Alohahahahaha

We made it safely. I did have to adjust a cargo area that I had put too much stuff in when we landed in L.A. BTW I hate flying in, near, around, out of LAX. It takes forever for smaller planes to leave, you sit and wait, wait, and wait some more. It’s annoying to me. The family and pets are here and happy. We let the kids sleep a little on the plane ride out here so when we arrived they would want to stay up and start getting acclimated to the time change. I am now 6 hours away from my girlfriend which always messes things up for us. I don’t like being this far away from her. It was a discussion on whether I should come back or not and how that would impact our relationship. I think she understands I’m not planning on staying here for the rest of the year. I mean if that’s what is best, I will. I plan on staying here 3 weeks. We want a different area to explore. It’s summer time, I can’t travel with my kids like I wanted to so this is the 2nd best thing. And I mean, it is Hawaii.

I did not have to quarantine. I had all of my health paperwork in proper order. I was a little worried I would have to quarantine like everyone else. They are all in lockdown. But after their 14 days we will explore the islands this time. A lot of restrictions are being lifted here because the Hawaiian government has done a fantastic job on COVID response. They took it very serious from Day 1 and I appreciate that. We will abide by all the rules and do what we need to so we can all enjoy our vacation time here.

We got everyone to the main house, I told them stay in here tonight. The next morning we ate a small breakfast, had a family meeting and divided out the cabins. Sarah is staying in the main house with me and her baby. She said everyone ends up here all day anyway, it would be easier for her and the baby. I said okay after trying to kick her out several times Lol Brenda got 1st pick and loves having her own cabin this time. The last time she pulled her mom into her cabin because Lynn had a 14 day quarantine all by herself and she was worried. Lynn got 2nd pick and took a cabin a little bit further away from everyone. I was surprised. She said since the nanny schedule is so set in stone, she wants to enjoy her time off. Gabby took the same cabin she had before. She really liked it. Everyone got 2 golf cars each. One to charge, one to use. I reminded everyone these are our family homes so don’t break or rearrange too much. We moved all of their luggage to each new home and let them get set up. Then they came back and I hit the 2 grocery stores I wanted to go to. Mads picked me up in a new truck. He said his old truck finally died Lol I was happy to see him finally treat himself and then wondered if I’ve been overpaying him all of these years Lol Who cares if I do, he does a wonderful job taking care of our family compound. He deserves it all. He will be retiring this year and I’m already anticipating a huge loss when he is gone.

After the stores I came back with about 2 weeks worth of food, we handed that out to the girls and I told them cook for yourselves more so I can enjoy only cooking vegan food. They agreed.

So here we are. We did absolutely nothing for 4th of July other than grilling out 2 meals. I don’t do fireworks and my boys hearing loss is not a good thing for big booming noises so we avoid that stuff. We did see them going off in the distance here and there.

For the twins, we will continue doing ABC Mouse Academy online to catch them up on school things. Peace will also be doing about an hour a day to prep her for school this fall. No school stuff on weekends. I think making them all do 1 hour a day is a good thing. This trip I plan on relaxing way more. I was in such a rush to keep the kids active. This time it’s going to be more about let them do whatever they want to. As long as we can see them and they don’t go near the water unsupervised. They already understand how danger works. And the boys are vigilant on watching after their sisters.

Peace will be turning 3 in a few weeks, followed up by Sky’s 1st birthday in August. We will be here for Peace’s birthday which screwed up plans for a few family and friends to show up for her party. That’s okay. I’m working on figuring all of that out. I’m still going to work from here a little. I have bigger plans for my blog, podcasts, and writing. Now that Sarah made our schedule to watch the kids, I can see a lot of free time. I do actually need that.

Sarah and Gabby are on the nanny schedule for part time. Myself, Brenda, and Lynn are on full time but we get to skip days. It’s a good schedule and I don’t know why haven’t tried this format before.

This upcoming week is going to be fun. I fretted over the decision to come back here. I think it will be okay.

How was your 4th, guys? You doing okay? Wear a mask, social distance. Stay safe! Love you!

They are 2 and I’m getting old

Yesterday was our small family birthday party for my twins Heston and Alex. It’s still too soon to have a bunch of people in our home with Talon so we are waiting to do a bigger party for them in March with all of our family and friends. Because of the way Talon came into this world being sick my wife said we are holding everyone off to come meet him for a month. Whatever she wants to do I’m fine with. She knows best.

