Back home

I got home from Denver last night. My house is going to be done in about 3 to 4 weeks so I’m going to be in full on purge mode this week.

I spent about an hour at the airport getting my plane maintenance and fueled back up before I put it in my rental hangar. I sure love that darn thing. It has given me years of pure joy. It also makes it very easy to travel. I love being up in the clouds. It makes me feel so small and humble. I love flying.

I missed my kids, I gave them all kinds of kisses and hugs as soon as I came in the house. They had all kinds of fun it sounds like. I saw some of the photos on the girls Facebook pages so that was fun. All of my nannies are officially done. I told them I wanted the last month to handle my kids all by myself. I need to get them and mainly myself into a routine. I really haven’t been using nannies unless I travel but it’s time to figure this all out. I’m confident I can handle it. I have 3 good kids that love to help. The grocery shopping will be something I need to figure out. They are all done with their summer camp and we are all done with their speech therapist so I really have no backup other than when Lindsay is in town. Her house is almost done so she will be leaving in the next week. The week before we move I’m taking the kids to the condo downtown and we will all stay there while my movers come in and pack things up for us. I have a cousin of mine who will fly with us to Denver to watch my kids in the plane and also make sure my pets are fine. I have to fly my dog and 2 cats with me to Denver. I found a neighbor who wants the parakeets. Thank goodness. I never wanted them in the first place but they are left over from when my ex-wife lived here. I did text her and say come get your cat or the cat is moving with me to Denver. She called right away more interested in me moving away. The call ended with her not wanting the cat for some pretty lame excuses but that’s okay. I love the cat, she’s mine now, she’s more than welcome to live with me forever. Oh yeah, speaking of ex’s.

When I got home and got everyone settled in my nannies told me I had a voicemail on the home phone. No one ever leaves me voicemails or even really calls my home phone so that was a surprise. They started giggling and told me to go listen. Of course all 3 of them went with me and listened in. They had already played it I don’t know how many times. It was Peyton. Yes, Las Vegas Peyton. The girl I dated right after Meri. She left a nice message and told me call her. I played the message twice trying to hear if it was an emergency or if something was wrong. Then we all sat around for a good 10 minutes debating if I should call her back or not.

After a few minutes I decided to call and see what’s up. It’s human nature to be curious about things. Peyton and I broke up only because I moved from Las Vegas back to Chicago. It was a friendly breakup and we remained friends for a few years after. I haven’t seen or talked to her in over a year so this was unusual.

I went outside for privacy because they wanted me to call her back on speakerphone. I said no and walked out. It was a little awkward at first but finally she told me what was up. She has a work conference in Chicago this coming weekend and wanted to see if we could grab dinner. I said Uhhhhhhhh Lol I said why? She said it sounded fun and we can catch each other up on our lives. I said I can do that right now. She said with a sigh, Sam. Fine, we can do dinner. Then she asked if I was single or would I be bringing someone. I said I’m single and not wanting to date right now. She said she has been single for 4 months. And then I got off the phone pretty quickly. I told her call Saturday so I know where to pick her up at. She said it would be easier to eat at the hotel restaurant. I said fine, then we exchanged cell numbers and I said, Good talk, see ya then hung up Lol I didn’t know how to wrap that conversation up. She sent me a text this morning with her flight info and hotel info. It was all on the same email page so she just screenshotted it.

So Peyton and I will be having dinner Saturday night. This whole thing played out on my Twitter last night. My friends were giving me advice on what to do or what not to do. It was pretty funny and the Dm’s were even better.

I have no intention of dating Peyton or even planning more than this dinner together. I have no feelings for her and I’m sure she feels the same way. It will be good to reconnect and maybe we can start up a friendship? I don’t know. We will see.

I’m taking my kids to the grocery store. Pray for me Lol See ya guys!

Upload that one Lol

Good morning Batfans. I’m still in Denver, Colorado. It has been an amazing weekend and I’m sad to have to leave later today. I’m taking my friends out for one last lunch together and then I’m flying myself back home. Boy has it been a big, fun trip. My house is coming along great. We had a few changes to the mistakes that were made and I’m happy to say in about 3 to 4 weeks my house will finally be done. It’s been a huge 4 month renovation. It’s been worth it. I know the school district is great and I’m going to be very happy raising my kids in Denver. It’s the right move at the right time.

