4 kids and now she wants another one??? NO!

My wife has baby fever. She is literally trying to do things to make me want to have another baby. She said she wants to just get another one now. She said one more and we can be completely done. I said I thought we were going to adopt and she said yes we can do that too. But naturally, she wants one more and now!


I’m not ready. I don’t want another one so close to Talon’s birth. We need to wait. It’s like talking her off of a baby ledge Lol She’s getting annoying about it. I told her we need to give it more time. She’s at work all day. I’m at home working and taking care of the kids with the nanny. It’s hard.

That’s why I haven’t been updating anything lately. I pop into Twitter, Facebook, and here but that’s about all I can manage.

I’m finally into a schedule for my work. We get everything ready for the day and we decided when my wife gets home than it’s mommy and daddy time. I am pitching in with all of the kids but mostly just for meals. So far it’s working out great. Until Peace gets a little more active. I told everyone we will make adjustments as much as we need to.

How is everyone doing? I’m actually pretty good. I’m feeling good. I’m working out again. Life is perfect. My wife is loving her job. She goes back and forth on if we should move back to the States or not.

It’s been a lot of fun in Paris and we are finally just getting out to explore. We do our Friday night date nights and our Saturday all day with the kids things. We take them almost everywhere. They are all doing great. My boys Lol Oh geez, my boys are something else. They are so active. I feel old chasing after them all of the time. They want to get into everything. They are working together to get stuff they shouldn’t have. It’s pretty funny listening to them plot. You get it, no you get it. It’s hilarious.

We have a big trip coming up in July for Peace’s first birthday. Other than that we won’t be going back to the States anytime soon. We have a lot of weekend trips planned. I can’t wait to hit Norway. That’s coming up next weekend. It’s going to be a 4 day trip. There is so much I want to check out.

I am finally getting back to all of my messages today so be sure to check your Inbox if you sent me something. I love all of the great messages and comments. I’m so happy we get to keep in touch. I love all you guys and can’t wait to meet you guys at my next book signings.

Have a great May 4th!

Christmas Busy

I’m sorry I haven’t updated much lately. Here’s why…


With my wife being in Paris growing our son Talon to perfection and living her dream life I’m here working, taking care of the kids and trying to stay sane. Things are so busy with Christmas, year-end work things, and trying to prepare to move. I’m overwhelmed. I have gotten and now read all of your messages. Thank you for the well wishes. I’ve just been really busy, guys.

Alex had a cold he’s much better now. Thankfully Heston and Peace did not get it. I think it was because Sarah sequestered herself up with Alex for a few days. We barely saw them peek out of their side of the house. My condos are NOW for sale in a pocket listing and I have 4 offers. I had no idea this would go that fast. My wife said go for it so I’m finally allowed to sell them off. I’m mulling the offers today and I will decide by tonight which one to take. I love multiple offers when I’m selling buildings. It makes the price go up and up. I don’t like it when I’m one of the bidders Lol

Work is great. Very busy trying to wrap up my 10 years at SJC. I’m over 30 years at my construction company and 20 at my gas stations and mall investments. I am still going to be HALF owner of all of it. I just will be the silent partner now. Lindsay is taking it all over. She has a new team working hard and she trusts them. It also helps that SHE is the only one allowed to make financial decisions which means she has to stay in contact with all of the businesses daily. She loves it. She said this is her new dream job because she is always busy and she never has a dull day. Plus she gets to travel all over the place and not pay for it Lol Nice to have a corporate credit card.

The kids are all doing great. My wife hit the 34 week mark! Well 34 weeks and 1 day technically. That means we have 5 weeks and 6 days until her due date. I just need him to stay in there until I get there in early January Lol Once I move over and am settled in he can come see us anytime he wants.

With Talon I’m actually not that nervous. I’m really excited. I talk to him as much as I can and I let him know how much we love him already. I can’t wait to see his beautiful little face and count the fingers and toes. As soon as she goes into labor Drew and Lindz will be making their way to us with her parents and a few of her siblings. The ones that can take off a few days from work will come and we will be sending videos and photos as often as we can.

Yes I FINALLY uploaded photos from all of the things we have been doing. Yes that’s our Christmas tree this year Lol It’s in Paris and it’s HUGE. My wife decided since we have 12 foot ceilings, go big or go home. I think that’s really funny. Her and Brandi spent a long time deciding the theme and I think it looks great. Yes that’s also a lot of presents but we have a large family now. Everyone is spoiled rotten by my wife so that’s why the gifts are pretty much filling up half of our living room. I always said I wouldn’t turn into that parent but look at me now. My wife went nuts which made me feel competitive and now our kids will have way too many toys Lol Oh well. We will do better next time. I hope.

