and I barely talked. She did say she wanted to meet with me to talk to me and after not talking to each other much I figured out she was going to break up with me. So I told her no. Initially. I said I’m not going to come see you so you can tell me goodbye. Just do it over the phone and she refused. She said I just want to talk to you. So I said no. A week went by then I said ok. We agreed to meet up at Tropical smoothie on a certain evening. I went, I waited, she never showed and that was it. I was done with all of it. I never talked to her again. Now she continued to try to get ahold of me. And the last voicemail from our affair is above. Where she is telling me she loves me she will wait and she won’t say goodbye. That was her trying to get me back or at least letting me know she wants me still.

Since than she has continued to try to talk to me and up until recently I ignored all of it. I had nothing to say. She broke my heart. I knew Kody had yelled at her or probably threatened her to end it with me. I’m sure that’s because he would lose the show and all of the money. So she picked the family over me. I accepted it. I didn’t like it but I kep quiet.

It was Meri and Cheryl that went to the tabloids. That’s proven. They are the ones that talked to tabloids and blasted this story out. They came up with the entire script and how it all happened. So I replied. I began posting voicemails, photos, letters, All of it. And people started coming to my blog everyday. That’s how I met most of you. Hello 🙂 Over the past year I have written 2 books, done a few interviews that are all on Youtube or the news Channel’s websites and I have never backed away from my truth. We had an affair. She was going to leave. She chose not to. And now look at her life. This is what she gets for staying with him. This miserable, sad life all alone. I feel bad until I remember she had the chance to leave with me. She could be the one with the wedding band on her finger, not my wife. But going trough all of that led me to the beautiful, amazing woman sitting right next to me pointing out all of my spelling errors. And for that I don’t feel that bad anymore. Because Meri had a chance with me. And she chose money and the kids. I understand it. But at the time I didn’t like it. I left her alone. You all have never seen a police report, or an article or anything at all in relation to me “stalking her” or Lindsay bumping in to her somewhere in Las Vegas. Lindsay and I leave her alone to let her rot in that compound. Because that’s where she chose to be. I pray she does leave someday. I pray she meets a new guy and starts another affair because she really does need and want someone other than Kody.

Drinking wine is something Meri does. The first time Lindsay went to Meri’s house to work they had drinks. It was wine. Lindsay had 2, Meri had one. Lindsay said they would have knocked out the bottle if they hadn’t been working so late. I always wondered why Meri would drink alcohol if she wasn’t supposed to based on her religious beliefs. But then I remember she also wasn’t supposed to be having sex with someone other than her husband and it dawned on me she doesn’t really follow her religion. She does her own thing. I’m sure the AUB is thrilled with this. And she’s making her family so proud Lol Isn’t this show about an FLDS strict religion cult I mean family? If you aren’t supposed to drink alcohol, don’t drink. I don’t drink. I had some champagne at my wedding but only a few drinks and I gave my glass to my lovely bride who knocked it back Lol I married another Catholic so she’s well versed on wine. I do not drink. I don’t like it.

How cute, they are toasting me Lol You are welcome? It is weird. I’m not a catfish and Cheryl is a liar, but ok Lol Knock it back ladies!

Oh look Meri and Kody in therapy. Good. They both need it. She went on this trip and hasn’t seen his ass for 2 days? Wasn’t he interested in all about how it went? I guess that just answered that. Wow. He really doesn’t give a shit about her, huh. They didn’t even drive to therapy together? Don’t they live next door to each other? Great use of time to talk privately. This shows how much they really hate each other Lol

Let’s all see how Meri is over it and not talking about. These are the tweets from the night this show aired. Does it really look like she’s done? My replies are below. And that’s why I got blocked Lol

Now Kody is threatening to hit me with a bat? Nice. Come get some Big Boy Lol I live in Chicago and would even come out to Las Vegas so you can try. Bring a ladder because your sandals won’t even bring you up to my chin Lol He’s a warrior, everyone. The guy that didn’t even see how her trip to Atlanta was. He’s a warrior for his tv money. And will do anything to protect that. Not Meri. And now he wants Meri to hit me or Lindsay or both of us with a bat. That’s awesome. I will have to tell Lindsay that part. She will love it Lol

Nice shot of no wedding band on Meri. I wonder if she melted hers like Kody melted down the one she gave him at her wedding? Interesting she’s still not wearing it.