Starting over can be scary if you let your fear win over the fun that it can be. I’m always up for an adventure. I’m a “Go For It” kind of guy and I really enjoy new experiences. I just want my kids to be happy and enjoy their new home. It’s a lot to ask of them to move, give up everything they have ever known, but I know it’s going to be okay. My safety net is being taken away. I have always had my 3 nannies to back me up whenever I needed help. Now, I’m all on my own. I’m finally going to really retire from everything. I want to focus on my kids and find myself a new business or a new hobby or something. I don’t know yet.

I thank God every day that I’m in such a great financial position. I don’t have to work. I always have because I don’t know anything else. I have already put money in all of my kids’s college accounts, I have a savings account for each one, and I have a large savings account in a completely different bank for anything else that comes up for them. My paychecks I get from Lindsay/mine businesses I throw into savings and some in checking. I’m fine. I’m more than fine. I give money to different charities each month because I truly feel with this much cash I need to help others. I have been known to help my friends that read this blog or from Twitter on small things. I tend to be generous in cash and love. I want my kids to learn it’s okay to help people. But only help with what you are comfortable with.

I did find a Church that I really like. The Mass wasn’t that long, they allow the children to be in the sanctuary as services are going on and I prefer that. I won’t have my nannies to take my kids down to Bible study while I’m at Mass. I want all eyes on them at all times. It’s going to be complicated at first but I can always pick up and leave if they don’t behave. For the most part my kids are well behaved. I give them a look and they knock it off. I’ve got that DAD stare down Lol KNOCK IT OFF, with my eyes. I signed us up for transfer so all of my records from our Church in Chicago will come here. And of course I’ve already got my box of envelopes for our family donations Lol I thought that was pretty funny.

I’m going home with a lot of plans to pack, sell, or donate a lot of our stuff. It’s time downsize. I don’t even know where to begin but I have a month to get it done. I’m so happy, guys. I really am. I mean I wish I had someone to share this all with but I’m happy to have some new friends that are looking forward to us moving out. It’s going to be so much easier to have some buddies to help me out when we get to our new home.

I better get myself going. I hope you all had a great weekend. I just uploaded videos and photos to our Family Facebook page. Go check that out. I took some great shots of Denver! Yes, the blonde hair is almost all gone. It’s fading away slowly. I won’t do that again, it was worth a little change. I think I will stick with my brown hair. I like it much better.

I will miss you Denver, but see you soon!

Paintball anyone?

I woke up late. Well much later than I wanted to. My buddies and I got dressed up in our old camo outfits and met up with a group to play some paintball this morning. It was a lot of fun. I have not done that in, well I don’t even remember. Maybe 10 years? Wayyyy before my kids came into my life. I forgot how much fun it is and it’s a great way to get some outside exercise time in. I loved it. We lost, I didn’t mind, I laughed so hard at some of the plays.

I’m making a bunch of new friends. I added probably 20 or so guys numbers into my phone so I can start getting info about Denver and specifically my neighborhood. A few of the guys live blocks from my new house. That part is really exciting. We FINALLY got to see my friend Nice show off her skillset as a police officer. It seemed like every time our team tried to move up she was right in the front line picking us all off. She knows how to shoot Lol There is no question at all she can handle a gun and very, very, proficiently. She was awesome. She also looks really good in her outfit. It was different, I think all of the guys had a comment or two about it. She had to take off but she’s going to come over the house later today to check it out. Then we will all go out to eat together.

This weekend has been about fun, community, and really just hanging out with the boys. I needed this and didn’t realize it. My kids are doing great I check in with them a few times a day. They are spoiled rotten. My daughter had her nails done. I don’t like that at all. When I get home I’m getting that stuff off of her. She has plenty of years to do that, I want her to be my little baby girl for as long as we can. And that means no nails painted! I was told to chill out, it looks great, and she loves it. We will see.

I only have today and tomorrow left in Denver. I’m going to take off after lunch tomorrow. I’m going to Church in the morning because I need to start finding a Church close to the house. It would be easier if I was Roman Catholic but I’m not and never have been. My kind of Catholic does have a few Churches close to downtown so that may be my option. We will see. Church is very important for me and the kids and it’s at the top of my list to deal with this weekend.

I did make it to the nearby grocery store yesterday and I’m happy to find out they do deliver groceries. That will sure make life easy. There is a dry cleaner nearby and a Subway. I’m happy to figure this stuff out.

