My Faith is stronger than your doubts

Oh I caught this Spirit today! This week’s devotional message around my house is Lean on God. We read “My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from Him. He is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will never be shaken” Psalm 62:1-2

Well the last part of that is not true. I have been shaken in my life. I have cussed out God in my 2 times of ultimate despair. I have asked for forgiveness and understanding and I pray to God I am never shaken again. This is the message and the truth I want my kids to know. We all have moments in our life that we have lost our trust in God. It never lasts long and if it starts to stretch out, it will be time to heal and pray. They have had some great questions this week. I love it.

“What if God doesn’t want me to live a long happy life that you keep promising me?” Oooohhhh, that’s deep and scary.


“What if I wake up and I don’t think God exists” He does, I will remind you, and that is part of your spiritual path. We all walk our own way to God’s Will. Our life and story have been laid out for us already. I have wandered from my Faith. It has been very few weeks but there have been times I did not believe. I can say today and for many years, my Faith has only gotten stronger and I’m very happy to know that no matter what my struggles, God always loves me.

I love hearing my own children ask the same questions I asked. But my kids are a lot smarter than I was at their ages. They know God loves them. They know my Faith is a lot stronger than any of their doubts. If I can’t answer the questions they have we always look in our Bibles for guidance. I wanted my kids to stay in Catholic school but I can’t support the Denver Catholic school system. It’s a hot mess. We do our religion class at home. After supper we do half hour of a foreign language and then half hour of religion. We have done that since they were around 4 years old and up. I love knowing they question things in life and they actively seek the answer. I’m trying my best to put a solid foundation of faith and love. When they go out into the world without me, I will know I gave them all I had. And God will give them the rest.

I love God. I know God exists in my life. I also love talking to others who either don’t believe or they have different religious views. Send me a DM with your thoughts or an email. I love hearing from you guys! God loves you and I love you too!

M R Aight

I usually write these blog posts while listening to music. Today, I’m listening to my daughter and Sarah’s daughter babbling on about kittens. It’s cute. I had an MRI on my knee. I have ripped a ligament from the bone. My MCL is hanging on by a thumb size. It’s painful and delaying surgery was the bad news I have been dealing with. I’m 6 months out from them rescheduling it. I pray they get a cancellation and I get in sooner. For now they shot gel into it, and I’m supposed to be a good boy and stop doing stupid things to reinjure it. I’m not going to lie guys, it hurts. I’m going to do what the doctors tell me to do and wait for my turn to get it fixed.

School is going well. So far, none of my kids have gotten kicked out of class. I can’t say that for my girlfriend’s kids who are doing virtual school in Canada. I might want to add, they have been booted twice Lol Alex had an incident where a kid shoved him and he bonked his knee into a sharp edge and cut his leg a little. I did go get him and bring him home for the rest of that day. School is full steam ahead. All 4 of my kids love it and the best part, they are finally making some friends. Covid has prevented all of us from meeting new people. I’ve lived here 2 years and you would think I would have a ton of friends by now. Nope. I’m working on it now. Finally. I like hearing about what classmates did what or said this. My twins actually like being split up into separate classrooms. It’s all working out and I couldn’t be happier. It’s the most normal thing we have going on.

The entire backyard has become our private park area. We have summered it so hard I don’t know where to store allof our outdoor toys at. It’s getting that time of the year when it’s almost time to call it a day on the swimming pool. I’m going to drain my pool. I want to make sure next spring when we open it back up that there are no cracks from all of the construction mess I had going on. I think I see 2 but I’m not really sure. Either way I scheduled the pool company to come next weekend.

This weekend we are all flying to Chicago. I finally bought a Brownstone and it’s time to check it out. This has been a few months journey. I outgrew my downtown condo. It used to work just fine. I have a lot of kids. We are going to do out best to fix it up so everyone is comfortable. I’m really excited to see it. I don’t think we will need to double up the kids. If they want to, I will get bunk beds and get their bedrooms filled up with the basics. What I learned the last few years is, whatever clothes you leave in your “vacation home” won’t fit at all when you arrive back to it after a year away. I had a pile to donate and now I think bringing in our clothes is the way to go. At least until my kids are all done growing. I’m excited to see my friends. I’m really excited to show my new place to Lindsay and Cam. I’m going to get with my interior designer and start coming up with a plan. I don’t want to renovate. I want to paint the walls and get all of my furniture moved in from my condo. Once that is done I hope to fill it up with whatever we may need. It’s going to be fun. I think we will renovate over the winter if we need to. I refuse to fly my plan in snow and ice. In fact, as I’ve gotten older, I really don’t like flying anywhere near bad weather. I’ve always put it in my mind that I will stop flying privately when I hit 50. I don’t want my cognitive skills to diminish to a point I refuse to admit it. Commercial airlines are getting better and if I really insist, I can hire a private jet. It’s really not as expensive as people think. It’s important to me we are all safe. I trust my kills. I trust my planes. I just want to make sure we are okay.