We are also actively trying to figure out the boys’ birthday party theme. Yes it’s close to that time already. 2 years old. Can you guys believe it! It is flying by. As soon as Talon is born we are done having kids for a few years. I’ve already been told several times we need to slow down a little. My wife wants to get her body back in shape and just enjoy the kids we have. We do not have plans to adopt anymore kids until 2020. We both agreed that’s a good time to start talking about adopting again. We do want to adopt one more child. A little girl, again. We are very interested in adopting an non-white child we can. I think having a variety will make us all better people. I really enjoy having Peace in our lives. She is so beautiful and is growing up with a happy home life. She smiles all of the time. I can’t believe my baby girl is so big now. 5 months old guys! Wow. The time is just flying by. She is sitting up, she has the sweetest light laugh you have ever heard, and she has a whole bunch of black hair. We had to trim it already because it was crazy. We put little bows but she gets mad so we don’t do that very often. The boys help out so much and it helps now that she’s sleeping almost all the way through the night. I am really enjoying that part.

My kids are happy, we are moving to Paris soon and we will be living our best lives so far. I can’t wait.

I miss my wife so bad. She needs to be there and I know that but I just miss her. She loves to snuggle in the morning, she also fills the house with laughter. I do everything I can to make her giggle or laugh every day. She loves it. She misses me too which makes me feel really good. We are having the best time. I’m so happy I married her. I couldn’t imagine my life without this woman. She is everything I was looking for and nothing I expected. She does not let me get away with anything. We have slowly been building a trust that has not been broken. She knows all of my bad decisions from the past are completely over with. I am dedicated to my family and no one will tear us apart. Not that a few haven’t tried. My goodness the women from my past really need to let me go. I know we had fun, I know we laughed and had good times but that’s not my life now. I just want to move far away from all of that and keep going forward with my wife and kids. They are #1. They deserve my full attention. I’ve tried to be gracious but there comes a point when my wife is getting really pissed off and starting to blame me for them leaving voicemails or text. It has been hard to deal with in moments.

If your life isn’t the best or you are not happy, move on. That’s what I did. It’s hard. It’s really hard at first until you realize you can deal with things all alone. You can figure out what happened and why. Then you laugh and think boy was that really stupid and I put up with way too much crap. I should have known better.

I’m finally mature enough to know that. It has taken 42 years to get there but it hit me like a big bag of bricks. My life is my life. I am in charge. I make choices. I’m happy. Right now in this very moment I have everyone and everything I need. If you can’t support that or you are jealous of that, sorry. You don’t get my attention anymore. You phone games and passive aggressive “I need your help” texts have no effect. I know you want my attention (2 specific ladies I mean here) but you don’t get it. My wife and I have decided that I do not need to communicate with you anymore. In order for her to fully trust me I finally cut you 2 off. I had to. We can’t be friends especially with both of you still claiming to be “in love” with me.  Well I’m not in love with either of you and haven’t been for years. I love my wife. I love my gorgeous, happy, perfect, pregnant wife. I hope that’s clear for you. I do wish you all of my best and I pray you will get out of your miserable situations but until you feel like you deserve better you are going to stay stuck. You don’t have to, but you will. I’m free of all of that. My past is miles away from me and I am keeping it that way. My wife and I know that causes problem in our marriage and she was very open and honest about her feelings of jealous of you 2 still being friends. That’s why you are out of my life. I’ve said all of this at least a dozen times but now I’m publically saying, STOP. I am okay. You don’t need to check on me anymore. My wife is all I want. She loves me more than either of you ever did. The things you don’t want me to publically say, I still haven’t. I have kept your secrets about your relationships. I know to keep them this time. Good luck, God bless, Bye Felicia.

Enough of that. I need to start my work day here.

Everyone have a great weekend. We are going to be at home trying to get things ready to move. We are taking the boys swimming tonight. I promised to take them a few days ago and didn’t. Alex is better and I think he would really enjoy a hot swim. It will make him feel better I think. I will update more as soon as I can. Sorry for the rant but I am trying to wrap up all of my American loose ends Lol And let’s face it you guys love hearing the behind the scenes part of my life.

Isn’t is fun being a Batfan? Lol Love ya’ll!