I was dressed in my Batman suit because it was a full on Batman party. I’m not going to be dressed up on the next party Lol No way. I realized how hard it is to sit down in that thing and it takes forever to get it on and off. I had to have help getting out I had sweated so much it felt glued on. However…

My boys loooooooved it. That’s the first time they’ve seen me in it. I have put it on a few times for my wife (Don’t ask Lol) and that’s been it. It still fits, which is amazing after how much we all ate during the winter. I’m happy to know it’s still in pretty good shape after all of these years. The hard part today is I have to clean it all up and that takes about an hour.

We had vegan cake, regular cake, ice cream, vegan ice cream, and an assortment of snacks. I took my boys out for a special birthday surprise. We got to meet some Super Heroes at a book event that just so happen to be on their birthday. They won’t know it was just a book event and not part of their actual party so we won’t tell them that until they are older. I got a ton of photos with a lot of the characters holding or behind my boys. It was really cool that when I said hey it’s their birthday today they all let me take photos with everyone. I had to buy 4 books but that’s fine because I like to read that type of book anyway. The other 3 copies will be mailed off to friends.

Seeing how much my boys have grown up, it’s crazy. I remember them being tiny little guys and how scared I was to even change the first diaper. I always felt like I was going to hurt them when I held them wrong or if I wasn’t sure how to hold them up on my shoulder the first few times. Now I just whip right through all of it with no problems. I was all alone when they were born. I had no wife, no girlfriend, no plan. Just me and my boys. Now I have a family for them. I have contact with their birth parents which is so important for me and them. We know their medical history and we also pretty much know what they will look like as they grow up. I’m so happy my amazing little boys are living a happy, stable, life. I’m doing my best everyday for them to make good choices and not get overwhelmed. I’m very patient with my kids and even when they are screaming bloody murder and I’m getting mad I keep my head cool and remember they are just little kids.

The hardest part for me about having twins is when I’m giving attention to one the other wants in on it and I try to balance that. I don’t know how to do it other than just try to keep focus one at a time when needed. Honestly most of the time my boys are either with me or they are near me. They really don’t leave my side that much during the day now. I love it. I don’t like the WWE style beatings they dole out on each other but I know that’s just boys. I remember my brother and I duking it out when we were little and it was a constant whooping that he would get Lol But I always hugged him later and said sorry. I know they will be best friends their entire lives. I want them to remain close to each other and close to us. I don’t care how old any of my kids are, they will always be my babies and even now when I’m out-of-town I make sure I call home a few times a day because I want to and I want to know how everyone is doing.

I love my boys so much. It’s indescribable how much I love my kids. I tell them everyday several times a day I love them and they are finally getting to say it back. They are smart. Man, are my boys smart. They will be smarter than me someday I know that for sure. I want to provide a happy home. I want my wife and I to continue to nurture them, teach them, but also let them figure things out on their own. I will always be here for my boys. Always. I know my family and friends will be too. I’m so happy things are going great. I know that my wife loves them with all of her heart and when we go back to the States for summer vacation she is seriously wanting to adopt all of the kids. She was the one that chose not to. I asked her to adopt but she said no. Then she realized that she is their mom. She feels it, she wants it, and I’m happy she figured it out. I knew she would eventually. I even told her when they all turn 18, go ahead and adopt them. I know that her hesitation was about me and my past and nothing to do with not wanting my kids. I have proven over and over I have changed and I am making better choices. I have proven my complete dedication only to her and I have given her no reason at all to worry about me and other women. Those days are done. Thankfully I got all of that out of my system before my kids were here. I have calmed down, I’m a lot nicer, and I really try hard to be thoughtful. She sees all of that. She said I really am her soul mate and these kids belong with us both in Heaven. She’s taking care of whatever legal steps we need to do and I will happily sign any paper to give her rights to my babies. I trust her with my kids. I trust if we get a divorce we will split custody (And that will be in any new paperwork Lol) but I also know that I will work with her. My kids are our kids and I’m doing my best to make sure everyday she feels like their mom. I think having Talon sealed it for her. Knowing we have a child together, knowing the best thing is to keep all of the siblings together. God forbid anything happens to me, I do want all of my children together. I knew Lindsay would always have them together and that’s why she was in my papers to take custody. She said she’s happy to give them up to my wife, but she also had an hour-long conversation where my wife said Lindsay basically told her if she visits and sees the kids in disarray she’s stealing them and taking them to Mexico Lol I’m pretty sure she means it. My wife just laughed but I got a pang in my heart like Oh god she would do it.