Well now we all see how bad the marriage has been and all the things I kept saying that it was a dead marriage for years is true. She was single when I found her. She was divorced and alone. That’s why she clung to me. Because I was funny and kind and respectful. But most of all because I really did love her with all of my heart and I told her how much she meant to me every day. Meri was so important to me. And without her I would never be sitting here happily married. You know my wife just said how sad for them. To see them struggle still a year after the affair. She said look at us. We can’t walk into a room without a smile or a hello or some type of affection. She said we are still in our honeymoon phase and can’t keep our hands off of each other. She said they just need to let it go and get back to fun. They need to go on vacation together and reconnect. Then she smacked me and told me we better never get that low with each other Lol I said I would never desert you emotionally. It’s good for me to see her moving on. I worry about her still because I care. But I also think she bares that cross. And she will be left holding it forever. I don’t believe he will ever want her again like I did. I think he’s over her. And he keeps her around to keep the show going. If he was being very honest with her he would tell her that if they did not have the show, he would let her go. He would unseal from her. And she could move on. I really don’t think after therapy it’s going to do any good. Not with this therapist. My gosh this woman is as slow-paced as a snail. Yes be emotionally fragile but you also need to get something going. Not sit and listen with zero plan. I hope Meri leaves. I really do. I hope she doesn’t come looking for me when she does. Because she will no longer be welcome. My wife made that very clear. No more Meri.

Okay Mariah wants to talk to the parents. I hope she got into medical school! That would be awesome. Here we go.

Oh wow. Mariah is gay? That’s so cool! I’m so happy to hear that. I had asked Meri last summer why Mariah was never out on dates and she said she never has had a boyfriend. She said she is busy with school and works a lot. I said yeah but that doesn’t make since. I asked her is she gay and Meri said no. I said what if she is and she said no. So I dropped it. So I had suspected it by the stories Meri had told me but I am very surprised to find out it’s true. Yay Mariah! I’m so happy she figured it out. I hope she met someone. That would be really cool. I can’t wait to find out more. Congrats to Mariah and her new-found love life. You have to love her for how excited she is. What a great thing to share. And so young to be able to figure it all out. She’s 21? I think. Great news!

Wait WTF? Why is Meri upset? Why isn’t she happy? That makes no sense to me. She loves that kid more than anything. Mariah is her other half. She isn’t happy? I don’t understand that. I guess we’ll find out.

Okay so now my wife would like to write a note to Cheryl first.

To Cheryl – Go away and stay away please. Your lies are seen through.

To Meri – Thank you for letting go of such an amazing, loving, sweet man. I picked up what you put down and I couldn’t be happier. Our life and our marriage is strong and I hope someday you will get over him. Watching the show tonight proves how much you still love him and I want you to know I get it. Because how you still feel for him I feel that every single day. He is kind and respectful and funny. And he’s all mine. So thank you for breaking his heart so I could find him and fix it. He is the love of my life and our family would respectfully ask you and your trolls to leave us alone. Our kids and Samuel deserve privacy. If you say you have moved on, please move on.

My baby is awesome Lol So happy she got her say in this. Okay guys. Thats all I have to say about that. If she continues to talk about me and lie, I’m going to continue to reply and defend myself. We are going to go ahead and file a lawsuit for defamation, libel, slander, and threats. I’ve waited a very long time for Meri to say my name on the show. And the truth is, if she was really catfished and had 100% proof she would mention the name that she believes is the girl responsible. She won’t and she can’t. She won’t because she can’t prove it. And she can’t because if she does she knows Jackie Overton will get a lawyer and sue her for lying. Jackie Overton did nothing wrong. She does not even know Meri. I had an affair with Meri Brown. There was no catfish at all. And I hope ya’ll are seeing more to her lies being blowing apart. I have proof. Her and now this Cheryl have and offer none. I wish they would go away but trolls don’t go away. Ever. So please keep yourself relevant with your life. I know damn well Meri will read this someday and start to piece together that Cheryl is only an internet troll interested in getting to know a celebrity. Their friendship will expire as soon as Meri has used Cheryl to leverage her story into some bullshit heap of lies that maybe some people will believe. I know people are a lot smarter than that. Meri has lied too many times. My proof is right here. Go read my blog. And thanks for coming here. I appreciate you all being interested in my story. I’m going to go to bed. With my happy and beautiful wife. So we can do the things a happy couple like to do Lol

Night ya’ll! Love you guys!

Season 7 Episode 6 Recap

Listen, if Maddie wanted her dad officiate the wedding that’s her choice. Her husband agreed to it. You get what you get with him. I’m sure he did a much better job than I would have. I’m happy to see the wedding went off very smoothly. Forgetting the rings, that’s just a small mistake in a day full of successes. They privately exchanged rings and it was fine.

Congrats to the happy couple.

After pulling off my own wedding in November of last year, I feel their pain. My wife’s family is as large as my own. We combined the weekend into a big family event. My boys had already been legally adopted but I didn’t tell my entire family. The next day was the wedding and at the reception I announced it so everyone knew at the same time. It really was a beautiful wedding. With over 500 guests it was a lot of hard work for our wedding planner and her team and herself were amazing. My wife looked gorgeous. I cried as soon as I saw her coming down the aisle. Everything in my life ran through my head as she came closer. Everything led me to that moment. My parents and grandparents had all passed away so I had Drew and Lindsay walk down the aisle with me. Drew was my best man but Lindsay gave me away. Then she took her seat and helped wrangle my boys who were my flower boys. Heston threw one handful but that was because whoever back there put the petals in his little fist and he flung them mostly all over himself Lol

Our wedding video is something my wife still watches often. She likes to snuggle up against me and relive the day.

