Edit your heart out Mr. Pencil

Hey #Batfans! This week the red pencil of doom is my best friend. Okay, not really. I’m editing a book. I don’t want to. My girlfriend doesn’t want me to. My kids don’t care. I have a deadline and I have to get this task done. It’s frustrating and a thankless task. My publisher is on my rear end wanting this done by a certain date. I laughed. He didn’t. I laughed louder. He told me to get it done. I have been working on it.

Last night at our weekly family meeting a few things was finally decided. Sarah is going to go to Texas to be with her family shortly before her baby is born. After a month or so she will come back and begin the search for a nursing job. Brenda is going to stay with me until I no longer need her. I told them I want to try around June 1st to do all of this alone. If I can maybe a little sooner but it all depends. Sarah and Brenda have fully moved into the guest house and love it. There is room for a baby if Sarah comes back. I really don’t think she will but of course she is always welcome. Her ex David is not in the picture and his only request is for a DNA test once the little girl is born. On that heavy of a topic we ended that with a few girl name suggestions. Sarah did not like any of the names I picked out because she said they sound “too white”. I’m not sure if I’m supposed to be offended by that. She wants a more afro-centric name or a family name somewhere from her parents. So Samantha is officially off of the table I guess Lol

I am taking my family on a Mexican cruise for our Spring Break this year. We will do 4 fun filled days on a cruise ship. It’s going to be a lot of fun. Our neighbor Gabby is going to join us. She’s bringing her sister so we will have extra adults to help me with the kids. We also hammered out all of the details for my trip to Napa, California this weekend. I have to go out and attend to a little vineyard business. This is a business we invested in years ago and it’s not making any money. Lindsay wants her money back or she wants me to gut all of the employees but the 2 that actually run things and make the wine. The other 4 employees are my cousins. They haven’t done much and it’s time they move on. They know it’s coming but they still think they can talk me out of it. I’m bringing my boys with me so they can play and see what a vineyard is. I really hope the weather is going to be nice. My weather app says Friday and Saturday 69 degrees. I will take that. Lindsay is coming back to the States from Australia. She did her yearly jaunt for 30 plus days to visit family, hang out, and enjoy a vacation. She will be meeting me in Napa so we can decide what to do. At this point I may just throw a damn For Sale sign on the place and move on. I don’t know how to run a vineyard. As romantic as it all sounds, I can’t do it. I don’t want to do it. We will be making some tough decisions soon.

And finally, the boys are doing great in school. Peace is doing great at home all day. I put her in a class for dancing. She LOVES IT! It’s just basic dance moves, not ballerina. It’s mostly just giving her some social time and something to do. I bought her a few outfits from the little store they have inside of the dance class. She runs around the house in her little skirts. I think this is exactly what she needs. This coming fall she will go into a pre-k situation. I’m not sure yet where or what it will be but she will begin her schooling. Pudge, my baby Sky, is eating nonstop. She’s starting to roll and can sit up with support for a short amount of time. I can’t believe how fast this is all going. She was my little frog just a few months ago now she’s a full on Pudge. I love having her home all day with Peace. When we go to the class all the moms fuss over her. It’s very cool.

How are you guys doing? I’m good. I have a girlfriend now. We are going to be getting together soon. I have a thing to do in Detroit, so we will meet for lunch and if she has time a dinner date also. There is a huge possibility she will be heading back to Denver soon for a week or two. I hope that trip comes soon. I would love to have her here again. It makes things much easier.

If you haven’t already, please check out my 2 podcasts. The #VeganSam one is still rocking and rolling. And my new one #TheSoultoLife is just getting off the ground. I hope everyone has a wonderful week and be kind.

Kobe, Gigi, and the others, we miss you. God bless your life, your souls, and your families. You were so loved.

Pencil me in? Why? Ohhhhh

Last night I went on my first date of 2020. I’m not supposed to use her real name so we will call her Bubblegum. This is because she was chewing it the entire dinner. I don’t know how she managed to do that but it was one of those things I didn’t ask. She asked me out yesterday when I went to the bank. She said just dinner. I could do dinner, so I said yes. I agree to meet her at a place she picked out and then went about my day trying to figure out why I am ready to date. She is a very nice woman, around my age (Yes really) and it sounds like very ambitious at her job. She is divorced with 2 kids who are out of the house. That sounds nice. She said she has been power dating all of last year and into this year. I don’t even want to know what power dating is but that sounds bad?

