Talon Andrew Cooper is here!

Thank you to Karen for making this for us. I will write the whole birth story as soon as I have time. I came home for a few hours to rest and see my kids. I have been up at the hospital by my wife’s side since Talon’s birth. I feel refreshed and ready to go back up and be with them. I missed my kiddos at home and they missed me.

He is healthy and perfect, my wife is doing great. She’s a little sore but she said it was a smooth birth. She had the drugs Lol That helped her a lot. She was in labor I think 13 hours with him? Something like that.

I will update soon. We love Talon! I uploaded a bunch of photos to our Family Facebook page if you guys want to go check him out. My wife said ignore her rough look, she just gave birth Lol Some of her photos she does look a little rough but to me she’s just beautiful.

Our son is here! I can’t wait to take him home. We have to wait 1 more day before he can come with us. My wife will be getting out the same time he does. She had high test results again so they are keeping her in another night tonight. I pray she levels off because that does worry me a bit.

Thank you all for the great messages! Go look at his photos. He looks just like me!

Our newborn son’s name will be…

After months of debating, list making and a whole lot of Veto’s my wife and I are happy to announce that our new baby son will be named:

 

TALON ANDREW COOPER

 

She picked the first name and had to really convince me to name our son after a bird claw. It grew on me much like Peace did. Andrew as we all know is the name I picked out. I am giving my son my best friend Drew’s name as the middle name. Andrew, or Drew as I have always called him has been my best friend my entire life. I am a few months older than he is but we were raised together, went through schools together. We are brothers. I couldn’t think of a better name than Andrew and I think it goes great with the bird claw Lol

Talon is so loved and we are so excited to meet him in about 14 weeks. I pray every day that he stays in there and cooks longer and I also pray his birth is easy and not so painful for my wife. So far the pregnancy with him has gone great. A few mood swings here and there but she said even the morning sickness wasn’t that bad.

I called Drew a little while ago and told him about the name. He started crying and laughing and saying well it is the best name there is Lol Of course. He said he is very honored to have my boy be named after him and he will look out for all of the kids for the rest of his life.

I called Lindsay and she hates both names and hung up on me. No wait, she told me That’s the dumbest names I have ever heard, they are going to throw feathers at him, I’m watching tv f*** off love you bye Lol That was the whole conversation.

We have just finished calling everyone to let them know the name. Mixed reactions but for the most part we don’t care. It’s our baby. My wife named him, I didn’t veto it. Talon it is.

We love you Talon. I can’t wait to meet you!

Lindsay is already in Chicago

Sarah just called. She said Lindsay is already at the house and already bossing everyone around. She said she threw out a few of the things the girls put into Peace’s nursery and rearranged all of the furniture. She also put a bassinet up in our bedroom for when we want her to sleep in there with us. I didn’t do that with the boys. I had them in their cribs from day one. I would let them nap near us in the living room or if I needed a nap they could nap in my room but we had decided early on they need to get used to their cribs. I’m getting all of these flashbacks from when we brought the boys home.

I’m so happy Lindsay is there. I knew she would be Lol She is going to Costco and stocking us up again. She does that every time she’s in town. Our baby closet is going to be so full she will have to find another room to put stuff in. She always buys about 3 months of everything. Diapers, wipes, formula, and now she has all of these baby girl outfits to buy. Sarah said she brought in a gigantic teddy bear. It’s about 4 feet tall. I said how did you get that on the plane. She said she made Dave stop at a store on the way to the house Lol How funny. I can see her sitting it up in their rental car and buckling it in the backseat. She said her god-daughter deserves the best. Yes she does!

Lindsay will help the girls get things figured out. It’s going to be a great weekend. I asked if she would go get groceries too and she said she was half way done with the list. She said she’s also hired a party planner to do our baby party for all of our family and friends. She scheduled it for 3 weeks from Saturday. So that puts it, let me look, August 19th. She said by then her immune system can handle that many people and by then we will all be in a routine with her. Then she told me we are not moving to Paris now and she’s going to go cancel that trip Lol I told her don’t do that and she said I’m a selfish a**hole for taking her nephews and niece away from her. I said move to Paris and she said there’s an issue she’s not allowed anymore Lol I don’t think Paris has banned Lindz but you never know with her. I’m sure she’s banned from a specific airline she doesn’t travel well with chatty seat mates.

