The votes are in

We all voted today and have decided to go home on Monday. We may leave late Sunday evening so my kids can sleep the whole way. We won’t have to quarantine when we get home since we’ve been in quarantine since March 12th.

When I get home I’m going to have to figure out a lot of things really fast.

I’m glad for the time we have all had here. We are going to have a great weekend. I am ready to be home. This has been a wild experience.

Denver, it was fun, but I’m leaving

We have spent this week family reunion-ing with my peeps. I have had a great time. My kids are having a great time and I just don’t want to see these people ever again until the next family reunion Lol I’ve had my fill. So we are packing up and leaving in the morning. I want to go home. I have a lot of things left to do before my kids start school. I have to figure out where to drop them off at, what time I need to pick them up. A lot of logistical things I haven’t figured out yet. I’m glad it’s only 2 hours a day. It kind of feels like I’m dropping them off to a daycare. I don’t know how any of this will go but I am going to enjoy my time with playing daddy at home while they are gone for a short time. This is supposed to boost their education. I don’t know. I read the things they will do the first month. It just sounds like a huge play time thing. I’m not very cool with that. I want them to be there and learn things. Not fight with whoever over legos, trucks, and anything else.

I have finally posted a ton of photos and a few short videos from our time in Denver. This trip has been full of family stories and laughs. Check out my Family Facebook Page and see how it’s been going. Yes my hair did get a little lighter in color. That’s what happens when your cousin is a new beauty student and talks you into going a little big lighter for the rest of the summer. Good thing my hair grows fast and I don’t mind cutting it all off if I decide I don’t like it. So far, it’s okay. I can’t wait to see Jen’s face when I get back home and she sees it. I told her about and she just laughed.

Jen and I have been talking off and on. Mostly texting. I have been busy but I try to answer her back. She’s very nice. I am having fun getting to know her and I did tell her I would like us to keep a friendship after we move back, if we do. That is also still up in the air.

I hope you all are having a great time. Lindsay will be logging in here tonight and doing our latest rounds of bans. So bye bye stalker trolls. See you nowhere for a while Lol It’s still creepy you give this much care to what I’m up to. And as always, go do something meaningful with your life. I really don’t see, read, or care what you have to say to me. Everyone has moved on a looooooooooooong time ago.

Thank you Lindsay. Thank you all my batfans. And thank you family for a great week together! Love ya’ll!

Last day in Colorado Springs

I’m leaving the Springs in the morning. I’ve had a good time here off and on. I was able to go home for a little while because I had to. I’m not ready to post about any of that but I can say I’m recovering….okay. I’m here. That’s the best answer I can share.

My pending divorce is taking a lot longer than I want. My soon to be ex and I barely communicate and she has gotten herself into some trouble. I’m trying to be kind even though I don’t understand her at all right now. I feel like I married a complete stranger and she has turned into something more vicious than I was aware of. My kids are adjusting the best they can but they still ask about her. Not as often. She has only seen them twice. That’s her choice. And at this point I want her to stay away from them. We are getting all paperwork in order to ensure I am the only legal, custodial, you can’t have them at all parent after all of this is over with. She has signed off on them. That breaks me apart. I also realize the giant headaches it is going to relieve me from in the coming years and lucky my boys are small enough they may not even remember any of this. I can hope at least.

My new plan is to focus on my new app, work hard on getting that launched the middle of next year, and hanging out with my kids. It’s time I start planning our summer. I had all kinds of things happening and it’s about dang time I get home and just be a dad for a while.

I feel kind of broken inside. Maybe a little lost. I’m healing but just not the way I wanted to. Life is what happens when you tell God your plans. He says no son, here you go Lol

Mike and I went out last night with 2 of his female neighbors. We went to see the new Jurassic World movie. It was pretty predictable but I liked it. I’ve seen them all now. It’s way too scary for my kids but for me it was good. I don’t really go see movies that often. I can’t sit still through them. Most movies or tv don’t hold my attention. Maybe it’s the million things I have to get done or I can’t seem to reward myself with 10 minutes of relaxation without doing 3 other things all at once. I’m trying to figure out a much better balance. All I know is staying up all night wasn’t doing it. Sleeping all day because of the intense depression wasn’t doing it either. I’m coming back to life. Slowly. The hurt doesn’t hurt quite as much anymore. I think a fun night out with that group helped a lot. Mike had a lot of fun and I think he’s finally made some new friends. They are much older than he is but that’s okay. I think living in the same building they can watch out for him.

