What happens in Vegas may not stay in Vegas

We made it to Las Vegas friday night. Lindsay and her new man, Dave, were there in 2 vehicles to pick us all up. Dave took all of the bags in his truck and Lindsay took the babies and both my wife and myself in her Escalade. She has so many gadgets on it I can barely find the radio to turn it down. It’s really tricked out. She told hugged and kissed my cheek than said I put all of the guns up this time. I said good because the boys are walking around a lot better this time. My wife just looked at us as if we were nuts.

We got everything set up and then she gave us the 5 cent tour. Her house is amazing. They did a great job on it. Her pool is a lot bigger and her kitchen is my dream kitchen. She has a lot of stuff I want. She told me I can’t have any of it or even touch it. She knows me so well. She showed us to our bedroom and it’s very nice. She has everything in there that I asked for. We set the boys up in the room next door where she put cribs for us. She also started yanking out stuffed animals and for whatever reason my little Heston latched onto the small dinosaur. He had to have it with him everywhere. He has never done that before. Alex has a few he loves and carries around but this was Heston’s first buddy. It was very endearing. He calls it dada. Of course because that’s one of the 10 words he knows well. He also likes to run over dada when he takes off walking. Dada hits the floor like an old piece of sausage and forget it Lol I thought that was funny.

We all ate the big meal Lindsay and Dave made for us. It was so good! I ate 2 helpings. It really was very delicious. Then I told her my plans. She said she had zero plans of going and doing anything all weekend. Her and her girlfriends were all gathering to babysit the boys. She asked if she could take them to 2 places and told me all about them. I said yes as long as she watched them closely. My wife said she was fine with it too. I keep forgetting I now need to ask if it’s okay with her as well. I’m so used to just deciding on my own. We are a family now and as I’ve learned (And been reminded, gently) I need to think of US and WE not speak as myself anymore. We still haven’t had our first fight. But I can tell you whenever it comes and for whatever the topic will be, I am going to lose. There is no way I can out argue my wife. I have heard her on the phone at night talking to people at work and she does not back down. One thing I love about her. She stands up for what she believes in.

We all hung out and just relaxed. The flight was a lot for the boys and I know it was too much to take them out the first night. My dog made himself at home very quickly. Of course he has his own room which he doesn’t sleep in. He sleeps with Lindsay Lol Which is fine by us because that gives my wife and I a break from his snoring and pushing our feet all over the bed at night. Lindsay loves him as much as I do and has had serious talks about kidnapping him someday. She keeps telling me how much happier he would be with her. That he loves Las Vegas and belongs there. That’s not going to happen. He just ran around the house and yard and played with all of the toys he got. He also tried to take off with Dada, Heston’s new buddy, and Heston had a complete meltdown. I had to wipe dog slobber off as fast as I could then give it back to him. That made him calm down immediately. And if you are wonder, yes he was able to bring it home with him. Lindsay tried to give us all of their stuff to take with us but I told her leave it there for our next visit.

Saturday my wife and I got up early and went hiking. It was cloudy and a little rainy off and on. That wasn’t cool but we worked it out. Then we got dressed and went out for breakfast. We had a nice time together. The conversation started into the pending adoption of a girl. She said that when she thought she was pregnant she was slightly excited but wondered about my reaction. I explained if you were pregnant and we adopted a little girl I would freak out because that’s too many kids under 2 for me to handle. That may potential 4 kids under 2. That’s nuts. She said good because she was a little hurt the way I reacted. I said we either need to work on having our own baby and that may sideline your career plans for the next year or we just focus on getting our marriage stronger, and more time together and wait a year or 2 for the adoption to go through. Once the adoption happens then we can start working on having our own baby. She said what if we reverse it. She said what if we string out the adoption longer, which I can do, and start working on our own baby. I said but that’s your plan. She said she’s got baby fever. I said WHAT????? But??? You??? said??? and she just laughed. She said she just didn’t want to plan it all out. With the adoption it’s a huge question mark and it may actually take 2 years. She wasn’t sure waiting 2 years is what she really wanted. I said well I want as many kids as possible. I know in my heart I want to adopt a little girl. I know that but the rest is up to both of us. She said she wants us to think about having a baby now. I said let’s go Lol She said no here and not now. But let us think on it now. I said okay.