At the end of the date she felt pretty confidant I wanted to go back to her place for a Netflix and Chill. I said no, in fact I don’t even want a second date. She asked why and I had to sit there and list off the top 3 of a 10 list thing I had already decided on. Am I too picky? Lol She said 3 times she really was happy not having any kids in her house. I said I have 4 kids. She didn’t seem to mind until I told her how young they all are. And twins with hearing problems. She said it sounds like too much work.


So at that point I sat there and listened to her nitpick what I ordered and asked if my cologne was this kind or that kind. Wrong on 4 guesses. It turned out to be….well just not my kind of date. I know she will power date right past me and I wish her all of my best. She called this morning to see if I would change my mind. I asked if she was going to change her mind about my 4 kids being mixed in here at some point. She said “Oh I forgot about that part”. I didn’t.

Struck out on that date. That’s okay. Hey, at least I’m out here trying. So the next woman that asks me out I may just say no. It depends on who it is. I really think I’m better off going on a date with someone I find interesting. I think getting asked out is nice but it kind of puts me into a pressure situation from the start. I don’t necessarily like that.

There is someone I have a growing fascination with but her and I have barely talked. I’m saying we’ve exchanged 9 sentences total. I’m interested in her but not to the point I know enough to ask her out. She is probably married or happily coupled up with a great guy. I have no idea. I am sure I have zero chance with her so I’m not really putting in any effort at find out what could be.

So onward and upward? I have no idea what dating in 2020 will bring to my life. I just know it’s not the bank lady.

I am pretty content sitting at home with my dog Lol Maybe I don’t want to date, yet? I don’t know, guys. We will see.

I want a little Peace at home

Hey guys. How are you doing tonight? I’m good. I’m listening to a podcast as I type this. It’s pretty funny so I may pause a few times to listen to a story they are telling. I hope this won’t take that long. Like right there. I just learned how they both figured out Santa was more of a helper to our parents than we all figured out Lol It was a great story.

I have decided to keep Peace at home now. I put her into daycare to give her time to socialize and see if that would go well. Her brothers are in school all day now and I want her to feel a part of all of that. She only went half a day. This allowed me time to bond with Sky. Sky is older, sleeping longer at night, things are smooth.

Now I get both of my girls at home all day and I’m trying to figure out all of the girl type things they might want to do together with me. So far I planned a very special lunch that got crapped on by a bad phone call. It took longer than it was supposed to and I ended up missing out on the entire meal that I prepared. Peace was mad and she had every right to be. So I did what every guilt ridden, single, Catholic parent would do, I took her for ice cream. It helped but she still let me know that was not okay.

I am sorry Peace. Next time I will put you first and make a better choice.

Sky decided to chill with us the rest of the afternoon and it’s very interesting to see my girls interact. Peace loves her little sister. Now keep in mind she hates being a big sister to anyone. She still wants to be the baby of the house. And I tend to favor her over everyone in my life. I am working on that. She’s so dang cute though. She looks up at me and I just melt.

The boys are doing great. We had a great Christmas, a great Disney trip, and my quick trip over the weekend was a good break for all of us. I had a business trip to Napa, California and I got back way too late the next morning. That meeting turned out like complete crap. I’m not happy at all how that business is going and it got a huge change of command as of NOW. Not me, I put someone else in charge. It did not go over well but it’s a business. And I let it go for 3 years now. I’m done.

2020 for me is the year of ZERO FU**S. I mean it. I’ve finally been setting boundaries and walking away from my toxic friendships. Certain people in my life have about 1 more phone call left in me before I say, I’m done, bye. Click. I love my friends but some of them, time to go. And 2020 was the year.

The podcast I’m listening to is debating if some guy should shave his back Lol I do not have a hairy back. I have no opinion of this at all but I think it’s funny the answers they are offering up. A back scratcher with a razor taped on it? I guess that might work. I also do not have a hairy butt, thank goodness. Hairy legs, yes, hairy armpits check, yes. A small patch of chest hair I usually just shave off, yes. That’s my usual stuff. Shave your back Lol Wow. Good luck to that guy.

So much for finishing this blog. My kids are fighting over a puzzle so I’m wrapping this up. Have a great evening everybody! Tomrrow I’m getting us a new vehicle. I’m selling my Range Rovers. It’s going to be sad but I need a much bigger vehicle now with Sky in our family. Love you guys.