Auntie Lindz is waiting at home to meet us. I can’t wait to see her hold Peace. And when Drew and his family comes it will be that same feeling all over again, a complete feeling of safety for my kids. With my 2 best friends I know 100% they would both give up their lives for any of my kids. Knowing that makes me feel more at ease when I get both of them in town at the same time. I just know everything is going to be okay because these 2 awesome people will always look out for me. Always.

I pray Peace has a great nap. She was up a little while ago with a bad diaper. I changed her and my wife said thankfully we both have enough practice with that. It does make it easier. My boys have made me a pro by now. I still don’t like dealing with the blowouts Lol But so far Peace hasn’t had one yet. It may be a while.

I have so much free time with her sleeping that’s why I’m blogging more. I want to share this whole experience with everyone. I just put up 4 more videos on Facebook, guys. Go check them out. Isn’t she cute!

We have her!

We have Peace! We filled out all of the paperwork. The birth mom did not want to meet us. She was very sweet and told them she knows God found the right couple and she doesn’t want to know anything about us. I told the Hospital administrator lady and social services lady to ask her one more time please, they did and she declined so I accepted it. I prayed for her, I prayed for Peace and I let it go. That’s what God has taught me. Accept, reassess, let go, Let God.

I just put the video up from when they brought Peace into the room they had us wait in. I put up my mini tripod and put my phone on it so everyone could see it. I was going to Facebook Live it but I didn’t. Yes my wife and I were both crying. I kissed her perfect little head half a dozen times. She has so much black hair Lol I was amazed. My boys didn’t have this much hair. She has the sweetest little face and she’s very quiet. I know once she gets the cobwebs out of her lungs she will let me have it but for now she’s very chill.

We Facetimed with the boys and they both said Ooooohhh. They have no idea what a sister is but they are about to learn. My wife looks so amazing holding her. That’s what really got me. My wife holding our daughter. Wow. That’s what life is all about. I told her in a few more months we will be doing this all over again and she said when she married me she knew I wanted a lot of kids, she did too but even this is surprising. I told her we can stop for a few years. I don’t want number 5 and 6 to come so soon. She agreed and also told me I was cut off Lol Oh no! I don’t want to be cut off!

Thanks for all the great comments that keep coming in on Facebook. Isn’t she the most beautiful baby girl you have ever seen. She is mixed race. Half Asian/Half Caucasian. I don’t see that as a problem at all and I know her life is going to be perfect. If anyone says one damn thing about her ethnicity they are going to put me in a Try Me mood and I will have something to say about it. No way will I let anyone pick on her.

I get bullied enough online I won’t let that happen to my kids. Not ever. Lindsay has been working very hard to get the trolls accounts Locked up and Suspended. She also has been matching up their IP addresses from Twitter and Yelp. How dumb are they to actually use their real names and locations on Yelp Lol It makes it very easy for her to figure out what troll is what IP and she bans them on here. I told her I want everyone Unsuspended once a month because I believe in second chances. She says she doesn’t and it’s her decision to keep all of them blocked so sorry guys. Unless it was an accidental blocking, you nasty women are permanently banned. She’s also banning your proxy websites you still try to use to read my blog. If you are banned, how about stay away? I don’t read anything you say to me on Twitter, you are all muted. Lindsay is the one that goes around once a day to get you all kicked off. I don’t even know how she does it. All I know is she tells me who is locked up and who got suspended. That’s all I see. That new Mute button, wow that thing works great. I see NOTHING Lol I love it. They are getting nailed for spamming me. If they send me over 5 tweets in a row we can get them locked up in a few hours she told me. That’s amazing. I really want to thank Jack and Biz and all of her friends at Twitter for helping me out. It’s making things so much quieter. I love that.

The hospital doctors all told me to wait a few days before we fly home. I asked if it’s easier for us to just drive back they said she will be okay in 2 more days so we will be here until Saturday morning. I asked if we could bring her back before we leave to make sure and they said yes. This hospital is so awesome. We took photos with her and the staff that was taking care of her. The OB/GYN said she was a very easy birth, 4 big pushes and she came out. He said after a little suction and shaking her chest a few times she let out a big scream and was ready for life. She’s a little bigger than my boys were. She’s healthy that’s all I care about. I counted and kissed 10 little fingers and 10 little toes.