You really can live happily ever after. God can turn your life around and you can get through all of the bad times. That’s the lesson. Never, EVER, give up on yourself.

Season 7 Episode 4 Recap

The only thing in this episode was Christine flipping out over cookies. Wasn’t that weird? And how both Meri and Robyn deep-throated whatever was hung up on that string Lol That was embarrassing. Is that really a bridal shower game you ladies play? I’ve never seen or heard of that one before. Weird.


Season 7 Episode 3 Recap

We check in 6 weeks later from the last therapy session for Meri and Janelle. Remember, good therapy is every 6 weeks Lol Come on. Meri might as well be in therapy with a jar of pickles. Could these 2 hate each other any more? Their issues all stem from the beginning of Janelle moving into the trailer Kody and Meri started out in. Meri gave up the master bedroom to welcome Janelle to the cult and Janelle didn’t like losing control over the money. At the time Kody and Meri spent like they actually had cash.

What turned out to be a $230,000 bankruptcy a few years later.

Read about all of the bankruptcy’s here:

2005 Kodi Brown and Meri Brown (his legal wife) jointly file for bankruptcy
Kody’s monthly income: $3,948 (plus a little
Meri’s monthly income: $865.50
Monthly expenses: $6,101
Total assets: $104,892.91 (Includes $90,000 invested in their Utah home, 3 vehicles, clothes, furniture, etc.)
Total liabilities: $229,892.91 That breaks down into:
Secured claims (1st and 2nd mortgages totaling just under $137,000 and 2 car loans totaling over $7,000)
Unsecured claims: $85,612.73 (This looks to be mostly credit card and retail debt)
Some examples of the unsecured claims:

$2,756.70 – Sears
$3,298.73 – Discover
$1,539.88 – Lowe’s
$1,566.68 – Lowe’s (separate)
$1,328.03 – Best Buy
$4,338.98 – Home Depot
$3,863.24 – Home Depot Credit Service
$6,992.71 – CitiFinancial (for “consumer purchases)
$6,824.37 – CitiFinancial (for “consumer purchases)



I guess Janelle should have taken over sooner. Meri’s issues with Janelle came when she was pregnant with Mariah and they got into a huge fight. Janelle grabbed Meri by the shoulders and jammed her knee into Meri’s baby belly. That’s when the big split happened. And also when any possible relationship/friendship between the 2 ended completely. And obviously forever. I was the one that pushed Meri to forgive Janelle and try to work things out. That episode aired and the follow-up to that one when Meri hugged it out with Janelle. It took me a month to get her to do that much. I told her she had to let things go. As we all have seen now, she doesn’t let anything go. And she holds a grudge until the end of times.

Janelle is the one that wants to pass the peace pipe. Meri has no intention of working through any of this. She is going along. She wants camera time and sits there without any viable input or suggestion of how to fix it. You can tell she feels this is beneath her and its a waste of her valuable centerpiece making time. Oh wait. I mean painting time. I forgot she has thrust herself into copying the art of an at home art teacher. Please hold your applause and keep reading.

The best part of this episode was watching Janelle squish herself onto that love seat. They were thigh to thigh. Meri acted like every flea Janelle has ever had jumped right over and sunk into her socks Lol Wasn’t that the most uncomfortable thing you have seen all day? I laughed my ass off.

The reality is I had already given Brene Brown’s book to Meri as a gift. I told her how much it changed my perspective on my life. I gave it to her and I know she had been reading it. How funny it’s the exact book the therapist offered.

I’m a huge Brene Brown fan. Here are some great Youtube links to watch her in person. Great, great, life lessons.

So that’s about all for this episode. They will never work things out. Not until they both learn to lose control a little, calm down, let go of the grudges and most of all take responsibilities for all the rotten, terrible things they have each said and done to each other.

Season 7 Episode 2 Recap

I skipped my recap of the show up to the part where it talks about me, again. I swear they should just interview me at this point. It’s getting ridiculous.

Kody begins how Meri was an emptynester and she started talking to people and making friends. He admits she got very close to me. I’m included in the “some people”. Lindsay is the other person he is talking about. So we are back to more than 1 person that was involved in the fake catfish storyline Lol I thought it was a singular person? Now we are back to the Them/They/People which again shows that Meri is lying and can not keep her stories straight. It also proves that Kody doesn’t have any idea what really happened and if you look at how red his face is, he’s pissed that he’s talking about me again. Hey bro, I’m one of the main reasons your show got so much free publicity from the tabloids. You’re welcome?

He says I don’t exist. Then why are you so mad at your wife? Why stay away from her and treat her like she had an affair? Why are you still struggling in your marriage and your daughter won’t even talk to her mom? Because Kody is lying to protect the storyline that got them another season. He has listened to all of my voicemails. He has seen the photos. He just wants to sweep it under the rug but he can’t. Because he knows Meri and I really did have an affair. He knows I’m real. He knows I exist. And so does Mariah.