Busy work week

Things are going well. I am trying to figure out a few things at work but so far so good. I have been a little stressed this week. We have so much going on. I feel like 15 hour days just isn’t enough right now. I go home, do all my family responsibilities and then I’m working. I work until it’s bed time or my wife tells me that’s enough. I have been waking up at 4am to get things caught up. It’s exhausting. But when we take vacations and trips things can get backed up.

I am finally caught up with my emails at work and the emails from this blog. Thank you all for the great comments. I love that we have all continued to maintain a great email talk back and forth. I am slowly getting through all of my Twitter DM’s and will try to get those done this week. I get about 350 messages per day. Some are those spam messages from new followers trying to get me to read their profile/website/other social media accounts. But most are personal messages from all of you. I had opened up my Twitter to accept Direct Messages from Anyone. Even those that don’t follow me. That’s when my DM’s went from about 100 a day up to 350. Twitter maxes out at 350. If you have sent me a DM and I didn’t respond that’s because I had hit my max for that day and Twitter didn’t let it go through.

I also love the comments you all leave here. I read them and delete them. It’s rare I respond because almost all of you are already talking to me on email or elsewhere. I am getting about 25 blog comments per day now. It’s a lot of fun. This is why I keep this blog going. I like writing, I like your comments. With Lindsay’s help we have cleaned up all of my accounts. She sprayed Troll Repellant all over Lol They are gone, finally. If they continue their bs I never see it. Thanks to those defending me but you don’t have to. I don’t see anything they have to say. Block and ignore please. They eventually get bored and go attack a new target. The ones that have hung around for the past 2 years to harass me are sociopathic. They have nothing better to do than bully me online. That shows their character or lack their of. Just let them do their thing because I don’t see any of it. Twitter and Facebook have done a great job helping me get rid of the trash accounts that try to stalk, target, or harass me. Lindsay continues to get them suspended or locked up for 12 hours. She also forces them to delete certain tweets which I find hilarious. If you spend your day harassing a guy you have never met, don’t even know, you are twisted in the head. And I pray for you.

This weekend we have big plans. My wife is a traveler and loves to plan out our trips. I’m old and like to stay at home. But I know to keep her happy and to give my boys some adventure we will go as she leads. And I really do love the places she finds. We are seeing things I enjoy. She always makes sure I have food that we can eat. That is #1 for me and my boys on any trip. I will let you guys know Friday where we are going this weekend.

We are still in summer vacation planning mode. All of my nannies will be out of school in July when we go to Ireland and they all want to come. Passports are done, paperwork, shots are in process. We are going to have a great week in Dublin. I have rented a house there for our privacy. Also it’s easier for this huge group to stay in one spot. That way I have a lot of help with the boys when needed. My dog, Sam Jr will be staying at home. I don’t take him overseas. It’s too much for the little guy. When we move to Paris he will be going over and then he will stay in Paris when we come back. I have taught him French commands ever since I got him at 4 months old. So he’s well versed on the main things he can or can’t do in English and French.

My wife is taking a french course online. She wants to get the basics down then she’s going to sign up for a community class on French at night. She is very serious about this stuff, folks. She wants to be fluent by the time we move. It’s coming up in a year and a half now. We are going to sell off everything and leave. That way there’s no reason to return to Chicago and stay. We want to be gone. We can stay in hotels or with family the few times a year we come back. And we already talked to her family, any emergency, her and I come back immediately. The boys stay. It’s too hard on them. I promised them that and we will bind ourselves to that promise the best we can. The plan is to sell my lake house first. That’s just a part-time residence. The condos will sell very quickly. They are in a prime area I will more than make all of my money back on them and we will leave with 3 really huge checks.

We have so much going on at home it really is hard for me to sleep. I toss and turn right now. I tried sleeping on the couch once so I wouldn’t keep waking my wife up but she came out and said Uh uh. We don’t sleep apart. So get back in bed or I’m getting my pillow to come out here Lol And that was that. She didn’t care if I kept her up. She just wanted me next to her. She really is the best. We are a perfect match. I love her more than I have ever loved anyone. My blonde haired beauty. My soul mate.