So now I may end up with 4 kids in the next 2 years Lol I wanted to string it out longer. So that my boys have a little gap between siblings and I can give plenty of attention to each of them. It really is hard raising twins. I don’t care how easy some people say it is or what they do to make things easier. It’s hard. And for me it’s a constant worry. I think about my wife and the boys all day. Even at work and constantly question my decisions on if I’m doing this right. Half of the time, guys, I feel like a bad dad. I feel completely stupid and think to myself how I’m screwing up these 2 precious little babies. Then I see how happy they are to see me or how much they don’t want me to leave in the morning to go to work and I know I’m doing somethings right. My wife is very happy. I may be doing a good job. But I don’t know.

I really thought she wanted to work on the marriage for the first year. And try to get in our own little rhythm. That’s why we put Sarah in her own condo until. But maybe that wasn’t enough. She said we have Sarah and 2 other nannies. We can do this. I don’t know. I want to be selfish and wait but then again I really think having a baby with my wife would be amazing. I don’t want to hurt her feelings. We did talk about it all weekend. It was exciting and scary and a really fun idea. So I don’t know what to do. I’m going to pray on it more.

We went to see 2 movies, 2 shows, had every meal together. We spent time with the boys but we mainly focused on ourselves. I did receive some hilarious photos of my boys in a huge suds pools with their faces all covered in soap suds. Then I got a video of them laughing so hard. Both of them. Lindsay had taken them to an indoor pool place that has an area for babies. She said it’s a new place and seems very clean. Then she also took them to a huge park. She put them on the swings and sent pics and videos of that too. My dog got to go to the dog park 2 times a day and Lindsay bought him small ice cream cones and a hamburger each time. I said he’s going to expect that now every time we go in the car. She said so what.

Sunday was all about packing up and taking photos. We really did have a great time and I do miss Lindsay a lot. She is in Mexico a lot now and Dave said even when she is home she is working a lot. He said they only go out to eat 2 times a week now instead of the nightly venture. He said her no drinking rule has helped him a lot and he really doesn’t miss it anymore. He’s a nice guy. I have always liked Dave. I miss Ben and I did get to see him. I introduced my wife to him. He is happy and doing fine. He still hangs out with Lindsay a few times a month and doesn’t like Dave Lol I told him she is happy so we all have to be happy for her and that I liked Dave a lot. He’s a nice guy.

The flight home was quiet. My boys passed out and my wife was able to come sit with me a little on the way. She loves that I have my own plane and can pilot it myself. She says it makes her feel like we can go anywhere we want without anything getting in the way.

We got home and Sarah helped get the boys in the bath. I got all of the bags upstairs and my wife started going through all of our mail. We brought Sarah some gifts from Lindz and she started laughing at some of them.

We really did have a great weekend. And we may have decided to start trying to have a baby together. If that’s what she wants. I’m slowly coming around to the idea. I just didn’t want to have a baby and 2 months later our adoption goes through. It will be just like having twins all over again. And as we all know, I almost didn’t make it Lol

God bless you all, have a great week at work everyone! I will update more tomorrow.

 

Weekend in Las Vegas

We are going to be leaving a little after noon to go to Las Vegas for the weekend. We are taking my boys with us. We are also taking a bunch of paperwork for the new 50% owner of my businesses, Lindsay. She want to get familiar with more of the company and pick my brain on how things run. She has a lot of faith in herself and I do too. So far everyone has taken the news well except for a few of my VPs that don’t get along with her blunt business style.

My wife is so excited. I woke up to a hug and a kiss on the check then she jumped out of bed and started dancing and singing Las Vegas baby! So happy to see her this excited. I’m at work for a few more minutes. I probably won’t get time to update over the weekend. I’m so happy to update you all sometime Monday.

Have a great weekend! I hope everyone digs out of the snow if they got hit with that storm.

God loves you and I love ya’ll too!

Our family vacation to Atlantis

Where did I leave off? We went to the Bahamas for a family vacation. I took all 3 nannies or rather they invited themselves. My wife planned everything out for myself and the boys. The nannies worked out a great schedule. All we had to do was get the babies on the plane and keep them happy for the almost 4 hour flight, two times. The first flight there was great. They both were a little fussy but we worked it all out and were able to keep the crying to a minimum. I think our fellow passengers appreciated that. Nothing worse than two babies crying at full volume for 4 hours.

We got to the airport and rounded up all 6 bags. We had to take 2 vans to the hotel and have help getting all the bags upstairs. The room was really nice. It was big enough to unload all of our portable cribs and baby stuff. It was supper time so we decided to order room service to make it easier. The boys were going to crash at some point and I didn’t want to have meltdowns in a restaurant. Thankfully they did have their meltdowns about half way through dinner so we got them fed, did baths and got everyone to bed. Then we had Heather stay with them in the room so my wife and I could go explore a little. The hotel we were in is very nice. I highly recommend it to everyone. We stayed at The Reef in Atlantis. We decided to walk down to the beach and have a romantic walk. She told me how happy she has been and how many more vacations she dreamed of us taking together. We decided to promise to take a vacation at least once a year.