Mariah still hasn’t forgiven her mom. This was filmed in April of 2016. We ended our affair in August of 2015 and it went public because of Meri in October of 2015 just to give everyone a timeline of anger. Kody talks about how last summer (Summer of 2015) was hard on Mariah, himself, and Robyn. Really? I’m just shaking my head at his stupidity. He was completely clueless until September of 2015 that we had the affair.

Mariah starts sharing her side of this. She says Meri was trying to convince her to like me. Why would Mariah like the guy her mom was fooling around with? Mariah had walked in on several of our phone calls. She did not like that we talked so much. She was suspicious that something was going on but Meri never told her the truth. She says that Meri told her she wished Mariah would appreciate our relationship. Meaning Meri and I. And Kody asks Mariah what she meant by that. He’s still clueless Lol

Kody says that Mariah thinks that her mom was struggling with fidelity. Yes, we struggled 3 or 4 times a week for 6 months Lol

Kody says that Meri was targeted. That’s not true. Again he’s sticking to their fake catfish story. Meri came after me. I have proven that with the Twitter Dm’s as well as the voicemails and the texts from WEEK 1 of us talking. She continued to pursue conversations with me. I did not target her, I did not go after her. I replied to her. I didn’t even call her back half of the time. That’s why she is heard saying over and over call me back or you never answer your phone. It’s because I was trying to figure out why she wanted to talk to me so much. She liked talking to me. She liked the attention. And we got along great. We had so much fun talking. We had an even better time hanging out. Because we would laugh so much more together in person.

Meri’s agenda was not making friends. She fell in love with me. She is heard over and over in March, 2 weeks after we started talking and seeing each other that she loved me. That she was IN LOVE with me. That’s not just friends. Proving again how much Meri has lied to Kody and how stupid he is to believe her lies.

Kody just found out that we were on the phone all of the time. All he has to do is go to the cellphone bill on Verizon’s website and look that up. Or go to my website and look at the Call log. She called me a total of 1560 times in 6 months. She left me over 300 + voicemails. All of this is on my blog proving how much we were talking.

Do you also notice Mariah is not referring to me as a girl or a fake or a catfish? She is telling the truth. She says anytime Meri would be on the phone with HIM. Male. I’m a guy. Enough with calling me a catfish or a female or whatever. I’m so sick of hearing that. It’s not truth.

Kody believes all Meri was doing was making friends. Mariah doesn’t believe it at all. Kody says she never met this person and Mariah responds, I know, well… She is pausing because she knows we did meet. Then Mariah tells her dad that she believes that Meri felt more than she is letting on. Which is the truth. She was in love. We were in love with each other.

Kody says all he wants to do is bring Meri back into the family. So when was she kicked out of the family? Is he admitting he threw her away just as she threw him out of her house in May of 2015?

Then Mariah drops the truth bomb and tells Kody that she really believes that Meri was going to leave her dad for me. And that’s the truth. We had made plans to move Meri into my Las Vegas house as soon as Mariah went back to college in August. Mariah is telling her dad what she thinks and feels about the situation. And Kody is completely in denial. Are we at all surprised at how stupid he looks right now?

Go ahead and blame me, but remember Kody, we were just making friends Lol, Right? That’s all it was. This guy is a douchebag.

Want to know how Kody and Meri’s marriage got so bad? Because of how he deals with everything. He shoves it to the side and keeps going. He doesn’t stop and fix, communicate, or really deal with anything. Because he is always so busy (Sitting with Robyn) to really deal with hard issues with any of them. That’s why I know that he doesn’t try or do his best with his marriages. And he gave up on fixing things with Meri. They ended it a few months ago. All of the stuff you see with them from now on will be for the sake of the cameras and for the sake of the $$$. And that’s the truth.

Season 7 Episode 1 Recap

The show opens up with the usual lie from Meri continuing her storyline she created about me catfishing her. That’s not true at all. She also continues to say I’m not a man. Another lie. She knows she is lying. She is doing so to cover her own ass about the real affair we had. We were together for 6 months. Talking, meeting up, having sex, and enjoying each other’s company. It was a very good 6 months. Then we ended it. I refused to talk to her and she went  nuts on my voicemail and text. She finally gave up then decided to try to ruin my life for leaving her. And that’s where we pick up at.

This is my 3rd season being mentioned on the show. Why she continues to beat a dead horse (Ratings) I will (Attention for herself) never (Bored with her life) know Lol All I do know is that when she says I was expressing love for her, those days are over with. I have moved on. I have adopted my boys. I am happy.

And I’m going to start fighting this storyline she is selling. I have my boys to think about. I can not continue to sit here and watch her drag our family name into her mud. Her life sucks, she’s unhappy, she’s not getting any attention from Kody, she can’t fix anything she damaged. Not my problem. If she would have told the truth none of this would carry on so long. Whether you believe me or not, she is lying. And a lot of her own fans now see that. They are starting to figure out this family is everything I said it was, a complete mess.