My Cubs have been playing well. 42-34 so far this year. I can’t wait to hit a game or 12 when I get home. It’s about that time to load up the family and go to Wrigley. My other plans include going into the city 2 days a week to work on my app. I can do it from our headquarters. I think that might keep me focused. And I’m going to redo my entire bedroom when I get home. My nannies said they will help me out. Lindsay is back in Las Vegas and loving it. Sarah comes only on the weekends to help out. I think things are okay. I think we are all going to survive this.

Divorce sucks. It sucks even more with kids involved. I don’t know how to explain anything to them. I feel like a total failure but I also know that’s my own personal pity party that I need to snap out of.

I just read through a lot of great messages. Thanks guys. I miss you all too. I will be updating a ton of photos from Colorado Springs plus photos of my kids. Check out our Family Facebook page later this afternoon. I have maybe 120 photos to add. And 6 videos from Colorado Springs. Mike has been showing me all of the cool places. We did do a Facebook Live last night of the review of Jurassic World. The 2 ladies helped us out. That’s already on there in case you haven’t seen it.

I’m going to miss the mountains but I don’t belong here. I healed, I hurt, I healed some more. I’m ready to go home.

I pray you all are having a great summer. I look forward to getting home and blogging more. I have a lot more to say but not yet.

 

Week 2 new business…no lets play legos

I’m trying really hard to keep myself focused on working on my new business idea. My kids are not. They want me to play with them. I’m really struggling to find the balance. I am also trying to synchronize nap time but that isn’t working out at all. Talon and Peace are on the same schedule, sort of. Heston and Alex are not. I try to play something outside or at least in the garage with them right before nap time to wear them out. Hoping that the 1 hour of sleep they get I can then work on my business. Brandi is doing a great job helping me out but so far I’m not balancing it out. I can after they go to bed. That’s about the only time I can really get things done. Luckily for me all of the people I need to talk to in the States are on a very different time frame so I can call them up during their mid morning and right before my bed time.

My wife loves her new job. She is settling in and figuring it all out. I love hearing about her day. She gets to go to court next week to observe. She said they invited her to sit behind them so she can see how it works. She said it’s going to be a long time before she can figure it all out and she also has to start work on her law degree (again). That’s the part she doesn’t like at all. We had a very long 3 day talk about all of it. She wants to stay here but if she finds out that it’s darn near impossible for her to get a law degree here, we will be moving back. She’s going to give it the rest of this year before she makes that decision. I didn’t think this would be an issue. I really thought she can work for an American law firm in Paris. There are several. She can find her new path. It’s not exactly the path she hoped for. I’m surprised. She is still trying though.

I love living here and I really want our kids to grow up in Paris. We haven’t begun to take any long weekends or enjoy the traveling we want to do yet. We want to wait until Talon is a little older before we start doing that kind of thing. My wife and I have a list of places we want to go. Up first will be London. She is dying to spend a whole weekend there. We even talked about just taking the boys. They are really good on planes and now that my newer plane is parked nearby and fixed up we can use it. It’s taken almost 3 months to get it all straightened out. I was really getting mad too. It’s not the kind of plane I can fly over the ocean with but I can hop from country to country here. I would never try to take it back to the States. For that we just charter planes. We don’t want to fly commercial with the kids, ever again Lol That just doesn’t work for us. I will pay the extra amount to get us back and forth. To me that’s worth the expense. I want my kids to be comfortable and not irritate anyone else on the flight.

We started our garden planning. We are going to do a smaller one and my wife wants to try to see what kind of things we can grow. She has an indoor plant that she bought the first weekend she moved here. It’s still alive. Now she thinks she can grow vegetables. We shall see. I think whoever we hire to do the lawn will end up doing the garden too. She has all of these great ideas but gets bored with it easily and we end up having to do something with it. It’s a little frustrating but the joy she has to start it, I just can’t say no.

From all of the messages I have received it looks like that god awful show is finally done for this year. Thank goodness. I’m happy to see more and more people are beginning to realize I’m not the bad guy in this whole thing. I fell in love. I loved her very much and was loyal. I just wanted her to be happy. She’s not. She’s living with a husband that says they are friends. That means I’m the last person that she had sex with. I don’t know how I feel about that. It just makes me very sad. She deserves so much better but she refuses to leave. That’s on her. She has lied so much to me, about me, and to all of her fans (All of you guys reading this) that it’s becoming clear she just wants attention all of the time. She’s not getting any. Why is that? Because Kody found out I’m real. He found out we did have an affair. For ratings or for whatever reason they refuse to clean up the mess Meri made of it. She will never tell the real truth. I know Kody finally knows the truth. He has read my book, read my blog and listened to every single voicemail. He knows. That’s why. You guys want to know why he’s shunning her so hard? Because he knows she cheated. I don’t feel bad about that at all. She told me her marriage was over. That part seems to be true. The rest of the things she told me were snippets of the truth.