We got back up to the room 2 hours later and completely ripped the bed apart. We had brought brand new sheet sets for everyone’s bed. The bedbug story right before we left freaked everyone out Lol We put on the new sheets over the mattress cover we brought and decided to chance it. The entire time no one had a bedbug bite at all. No one had any bedbugs at all. We asked the maid service to change everything everyday and wash our sheets. They were so great to help us out. I’m a little bit of a germaphobe so this helped calm me down a lot.

On Saturday we ate breakfast downstairs and enjoyed the 75 degree morning. We decided to take the boys to the beach. As we were getting ready to go downstairs my wife started squealing with happiness. My little baby boy Alex was standing there all by himself. He had lifted himself up using the coffee table and had taken a step. She saw him do it. He stood there not knowing what to do. He was wobbling all over the place it was hilarious. I grabbed my phone and got the video going. Then I told him to come here and bent down. He took one step, two steps, three then made it to me and fell down. Alex started walking! In the Bahamas! How cool is that. I already wrote it all down in his baby book. We told the nannies and he got all kinds of hugs and kisses for that. We got down to the beach and set up our massive beach plot Lol We had 4 umbrellas, 5 chairs, lots of towels. We took turns with the boys in the water. They were allowed to sit in the water but only allowed to go in the water with 2 people per baby. I held Heston and my wife held Alex. We had Sarah and Brandi with us the first round. Heather was talking pictures and videos. They both laughed when the water would hit their feet. We didn’t go in very far at all. I was worried.

We went back and forth into the room to cool them off. Each time the nannies rotated on sunbathing and swimming. Heather made a little friend named Jay. Jay seemed like a nice guy but I chased him off before he got invited to dinner. I told her he was trouble and flirting with other girls before he came over to her. She didn’t know that but we had seem him. He was just looking for anyone. She told him to buzz off and he immediately started up again. I told her see, he’s an ***hole Lol She said yes but he’s cute. Girls will be girls. We all enjoyed a nice time at the waterpark and did some of the slides. We took the boys to the baby pools and took turns going into the swimming pools with them. My wife took Heston down the lazy river and said it wasn’t so bad so we took Alex. He is the one that freaks out. We test most things out with Heston first and if he’s cool with it, we take Alex. I’m sure that will be discussed in therapy when my kids are older. How I used Heston as the tester of all things scary.

Saturday night my wife and I had a romantic dinner date. We got back to the room late because we had such a great time. On Sunday we went shopping and went around the resorts. It’s someplace we will come back to someday. The ladies all said they had a great time. They managed to get nice tans going. My wife said it was beautiful and she felt freshened up after a busy few months.

If you ever get the chance to visit Atlantis in the Bahamas, go. It’s a great vacation spot for the family. We had a great time. I feel relaxed and had a great week at work. I loved it. I put all of our photos and videos on my Facebook for my friends and readers that are on there. I’ve already seen some of your comments Lol Yes that’s my back tattoo. I got tanned too and it makes my tattoo show up better.

Have a great Sunday everyone! I love ya’ll!

Is it Friday yet?

Last night as Sarah had the video camera going my wife had one hand, I had the other and my son Heston William Cooper took his first steps! We let go at the same time and off he went. One step then bam. Right down. I picked him up and gave him kisses all over and told him what a big boy he was. He laughed and then my wife took him and I rewatched the moment on video. Then it was Sarah’s turn. She had him and let go then he took another step and another. He finally did it! Alex was a witness. Then it was his turn and he boycotted the entire process. That’s okay. I know he will take his first step soon and I’m kind of glad it wasn’t on the very same day. I like knowing they are growing at their own pace and they won’t do everything exactly the same. I already updated the baby book. I sent out the video to everyone via Facebook. It was a big moment in the Cooper household. Very exciting stuff. Then Sarah let off the bomb and said you do know now he will get going everywhere, fast. I don’t know that I’m prepared for that yet. I’m so used to just picking them both up and carrying them everywhere. It’s much easier than dragging them around in their baby seats if we are just running in some place.