Kody, the abusive husband, has created a life of too many kids he can’t afford or support so he gets mad at everyone instead of standing in the responsiblity of raising and paying for his own children. He is starting to see that weddings, college and average high school things costs real money, not limited tv royalties and it’s getting harder and harder to provide when each year that passes by, more money is needed. Maybe it’s time to hit that pawn shop again and this time unload some more watches, broken couches, and fat roll exposing sweaters. Okay that line was funny, Lindsay just said that and I typed verbatim what she just said. I’m cracking up.

We put the kids down for a nap earlier and watched the first Episode of the new season. Season 8? I don’t know. And yet again, here we are. Involved in this mess of a show/family. When will they learn to keep it for the therapy sessions? I mean at this point that therapist just needs to move in and shadow Kody as he jumps from house to house each day. Oh wait, he only bops over to 3 houses because he still hasn’t moved back in with Meri. That was something I said last year and no one believed me. They did not believe me when I said Kody got kicked out in May of last year because Meri was packing up her house and getting ready to move in with me. The only thing that stopped it from happening was Mariah moved back in for the summer. If that one event did not happen you would be watching whatever spin-off show the producers had really offered to her about her and I starting life together. That really happened.

So now we start off. I am now pasting in the comments both Lindsay and I had during the show so we can voice what we want to say. Lord knows while we were in Paris last Sunday our twitters/phones/emails blew up from people wanting comments from us.

So here goes 😉

Kody says Meri and I are still struggling. In the past it had gotten so bad it wasn’t pretty.

Let me expand what that means. He yells at her a lot. When she doesn’t get done the things he wants her to do he comes over, yells, makes her cry, yells at her some more then leaves the house. She is left crying, upset, and trying to do what he wants done. He never comes back to apologize. Won’t talk to her for a few days and when he does come back over it’s to grab Liv products for his workouts. Yes, despite that red sweater stretched by every last stitch he does work out (allegedly Lol) and as we all saw, maybe he’s an emotional eater (Like Janelle and well all of the kids except 4 of them). It also means 6 years ago when Robyn came around and Kody melted the wedding band Meri had bought for him for their marriage, she was done. He got pissed at her, melted his original wedding band into a present for one of his other daughters. He didn’t even give it to Mariah so she could keep it. That’s when Meri told me she was done with him. She was over it. Also for several years she has kept a journal of all the bad things Kody has said and done to her. She said it was half way full of stories she had written down when she was upset and hurt. She also put in stories from the other wives that had been hurtful, mean, or abusive. Janelle was featured in most of those pages. She told me that she kept it hidden in her closet. And had written a note on the inside cover to Mariah in case she ever found it. It explains everything in that journal was true and what she had really gone through. I was shocked when she told me about it. I asked her to read me some of the entries and it was heartbreaking.

That is why I have always called him a douchebag. Because he is. He doesn’t care about anyone but himself. And how hurtful he has been to Meri, my guess is he has also been that hurtful to the rest of them. But tv money is the ties that bind, so they stay together and pretend everyone is happy.

Not anymore. They are finally telling the real truth and the small glimpse you get leads you to the bigger picture. Kody is abusive. And I hope and pray he really figures out how horrible he is to people.

And remember Love should be multiplied, not divided. Then how come all 4 of his wives are in therapy, all of his female children are overweight and running off as fast as they hit 19 to get married?

Did you guys see that donkey? Lindsay had me rewind it and said OMG they are finally featuring the real Kody, a loud, obnoxious ass Lol It cracked us both up.

Ever the out of touch Janelle, didn’t remember there was another monogamous wedding before her daughter’s nuptials. Kody and Meri were monogamous. He was not a virgin, she was and the had their honeymoon in a cheap, dirty hotel. She told me all about their honeymoon. And their honeymoon night. She was not that impressed Lol I will save that story for later. Truly is a cute little girl. I wish they would help her with her speech. And you can already tell she’s going to be a handful the older she gets. That’s called karma. You want 18 kids, you get 18 teenagers. Good luck with that, bro Lol Oh Christine. Your lame jokes that make everyone laugh is still your best feature. I’m happy to see you haven’t changed at all.

Mykelti has a boyfriend? Wow. That’s really great. Congrats to her. I guess she met the guy a month after her lease was up from the apartment she had somewhere and was told by her own mother she wasn’t welcome back into her house. Which means they already made her room into something else. Probably made it into a comedy stage so Christine could practice all of her awesome one liners. Lindz thinks they turned Mykelti’s bedroom into a prayer temple then she realized they don’t even worship or hold Church anymore so she said she thinks they turned it into workshop for Robyn since she needs child labor to help her assemble her crappy jewelery.

I don’t understand how you don’t even know your own daughter is dating someone so long. How do you not know that? That shows how not close they are to Mykelti. It also shows how happy Mykelti is to move away and get on with her life. I’m happy to hear she found love. That’s awesome to find it so young. Yes her parents should be a little concerned but they should love and support her decisions. Keep in mind they did not want her home. So what did they expect? She went out and found her own path. Good for her.