My house is finally done. I’m done redoing things, fixing things. It’s done. I had all of this year in it, finally, and realized I need to get rid of some of my oversized, ridiculous furniture. I’m starting to see I have too much stuff. I have donated what I could. Covid shut down all donations for the past year. Now they are opened back up and I hauled over 3 truck loads of things. I always believe in donating old clothes as they are replaced. I know as a kid when we hit hard financial times the Church garage sales and thrift stores helped my family get what we needed.

I’m entering that part of my life where things are always, well….fine. No big drama. Nothing holding me back from doing what I want to do. I think it’s peaceful. Finally. My girlfriend still tells me about once a week to behave. I just laugh and say Who Me??? Things are calm. I love it. I love just being able to live and breathe. I’m so thankful for all of God’s blessings. I appreciate the things I have accomplished and worked hard for. Is this the part of early retirement where I need to pick a hobby? I like golf but I really just want to hang out with my kids. I love being a dad. I feel it is a calling in my life. I’m finally getting good at it. When we merge both of our families, my girlfriend has told me she knows we will have some issues at first but she can’t wait for her kids to see that I want to be with them, that I want to be their step-dad. I really do. I can’t wait for us to start our lives together. We have to wait a little longer for Covid to calm down. That’s the hardest part.

I hope all of you are okay and doing well. I will start blogging more. My podcast schedule changed as soon as the kids got back in school and Jessica wants to do them in the evenings or weekends. It’s been an adjustment but it’s finally smoothing out. I will get back to all of your comments, messages, and emails this weekend. There’s going to be a lot of sitting around just getting decisions made. I know my nannies will be very opinionated on how they want their rooms and the kids rooms set up. I just get to sit back and wait for someone to say my name. Have a wonderful weekend. Love you guys!

A little up Date

My knee surgery date got cancelled because of COVID, that’s fun. I get to ice my knee when it gets bad and spread on the Icy Hot. I mean, this can’t get any worse, right?

4 of my 5 pack are in school all day. That leaves me with baby Sky and baby Rain all day. Sarah does not quality to put her daughter in daycare at her new work yet. She has to be there 6 months because it’s one of those extra benefits they offer once you establish yourself. I told her yes we will watch the baby. We’ve been with her since she was a week old anyway. And this will be our last full time babysitting with her I wan to enjoy it. She is such a sweet little girl. Sarah is trying to get all of her life out of my house, which I appreciate. She LOVES her new job. It is her dream job. She has spent so much time getting her life ready for her career I’m proud to see it finally happen. Her parents are thinking about selling their house in a few months to be closer to their only grandchild. Sarah’s sister has had the same boyfriend for years, no engagement, no kids. They don’t want to miss anything and they both recently retired so this will be a big move. I will love having them nearby. I have known Sarah’s mom since I was 3 years old. We were raised together because her mom was my nanny. And Ray and I get along great. We are always getting in trouble together. I love this idea.

My kids love their teachers, love school, hate wearing a mask. I told them that’s the only way we can keep them healthy. It was a lot of discussion all summer to make sure they do understand how important it is. I told them if they do not keep it on every day I have to pull them from school and they will do virtual class again. None of them want that, I don’t blame them.

This is the year they are FINALLY making friends. I’m happy to see that and I hope to be able to host a few swim parties soon. We are running out of the hot weather. We all know it’s going to snow in Denver next month Lol It always does.

I am starting to get and about a little more. I hope I start making friends too. It’s easy to see who takes COVID serious by still wearing a mask. Those are the kind of people I would love to be friends with.

Things are busy. I’m doing my best to get these kids into a routine. We are going to do some weekend trips back to Chicago. I’m still trying to find a new condo. The 2 I have put a bid on got outbid and I wasn’t willing to go up higher. My account said $6 to $8 million. Once we move we can fix up my downtown condo that’s too small and sell it. That will recoup some of what I spent on the new one.