I’m going to go get cleaned up. I think we are heading downtown to check out a few places. I know tonight we are going to a restaurant that plays live music. That’s going to be fun, I love places like that.

I hope everyone is having an amazing weekend. I know I am! Have a great Saturday Batfans!

Can I move in? Not Yet!

Hey Batfans. I’m in Denver! The kids are back home being smothered with love and attention by Lindsay and my 3 nannies. They all decided to make it a girls’ weekend and I know that means swimming, laying out by the pool, shopping, and eating every piece of food in my house. As long as my kids are taken care of, I really don’t care what they do.

I got into town yesterday afternoon. I went straight to my new house to check things out. WOW! It has really progressed. The photos just don’t do it justice. I’m very happy with the finishes we picked out. I’m happy with the furniture, flooring, and mostly the landscaping. I’m not at all happy with the master bathroom, the kitchen, or the living room. Those are all things we can get fixed. It’s frustrating. If I lived here I could watch out for a lot of these mistakes and prevent them from happening. My guys are working very hard and I do appreciate them.

Guys, it’s almost done. Probably the end of August. DONE! I can not believe they can finish it up that fast. Of course I’m pushing for sooner but I don’t want to move in and have to do a thing. I’m going to be busy enough getting the kids settled.

All of the guest rooms and kids bedrooms are all done. The furniture is all in there but still in the boxes. I told my interior designer to send over her staging crew and unpack everything. Get it done, close the doors. The less rooms we have to deal with, the better. She told me it would cost me this much or that much and I said just get it done, soon. She said next week they will come over and get it all set up. Thank goodness. I just want them to do as much as possible so we can get in here sooner.

We have spent most of the morning and afternoon shopping, eating, and checking out the new neighborhood. Some of my friends know this area well and have been very helpful. We’ve had a chill rest of the afternoon focusing on our gaming and talking about how to better build the apps/game dev. The ideas are so interesting to me. I love it.

Tonight we are hosting a big dinner for everyone and then we will be heading downtown for a few hot spots. Denver is hopping after 10pm, I’m kind of surprised. We met some very cool girls last night that told us about a few places to go to tonight. I asked if they will be there and they said yes. I’m already making friends here. I like that a lot.

I just called to check on my kiddos. Everyone is fine. They are grilling out tonight for supper to make it easier. That means they will grill fish (Yuck) on my grill (Double Yuck) and I’m going to have to scrub the heck out of it the next time I use it.

I’m so happy here. Things are going smooth, I’m trying to remember how to get around town but it’s a big place. I hope I can find my way back to the house from downtown tonight. It will be fun but I’m a little worried about staying up too late again. My old butt needs sleep Lol I can’t hang out with these youngsters like I used to. 11pm and I’m zzzzzzz.

Anyone in Denver? Want to come say hi to me and my crew?

4 days in Denver, Colorado, yes!

I just dropped the kids off at their Day camp. This is the last week/weekend they have to go to that. They will be so bummed out next week but I’m excited for all the fun I have planned for us.

First of all thank you, thank you, and a BIG THANK YOU from my daughter for all the awesome birthday wishes on our Family Facebook page. I did Facebook live a little from her party but we did keep it small and private. I’m so sorry the boys were so loud when I was trying to get Peace to talk on camera Lol Hey, that’s my life. The boys love to be filmed and for the most part want all of the attention. That dress was from Macy’s. I bought it special for her birthday party. Yes it is cute, since that was the majority of the comments, and yes her headband did not say on all night Lol She flung that off pretty soon after we wrapped up Facebook Live.

I uploaded all of our photos and videos from the past month including Peace’s birthday. Go check that out, guys. Be sure to welcome all of our new Batfans that have slowly been added to our page and interact with them.

I’m so happy to report I am leaving to go on my trip in a few hours. Lindsay ran down to the office this morning for a meeting. As soon as she gets back I’m GONE. Which means probably around 10:30am this morning. She will leave at 9:30am but she wants to stop to pick up a few things from the store.

I’m actually more nervous for her to drive my new Range Rover than I am for her watching my kids this weekend. She’s a speed demon (Always has been) and I just know there’s going to be a few lovely, new scratches on it when I get home.

So how is everyone doing? How much did you love Amazon Prime days this year? I just got the last of our orders in yesterday. I bought way too much stuff but you really can’t beat those deals.

