I don’t….wait do I smell bread baking?

I’m in another midst of not sleeping well. I am not feeling well (Again), I blame 2020. I’m on antibiotics, a muscle relaxer (relaxor?) and Tylenol. I’m supposed to take it easy for 3 to 5 days and my girlfriend is in FULL ON WIFE MODE. She’s bossing me from afar Lol It’s very cute.

I’m okay, it is nothing serious. I went to the clinic yesterday and had to drag Sarah with me out of quarantine for the Essential medical visit. She stayed in the van. I rented a big passenger van for this trip. I’m all done relying on Mads to bring me around for shopping. He’s happy I can finally get myself around now. Blood draw, urine sample, fever checker. I did not have to get another COVID test. I’m going to live. I just needed to ease the pain a little. It is nice to know my body parts are finally aging as fast as my sunbaked face and forehead. I also don’t like the weird ass symptoms that pop up out of nowhere. I woke up yesterday with this issue and next thing I know I can move my left arm or hand and had to stoop to walk. Laying/sitting on the couch all day was not helping anything at all and I knew it was time to go get real help. Sarah had been nagging me all day to just go in and get it looked at. I’m glad I listened to her and my girlfriend.

Today is all about Chilltown. I’m ready for some real couch tv time. I never get to do it so I’m anxious to see how long I actually last. 20 minutes is my best guess Lol I can not sit for long. I have too many things I want to go do.

Hawaii is perfect. I love it here. I’m glad we left when we did. I’m glad we have a set time line this trip. I’m also glad to know if we HAVE to stay here, it’s still going to be okay. My kids love it here. They really do. No one has even mentioned going home. Yet. That’s a big plus so far.

The plan for this week is baking. I’m going to bake a bunch of stuff and throw it in the freezer. That’s how I stock up on my families favorite treats. I also love baking because I let my kids help me. They are already learning how to sift, sprinkle, and roll out dough. I love it, I really do.

Here’s to another day of chilling. Have a great day guys. I’m going back to bed and I’m going to try to get more sleep.

Surf & Sunrises

Good morning everyone. I’m up early because I want to get my meditation and stretching in before I go surfing. It’s my first time back in the waves since we’ve been back. I haven’t had time to enjoy a quiet morning alone so I’m hoping this becomes my routine. The sun comes up at 6am here and I can’t wait to get a few waves in. I really look forward to my morning surf. When I’m done I come in and shower and I can start my day. I’m happy.

Today I’m going to try cooking some different kinds of foods. I hope my family likes it. This whole week is all about catching up on every thing. I’ve been blogging more. I know that’s exciting for some. I’m going to try to keep that going as well. The plan is to stay here for 3 weeks. If the US/Canadian border stays closed we might stay longer. I want to see my girlfriend very badly. It’s been months. I am trying to keep the effort up high between us. I don’t want to become complacent with her. I’m always challenging her to do new things or to talk about new topics we haven’t delved into yet. It’s good for my mental health as well as hers.

Quarantine is no fun and being isolated in our Denver house wasn’t working out very well. The kids were fighting more, they kept being “bored” in the afternoons so I think being here will change the dynamics. I hope so.

I need to go center my soul and get my body ready for the water, waves, and fun. Have a great day guys! Love you!

I might have bought a boat, maybe

I went and looked at a boat today. I’m not sure we need it but it might be fun to have here. I love boats. I’m a little concerned about our area for boating. It’s a little shallow and a little choppy. I’m still thinking on it. I offered the guy a fair price. He countered and I said no so I walked away. He’s already texted me twice.

I’m going to sleep on it.


We made it safely. I did have to adjust a cargo area that I had put too much stuff in when we landed in L.A. BTW I hate flying in, near, around, out of LAX. It takes forever for smaller planes to leave, you sit and wait, wait, and wait some more. It’s annoying to me. The family and pets are here and happy. We let the kids sleep a little on the plane ride out here so when we arrived they would want to stay up and start getting acclimated to the time change. I am now 6 hours away from my girlfriend which always messes things up for us. I don’t like being this far away from her. It was a discussion on whether I should come back or not and how that would impact our relationship. I think she understands I’m not planning on staying here for the rest of the year. I mean if that’s what is best, I will. I plan on staying here 3 weeks. We want a different area to explore. It’s summer time, I can’t travel with my kids like I wanted to so this is the 2nd best thing. And I mean, it is Hawaii.

I did not have to quarantine. I had all of my health paperwork in proper order. I was a little worried I would have to quarantine like everyone else. They are all in lockdown. But after their 14 days we will explore the islands this time. A lot of restrictions are being lifted here because the Hawaiian government has done a fantastic job on COVID response. They took it very serious from Day 1 and I appreciate that. We will abide by all the rules and do what we need to so we can all enjoy our vacation time here.