I like how she has to call her own husband to make an appointment to talk to him Lol Lindsay says they all know he’s over at Robyn’s why don’t they just call her to schedule a meeting.

Look at this. Christine is taking responsiblity for what she didn’t do or say to her daughter. I’m very shocked any of those adults have actually admitted to being wrong. Good for Christine. That’s great she realized she crushed her daughter’s feelings and made it seem like she wasn’t allowed to get engaged.

I don’t understand what the problem is with Mykelti wanting to get married. I mean Kody asked Christine to marry him and a month later with no courting, no dating, no nothing, they were married. They’re lucky Tony and Mykelti didn’t go off and do it themselves. 5 months of dating and they are doing the adult thing, they are talking to the parents before they run off and elope. How hard is it to support her? She’s a responsible kid who has a job an apartment and her own life. This baffles me. Maybe I need to watch a little more to see what the problem is.

So that’s how Mykelti ended up in St. George. He didn’t have the money to move her to Seattle? What? You make $82,500 per episode plus ratings bonuses of $100,000 if they can get the ratings past 1.2 million on average the entire season and you can’t afford to give your daughter $5000 and say good luck this will get you a month or 2. What? I’ve seen their vehicles and clothes. They must spend all of their money on food.

The reason their daughter is getting married to a guy she met 5 months ago is because she’s replacing the love she doesn’t get from her parents with someone who is giving her love and accepting her for exactly who she is. She found someone who isn’t trying to plan her life out for her. Sending her away was their fault and they need to accept this is what happens. They wanted her to go do something with her life, come back to Las Vegas to re-enter college and guess what? This is what happens when you try to tell a young adult what to do with their own life. You get saddled with a new boyfriend that talks like he has waffles in his mouth and doesn’t have clue one of how to dress or take care of anyone other than himself. Welcome to reality tv folks. Shit’s about to get real Lol Oh wait, no it’s not. Because this is all scripted and the producers tell them how to react to things happening and how to keep it dramatic for the show.

And again with the finances. How much can a wedding in the woods with homemade everything cost? I bet Kody is charging them to officiate Lol And I bet he’s not cheap!

Lindsay just said:

OMG this kid has a reverse lisp.

He either has a retainer or he was born with half a tongue.

Can you imagine what his parents sound like?

I hope he says the work actually 5 more times

Lol Lindsay is cracking herself up. I don’t think that’s funny to pick on him for his speech impediment but the reverse lisp line was pretty funny Lol

I feel so bad for these kids. Tony thinks it’s going to be fun and exciting to talk to Kody about marriage. From hearing the parents reaction I think this isn’t going to be fun or exciting at all for him.

Okay this kid thinks Kody is cool, so he’s obviously got something wrong with him.

In comes the red sweater. I had heard comments about this thing but nothing prepared us to see it on tv. The fact that Kody went on twitter and blamed the poor innocent sweater for making his big fat stomach look… well big and fat also proves that he does not take responsiblity for anything in his life. How about eating more of that cauliflower without cheese and less of the Smashburgers he loves Lol He has really put on the weight. I don’t blame him. Getting fed greasy food nonstop from 4 women that also shovel carbs and dairy in their children’s mouths will result in sweat busting stitchery. That sweater doesn’t need to be thrown away. It needs to be rescued from all that fat Lol

Lindsay just said Hey don’t make fun of that sweater its cheaper than gastric bypass Lol

That couch has no love and all seat on it.

Again, Kody says its crazy to him to think of an eternal marriage and rush into it in 3 months. One word, bro: Christine. You did the exact same thing. Why go so hard on these kids? They want this, just support them. You have no control anymore.

Is it me or did Kody’s hairline just crawl back another 2 inches? He’s really struggling to say no. Why is Kody putting in some requests for his daughter getting engaged? Is he really that into himself that he wants to put forth his own wishes? My goodness, what an enormous douchebag he is. This is her moment. And he’s trying to steal her thunder.

That’s not cool, that’s way too soon = Trying to drag it out to ensure another season to feature her wedding. I wonder $$$ why $$$ he wants $$$ them to $$$ wait $$$

Lol if he really believes they aren’t already having sex he is an even bigger douchebag than I thought. They aren’t rushing into a marriage because they want to have sex. They have already been having sex and might already be pregnant. You don’t have to be a rocket science or a polygamist dad to figure that one out.

Did this guy really say he could get a home equity loan to pay for the wedding? I would pick this kid up by the neck and throw him away from my daughter Lol His ass would be launched about 400 miles away from my baby girl. No way in heck should they get married if that’s his casual concept of paying for a wedding. And BTW what will his parents be paying for? And what will this young couple be paying for? That is ridiculous Lol No wonder everyone is freaking out. I thought this kid had a great job and was making a lot of money so he was going to chip in. Now he expects them to get a home equity loan? Does he not realize Christine’s house is already under a medical lien because of Truly’s hospital bills 3 years ago? She still owes $328,000 on that. The house is actually underwater for payments right now. She’s not even paying off the interest on her mortgage yet. She’s still trying to pay down the principal on the lien. Just wow, this kid has balls. And I think it’s hilarious. This kid will fit right in with these people Lol

Tony just said the one thing Lindz says all of the time, For Reals and Lindsay just said I love this kid so much Lol

80 years of marriage experience and he still can’t figure out how to keep 1 of the wives completely happy and healthy.