My goal for my Denver trip is to check out my house renovations, talk to the general contractor to see what his timeline is and make sure all of our inspections are good. So far that house has been a breeze. I think it’s because it had such solid bones. I did a really good job picking it out. It’s only a 4 year old house so we only had to customize a few of the rooms. The best part is the kids picked out the bedroom colors and it was be completely done when we move in. I will not have to paint or do a single thing. Won’t that be nice. I’m also going to be hanging out with some of my gaming friends so I’m excited for that. Nice is meeting up with me on Saturday and Sebastian will be driving up also. It’s going to be a fun, fun, weekend. I really can’t wait.

I hope you all are having the best summer ever. I am because it’s been quiet, calm, and peaceful.

Happy birthday to my amazing, sweet, beautiful little girl. I couldn’t ask for a better kid. She is our peacemaker, our joy, and our sweetness. The boys love their sister with all their hearts and I don’t know what I would have done if my beautiful Peacey pie didn’t come into my life. I always think about her adoption and her biological parents on her birthday. I don’t know if one day they will reach out to the adoption agency and ask for my info but they are always welcome into our family. I’m cool with changing the closed adoption they wanted into an open adoption any day they want. I pray they both change their minds some day. I look forward to raising Peace up to the very best life I can offer her and I sincerely promise she’s going to be an outstanding citizen, student, sister, friend, daughter, and (OMG) girlfriend, mom, some day. I’m leading by example by showing her as much love as I can daily. She knows she is special, she knows she is very loved, she knows 100% she belongs with me. She is a light in my life and hearing her laugh is literally one of the best sounds in the world. Right now I’m just her daddy but I know when she’s all grown up I can also be one of her best friends. I want nothing but the best for her and I will do all I can to educate her in whatever way she needs. She is incredibly smart and I’m pretty sure at some point she will skip a grade.

Peace, your little face is one of my favorite things on Earth. I love you, the boys love you. The entire world loves you. Never change who you are, and just be my sweet, happy little girl for as long as we can. Also, don’t grow up Lol Ever! I love you, my princess. You will always be Daddy’s GIRL!

So it’s dunzo? Yeah, I think it is

In the progression of working things out with Stephanie I invited her over for dinner last night. We had a lot of fun with the kids, she’s so great with them. We had a chance to go sit out by the lake and watch the crazy waves flow in and out. We got to talking and she had some hard questions for me. If this, what would I do. If that, what would she do. Going back and forth on things, some of her answers didn’t make sense to me. I started asking why she felt that way or why she would do things that way and it just didn’t flow with me at all. We had a deeper discussion and at the end, we both sort of just looked at each other and knew. I said “So it’s dunzo?” and she said “Yeah I think it is.”

She started crying, I felt bad. We hugged and I kissed her goodbye then I walked her out. She didn’t go in the house to say goodbye because she thought that would be hard. I was cool with that. She got in her car and she left. I did feel bad about it later when I was laying in bed thinking it over. I’m glad we at least tried because I really felt I would have regretted not giving it one more chance before I moved. Things are in a good spot. I texted her this morning and I think her and I can be friends. I’m friends with all of my ex’s so that’s not a huge surprise. In fact 3 of them texted me yesterday about my blog post and Twitter Lol They kind of check in with me every once in a while. I’m amazed that I’ve met and dated such incredible women, they still care. I do treat them well and show respect always so that’s a big reason they all have said they want to remain friends. I’ve invited some of them over at the same time for bbq weekends or whatever. It’s never been an issue unless they bring up our dating history. Then it gets awkward and I just laugh and walk out of the room because who wants to be in the middle of that at a party?

Am I maturing? I think I am. Letting go of someone can be hard but it doesn’t have to be drama. I think being completely honest and upfront about how you feel and what you think is key. Also both people listening. It’s no fun at all getting raged on by someone who interrupts every sentence. When they ask you a question, you start to answer and then BOOM here comes all this venom. I’m happy Stephanie and I left it peaceful. It’s nice.

So I’m single again which is fine. I’m not going to date until after I move and get the kids settled. I’ve already decided that. I told Stephanie that too. She appreciates the gesture. She half believes it I’m sure because my dating history has been so many first or 2nd dates then I move on. I’m just out here trying to find love. Again. It kinda sucks but I’m not giving up.

The kids went to day camp. After I dropped them off this morning I went to Church. I signed up to volunteer to help pack up some mission supply boxes. We have 5 couples out of the country on missions and we send them monthly supplies. It was fun getting together with my Church family and spending time laughing as we worked. I took a moment to pray by myself before I left. I feel at peace. I’m doing okay.