We got everyone to the main house, I told them stay in here tonight. The next morning we ate a small breakfast, had a family meeting and divided out the cabins. Sarah is staying in the main house with me and her baby. She said everyone ends up here all day anyway, it would be easier for her and the baby. I said okay after trying to kick her out several times Lol Brenda got 1st pick and loves having her own cabin this time. The last time she pulled her mom into her cabin because Lynn had a 14 day quarantine all by herself and she was worried. Lynn got 2nd pick and took a cabin a little bit further away from everyone. I was surprised. She said since the nanny schedule is so set in stone, she wants to enjoy her time off. Gabby took the same cabin she had before. She really liked it. Everyone got 2 golf cars each. One to charge, one to use. I reminded everyone these are our family homes so don’t break or rearrange too much. We moved all of their luggage to each new home and let them get set up. Then they came back and I hit the 2 grocery stores I wanted to go to. Mads picked me up in a new truck. He said his old truck finally died Lol I was happy to see him finally treat himself and then wondered if I’ve been overpaying him all of these years Lol Who cares if I do, he does a wonderful job taking care of our family compound. He deserves it all. He will be retiring this year and I’m already anticipating a huge loss when he is gone.

After the stores I came back with about 2 weeks worth of food, we handed that out to the girls and I told them cook for yourselves more so I can enjoy only cooking vegan food. They agreed.

So here we are. We did absolutely nothing for 4th of July other than grilling out 2 meals. I don’t do fireworks and my boys hearing loss is not a good thing for big booming noises so we avoid that stuff. We did see them going off in the distance here and there.

For the twins, we will continue doing ABC Mouse Academy online to catch them up on school things. Peace will also be doing about an hour a day to prep her for school this fall. No school stuff on weekends. I think making them all do 1 hour a day is a good thing. This trip I plan on relaxing way more. I was in such a rush to keep the kids active. This time it’s going to be more about let them do whatever they want to. As long as we can see them and they don’t go near the water unsupervised. They already understand how danger works. And the boys are vigilant on watching after their sisters.

Peace will be turning 3 in a few weeks, followed up by Sky’s 1st birthday in August. We will be here for Peace’s birthday which screwed up plans for a few family and friends to show up for her party. That’s okay. I’m working on figuring all of that out. I’m still going to work from here a little. I have bigger plans for my blog, podcasts, and writing. Now that Sarah made our schedule to watch the kids, I can see a lot of free time. I do actually need that.

Sarah and Gabby are on the nanny schedule for part time. Myself, Brenda, and Lynn are on full time but we get to skip days. It’s a good schedule and I don’t know why haven’t tried this format before.

This upcoming week is going to be fun. I fretted over the decision to come back here. I think it will be okay.

How was your 4th, guys? You doing okay? Wear a mask, social distance. Stay safe! Love you!

We are going back to Hawaii

I’ve been waiting for the US/Canada border to open back up so I can go and visit my girlfriend, Kate, Not her real name, and hang out for a weekend or a week. It’s getting pushed back, again, to the end of July. So we decided to go back to Hawaii for 3 weeks and enjoy ourselves. We are going to leave some time Friday. I wanted to leave Friday night late but the girls think it’s a better idea to leave in the afternoon because of the time change and the kids. I guess.

Brenda and Lynn have moved back in to continue being my nannies. They have been home for a little while and decided maybe with Sarah being here, with me doing it all on my own, it would be a good idea. I was fine. I could use some help, yes, but I was really managing it. It wasn’t that hard. The hardest part was trying to get everyone ready for bed. That part was trying to do too much all at once. I’m happy they are back. I’m happy to have them under contract for the next few years. We are going to do this the right way. The other thought is, homeschooling. I may need them to help me if the schools do not open back up this year.

Sarah is here. She’s doing great with her baby. They are both getting used to each other. That baby is cute af. She’s precious. And my little Sky is getting to be a big girl. She finally said DA DA. It melted me. She’s reallllly close to walking. She has been lifting herself up and she tries to take steps holding onto my fingers. She’s almost there. Her 1st birthday is coming up and I know she’s going to grow up super fast now. After 1 it all goes fast. Look at my twins, already 5! It’s crazy.

I’m doing good. A few minor family issues but we are doing okay. Work is going well. I’ve been spending a lot of time on my yard this year. I wanted to have our first spring be a full success and a smooth summer. That didn’t work out because we weren’t home. I’ve been trying to catch up on all of it with the baby in tow. Sky loves to be outside and I only do an hour or so per day before it gets hot out. The kids LOVE hanging out in the swimming pool. It really is a lot of fun. We are trying to keep our spirits up during this whole 2020 is a dumpster fire mess.