I loved watching the video over and over again. My wife was so proud. I really can’t believe he’s not even a year old yet and he took his first step. It was a shaky little step but he did it. And it counts because everyone saw him do it. Heston has always been the one to do things first. Which is funny because he’s only a few minutes older than Alex. I have talked to several parents of identical twins and they all told me they don’t do it at the same exact moment. It’s usually later. I know Alex will be soon and we will have the camera ready. Sarah said she is going to work with Heston more today to see if he can get a few more little steps in. She said she will work more with Alex so he can get one in. I told her to set up the camera in case we miss it and she said okay. I have the nanny cam all over my condo but I would like a close up view of it. This is exactly why I’m retiring after this year. I don’t want to miss big moments. I want to attend their school stuff or sports and music stuff. I want to be there. I have more money than we need and I have several backup amounts in case the world implodes or something. I’m okay. I just want to concentrate on my boys. It’s a blessing and all I want.

I’m having a great day already. I tried getting Heston to walk again this morning before I went to work but he was too busy chewing on his oatmeal. That’s my boy. Food before anything else Lol He’s so much like me already. I’m really excited to be able to let Heston walk into the ocean this weekend. We will have him by his hands but I can’t wait for him to feel the sand and the water on his little toes. We will do the same for Alex. I bet he will laugh. He is very vocal. Heston is the calm one.

The women are all excited about this trip. You would think 2 and a half days in the Bahamas was equal to a month-long stay. They have tried on I don’t know how many outfits. They started a group chat last night just about the weather predictions for Saturday and Sunday. It’s going to be in the upper 70’s. And Sarah has been barking out orders on what we need to pack for the boys. I said we can get beach toys there all we need is the floatie arm things I bought at the swimming classes, their life jackets, and swim wear. Because it’s going to be so warm I bought them those wet shirts that divers wear. I had no idea that you can get those in baby sizes but they fit perfect and will prevent any sunburns. I know the boys won’t keep their beach hats on so there’s no reason to even take those. I also know they will have big beach umbrellas we can rent or use. My crew will need 4 or 5 of those Lol We’ve already talked about going down for an hour. Coming back in to cool off so the boys don’t get over heated. Then going down to the pool for half an hour. Cooling off again then more beach time. Sarah made a spreadsheet. Yes she really did. This is why I let her plan everything. Because she knows what’s best for them and I’m still learning all of this stuff. I’ve read over 50 baby books and they seem to forget some of the basic things I need to know. My wife doesn’t have a clue and helps me decide most everything but when it comes to packing baby stuff up she hasn’t gotten into that part yet. She will I’m sure.

Work is going great this week. Short weeks are always fun. I’m going out-of-town in a few hours for the day. I have to fly to a meeting. Should be an interesting lunch then come back and try to make it home in time for supper.

I hope everyone has a great week and I can’t wait to see how the rest of this week goes!

Checkups and Walls Up

  Sarah and I took the twins to their doctor yesterday. It was just a checkup. My little guys are healthy, thriving well, and really hard for other people to tell apart. I can look at them and tell. Even their doctor not so much. Everything is fine. Alex is doing very well. He was the one that started out with a bad beginning if you all remember.

After that we took the boys to a restaurant and enjoyed a nice lunch. It wasn’t a quiet lunch but that’s okay. Everyone around us were so nice. And my boys got to be the center of attention. That’s usually how it goes now. It’s been so nice having Sarah back. Her and I are in a rhythm that my wife and I haven’t gotten into yet. When my wife moved in we tried to work out our privacy issues and the only thing I could figure out was put up a wall between the condos.  My condo is all one floor. Sarah now has her own condo a little smaller than mine. We put the wall up to give me the bigger living room. She has the baby monitor on her side also and can hear them when they get up in the middle of the night. Her and I take turns. One night I get up with them, the next she does. It’s working. And she said she really loves having her own place. She insists on paying rent. It’s not much but it makes her feel good. I put it into my safe and keep it for whenever she has decided to retire from being our nanny. I don’t want her money. I don’t need it and whenever she does leave us it’s because she is going to start her college teaching career. I want to send her off with a huge nest egg. I have told her even if she wanted to work at a college at night I would be home with them and she could never leave us Lol She said it depends on her work situation.

My little family is enjoying our home. It’s worked out great and makes my wife happier. I leave in the morning after she does, Sarah comes over and I come home before my wife gets home. I’m able to make supper, send food home with Sarah and wait with my boys for her. We get a lot of alone time now. I love that the most. I get to play with them, hold them, teach them things. We are working on them bowing their heads in prayer before our meals. It’s a slow process but they are like sponges right now. I’m watching my tone, watching my words, and trying to be simple for them to understand the basics. I get to do all of this fun dad stuff without anyone trying to tell me how to do it. When my wife gets home we all eat unless she tells me to start without her. And then she gets to be stepmom. She loves the baths and the bedtime part. After we get them to bed then we both crash on the couch and talk about our day.