Why do you think in all of these years they have never tried to shut down my blog, never tried to sue me? Because I have told the entire truth and you can’t sue someone for that. I followed all of my story up with PROOF. Every single thing I have said I can prove it. She can’t. So let her live in misery. It’s her choice. She’s not there for the kids, or the family. She’s there because that’s how she can make money. Yes she does have other things going on but nothing pays her like that show. Until that show goes off of the tv, she’s not going anywhere. She can claim all day long it’s because she wants to be in the family and help raise the kids (Lol yeah right). The truth is it’s about money. Keep in mind she got a free house. All she had to do was film parts of her life. Boom, FREE.

But is it really worth it? To embarrass yourself on tv, to live a lie and claim you were catfished (She wasn’t) and put up with an abusive, sexless, half-filled marriage to someone who literally tells the whole world he doesn’t want her anymore?

Is it really worth it Meri?

No. Very sad to hear. I wish she would leave. She won’t.

Is that the same dress Janelle wore in the last Tell Nothing?

Day 5 #Oahu #Hawaii Work Retreat

We all slept in and got up early still. I don’t know how that works but a 5 hour time difference helps. We only had one thing left to do and that was to take all of the remaining folks over to the Dole Pineapple plantation. My son Heston has all of a sudden decided Pineapples or as he calls them Ooohhhh’s are the best thing in the world. I think it’s because the pineapples are very fresh, very ripe, and bursting with flavors. He has not stopped eating pineapple since we got here. He smells it then he eats a bite. Oooohhhhh, Daddy Lol It’s hilarious. We took a video of him saying that and doing that. I just put it on our Family Facebook page.

The place opened at 9:30 but its way up north so we decided to start out early. The shuttles showed up on time and off we went. I had picked up a bunch of donuts, orange juice and waters for the trip. Coffee was already passed out at the cabins before we left. We all yawned and enjoyed the trip up north. Then we arrived.

The place was already packed. We had to wait in line for a little while with such a large group. Then we split ourselves up. Some of us rode the train, some of us hit the gift shop. Some of us went in the maze. We all decided to meet back up in an hour to see if we wanted to do more or we had enough. I learned so much about Pineapples. I have never had Dole Whip before. I tried it and oh man. You guys need to take the tour there and try that. We also bought Heston a little side dish of his Oooohhh and he lost his mind. Alex likes them but not as much as Heston. Everyone had a great time, we bought souvenirs for the group and off we went to the airport. All of our bags were there waiting for us to go home. Our chartered plane filled up fast and we decided to take all of our Miami people back to Chicago since Miami is both flooded and not capable of taking in flights yet. I think they also have no power too. They will stay at the condos for a day or so until we can get them home.

We made it home and all of my kids survived 2 huge flights in 5 days. We all crashed last night. I am exhausted but I have to go to work today. I am going to miss being home with my babies but it’s time.

I am praying for everyone that has been impacted by both hurricanes. CNN is doing a great job covering the whole thing. People in Texas and Louisiana still need our help. They have lost everything. The water and flooding have finally stopped by they have a big clean up going on. Send money or supplies, guys. They need it!

Our Hawaii work retreat was a lot of fun. It was worth the amount of money I spent on it. I told them if our profits for this year are the same or better we can do it again next year. I think we can. Lindsay’s business expansions are working out great. She spent a lot of money to do it but we are already receiving profits. I’m so happy she decided to take over. Being her partner in business is a huge challenge because she’s extremely aggressive with decisions. It’s all worked out fine minus a few issues. I’m happy we can pay our employees and treat them with an all expenses paid trip to Hawaii. They all deserve it and I really wished I could have done it sooner but it took me almost 10 years to be able to save up that much. I love all of my employees. I hope they get back to work and feel completely refreshed and appreciated. We tried really hard to give them a great time.

God bless everyone in the storms’ paths. Stay safe! God loves you and I love ya’ll too!

Can we stay here?