The other issue is living in Denver, I can’t take my kids out and feel comfortable. These people don’t give a sh** about the pandemic. I don’t understand that but not my business. What is my business is keeping my kids safe and healthy. In Hawaii we can actually mask up/glove up and go out and enjoy all of the islands. I just had a negative COVID test and I got the additional paperwork so I will not have to quarantine 14 days. Everyone else will. Sarah had a negative test too but not within the past 30 days so she has to stay in. She’s not very happy about that. 2 weeks on the compound, after that we can explore. This time we will. There are so many places I want to show my kids. It’s going to be a fun 3 weeks. If the border continues to get delayed we will stay longer. I joke I may not even come back to Denver this year, but there is a chance. COVID is not going away. It’s not getting any better at all.

I hope everyone is doing their best. Please always wear a mask outside. It’s important to not get sick, spread it around, and drag it home to your kids. Go out in public, but with a mask on. Live your life the way you want, but consider you live amongst other people. Not all of them are as healthy as you. That’s why you need to wear a mask. It’s to protect yourself.

Have a great start to your summer guys! Prays for Kate’s grandma. She had a minor health setback (NOT Covid) and she could use some prayers. Also to my buddy Joel. I miss seeing him on Tv. He’s a sweet guy. Love you guys! Stay safe!

Another Family Meeting

Hey guys. How are you holding up? I’m okay. I’m having a little insomnia lately and a little anxiety but I think that’s normal right now.

We are still in Hawaii at the Family Compound. We are still all healthy and safe. The kids are doing good. They are still being homeschooled. That’s getting much easier. Brenda and Gabby are doing okay. And now Brenda’s mom has also joined us. She has been in a 14 day quarantine in the furthest cabin from the main house. We take a golf cart down to her a few times a day to check on her. We stand back from the back sliding glass doors and talk to her through the windows. That’s the best we can do. She isn’t sick. She had already been stuck at home. When she got here, we ran her through all of the steps we had to make sure she wasn’t bringing anything onto our little island. She’s a champ. She gets to join us on the afternoon of the 13th and boy are we all excited. Brenda struggled with it at first but she’s finally calmed down. I’m no longer accused of keeping her mom locked up like a damn zoo animal Lol We all agreed to the 14 day quarantine before she even got here.

So we had a family meeting this morning early. We had Lynn on speakerphone so she could get in her votes. She is strongly opinionated which makes everything so much easier. We rationed out this weeks food and snacks. We are running low on a few supplies and I explained to them I have some ordered but good luck getting it all here. I hope it shows up soon but I don’t know. I’m going with what I have at the house. Everyone has their pick. I ran Lynn’s box down to her house and chatted for a little while. She said my kids can call her Grandma Lynn which I love. I know they will love it too.

We are okay. My focus this week is to stay calm, to make a shopping plan and in 2 weeks go back to the stores. The Coronavirus is getting worse. I hope you guys are all okay. I pray everyday for all of you. God is going to watch over us and with our own decisions and guidance from the CDC we can be safe.

Stay Home guys. It’s only a little bit longer than we will be free again. My kids want to go home and I haven’t explained any of this to them. It’s going to be okay. Take care of each other!

Impromptu Family Meeting

We are still in Waimanalo, Hawaii.

For the first time since she became one of our nannies, Brenda called for a Family Meeting. Which included me and our neighbor Gabby who is staying with us in Hawaii. She is getting worried about her mom who is now laid off of work. Her mom had asked if she could come here. She has been stuck at home working since March 12th. She was getting her food from other family members dropping it off. She said she has not left her house at all, she has no pets, was not going to Church. She was quarantined and safe. I asked to talk to her mom so she put her on speakerphone. I asked, if you come here, do you mind a 14 day quarantine until I let you around my kids? She said no and she understands. I said I don’t know when we will or can go home but if she wanted to leave at anytime we would make the best arrangements we could. She said she is laid off of work and now would be the best time to get out of the Dallas area if she wanted to go. She had never been to Hawaii and probably would never be able to afford to come. Brenda said she would pay for the ticket here and when it was time we would take her back to Denver with us, then Brenda would buy her a ticket back to Dallas from there.

Then came the logistics. Can you even get a flight right now? Do you have a mask and gloves? Are you willing to wear old clothes so you can burn them as soon as you arrive, shower, then help us figure out what food and supplies you want in your cabin? Will you be understanding about just staying around your cabin which will be the furthest one away from all of ours? You can go outside there, you can use your golf cart to look around. You won’t be shut in without enjoying our nice weather. So many things to talk over. She said she can bring her canned goods, she can bring her toilet paper minus one roll to leave at the house. She will help us cook and watch the kids, she will do whatever I ask.

We voted yes, 3-0 so Brenda’s mom is coming out later today. Brenda found a flight to LA, then over to here. Her mom is so excited. She’s going to give away the rest of her food in the fridge and freezer to family so they can use it. She said she will bring her Ipad and some board games. I said and bring a deck of cards I didn’t have one. This will be great. I like Brenda’s mom. She’s a very sweet woman. She loves kids and I know my boys will latch onto her.