I honestly never dreamed my life could be this great. Being married is amazing. I love it. I should have done this years ago but I’ve been waiting for this woman to come along. She was worth the wait.

Who is excited for a new President? Not me. To me Donald Trump is nothing but a Fine Print guy. He boasts all the flashy things that shock you into paying attention. He promises all of these things that sound plausible but when you really see how he plans to implement it, you realize you should have read the fine print. He is a disappointment. The next 4 years can’t go fast enough.

How is everyone doing? I’m finally getting to the comments. I had over 1600. I deleted most of them. I’ve replied to a few.

I’m so happy people are realizing the truth. My story is all right here. My proof is still where it’s always been. Thank you all for coming. I appreciate you all. I love ya’ll and God loves you too!

1st Birthday Party planning started

My twins first birthday is coming up. With everything I have going on I decided to start planning their party months in advance. We decided to go with a football theme. We are going to have a custom football shaped cake made with vegan ingredients. I want the cake to taste extra delicious so we are still searching for the right bakery to help out with this. I have been looking online for football decorations and did go to a few party stores to see what they had to offer for football birthday stuff. I have bought a few things and tucked them safely in a spare closet. We decided to have their party at the lake house. I have invited my entire family and expect most of them to show up. They also know that a weekend with me will also include shopping, all the good they could eat, and a fun family time. I am working with the same party planner I had before. She and I did not get along at all Lol But at the end of the day she did a great job and I asked her to help again. She said she needed to think about it. She contacted me the next day, doubled her price and said that’s what it would take to work with me. I said ok and told her this time she would work directly with Sarah. I think having Sarah in the middle will be better.

We are NOT going to have one of those over the top kids parties you see on tv. It’s going to be cake and ice cream the boys will get to open presents with my help and then we are all going to just hang out. I’m not going to have a bouncy house, a petting zoo or anything ridiculous for 1 year olds. They can’t really enjoy much because they are still too young but I wanted to make it more about the family being there than anything else.

Now when they are 4 and they really start to realize how fun their birthdays can be I will probably lose my mind and go big time for them. I want it to be special and casual. Not fancy. She asked if I wanted an ice sculpture with the number 1 carved and I said no and that’s the exact opposite direction I want to go. I said I wanted her to help more with the decorations to make it look awesome. And to help me come up with party ideas to make it fun. I told her I wanted a photographer and one of those silly photo booth things set up on one of my walls. I am pretty sure I can get my boys to be held and have pictures taken with people at random times. If we do one after the other that won’t work. But if we do smaller groups we can get them in all the photos.

I think that’s the most we will do. I can’t wait to see my boys smash their little football cakes and chow down Lol I watched some 1st birthday videos on Youtube and they are so hilarious. Sarah and I were laughing so hard at some of their expressions once they get to taste it. We had a long discussion on whether to make have a vegan cake but I told her I didn’t want to deny them a sugary cake I just wanted to make sure they can eat it and not get all hyped up and crazy. They both tried turkey at Thanksgiving. That was a debate also but I decided to let them try it. Heston spit it out. That’s my boy Lol Alex woofed his down and smacked his high chair for more. I gave him 5 bites of turkey and then he spit out the last piece. Heston does not like meat yet. I know that will change but for now I decide what to feed them. You can’t even tell my boys are vegan. They are both so big and healthy. Their pediatrician is impressed with their growth chart and is happy to see Alex thriving. I really thought I had screwed up when he wasn’t gaining weight. He was so thin for a few weeks and I was scared. Knowing it was just a digestive issue for them made it a quick fix. We have never had an issue since. We have dealt with some throwing up and few runny noses but nothing at all serious.

We have teeth coming in, they are crawling everywhere and we are working hard to help them learn to walk. If you hold them up they will kick and get going a little forward. Mostly sideways Lol I told Sarah last night I’m going to end up with the kids that walk sideways not forward and back. She just laughed.

By the time my sons are 1 years old the decision to adopt again will already be made. We will already have begun our search for their little sister. I will be adopting again in the next few years. I don’t know who she will be, what she will look like or where she will come from. All I know is God will lead me to her and I will bring her home. The urge to have a daughter has been really strong ever since the 3rd month of having the boys home. I thought having a little sister would be the best for our family. Most likely I will adopt a few more times. I want a big family. I can afford to provide for them and I will devote my life to my children. I want my life’s work to be about raising my kids and doing all I can to parent them always. I have so many hopes and dreams for my children. I know adding to my family will only bring us more love and compassion for each other.