The good news is that we are trying to get pregnant. We aren’t monitoring stuff anymore. We are just letting God’s will happen. The adoption is still forthcoming. I just have to let them know when I’m ready. I thought I was ready earlier this year when the little girl became available. But it didn’t feel like the right time. So I told them no and she was adopted within a few days. That was a load of guilt I carried for a week or two. I just want my boys to be a little older. I really thought the State of Illinois would take a lot longer to process my paperwork and give me a green light but if you think about it I have already been in the system with them almost 2 years now. If there were any red flags they would have found them by now. The only hold up we have has been the judge wanting to know why my wife would not be on the adoption order. She had to answer his questions about that, then I had to answer too. He was confused but once we explained it, he understood. They are my children. I won’t share custody to the point they are out of my home. Not even for my wife. I’m not worried about a divorce. I’m more worried about something happening to me and if that does happen we have everything in order. My trust fund set aside for all of my children goes into Lindsay’s name and possession and she raises them. My wife will get visitation if she wants which she has promised me she will. It’s a done deal. As soon as our other children come into our lives we will adjust the paperwork again. It’s to protect them. To make sure that my wife can move on with her life and date or marry again if she wants to. It would be very unfair for her to raise all 3 or whatever kids all alone. I want to take care of her too. Being a lawyer she did a lot of research and spent a long time thinking about all of this before she agreed to marry me. My pre-nup is air tight and she knows that. It covers all circumstances. She understands why I did it that way and supports the decisions. I need to know my children will be okay. With Lindsay she would literally give up her life for any of them. Drew would too. And Drew knows I would do the exact same for any of his children. That’s just how the 3 of us are. Best friends for life.

Everything is going so fast right now. I was hoping for a quiet weekend but maybe a little time in a different place will do me good. I just hope they have some watermelon. I’ve been craving that for a few days. I should get one tonight after work.

I hope everyone is having a great work week. Hang in there we are half way through. Let’s all pray for a fun and sunny weekend! I love ya’ll.  I will update later.

Quick update

I have been really busy at work and at home. My boys are doing great. Things are great. I just haven’t had time to update this. I will update more this weekend. I hope everyone is having a great work week.

God loves you and I love ya’ll too!

Busy, busy, and busy

I did not get my usual weekend update post out. I didn’t even attempt to write one. Things are really busy right now for me. I love it but I’m constantly tired. So here’s a quick update.

My boys are still learning how to be mobile. They are both scooting. It’s hilarious and they both make weird baby sounds but this is just their process. It has gotten much easier to tell the boys apart finally. I can 100% look at them and point out who is who. I hate that it has taken me this long. I’m with them as much as humanly possible but it was still a trick or two. Sarah had it down within a week. She’s that good. Let me get into the latest Sarah news. Sarah has been doing online classes to start herself on the path to become a nurse that Teaches classes. It’s a lot of reading and answering questions on the computer. She said she wants to be the nanny for the money and to help us out. But after the kids get into school or she sees that I’m doing fine on my own she wants to be prepared and ready to move into the next phase of her life. I love that. I wish her well and I told her she is welcomed to stay even after she knows I can handle all of this. I told her I never want her to leave us. Unless she gets married because that would be weird but I told her even after that she can still be here and work for us. She said she wants to stay and save up as much money as she can to put herself in a great financial position to have a nice apartment to start out in, a new car, and all of her tuition and school bills paid off completely. That is her goal. Happy to help with all of that. Sarah did start asking me about if I wanted to put the boys into baby classes. What’s that? She said baby classes are like mommy and me where they get to socialize with other babies, they get to do fun activities and it’s all about helping them learn with different stimuli and a teacher. I knew about the mommy and me thing. I got invited to one Lol But I declined because I did not want to be the only guy in there with all those women and I knew my boys would get all of the attention because they truly are the cutest babies ever. So I declined. I told her we’re not ready! She laughed and said you have to let go at some point. They need it. I said get me the book on it. I will read it. We can talk about it but if they go somewhere you are going with them. I don’t want her to just drop them off and come back. She said she would be there the entire time. I said how can you do a baby class with twins all by yourself? She said they have people there to help. She would find one that would accommodate twins and that she would figure it out. She said this is the age where they  are learning so much every single day and it’s good to get them out a little and experience the world. With her protection of course. I don’t wanna. They’re too young. I’m being silly I get that but I just don’t know. I need more info to make that decision. They are both drooling like crazy. It’s getting out of hand. Sarah said that means we are about to get our first tooth. She said it will come up from the bottom first. I am not ready for that! We just switched to solids Lol This is going way too fast for me.