At 4am the morning we were flying back home to the States, Sarah woke me up to tell me she had lost her passport. Isn’t that fun? She was freaking out. I usually wake up pretty easy but I was passed out and she had to shove on my arm a few times before I got up. I got dressed and walked out into the hallway. She had already been crying a little bit. I wasn’t awake and I told her maybe she could move in with one of the cousins. That joke was way too soon. She stomped off and I went shuffling after her. She said she put it on the dresser when she got home from the mall trip and left it out on purpose to make sure it went back into the purse. She was switching purses because I guess that’s a thing and wanted to put it in there. She had looked everywhere and couldn’t find it. So I went back to my room, grabbed my phone, accidentally woke up my wife, told her to go back to sleep knowing full well she wouldn’t and tried really hard to walk quietly past the babies room to go help her out. I was going to use my flashflight on my phone to look under stuff. Her rental (It’s still an apartment I don’t care what the guy kept telling me) was right next to ours on the top floor so when I left, I just had the door open a little. No one else was up I didn’t think it was a big deal. We went to her bedroom and she started clearing things off of everything. She dumped her purse out already and was looking through the mess that is a women’s contents. I don’t know why you ladies need to lug around all of that shit. Who needs 5 hair ties? That doesn’t make any sense to me. And nail clippers, really? You need to have nail clippers on hand in case of some nail emergency? Lol Come on.

We looked for about oh I’d say 2 minutes before my wife pushed open the door asking WTF was I doing. That’s exactly what she said and not the abbreviated version. I said Sarah lost her passport somewhere in this room, help us please. She calmed down pretty quickly. I was a little annoyed at the slight accusatory tone she entered the room with, however she only said it like that because I was wearing my underwear and not my shorts Lol I thought I had put on my shorts and I honestly did not even know I was just in a t-shirt and underwear. When I saw that I left them in there and walked out. By the time I was heading back in they had found it behind the dresser (Of course) and everything was fine. I told my wife in the hallway that I didn’t know I wasn’t in my shorts. I thought I had pulled them on instead of JUST MY U… you get the picture. She just looked at me and said come to bed. I followed like a little duckling because I already knew this wasn’t over with.

And……..it……….wasn’t Lol

I crawled into bed with a very irate wife. I apologized again just I had apologized to Sarah twice in front of my wife and told them both it was an accident. Sarah really had my back (Not at all) when she piped up that wasn’t the first time she had seen me in my underwear. I’m not even going to get into that one Lol

My wife was laying on her back giving me the silent treatment and huffing a little loudly. I rolled over because that’s how I avoid a fight and she said aren’t we going to talk about this? Sure, why not!

I told her again I thought I grabbed my shorts and pulled them on. It was dark I didn’t turn on the light so I wouldn’t wake you up. When you walked in I was standing there (Yes technically) in my underwear but not at all near Sarah. She was on the other side of the bed. I had a bag in my hand and I was looking inside to see if the passport was in there. I said how much more unincreminating could it have been. She said first of all (Because every guy just LOVES THAT ONE) that’s not even a word, second of all (Yes, please keep counting) I was standing in my underwear in another woman’s bedroom at 4am looking all sexy with my big ol **** swinging around like it was a space shuttle. Now this made me stop because I was trying to figure out what the **** that even meant. I also knew that there was no movement of any kind or even a shadow of a hint of things being uhhhhhh noticeable at all and I know that Sarah really did not care at all. If she did, she would have said go put some pants on. None of my nannies are shy especially when I’ve done something stupid like this.

She muttered on for about a half hour. I rolled over 4 times to say something but was told to be quiet and finally she said are you even listening to me which I wasn’t because I had fallen back asleep. When I did wake up, guess who was already up and still not calmer. My wife. She said good morning, so where are your shorts they aren’t even on the floor next to the bed.  I sat up and put my glasses on to look. I had put my shorts on the back of the chair right near the bed. That’s where they were. I pointed and she said OH. Then stood there looking at me like I was still guilty of something. I got out of bed and told her sorry for everything but it really was an accident. And if she hadn’t made me do something that required me to have my underwear off, this never would have happened. She finally laughed and hugged me. She said she has enough trouble watching women flock to me when we go out somewhere she doesn’t need it from the nannies. I told her no one flocks, they come over because of the babies, not me. She finally let it go.

Finally! Geez.

We all made it back home. Nothing funny or even interesting to talk about for the flight home. We had so much shit to haul through customs Lol It was kind of embarrassing but oh well. The shuttles from the airport took each family to the places they needed to go and we all made it home after a very long and tiring week in Ireland.

We want to make that an annual trip and I promised her parents as long as they were able and wanting to go, we will take them. My wife hugged everybody twice and thanked them all for coming. She really is sweet. One of her best qualities. She said she had been getting texts a few days after the trip from people still talking about it. She said her mom told her she really did like me and saw what she sees in me. She said that I’m a good father and I always blew on the food I was feeding my boys if it was too hot. I don’t even realize I do that but I’m sure I do. My boys want to eat and if it’s too hot they don’t care Lol I do because that’s not good at all.

Ireland. Done. See you next year!