This first year has flown by. Celebrating my boys will be a big family event and I can’t wait to see what we come up with. A football theme is a great start. And we all know they will most likely end up with 10 or so Batman themed birthday parties in the near future Lol

Party planning is not my favorite thing but watching my boys enjoy their family and cake will mean everything to me. I am so happy to be their dad. It’s been the greatest part of my life for sure. I’m happy to continue to share stories from their lives with all of you.

Is it February yet!

The Cubs aren’t the only one taking a Big Swing today

Last night I had a bunch of family and friends in town. We all watched the Cubs game at my condo and snacked on all kinds of good food. Some of my cousins liked the vegan dips I made. Some didn’t. My Uncles and Aunts just wanted to go to bed so we sent them back to the hotel for the night. Today everyone is out shopping and enjoying the city. When I get off work I’m taking everyone out for a nice family dinner and then they will be on their way back to their homes. My family is big and coordinating events is always a pain in the butt. I’m glad they are here. It’s important for my boys to know everyone. I did dress them up in their Halloween costumes for a 2nd time because I thought their costumes were hilarious. For my twins first Halloween costumes I decided to do Mario and Luigi. They both had on the plumbers outfits that was just a onesey in the 2 colors and then I put hats on them that had of course they kept yanking off. I did manage to get some awesome photos of them in the hats. Everyone laughed and loved it. After they all got to take pictures with them I changed them into their cubbie shirts for the game. My boys went to bed around 8:30 and we all tried really hard to keep it down. We did wake them up twice yelling at the tv and talking too loud. I know I’m a bad daddy for that but it’s the World Series. We were all excited.

Tonight is Game 7! I did not think the series would go to this game 7 so I’m happy and worried. Last night the runs kept coming in and then the Indians came back a little and that Uh oh panic sets in. This time the game finished strong and the win was hopeful. All we talk about at the office is the Cubs. It’s so exciting to everyone. I’m happy to live here and be able to watch it with my family. The entire city is going to go crazy tonight when we win. And if we lose, it’s another disappointment, another missed opportunity, and a heartbreaking end to an amazing season.

Lindsay has been a huge help wrangling everyone around. She does her best to keep her temper in check until something stupid happens then she just walks away and you can’t find her. She helped me feed everyone last night then helped Sarah get the boys to bed while I was cleaning up the kitchen with my Aunts. I forgot how much my family eats. I swear I had a fridge full on Sunday now I need to go to the store tonight and pick up more food. I thought about having food delivered but getting pizza at dinner time during the World Series is a few hour wait at some of our favorite pizza delivery places. I told them I will pick up food and bring it home. That’s the best I can do. Lindz and I will get off work at 4 and go hit the 3 places to pick up the things we need and head back home. I hope it’s enough. It’s like watching goats eat a pasture. You check an hour later and nothing is left on the tables Lol

Heston is the first to try to push himself up to stand. He hasn’t stood yet. We work with both of them to stand and help them learn to walk. No one has done it on their own yet. Sarah said we need to get their legs strengthened for it so we work on it every day. No first words either unless Gababagabagaba is a word. That’s what it sounds like anyway. I hope Dada is their first words. I really do. I’m dying to hear it. I say it a million times a day to them trying to teach them. Sarah said the first word might be Hi since we all say that a lot too.

This weekend I decided to take everyone up to the lake house. I want to start decorating it for thanksgiving and Christmas. I have some things but I need to buy a lot more. The girls said they will help me shop for stuff. I want Christmas lights on my house. I want to buy out Hobby Lobby and get crazy with it. I want my boys to always love Christmas and enjoy the traditions we will have. I’m a real Christmas tree guy. I recycle it afterwords but I love the smell of it. There is nothing like a real tree. I’ve had the store trees before and it’s just not the same.

I went ahead and deleted about 600 pending comments. I haven’t gotten to them in months and I won’t get to them anytime soon. Thank you all who wrote a comment and shared a thought but sorry I’m not publishing or answering them. The good news is it’s a clean slate right now so you can start all over. I will get to the new ones if Lindsay doesn’t delete them all.

I’m going to finally open up about a few things. It’s frustration at this affair that won’t seem to go away. I don’t understand why people continue to be interested in me at all. So here’s a few things I want to say.