So…..

Next is my weekend trip. I’m leaving Thursday and will be all over Periscope showing off my new house. Guys, I’m really excited to see how far they are. I wish I could move in now but I know they are still doing my kitchen. It’s going to be a big change but I’m ready. I worked my a** off to get here. I don’t have to work out there, I don’t have to do anything but be a dad. I’m going to enjoy life, make new friends and figure out what my next step is. I’m so blessed. I really am.

Here’s to my next chapter in life and in love!

It’s a Steph-anie in the right direction

Hi guys! How are things going? Me, I’m fine as always. A few quick updates then back to work.

I was supposed to go to Comic Con this year but didn’t make it out. My dog hurt his leg. I took him to the vet thinking they will send us home with some pain pills, tell me to restrict his walking/running and that was it. He blew out his frickin’ knee. I don’t know when, I don’t know how. I just know $4500 later it’s fixed. He has 8 to 12 weeks of rehab to go and it’s been very frustrating. I found out if you use a beach towel to help hold up his backside it does make it much easier. You sling it under him and grab it down low in a bunch so you can control his motions with the bad leg. The vet told me to do that. He has a leg brace and a wound that has to be cleaned out twice a day or more if needed. He’s laying around a lot which is very hard for an active dog like him and it’s pinned me to the house for days now. I did miss Comic Con but it’s worth it. I will hit the next Comic Con event and still catch up with my friends there soon. Sorry guys!

What else? Stephanie and I had broken up. She was too controlling and really pushing me into being on the same page as her. I wasn’t there yet, I mean I was getting there, I just wasn’t there….yet. She didn’t want to hear it and gave me an ultimatum. I didn’t like it so I told her and we agreed to end things. It’s been over a month. We have met up a few times and talked a few times. Last night she texted me and said why can’t we just discuss this in length? I had Lindsay to watch the kids so I went over. An hour later we had worked out what happened, what was going on and how things could have been handled better. Essentially she fought me and didn’t throw me away like a piece of trash, so we are going to work it out. Just in time too.

I’m leaving Thursday mid morning to go do Denver for 4 days. I’m checking on my house renovation there to make sure things are good. We are moving there as soon as possible to get the kids settled. My house here will go on the market whenever we are officially and finally moved. I’m keeping my downtown condo in Chicago for when I have to fly in for work stuff but this is the big move. I want to raise my kids close to Alex’s doctors in Denver and I want a change. It’s time.

Stephanie understands all of this and is still willing to work things out. She is open to moving after I’m settled if that is the direction of the relationship. I told her I don’t mind her coming to visit every weekend if she wants but I’m done trying to prove how I feel about things. It was a really good grown up talk. I felt mature after it. Well and then the sex helped too Lol I mean good makeup sex is always worth it. So I don’t know guys. We will see. I’m giving it a chance. I really like her, the kids like her, why not her? We still have over a month before I move so we have time to really dig in and see what we want together. I’m trying.

My poor dog, Bubba is doing his best to be a good patient but he has not patience to be a patient. It’s been very hard. I’m not sleeping much because I’m worried about him so much. Luckily dogs take a million naps a day so I’m finding a balance to rest for an hour or 2 here and there.

The kids summer day camp is almost over with. This is the very last weekend and then I have all 3 of them at home ALL DAY WITH ME. I’m excited and happy. I have all kinds of things I want to go do with them. It’s going to be a very fun summer. I had a ton of travel plans set up but as life goes, I make plans and God says HAHAHAHAHAHA……..no.

How is everyone doing? I’ve gotten the yard all cleaned up today, my bedroom all cleaned up and I’m starting to pack for my 4 day trip.

Denver….here I come!

Rowboat Book Club Book #79

This is my favorite book, of all time. It always will be. Charles Dickens’ Great Expectations.

In what may be Dickens’s best novel, humble, orphaned Pip is apprenticed to the dirty work of the forge but dares to dream of becoming a gentleman — and one day, under sudden and enigmatic circumstances, he finds himself in possession of “great expectations.” In this gripping tale of crime and guilt, revenge and reward, the compelling characters include Magwitch, the fearful and fearsome convict; Estella, whose beauty is excelled only by her haughtiness; and the embittered Miss Havisham, an eccentric jilted bride.