I have been in Colorado Springs over a week now and it’s not as much fun as I thought. I’m limited to the things I can do or actually move around to do. My neck is getting there but geez already. I’m very impatient with this whole thing.
My attorney has finally sent me all of the paperwork from my pending divorce. We have to wait a certain amount of days to officially file it but my soon to be ex-wife has already signed everything. She has agreed to uphold our pre-nup with 2 changes. She wants X and Y and that’s that. No problem. She wants no visitation of the kids. That’s the part that literally breaks my heart. She keeps telling her family she’s still very much in love with me and maybe we could have tried counselling but she feels how she feels about having a family life right now and isn’t ready for all that it is.
My attorney has suggested we file for an annulment under fraud but I refuse to do that. Her changing her heart about the kids in her life isn’t fraud. I don’t know what the heck it is, but I don’t think it’s a fraudulent act. We will divorce not annul. The steps we have to go through for the divorce are going to take a long time. That’s the hard part. I have never in my life wanted to be divorced. That’s why I waited so long to get married. It’s humiliating to end up divorced after all I’ve been through. I know it’s the right decision for me and my kids, it’s just not wanted.
She still hasn’t even attempted to see Talon. I have no idea what’s going through her life or mind right now. I know she’s in therapy. I know she’s trying very hard to stop contacting me since it does make things worse. I was told to keep all messages but don’t respond. It was harder to ignore the calls, emails, and texts but that’s getting easier now.
I do miss my wife. That’s being honest. She just turned into someone I don’t even recognize. I thought we had a great life. I thought she was very happy with the kids. I mean I take them on. She doesn’t have to. She had the interaction time she wanted. My nannies have always been the ones to help me, not her. None of this makes sense. I thought for a little while she might be cheating on me but that’s not the case as far as I know. I know I didn’t cheat. I’m not that guy. My vows were supposed to be life long.
Legally separated. It sucks. It’s getting better and I do have a very bright future ahead of me. Love is right there for me. I know all of this.
So now how do I tell all of my kids what happened to mommy? I have no idea how to handle this at all. Any suggestions?