Yes I am aware for a 3rd season in a row Meri is still talking about our affair and lying. She is sticking to the fake catfish story yet again and it’s disappointing to me she can’t move on from it. I know they need ratings and I know she is trying to cover up all of her lies about the voicemails and how she really felt about me. However I’m not going to watch it. She has lied so much I don’t think me adding to it will do any good. She is never, ever going to admit the truth. Even when her own daughter knows and openly criticizes her for not being honest and hiding a lot of what really happened. The truth is I moved on a long time ago. I don’t talk about it because it’s in the past. The internet trolls are still playing their insane games and trying to solve some great mystery about me. Instead of just asking me or Lindsay anything they make up, create, and completely lie to create stories about my life and Lindsay’s life. The truth is Jackie Overton has never met Meri Brown. The truth is Jackie Overton is not a catfish and has nothing at all to do with any of this. She has moved from Oklahoma and is working hard at her job, living a good life and really pissed off that the tabloids and the internet trolls continue to lie and throw her name into this scandal.

The truth is there never was a catfish. Never. I had an affair, I ended it, I stayed away from Meri. She continued to contact me, continued to try to get ahold of me and ask to see me. I refused so she got scared and lied. She claims I’m a catfish yet she refuses to say a name. She offers ZERO proof at all. She gets all red-faced and makes no sense in her stories. Many times she makes stuff up on the spot. She has never had 1 person back up her stories and her family fell apart after they found out she cheated. She latched onto the story that was made up by the trolls and sold it to her family, her friends, and her fans. All in an attempt to cover up the truth. That we had a real affair. We met, we were in love, we had sex, and we wanted to be together. She was leaving her husband and family for me. We broke up and she is still living a quiet life alone. She doesn’t get the attention she wants, she obviously can not let go of how she feels about me and will do anything in her power to ruin me and my life. She has her trolls attack me daily, still. The good news is the troll group has dwindled down to 6 or 7 people who continue their online bullying.

Please keep in mind if you do a search on Twitter with my @notbatmanyet you will read and see the kind of things the people say about me. It’s disturbing. These are horrible women with no lives. They have attached themselves to a tabloid rumor and want to continue to feed off of it because they have nothing better to do but be mean. The truth is these trolls have caused so many problems in their own groups they can’t get along, can’t work together and only bash anyone that disagrees with them. The trolls have accomplished nothing. They have nothing to show for over a year of cyberbullying me, Jackie, and Lindsay. The sad part is that these women put so much effort into something that is none of their business. The affair was between Meri and I. No one else. Lindsay and Kendra were privy to a lot of information about what was going on. That’s it. No one else knows the full story. Anyone that came in after the fact is making shit up. That part can be frustrating. I have learned over the past year to ignore and block the trolls. They don’t have anything positive to add or say. They never ask me direct questions. All they do is hammer away at one idea and offer no proof on anything they say. Most of what is out there is all fake and lies. The real truths get overlooked and hidden. Why is that? The entire time everyone has heard me say over and over it was an affair. Why not investigate that? There were hotels we were at, restaurants we ate at, places we were seen together, a lot of people she met with me standing right there. There is so much proof yet no one looks at it. And Lindsay and I just laugh and laugh at all of the mistakes and lies the trolls make.

What all do you know about me? What I have said here about my life or what some tabloid wrote about me when the writers of the articles have never once spoken to me? See why I continue to maintain this blog? Because my story and my truth is right here. Anytime the show gets back on the air I sell a lot more of my books. I get a lot of hits to my website that makes me an enormous amount of money. And I also get my side of the story out there. A lot of people watched last season and saw the lies Meri was trying to tell. They also saw how TLC was editing the show to prove that Meri will lie to her husband to avoid getting into trouble. She is more of his assistant than his wife. I’ve said that for over a year now. And watch the show this season. Will that change? Will they grow closer after she cheated and lied to him? Or is he still distant and spending time with everyone, except her? You will see from day 1 I told ya’ll she was lying. And more of her lies will come out.