Life is great. My girlfriend and I are getting along much better. We have been off and on for 2 and a half years. We go great for months and then we break up for a week or 2. I think we are finally maturing into the relationship. As soon as I can get up to her area safely, without it being a hotspot for COVID, we will most likely get engaged. We are older, there’s a lot of moving parts to getting her and her kids moved here. But her and her kids need to get away from her ex and his family, too many issues going on. It’s going to be a new chapter for both of us. I can’t wait.

Hope everyone is enjoying the last bit of summer. Get outside and enjoy it. Love you guys!

2 Birthdays and a Miami Beach week

It’s hard to schedule things for this time of year because I have 2 birthdays 2 weeks apart.

Peace’s birthday was small and fun. She loved it. She cried when she saw the whole set up. I told her that the virus was still out there and we couldn’t have a big blowout. She was upset at first until she saw her party. I had Sarah decorate it with her Brazilian friend and it came out perfect. We had a pool party with small kids carnival games, we had presents, cake and ice cream. I mean, my family and friends always take care of my kids on their birthdays. They get way too much stuff but I use that as a time to get rid of the old toys to replace them with all the new stuff. We clean things up and donate what we can. It’s very important. She loved it, I asked her at bedtime what her favorite part was and she said the part where you said it wouldn’t be a big party and it was the hugest party ever Lol I think 4 years with me has made her dream big, and want for big things. I love it.

Now we ride out this week at home and continue to look online for a new Chicago house. We are going to leave on Friday to fly down to Miami Beach, Florida. We will be staying for a week. My kids wanted one last “big trip” before they start school. I just want out of Denver, its too hot here. I can’t jump in the Ocean whenever I want here.

And then on Friday evening we will be throwing Sky’s birthday party. She’s turning 2. OMG. My baby is growing up too fast. She is going with a Peppa Pig party. That will be easy. She loves Peppa Pig.

After 2 years of struggling and dealing with things I have no more diapers to change. I am officially off diaper duty! And FYI I refuse to change another diaper the rest of my life Lol I’ve done my time. It’s someone else’s turn. Sky is potty training, walking, talking. She’s her own little person now. It’s awesome. I’m glad I’m finally out of the baby/toddler phase. It was too much.

I hope to relax and catch up on sleep on our Miami Beach week. I need it. I’m so tired all of the time lately. I don’t know what’s going on. I just know that life is a blessing and I’m trying to enjoy everything I can.

Love you guys, stay in the nice cool breeze inside if you can. It’s too hot outside! Love you guys!

Another Chicago Weekend

We have a lot to cram into one weekend but it’s going to be fun for the kids. Lindsay is actually home so she will be hanging out with us all weekend. She came over last night to talk about today’s house hunting. She took the women back to her house for some fun and because I didn’t have enough room for everyone to sleep here. Gabby came with us, so did Sarah and her baby. I kept the baby because she doesn’t need to see what goes on over at Lindsay’s house after dark. It’s shameful behavior.

This morning we are going to go look at 2 newly renovated Brownstones. Move in ready. If I find one I like, I’m buying it today. My condo just doesn’t fit all of us. It was perfect before I started adopting a million kids plus 2 nannies, not 1 nanny. I didn’t think Sarah or Gabby would be traveling with us much to Chicago, I was wrong on that one too. It’s time to upgrade. I need at least 5 bedrooms OR at least 5 rooms I can turn into bedrooms. My boys can get bunk beds and all share a room. That makes it much easier to deal with. My daughters share a room now, so that’s not an issue. That leaves me with my room and a room each for the nannies. However, if others join us, they can share a room, a bed, a couch, I don’t care. As long as my kids are comfy.

We are also going clothes shopping. The weather is going to be nice and cool, so I’m looking forward to some shorts/tshirt weather. And tonight we are going to a kids play. It’s a social distancing event outside. We have one of those tent things that you sit your chairs in. That will help us social distance, keep the riff raff away, and also get the bugs to stay off of us. It’s going to be a lot of fun. My kids love things that are interactive like that. It’s like tv but a live performance. I’m excited to see their faces.

I’m doing well. I plan on having a nice, calm weekend. Nothing too crazy. Tomorrow we are staying late because Lindsay wants to spend extra time with the kids. Peace Taylor will be turning 4 next weekend. The party planning has been nuts. Sarah is in charge of it, I’m paying her to do the birthdays and holiday planning, I’m useless. It’s going to be a beautiful pink/teal theme party. She did not want Winnie the Pooh or anything like that because “she is not a baby daddy, duh”. Okay.

Have a great weekend, folks. Thanks for stopping by.