My boys, wow. 2 years old! We made it to 2 and I haven’t lost my mind yet.

Happy Birthday Heston William! Happy Birthday Alexander James! I love you with all of my heart and I hope we made your 2nd birthday very special! Long Live Batdad!

 

189th Voicemail – July 2nd, 2015

189th Voicemail 7-2-2015 10:41am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nff1MVj3IDk&feature=youtu.be

Hey just wanted to call and tell you that I was thinking about you and I don’t want to interrupt your work I know you are busy. But I just miss you and love you and feeling greedy for you today. Anyways, I hope you have a fabulous day and I will talk to you as soon as you’re able. She had to wear pajamas that fully cover her up for their religious modesty reason. It was really hot in Las Vegas so I told her I would help her pick out a lighter pajama set because she had been struggling to sleep. I sent one from Target I found online. She went and picked it up and took this photo modeling it. She said she slept a lot better that night. She said she should have done that years ago but because of him she had to follow their beliefs. She said she was going to start wearing shorts more often too, it was just too hot.

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1st Voicemail, 2nd Voicemail, 3rd Voicemail – March 10, 2015

Meri’s brother passed away early in the morning. She told me via text that woke me up. Then I called her right away and we talked for a few minutes.

This was a hard day for Meri. I tried to say the right things but I didn’t know what to say at all. As soon as she told me I called her. I prayed for her and her family. I prayed for her brother. I was in shock, so was she. I felt so bad for them. It was so unexpected. She was still in Utah. I was in Las Vegas. She went up there for her mom’s birthday party. She had planned on coming home that day but then when she got word she was trying to figure out what to do.

I offered to come up there and help out. I knew I couldn’t be with her around her family but I wanted to support her. I told her I would fly up, hug her, give her a check for the funeral expenses and take off so she could get back to being with her family. She told me to come up if I wanted to.

Later that afternoon I flew back as she was driving back and you can hear how happy she was for the time we had spent together. She said no one has ever done so much for so little time before. She did not need a check for the funeral costs she and her family figured it out so my offer was declined. This was a big step forward into our relationship deepening. Me being there for her. It was this day and everything that went on when we really started to feel and trust in the love we were creating together.

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http://starcasm.net/archives/309325

 

1st Voicemail 3-10-2015 12:56am

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8pQkzgu5Do&feature=youtu.be

Hey Sam it’s me. Listen, I know you’ve had a really rough day and I’m really sorry about that and I wish there was something I could do to help you. I just need you to know that I love you and I care about you and I care for you and I just. I’m just really concerned about you right now. And I just, I want to talk to you I want to make sure you are going to be okay. I know you needed to check out and just get away so I’m sorry I’m calling you again. I’m just really concerned about you right now. Take the time that you need I guess. Take an hour or a day or a couple days. I don’t even know. I don’t know what you need and I don’t know how best to help you right now. You are just such a good guy. You care about people and I don’t know if other people that for you and I just wanted to make sure you are okay. I’m just really concerned about you. You are just really down right now. So anyway, know that I care. Know that I love you, know that I care. Know that I’m concerned about you.

2nd Voicemail 3-10-2015 8:48am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JkaN4xbadoQ&feature=youtu.be

Hey. So I’m driving so it was easier and safer to call you than text you back. But, as far as you saying you want to come up here just to hug me. I think that is just really sweet, but I don’t want to make you do that at all. It’s too out of the way, you know whatever thing and I just, I mean, I don’t want you to think that I’m turning you down. But I, you know how I am about not wanting to ask somebody to do something and that’s a huge thing to do. But I really appreciate that. So, it’s up to you. If you want to, I would love to see you and if you don’t, it’s a hassle, it’s an all day thing, I’m totally understanding of that. The other thing is…

3rd Voicemail 3-10-2015 3:47pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLfETAe9fqo&feature=youtu.be

Mr. Sam Cooper. I wanted to leave just a quick little message for you just thinking about you, just wanted to say I’ve had a fun time getting to know you. You are a great guy, I’ve totally enjoyed it. We’ve had great conversations and I’m just having fun with it. This is, just really sweet. I am on my way home now and I was just thinking about you so I thought I would leave you a message. Anyway, I will drive safe, I want you to fly safe and we will talk later. As soon as you touch down and have some time you should shoot me a text and let me know that you got there all safe and everything is all great and I can’t wait to talk to you again.

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