Dawn just said the one thing that needed to be said. It’s not about you Kody. Amen to that.

Lindsay just took one look at  Meri in that purple shirt and said Hey I didn’t know you used to date Grimace. That’s so rude.

Robyn with her wisdom is like a firework making us go Awwwww, why don’t you just stop talking.

Again Meri pops in with a lie. She said is that why mormon kids get married because of sex, I don’t know. She was the one that told me a lot of Mormon kids go down to Las Vegas, get married, have sex, then get it annulled. So that they don’t break any vows they made to their faith. I was shocked to hear it and she told me to Google it. That the college in Utah were trying to stop this practice and do things to help prevent that from happening. I had never in my life heard of that. As a Catholic, we all try to wait for marriage. Most of us fail.

It’s really funny they claim not to drink when the first night that Lindsay went to Meri’s house to work she offered her some wine and they both knocked back 2 glasses of wine each. Lindsay just said she even asked her why she was drinking alcohol when Mormons aren’t supposed to and Meri told her it’s because I like it and no one in the Church knows she secretly drinks. I don’t drink so alcohol was never apart of our dating life together. We never had alcohol with our dinners or late night activities.

Guys, Janelle is so excited she gets to eat 20 pieces of cake. We know sweetheart, it’s your favorite.

Finally we get to the part that everyone keeps jamming up our phones about. The Meri vs Kody talk. And here we go.

We find out what I had known for months because Meri told me. Yes we still talk. We didn’t talk for a long time. Then one day she texted me and I told her to leave me alone. That started a conversation and we have continued ever since. NO we are not having another affair. We are just friends. No we do not exchange photos or anything else at all. We talk and hang out, but very rarely do we see each other.

Mariah is still mad at Meri for the affair. Mariah knows the real truth and is trying to navigate the whole thing. She is pissed. Meri doesn’t get it. She honestly doesn’t see the problem. Meri forgets all the shit she said to Mariah. To butt out of her life, to leave her alone and to stop telling her to quit talking to me. Meri told Mariah about wanting to leave Kody and it upset Mariah. She was prepared for her parents to get a spiritual divorce and wanted her mom to admit to the affair. Meri refused to stick my name as the reason and instead just said she wanted to go off and start a new life. Mariah knew what that meant and stopped talking to Meri. After the affair became public Mariah contacted me and wanted me to call her. So I did. She had a bunch of questions and she told me that she knew something was going on but didn’t realize how serious it really was. She wasn’t mad at me, she said she felt her mom mislead me into the affair. And for that she would never forgive her mom. So I knew months ago that Mariah was very hurt. And just wanted her mom to leave her alone for a while.

Now some of the real truth starts coming out. In small pieces. Meri admits that things have been hard between her and Kody for years. Not months, not even a year. Years. 6 years to be exact. The same amount of time since Robyn is in the picture. What Meri told me right away is that Robyn is the favorite and that Kody has an easier relationship with Robyn because he treats her different and everyone knows it. She said she didn’t like that he is so in love with Robyn and makes it so obvious but that’s how polygamy goes sometimes. It was all very sad to hear.

She says we have done things to get along. That means that over the years they have a big fight and don’t talk or see each other for 4 or 5 days.  He will skip her days with him and stay with Robyn. He says he doesn’t want to fight. Everyone thinks that Kody and Meri get on average a week of her own but the truth is she told me in a typical month he only spends the night 4 times.  And of the 4 times they may have had sex once in a month, if that. She told me they usually only had sex once every 3 or 4 months because he would get pissed off at her for not having sex with him. So she told me she would just let him do it to keep the peace and let him get it over with then he would immediately jump out of bed, put on his pajamas and go watch tv or go to sleep. She said he never helped her finish, never did the things she fantasized about and was not interested in pleasing her or making her feel wanted. He was all about the act of sex and not making love. She told me they had not made out or kissed at any length in years. She told me that was one of the reasons our affair was so sexual. Because she had been deprived of all intimacy for most of her marriage and she felt very unsatisfied.

She is already starting to be aggressive. She wants him to make a decision what to do with her? He’s still there. He’s still talking to her. She wanted him to forgive her and move back in. But he told her no. He said he was fine living with Robyn on his days he was supposed to stay at Meri’s and that he wasn’t going to move back in anytime soon. She wanted them to talk about what to do and he has refused for months.

Kody says most of his marriage with her this type of conversation would make him defensive and would make him confused. The problem is he doesn’t get it that she wants attention from him. She is someone who needs a lot of attention, a lot of reassurance, and a whole lot of affection. I told her everyday how much I loved her, how beautiful she was, how funny and smart. She told me no one had ever called her baby before. No one could please her in bed like I did. She said I talked to her about so many things she had never thought about. We talked a lot about religion and what my beliefs are. She had a lot of questions about my Catholic faith. I even bought her a Catholic bible so she could read it and get familiar with some of what I believe. She still has the bible. It’s hidden in her closet with all of my gifts and love letters. She kept them all.