P.S. Yes, that one rumor is true, and I will be going up to Utah soon Lol And no the other 2 rumors are all bullsh**.

Kallie the kitten is insane

Monday is coming up too fast. I have to decide what we want to do with Kallie kitten. She is 9 weeks old. The vet hasn’t found a home for her yet but she will take her to her vet clinic and start advertising her to find a forever home. The problem is Trey is in love with her. He loves Kaia and Kallie the most. And I’ve been giving Kallie to my neighbor Gabby because she has been interested in having a cat.

Kallie has done nothing to advertise herself because she bites, pounces, chews, and attacks everyone Lol She is the most playful kitten. She plays so hard she passes out. At Gabby’s house she started climbing all of the curtains, drinking all of the milk in one sitting, and doing one other thing that I won’t describe.

I don’t want another cat. I really don’t. Gabby wants a cat, but not THIS cat Lol I get it, she’s wild. I keep telling Gabby she will calm down as she gets older but I doubt she’s convinced. So today we will be having a family meeting at breakfast. I have to prepare Trey of 2 things. Either she’s hanging around our area or she’s gone. He’s going to be upset if she leaves. I know we can provide her an amazing life. She had a very bad start. I just don’t want another pet. I really don’t. I’m old, a cat adds 10+ years to your home life. I just don’t want to do it again. Kaia just turned 1 the other day. That’s good enough for me. Kallie will make a great addition to someone’s home. I have a feeling though Trey and the other kids will have a fit. I mean I caved in when we got Amanda from the pet store. I caved when we kept Kaia but she was an orphan. Kallie could be a great cat somewhere else. I don’t know. We will see. That’s going to be a hard conversation.

It’s coming down to the wire. I want to be honest so everyone can have 1 more great day with her in case she leaves us. I already know how this will go. I’m probably getting a new cat Lol

Everything else has been going great. We are traveling this summer. We do have big trips. I don’t think we are going to make it to Bolivia because of COVID. That’s okay. I understand the travel restrictions. I would rather go when I can be nice and relaxed instead of screaming DON’T TOUCH THAT, DONT GO NEAR THOSE PEOPLE every 10 seconds. We may just bounce between Chicago and Miami Beach. I haven’t wanted to go to Miami Beach until they find everyone who perished (or not, I still have hope) in Surfside building collapse. It’s such a sad, heartbreaking event and I wanted to distance ourselves from that a little until everyone has been accounted for. That being said, our next trip may be back to Chicago. This coming weekend. This time I have to take Bubba or he may disown me. He gets upset with my dog sitter (Mike’s mom) and misbehaves. I have always taken him on my trips. It just gets hard with the kids plus the dog. I think Chicago will be a lot of fun. We have been there a few times since we moved. The kids love it. They get to see their friends and their 2 previous nannies. It’s always a good time. Plus I’m missing my friends.

Hope everyone is having a fun summer. If you can’t get out and about, go out to your yard or a close by park. Get outside. It’s going to be a beautiful summer day!

Happy $5000 Father’s Day Giveaway

Update: We picked a winner and posted the screenshot for PROOF on my Twitter page.

Today we will be doing another $5000 Cashapp Giveaway. The last one went over very well. I’m opening up the comments/email sections on this blog as well as posting on my Twitter account/Social Media accounts. Just drop your CASHAPP tag if you can see this and someone will be randomly selected. The winner will be asked to post a screenshot of their Cashapp activity to prove they did receive the funds. I have loaded up my Cashapp with money a while ago. It’s ready to go. I pray it helps someone or a family.

Happy Father’s Day to all the cool dads holding it down. I know how hard being a dad is in 2021. It’s a lot to shoulder and a whole lot of doing things you don’t necessarily have to do. 2020 kind of sent everything we have ever known into a tailspin. Supporting the family has taken a whole new meaning. I appreciate my kids, I love them dearly. I know I’m a 2 star Dad raising 5 star kids. I try very hard every day and I’m trying to lead by example. I never thought I would be here with 5 kids, living my life in Denver and still no mom in sight. I am trying to figure all of that out but I refuse to settle.

We have some very fun Dad things planned for today. We are going to plan our next day trip for this coming weekend. We had a trip planned for Friday night but we had some unexpected things come up. That’s okay we will be visiting that place this week instead. I think that will work out much better for the weather anyway.

Call your dad. Don’t buy him a tie. Dads love food. Give him something good to eat and tell him how much you love and appreciate him. That’s all we really want. That and the remote all day. Love you guys! Eat your veggies and fruits!