133rd Voicemail, 134th Voicemail, 135th Voicemail, 136th Voicemail, 137th Voicemail, 138th Voicemail, 139th Voicemail – June 9th, 2015

This was not a fun day in the morning time. Meri had lied to me. She was really upset she got caught. But she was more upset about how she got caught. She slipped up and I said wait a minute then caught her. Then she lied about lying and that was 2 lies in a row. I was pissed. I was angry but more frustrated. It only lasted a few hours because I knew she didn’t want to lie to me. She just didn’t know or think the lies would be found out. I told her that I loved her and don’t lie to me. There was nothing at all she could ever say to me that would hurt me more than a lie.

We did a lot of communicating and working things out. There were things that she questioned me about too and I gave her the information right away. We both felt better. We both felt a little hurt but love. It was always love that won. I loved Meri so much it didn’t matter to me that she lied to me. I mean it pissed me off. But I only wanted her to be happy and choose to be with me. Not feel like she was stuck with me because for 5 years she felt stuck and trapped with him in their relationship.

I offered her freedom. I offered her unconditional love and non-judgement. I supported everything she said and wanted to do. But most of all I really did love her and only her. That was the one thing he could not offer her anymore. And she wanted that. To have me all to herself. That’s why she called so much. She wanted me around all of the time.

We did work things out and went back to being in love and very sweet to each other. Unfortunately for me, this wouldn’t be the last time Meri lied to me. She only lies when she doesn’t want to say something or she doesn’t know how to say something. That’s the honest truth. I don’t believe Meri is a liar. I do believe she does lie about some huge things in her life and maybe that’s her way of not dealing with them.

133rd Voicemail 6-9-2015 8:03am

Baby I know your phone is turned off. And you’ve probably blocked me and I don’t know if you will even get this. I don’t even know what to say except for what I’ve said before. I am sorry. I did nothing on purpose. I did not keep that from you on purpose. I am so sorry. I know how it looks and it was not what it was intended at all. I did not even know about what was going on with that business dealing with them until it was halfway through. It just was not even on my radar to even talk to you about it. I just, am so sorry. So sorry for the anger, and hurt and pain. I’m really sorry. Please call me.

134th Voicemail 6-9-2015 8:16am

Baby I am so sorry. I can’t. Imagine what I have done to you and the hurt that I have caused you. And I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I need you to just please call me, okay baby? I just can’t even think of what else to say. Please just call me.

135th Voicemail 6-9-2015 8:23am

Samuel. Samuel Cooper. You are what I want. Do you understand that? I need you to know this. You are what I want. I am out for you and that is all I am out for. That’s all. That’s all I want. I’m not going for anybody else. I am just so sorry. Please talk to me. Please talk to me.

136th Voicemail 6-9-2015 8:57am

Samuel I am so sorry. This was an honest mistake it was a huge mistake but it was an honest mistake. And I am so sorry. I am sick about this. I am sick mostly of how you feel about me because of it. I know you are angry with me and it is completely warranted and I am so sorry. I didn’t do it on purpose. I just wasn’t even thinking about that aspect of it. And it had nothing to do with trying to withhold anything. I swear to you baby. I swear. I don’t even know if I could even ever convince you of it. I am so sorry. This is screwing up your life and my life and us. And I hate it. I am so angry about it. I am so angry that she is doing this. I don’t know why she is doing this. I don’t get it. I am so angry.

137th Voicemail 6-9-2015 3:06pm

Hi, could you call me please. I want to know what those phone numbers were that you listed off the other day, yesterday. Last night. I’ve gotten a couple of calls from California and I don’t know, I haven’t answered them. But I don’t know who they are and I don’t know if it’s something I need to be concerned about if she’s got another phone possibly that I need to block. Anyway, could you give me a call and give me a heads up on what’s going on?

138th Voicemail 6-9-2015 9:14pm

Samuel. I know it’s not fair or appropriate to try to apologize and ruin that an apology with an excuse. I know that. All I can say is I’m sorry. Nothing was done with any malintent. I did not even think. I did not even think about that issue. It did not even cross my mind. I never. Oh god. It didn’t even go there. I am not out to get you for anything other than you and who you are because I love you. That’s all. You asked me to stay open to you and I did. You made me fall so in love with you. You made me fall really, really hard. That’s all I want. That’s all I’ve wanted. Please call me. Please let me talk to you, please. I hope your appointment goes well. I really do.

139th Voicemail 6-9-2015 11:13pm

Baby please will you do whatever the physical therapist is asking you to do. Lindsay texted you. She said you are kind of being stubborn. Will you please just do what you need to do to heal your foot. Okay? You need that healed. Okay? Please. I love you, bye.

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88th Voicemail – May 9th, 2015

We were still in love and talking a lot at this point. When I have fewer voicemails that means I had a lot of time that day to talk to her. We were still struggling and talking things out.

88th Voicemail 5-9-2015 8:41am

Good morning. Just calling to touch base with you wanted to check and see how you are doing. So give me a call whenever you want, okay? Hope you have a good day. Love you, bye.

16th Voicemail – April 9, 2015

We were still struggling a little bit. It wasn’t serious but it was causing insecurity in both of us. The affair was a month into it by now and we were very much in love. For me the guilt of all of the sex with knowing she was still spiritually married really bothered me. She kept reassuring me it was not at all what it seemed. We were always able to talk all of this out.

16th Voicemail 4-09-2015 10:58pm

Sam, I need you to know that I love you and I’m sorry that what I said upset you, okay? I love you, don’t shut me out please, okay? We promised we wouldn’t do this to each other, okay? I love you. I’ll talk to you soon, okay? Bye.