We are at the hotel. I signed everything I needed to sign. I spoke with my adoption attorney and she said if the hospital social services and administration cleared us we could leave. I put my little peanut in her baby car seat and drove about 10 mph over to the hotel Lol My wife said you can speed up a little Sam. I said precious cargo!

She’s taking a nap right now. My wife and I each took a shower so we are completely cleaned up. We have no plans other than to go get food for ourselves. We have formula we are feeding her. We are starting her out on vegan formula. I am going to try this once again. If she starts presenting issues like Alex did I will take her immediately off of it. I won’t go through that again it made me feel like a horrible father. It was all my fault. I decided, he wasn’t thriving so I threw away an entire case of formula.

It’s a 2 and a half hour flight from here so it won’t be that long. My wife said she’s small enough right now she can handle it and after that we won’t have her fly until we leave for Paris. My wife will be moving in November. I’m following with all 3 kids in January. We have a plan and as far as ya’ll have seen God always has another plan for me.

I keep taking pictures of Peace. I was surprised we aren’t taking too much crap for her name. I really thought our family and friends would have a lot more to say about it but so far no. They love it. It really is a beautiful name. I love it. Taylor is for my cousin Taylor who passed away years ago. Her death had a major impact on my life and I wanted to honor her. My wife is the one that came up with Peace. I love it but at first I was like Nooooooooo, that’s weird. It grew on me and she was pretty adamant. I’m happy she got to name our daughter. She said at least we can make her nursery with all kinds of peace signs, that’s easy. Yes it is Lol Great point!

My wife just got back with our food. I love ya’ll and I will update you more tomorrow. I need to go eat. I can’t wait for my boys to meet their little sister. I will video it!

 

Raise your hand if this feels like a Saturday

  Quick shoutout to all of the Moms and Dads that have no moms for their kids. Happy Mother’s Day, everyone!

My wife has begun her very first Mother’s day weekend with us. She woke up to her favorite donuts. I got up early to go get them fresh. She had texted me Where are you? because I sort of got caught in traffic. I meant to get home before she woke up but that didn’t happen. I came walking in with her at the coffeepot and she could smell it right away. She said Oooohhh donuts. Then she saw the bag and she said you went all the way out there to get these Oh my goodness! I got rewarded with a big hug and a coffee tasting kiss. It was worth it. She deserves it. She said you have to try a bite so I did. Not a big donut guy, well wait. I do like donuts but I like vegan donuts because I think they taste better. It’s a fresher tasting donut. The regular donuts you guys eat taste stall to me. We sat and visited for a few while she enjoyed her treat. Then she took another one and headed to the shower.

So far so good. I have no screwed up her special weekend. I’m going to throw it into high gear by tomorrow. I want to make sure she really understands how much I love she is the mama. I also sent a card with new photos to their birth mom. She is still a mom to them whether anyone else’s opinions matters or not (It doesn’t). I will always honor her and explain to my boys exactly who she is. A photo of their birth parents is now in their room and will remain there until they both want it removed. Which I hope is never. I won’t hide the adoption part of their life. I am already prepared on how to answer questions that come up. I have probably read over 20 books on how to explain things to them and have decided we will go sit with a therapist at around pre-teen so we can fully get into it. I want them to know it’s safe, okay, and really all about how much I wanted them in my life forever. I choose this. They didn’t and I hope they understand it really has been the #1 best decision in my entire life. I would never, ever, ever change it. I say that now before they steal my car and wreck it in some far off city I forbid them to go to as teenagers Lol But right now my perfect little boys are all I care for. My wife of course is reason #2 and she knows that’s the order. She is fine with my putting my kids first. This is why I go extra hard on trying to make her feel as special and wanted as I do them.

