I’m FINE! I’m fine…im fine…I quit…cries

Yesterday was one of those rare bad days that piled on and piled on. I had family come stay with the kids while I was on a business trip. They also took it upon themselves to help start unpacking my boxes and setting up house. It actually made it a lot easier because they placed things on shelves or just left them in a pile so all I had to do was get home and start arranging things.

I mean they also caused a bunch of drama and we had a few small arguments but hey, who’s family isn’t completely dysfunctional some times? If you are reading this you just said “I know mine can be” in your head. The rest of this post is dedicated to you Lol

The boys ate meatloaf the night before when it was offered. I honestly didn’t think that they would eat it because they don’t like meat. The both loved it. Peace (Who has now been promoted to my favorite child) said no and smacked the meatloaf offering away Lol They each ate half a slice and went on with their lives. My family members left and went back home, I got my house back in order and everyone went to bed. Until….

At 3am someone threw up on my carpet. I know this because not only did I sat up scared, I also stepped in it when I got up and flipped on the light. I got both boys into bathrooms and started texting my nanny to come over to my side of the house. She was up with Sky so thankfully it wasn’t a big ordeal. I also had 1 family member still here (Little Tyson, Big Tyson is in L.A.) so things were divided. We went through 1 round of you know what each. That woke up the entire house. Peace woke up with a slight fever, and Alex decided he needed to beat that so he developed an even better slight fever. Insert worried dad mode here. Heston who has the gut of a soldier eating MRE’s all week decided the other end was the way for him and off we went. 3 sick kids. I IMMEDIATELY blamed the meatloaf. Then remembered Peacy pie didn’t have any so then I got really concerned. Sky was sent over to the other side of the house in quarantine with the nanny. We called her sister, my backup nanny, and we all had to figure out who needed what.

By the afternoon I was done. Not the I give up kind of done. The I’m leaving done Lol I didn’t go anywhere but I really wanted to. It was all too much, all at once. One nanny decided 4 kids, 1 a newborn was too much and quit. So did her sister, my backup nanny. I just paid them both and told them to go. I didn’t even have an argument in me. I’m left with little Tyson and myself. He decided he was flying out this morning to go back to school.

That leaves me. Here. Alone. With 4 kids. I can’t call the nanny service to find me a new one until Monday morning, which also happens to be their first day of schools. I did what any logical, desperate, crying dad would do.

I called Sarah.

The begging started immediately. I’m not even ashamed of myself at all. She said she needed a night to pray on it and needed to call her family to see what they thought. She told me the rate I was paying her would now be more. I’m fine with that. I’m pretty sure I said something about a blank check Lol I’m really sure I said take it all just get here please. Who knows. I mean I was crying. I did calm down after a while but it was a complete meltdown. I admit it. I lost my sh**, guys. I think anyone that’s a p aren’t gets it. What do they say? Do you feel me? Yeah that.

I did get a little sleep. Sky eats, wants to wiggle, wants to be held, then she goes back to sleep. She’s an easy keeper. Thank goodness. I have cameras on and in her crib so her little video feed is all over my tv’s and on my Ipad I carry around to make sure she’s okay.

Finally Sarah called this morning. She’s booked a flight I have to pay her back for because last minute flights are expensive, and she’s coming this morning. I don’t know how long she is staying here. I sorta don’t care. I just need help. I’m sure we will have a full discussion and now she’s going to be here soon! I told her grab a cab please, no way can I leave the house to come get her. She will.

I mean she really is the best person in my life to help with the kids. She’s dropping everything. She was in between jobs anyway so this worked out great. She had job interviews but none that fit what she wanted so she was still applying for things. This is a blessing. God is taking care of me. I prayed this morning to accept whatever her answer is and move on. I signed up for 4 kids. I can do this. I can do this! I can’t do this Lol I can’t do this by myself. That’s the right one.

The kids slept off and on. I did too. They are all slow going and not as sick as yesterday. I think it was just a small bug, nothing rampant and bad. The main thing (little cough).

Oh sh**. Am I getting sick now?

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

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