Things are going okay. We are staying on the island and not going anywhere. I think we have enough stuff to last a few more weeks. We talk to Sarah a few times a day on Facetime. She’s happy to be home with her family. She’s excited for her baby to arrive and said she’s sad she left. It really was the best decision for her. She went to nursing school with a lot of the people that work at the hospital where she will give birth so she knows they will take very good care of them both when it’s time. I’m glad she’s safe. That’s all that mattered.

The kids are doing the best they can. They don’t understand why we can’t go home. I’m trying to not tell them what’s really going on. I want them to just be kids here. I don’t want this on their mind. They like homeschooling (Sometimes) and they really enjoy being outside so much. The only issue is I may end up running out of sun tan lotion. We are outside constantly. Even when it rains the covered patio out back is plenty big enough to play or eat meals on.

I am so thankful to God and everyone for helping my family stay safe and making sure we are okay. We are becoming a lot closer as a family. I’m so used to swooping into town whenever a family member needs me. It’s hard to sit here and not be able to do that. I am sending out money where it needs to go to make sure my family and friends are okay. I’m also still donating to online causes or to random folks in my private messages a little here or there. I’m not looking forward to my next Walmart trip (I really don’t like shopping at Walmart) but I want to get everything we need in 1 store. I will do my best.

How are you guys doing? Is there anything I can do to help you? All I can offer are prayers and a little bit of money. I want you all to know I am thinking about you and please stay home. I’m saying it everywhere, the more you stay home the quicker we can all get out of our homes. I’m doing okay. My anxiety is finally calming down. I think worrying about Sarah’s baby was a big issue. I know she’s safe and I know her family will take care of her. I’m still dealing with a very odd sleeping pattern. I sleep a few hours at a time. It’s crazy. We are okay. We know God is going to guide us through all of this. I know it’s going to take more time. We are following the CDC’s recommendations and I’m making sure we are washing our hands and the other things that we can do at home.

It’s going to be okay, guys. Stay home, and deal with a new normal for a few more weeks or months. We all have to. I love you all!

We had to make some Tough Decisions today

Good morning.

Last night my cousin Mark Evans passed away. He had Covid 19 for a few days. He had symptoms as far back as 2 weeks ago but he continued to go to his friend’s dinner parties and shopping for food. He was resistant to believe this would get him. He did get a test when he went into the hospital. He never came out. I spoke with him about 6 days ago and he said he was surprised he had it. He felt really guilty for anyone he infected. So far no one has been tested. I pray he did not spread it around.

My Aunt called this morning to tell me. We both cried. She doesn’t even know if they can bury him. She thinks they need to cremate him so the infection ends with him. She said there will be no funeral. Only her and my Uncle paying their respects and saying goodbye. She said in a few months we will hold a memorial service for him and that this is the worst thing that has ever happened in her life. I have no idea how she is going to make it through this.

Tomorrow we will be under a Stay at Home Order until April 30th. I had to talk to the adults and make some decisions. Sarah is pregnant and very near the point she can no longer fly. She does not want to have her baby in Hawaii. She wants to be in Dallas with her parents and family. Lindsay needs to get back to Chicago to handle work from there. Brenda wants to stay here with me and the kids. Gabby wants to stay here too. We have all been here since March 12th. We have put in 12 days of self quarantine. None of us are sick.

So I called my cousin Big Tyson and asked him to go borrow my buddy JJ’s plane and com here. It’s been sitting in a hanger in Los Angeles for several months. No one was touched it so it will be 100% safe for them to go home in. He’s on his way now. The girls are packing up. We are figuring out what supplies I can give up. They will each go home with a few boxes of food and what toilet paper I can spare.

I have to stay here for Alex but also for myself and my 3 other kids. It’s a very tough decision to make. Denver is starting to really show an outbreak. My pets are with me in Hawaii so I have no real reason to go home. I have to keep my kids safe from this. Especially Alex. It would take him out in a few days. We all cried talking this over. We spent 2 hours figuring it out. Ultimately I want the girls to make their own choices. Sarah’s parent said they are okay if she can’t come to Dallas. She wants to go. She’s excited to welcome her baby but is scared of what world her daughter will be born in.

Please follow all medical advice from the experts. Don’t listen to Trump. I no longer believe he is even doing his best. I just wish he would read a prepared statement each day and then go do whatever he does all day. Leave this to our medical people. They know best.

Thank you for all the sweet comments this morning about Mark.

Mark was a brat when he was younger. He was always following us around to see what we were doing. I loved him. I will always love him. I’m so upset he’s gone. God needed him more than we did. It’s still tough.

God bless you guys! I love you. If you need help, contact me. I will do my best. Take care of each other.