Last Call

it's_not_goodbye...-1920061  Neither one of us said Goodbye. Neither one of us wanted it to end. But we agreed to end it and we both walked away. The only difference is I left her completely alone. We broke up August 23rd, 2015. I am working on a long explanation post to sum all of this up. It will better explain a lot of things and probably answer some questions that I continue to get. With proof 😉

 

215th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 1:02am
https://vimeo.com/166581137
Sam it’s really not fair for you to be so upset with me when I’m honest with you. You asked me to do that. I am open and honest with you. I am emotional because I love you, okay? I’m telling you that I am doing this stupid dinner. I don’t get it. You told me be open, honest, be angry, whatever and I will support you in love.
216th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 1:08am
https://vimeo.com/166581269
Sorry for hanging up on you. I love you. Bye.
217th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 2:11am and 2:13am
https://vimeo.com/166581414
Hi. I saw that you said that you did say you called back and you left a voicemail but there’s no voicemail so I don’t know what you are saying. Sorry I hung up. I just needed your strength in that moment and I didn’t have it and I’m just upset. It frustrates me sometimes. Gosh. You just said that I was going to have that from you when I was having a hard time and you didn’t give it to me and I just needed it. Anyway, okay.
and then
So your message finally came through and I finally listened to it. I need you to know………. (Kody walked in on her)
218th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 12:06pm
https://vimeo.com/166581612
You know what Sam you’re pissing me off. You want to hear my honest feelings? You’re making me really mad. Quit baffling back and forth. This is stupid. Get on the phone. Have a conversation with me. Quit running away. Just knock it off, quit running away. Take that stupid tweet off. That’s ridiculous. When you know it’s over, you know. Really? Take that off the phone right now or off the tweet right now. Get it off. Call me back.
219th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 6:04pm
https://vimeo.com/166581721
You know I did talk to you earlier today about wanting to get together this afternoon and do something and hang out.
220th Voicemail August 13th, 2015 8:21pm
https://vimeo.com/166582533
Please hear the sincerity in my voice and in my heart honey. I am here for you. You are what I want at the end of this. I am what you want at the end of this. Please let that happen honey. It’s not about money or cars or houses or trips or businesses or anything. It’s just you and me, please. Please let me talk to you. Baby I love you. I know you’re still mad and I understand it. I understand your frustration.

221st Voicemail August 13th, 2015 8:53pm
https://vimeo.com/166582623
Samuel, why are you telling me to stop. What do you want me to stop doing? Trying to get through to you? I don’t know what’s going on here. I don’t know why you are ignoring me.
222nd Voicemail August 14th, 2015 10:04pm
https://vimeo.com/166582703
So it’s been like 45 minutes since you sent me that text that said “WTF, why would you send that to me if he (Kody) said that to you?” You know those texts. And I explained to you, you know  in a bunch of texts  after that and I called you and stuff. So now I don’t know if you are just mad and ignoring me or if you’re busy or you’ve fallen asleep. Or if you’re just ignoring me. I have no idea. I don’t know if I’m supposed to be calling.
223rd Voicemail August 14th, 2015 10:09pm
https://vimeo.com/166582766
I don’t know. I guess I’ll stop calling you and texting you tonight because I don’t. Maybe I’m pissing you off. I don’t know. I just don’t even know. I hope you’ll call me back. I really do. I really want you to. You know. I sent you all those pictures and stuff of my day and stuff and I’m not even getting a response on those.
224th Voicemail August 15th, 2015 12:53pm
https://vimeo.com/166597496
Hey baby I just wanted to tell you I love you.
225th Voicemail August 15th, 2015 5:02pm
https://vimeo.com/166659659
I hope to see you very soon. I’m just hanging out here and I’m just thinking about you and I’m just feeling really peaceful. Just thought I would try touching base with you.
226th Voicemail August 16th, 2015 2:07pm
https://vimeo.com/166659720
I’m just watching for you. I’m waiting for you. You said you would be here and you’re not going anywhere so I’m watching for you.
227th Voicemail August 17th, 2015 12:29pm
https://vimeo.com/166659807
Hey baby I’m home. Wanted to let you know and call me and yeah. Just call me, okay? I love you.
228th Voicemail August 18th, 2015 3:51pm
https://vimeo.com/166659831
Hey, so over 2 hours with no communication was just way too much for me so I’m just trying to touch base with you. I miss you. Anyway, call me when you can, okay. I love you babe, bye.
229th Voicemail August 19th, 2015 11:37am
https://vimeo.com/166659862
Hey baby, just trying to touch base with you. Haven’t heard from you. Anyway, give me a call. Bye.
230th Voicemail August 20th, 2015 1:24pm
https://vimeo.com/166663671
Where are you baby? I love you give me a call. Love you, bye.
231st Voicemail August 21st, 2015 9:16am
https://vimeo.com/166663703
Hanging up on me is not nice, it’s not kind, it’s not sweet, it’s not cool. I don’t know why you do that. All I’m saying is that I care about the fact that you have another appointment and you didn’t have to cancel it just because I wanted to be on the phone. I want to be on the phone with you when you are available. I am trying to be considerate of your time I don’t need to be hung up on. That was rude. I have been trying to be nice and sweet all day long. Trying to be caring. Okay.
232nd Voicemail August 28th, 2015 8:16pm
https://vimeo.com/166664100
I literally don’t know what to do. Because you ask me to push you and you ask me to tell you, how much, what I want and what I need and how much I love you. And yet when I try to do that you just don’t answer and you won’t let me talk to you. And. You get frustrated when I’m trying to push you. I’m really trying to find the balance here. I really am. I’m trying to do what you want and what you need. This has to do with history (With Kody) has nothing to do with anything. Like, if you don’t want me to bug you then I’ll back off and not bug you. But I don’t want to back off and not bug you. I want to shake you and say listen to me damn it. I want to shake you and say let’s fix this damn it. Don’t walk away. You can’t fix it when you walk away. Gosh. I love you. Don’t you get it? I want you. Why else would I fight for you? Why else would I fight…
The End August 30th, 2015 10:26am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hrtk7XCmgf0
Sam I need you to know that I love you. Okay? I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. You told me once that you were not going anywhere, well you told me lots of times, that you weren’t going anywhere either. I know the last couple of days have been a struggle and I’m really, really sorry that it’s been hard for you. I just need you to know that I’m just working on what I’m working on and I hope that you come back to me. You know you’ve said that you would never leave, you said that you would always be here. You’ve said that you would wait for me. Lindsay said the same thing that you were never going anywhere. She’s said to me  too many times how much you love me. And I’m just going to have to trust, and hope, and pray that that’s really, really true. And that you really do and that you are coming back. So I just want you to know that I love you and I’m just going to focus on my stuff and pray that you’ll come back to me. I see that you’ve blocked me off of your twitter and I don’t know if you’ve blocked me off of your phone so I don’t know if you’ll even get this message or not. I just don’t know how that works, but, anyway. I just love you and I’m not going anywhere. And I’m not saying goodbye. I promise. I made you a promise. And I’m keeping my promise. I’m not saying goodbye. I’m not going anywhere. I’m just going to stay working for you, working towards you, and hope that you’re there. I’m really sorry that you’ve had a rough couple of days. I’m really sorry that in your words that I’ve fucked up your life or that you’re in, you’re in, your life is all fucked up because you are with me is more how you put it now that I’ve messed it up. Anyway. I love you…