I was shocked when Meri told me months ago that they did not immediately go into therapy as a couple. She told me that she asked him to and he refused. She told me that Kody told her after all of this came out and he listened to those voicemails he told her we are done and there is nothing at all you can do to get me back. This was over. He told her he will love and support her always but the marriage is done. So she’s been trying to find out how to get out of the tv show, how to get out of the house and how to get out of the life with Kody. Of course they won’t show that on tv.

Love that she used air quotes to say catfish situation Lol That proves yet again that she has lied. You only air quote something as sarcasm or in jest. She knows damn well she had an affair and at the point of this conversation so does Kody. So her using air quotes proves again that she lied. It’s the same thing when this whole thing went public on the show. She was pissed off at me and called me a Bastard. Remember that?

And Kody lies because he doesn’t want to admit on tv that we did have a real affair. He is protecting the storyline for the show. Because if he admits the affair was real and they all have lied, the show is gone.

So Mariah thinks you were having an affair? That answer is yes. And I gave Mariah plenty of proof that I have never posted or talked about on here to prove that it was sexual, it was a real affair and that we were up in Utah together for a whole week. That’s why Mariah is so pissed.

Meri proves what I just said. She wants to be close to him. She wants him to give her affection and love and praises and time. He still refuses.

Meri says Kody isn’t around very much. This is what I mean.

This is what I have said all along. Meri kicked Kody out in May of last year. I didn’t ask her to. She wanted to do it. She told him he wasn’t allowed to stay in her house anymore. He fought it for a few days then finally said ok. And he came and got some of his stuff and moved out. That’s when the affair went into an everyday thing. Because now she had the freedom to meet up and had more time to talk to me. In May that’s when our affair turned into more than just an affair. We were planning a life together.

I love it when she calls me this person. As if she forgot my name. It also proves that her storyline of the female catfish is total bs. She refuses to name names. She refuses to singularly call it a female. She flip flops on the entire gender assignment of it because she knows she’s lying. And she wants to not hurt me anymore than she already has with her lies.

She asked Kody to leave so her and I could have privacy and figure out how to get her to move into my house. That’s why she kicked him out. There was a lot going on in both of our lives but at the time we both made choices to figure out how to find time to spend together.

And please keep in mind, Meri Brown has NEVER OFFERED ANY PROOF AT ALL that there was a catfish. Not ever. She just tells stories. She makes shit up and tries to keep her story straight when so many times already she continues to expose her lies. She knows she is lying and she can’t remember everything she said. But I remember everything. I have already proven there was no catfish and I have already proven with evidence on this blog that we were in love and it was a real affair.

The reason why he didn’t want to tell her right then is because what he wanted was a spiritual divorce. They have already done that. Kody and Meri are spiritually divorced. They got that done  a few months ago. For the show they are going to act married. For the kids they will continue to act as a family. She wants to stay in her house for now and she wants to continue to be in the family. But her marriage is over. And she is okay with it now. So is Kody. They both realized there was too much damage done and Kody told her in therapy he just couldn’t get past the voicemails and the photos I posted on my blog.

I like how Meri blames me by saying the catfish got in her head. There was no catfish. I didn’t tell her anything about her family. I did tell her that her husband was a douchebag in response to the dozens and dozens of horrible stories she shared with me about him. Most of which I will finally write about. He is such an abuser it amazes me she stuck in there for 26 years. It really is shocked how horrible he can be with his words. Again Meri takes no responsiblity for her half of our affair. She continues to blame it all on me. How would I ever know Kody was a horrible person unless SHE TOLD ME things about him? I didn’t know anything. I didn’t watch that show very often. I had no idea he yelled at he so much and made her cry. She forgets that part. That she is the one that told me things, so I would get protective and call him an asshole. She would laugh and say he is an asshole to me.

Kody told her I wouldn’t cross a burning bridge for you anymore right after she told him she was going to divorce him for Robyn’s kids. He said on camera all kinds of nice things. And right after they finished filming that scene he pulled Meri aside and told her this doesn’t change anything between us. You giving me the divorce won’t fix us, I wouldn’t cross a burning bridge for you anymore. I remember her telling me that story. That’s how pissed off he was at her long before I came around.

I have always admitted to the affair and always admitted my responsibility for it. I own half of the blame. I just wish Meri would own her half too. She’s going to be really pissed that I wrote this. I don’t care. The truth is the truth and I can prove all that I’ve said her.

Because I do have new voicemails from her. Even while I was away in Paris. And she knows it.

Stay tuned because this time each week Lindsay and I will be watching the show and writing up a recap. We aren’t going to sit by and let these cult members continue to lie and bash us. We deserve our side to be heard. And we’re going to keep telling our story.