I would like everyone to leave me and my kids alone. We have a great life. I’m very happy. They are healthy and I ask you respect our privacy. I also know no one is going to do that so keep commenting. You will continue to be ignored, blocked and have nothing to show but your own hate and anger at a situation that is none of your business. I’m happy to answer questions. I have done my best to always be open and honest. I’m glad that things are quieting down and I pray that Meri finds happiness. The stories about her dating a guy in Hawaii are bs. She is talking to someone on the phone and texting him but it’s not that guy Lol All has been confirmed. I’m happy she found a new guy to talk to. She needs that. Don’t believe me? All Kody has to do is go look at her cellphone bill from Verizon. The proof is right there. Will he? Nope because he wants to continue to live a life of stuffing his head in the sand. He doesn’t care. I pray everyday that she leaves Kody. He is toxic to her. He doesn’t fulfill her life in any meaningful way anymore and he will continue to ignore and distance himself from her. He is not a good guy like he wants the world to believe. He is a verbally abusive, controlling guy that wants to justify 4 marriages when that’s not at all what it has turned into. What part of his religious life does he want to share with everyone using a tv show? There is barely any mention of it anymore. The focus has become what can this family do to peak interest and get ya’ll to watch them so they can keep cashing checks and not do any real jobs to become active members of society. Yes fame can be fun I guess. But when the show is over, who will they become? And how long until the money is gone. If you put your money in the hands of a non-college educated person and a money hungry 2nd wife, how long will that last you when you have more bills/taxes to pay than you can afford. They are all setting themselves up for a huge drop. It’s coming sooner than they think. And I hate to see it happen. I think the Brown family could have done so much more with this opportunity but they coast by with minimum responsibility to a show and a tv network that is their lifelines. The greatest indication of how much polygamy does not work for this family is NONE of their children want to partake the lifestyle. That tells me right there how bad growing up with Kody as an abuser and dictator has been. If he has to actually go out and get a real job in the next year or 2, who will even hire him? What can will he put on his resume the last 7 years of his life?

And yet I’m the bad guy Lol I have taken a lot of shit for months. It’s been very unfair yet I continue to say nothing and be graceful. I don’t know what led me to finally say something but it feels good to get some of this off of my chest. I have taken full responsibility all along for the affair. I knew she was married. I knew she was still in the family. I should have asked her to leave then gotten with her. I should have backed off. I was in love. I fell completely in love with her. I won’t ever apologize for that. But when will Meri ever take responsibility? When will Kody? Why is it all my fault when she was actively pursuing me from day 1. The voicemails she left on my phones do not lie. She was not forced to say or do anything at all. She was not threatened in any way. She was never asked to send naughty photos or do anything outside of her comfort level. She willingly continued the affair for months because she was so happy. And then we broke up. I stayed away from her refusing to talk to her and she got pissed. Then she got revenge. That’s all that happened here. Watch what I continue to do with my life and businesses and watch his. It’s no wonder to me at all that Meri found me and fell in love. Because I have always had more to offer her than working for someone who no longer cares and just wants the money she can make. He takes all of the money and divides up as needed. He does not dole it out to what each wife actually makes filming the show. That causes a lot of resentment and fights. There is so much more I can open up about since I was close to Meri for months. She confided a lot to me and I think it’s time I finally start talking about that. She deserves better. I hope she leaves Kody. I will always stand up for myself on this subject and continue to state the truth. There was no catfish. Not at all. Meri lied.  And I can’t wait to see what her life will become once she is finally free from that douchebag.

Just sayin 😉

2 babies crawling, What do I do now?

Heston started crawling. And finally tonight when I got off of work and walked in the door Sarah put Alex down. And off he went. I can’t believe it. I picked him up and kissed all over him. He started laughing. Then I put him down on the blankets in the living room. And they both crawled after me. They are slow. But I know they will pick up speed when they figure it all out.

My babies are crawling! I was warned once they start crawling they will get into everything. We are overly prepared. I’m in shock. These 2 little peanuts that I held from Day 1 are now these mobile little beings. This is all happening way too fast.

I Facetime’ed everyone to show them. Same response from everyone. So happy and then they warn me they will get into everything. Yes I know. We are ready.

The best part is when they start chasing my dog Lol He loves them so much. He thinks they are his new toys now. They crawl after him, he puts his butt in the air and then takes off. It’s been fun. I just can’t believe it. My little Alex is crawling. I wondered when he would start. His brother was pretty much crawling over him at this point. But now they are racing over to me. Kisses for everyone. Big airplane rides then back down to the floor so they can crawl all over me and yank on my tie.

Best day ever! We are at the lakehouse until Sunday morning. Because Josh and I are hitting the Bears game at noon. We all needed a break from the city. It gets too intense there. It’s go go go all the time. Even if it’s just a day break we all voted to come up here.

I need to go cook dinner. The girls want brats on the grill. Yuck. I’m grilling tofu and veggies for me. And I made some brownies last night and brought them up here. They are made out of cauliflower I pureed Lol I didn’t tell them that part yet.

Have a great Friday night, friends. Love ya’ll!