I have 7 month old twins. Well in 2 days they will be 7 months. It is not easy. I have so sleep deprived most of the week that I don’t know how I function at work. And this time it’s not their fault. My boys sleep through the night. Finally. I lay awake at night and can’t sleep. I’m constantly worried that I am screwing up with them and no amount of therapy will ever fix them Lol I also worry about myself. I am going out a little. About once every 2 weeks I get out at night. Or I go to a Bears game or a Cubs game. I do something. But it’s not like it was before the boys came. That part of me is itching to get out more. But I can’t. I do not have time. Okay well I do have the time. I just don’t want to. I really think that I had these kids so that I could raise them. My nannies are here to be here when I’m at work. Or the few times a month I do get out. I have completely adjusted my work schedule and got rid of my overnight work trips. Someone else in my office goes or if it’s a bigger meeting I send Lindsay. She is doing great btw. She is working hard. The whole Ben break-up is getting easier and she is enjoying living in her new house all alone. Ben is still my friend. We talk a lot. He is still holding out hope she will want him back but he said he won’t wait forever. Maybe a few more months. At least she has began to talk to him again. I guess when she told him it’s over, get out, it got emotional. She is actually showing up for work on time now and staying all day. That’s a shocker. Lindsay has always worked to get the work done. Then she leaves. And you can’t find her. On weekends she completely disappears. You won’t get a text back from here until Monday morning. I know she’s reading everything because I see the Read Receipt on our Iphones. She’s just taking her weekends to do whatever it is that is fun. Her entire life has always been about really living. It’s kind of her motto. Live like you will die. So she does all of this crazy stuff, makes all kinds of friends everywhere, and has a great time. I envy that. It makes me want to hang out with her all of the time but I can’t. I have a family now. We are still very close. We talk a lot but it’s not everyday anymore. I’m busy, she’s busy. We email about work. And she might throw in a few personal things in there. I’m sure I do the same. She said I need to be at home for a few years. Get the boys ready for their great big lives because they will not have a normal childhood. Amen to that. I don’t even know what normal looks like. All I know is that I will show and tell them how much I love them and that will be their lives. No matter what my kids do, say, or become, I will love them the most. I have since I first heard the heartbeats. I fell completely in love with my kids!

Work is busy. I wish it would slow down but I keep expanding my businesses. The money is really great right now. We are all preparing for the financial hit that’s coming in a year and change so we are being cautious. But at the same time you have to make the deals that produce recurring income. Being a venture capitalist has never been easy. I have to make the best informed decision I can to move forward. When we lose a deal, it’s tough. You get your hopes up and really see potential then things don’t work out and you get bummed out. Lindsay goes with the F’ It Approach and charges full steam ahead without really looking at everything. When she hits a big deal, it’s really big. When it’s bad, it’s really, really bad and I get angry. But she makes us all money. I’m making more money now that I have ever made in my life. She is my only investor and she is the only account we run. Everyone else comes to us for advice and everyone else comes to us for help. I feel like a bank half of the time. You insert cashflow into someone’s business, you take over their management until it’s all straightened out and you expect them to continue running things within the new system. Most folks go right back to the same mistakes that got them into trouble. So we come back in, take a higher % of the profits and try again. Some people just don’t know how to change. I hope I’m not like that. I am stubborn but not immovable. I am so thankful to God for all of this good business. I’m putting more into my savings accounts than ever before and it really feels good that our monthly income margins are getting bigger and bigger. I have always wanted to retire early. I’m setting myself up to retire in 2 years. That’s my goal. In 2 years I will have 2 year and 7 month year olds. I will be able to do everything for my boys and we will be able to travel the world. That’s the dream. I don’t want to educate them in America. I want them to have a much broader scope of the world. I know we will be moving at some point. I keep wanting Paris but with all of those attacks it scares me. I have plenty of time to figure it out.

One last note so I can get back to work here. One of the ladies I had been dating, well she and I decided to end it. She has a chance to date someone new. She said he’s on the same page she is. They have only begun talking but he asked her out. She told me over lunch yesterday. I said I hope we can still be friends. I hugged her and told her to be happy. She told me the same. Great girl! She will make a great wife someday, for someone else. I am nowhere ready for a full on relationship. I’m not even in any hurry to start having sex again. Although that has been wayyyyy too long Lol I have had a lot of offers for hook-ups but that’s not me. I want to take things slow and develop love before I ever jump into bed with someone. I’m still working on me. I’m still learning about me. And I’m happy. I really am happy!

Thanks for reading this. Have a great day ya’ll! I know it’s y’all. I have never spelled it the right way so I can be unique. And who really cares anyway? Texas Forever! God bless you guys and I love you.