I can’t tell you guys everything I have planned. I can tell you the boys and all 3 nannies have helped me out. We had several group texts going all week to make sure “The Plan” goes off without a hitch. I do expect some things to not go perfectly because that’s not my life. My life is a huge amount of effort, some disappointments and me just laughing it all off and say Well I tried! God keeps me in check, believe me. My ego has taken a step back or two over the past few years and I reprioritized myself. I had to. No one likes someone who arrogant. Now, I’m still arrogant. I still am flashy but I keep most of that offline Lol I like my big boy toys. That’s for sure.

I do not forget for one day my wife picked me to spend the rest of her life with. I have some really great qualities but I also have a ton of baggage. No immediate family, a dog that is spoiled rotten, 2 boys under 1 years old at the time, 3 nannies that live in and around us at all times, 2 very, very overprotective best friends, and a job that demands my attention 7 days a week. Plus all of the perks though too. I have a lot of money, I can help her and her family get financially secure. I am respectful, kind, very loving, and I try hard at everything. I admit my mistakes and I DO NOT LIE. I have no reason to. My life is my life. This is it folks. The people from here that are on my Facebook page, you see how it is. I’m not posting posed photos of one big happy family. There’s photos of laundry stacked up to the doorknob, messy babies, messy kitchen, a muddy dog, all of it. That’s my life. The good, the grandeur, and the bad.

I pray my wife knows how much we all love her and that I am so happy I picked her. She is my boys’ mama. I know some day that will switch to mommy and I know that will melt her heart into a giant puddle of love.

I love you, sweetheart. I know you will read this some time today. Enjoy the flowers, chocolates, and lunch that I had sent to your office. You deserve more than that but I didn’t want to go overboard, yet. I thank God every day for you. You love my boys so much and you take good care of all of us. I can’t wait until our daughter is in our life and we can do all of the things we have dreamed about with her. Whoever she is, she will be so blessed to have you as her new mommy. You really are the best woman I know. That’s why I blurted out “Let’s get married” last summer. I couldn’t help myself. I knew you were mine. I just wanted you to be mine forever. I’m so happy you said “What, are you serious? Don’t mess with me, do you really mean that?” Lol I remember every word!

To all of my readers, fans, followers, and even the nasty mean trolls. Have a happy Mother’s day. A mother comes in all shapes and sizes but she is always the unconditional everything your whole life. Call your mom, send a card. If you aren’t speaking to your mom for whatever the reason, get over it and do the right thing. It matters to your soul, not to hers. Call her. And that goes out to someone I know will be mad that I pushed it but he needed to hear it. Call your mom, bro! She will talk to you. And you still owe me $10 Lol

Have a good….is this Friday? Holy cow. Okay I need to get going there. I’m already late. Love ya’ll!

 

I invited like 11 people, what’s the big deal?

Greetings from the Lakehouse. It has been a really busy week for me. Today I had 2 trips out of town

 

which didn’t go at all like I planned!! @#@#$!@!!(((!!!!!!!

 

Now that I’ve gotten that off of my chest I am ready to finish this thought Lol Sarah out of nowhere decided she wanted to go with me this morning. Which left Brandi and Heather who had time off today to pitch in once again. That’s probably the only reason Sarah decided she wanted to go. She said she wanted to get out of the house all day and “just be a kid again”. Fine by me come on! I brought my cousins Tristan and Tyson with me as well.

 

We hit Oklahoma City first. I sent them off for shopping then lunch, I went to my meeting, checked in at my office and met up with everyone. Out of nowhere Lindsay’s friend Becky calls me and said Lindsay said she can come with everyone to my house and she’s supposed to be at the airport in a half hour to meet up with me Lol Oh okay, I said who decided all of this? She said I’m just telling you what Lindsay told me and I think it’s really fun so I’m on my way I will call you when I get close, okay? Uhhhhhhhhhhh ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm oh uhhhhhhhh

 

LINDSAY!!!

 

So Becky hung up on me really quick before I could say no. I blew up Lindsay’s phone then Ben’s phone which he answered on the 2nd call, amazing how that works when you know how to work the system. He said “Dude, I haven’t seen her” even when I heard her whisper a little too loud tell him I’m not here Lol Might want to work on your whisper game sweetness. Which I then said tell her I heard that and to get on the @#$@!@%% phone now. So he said here and she started in with Hey, what’s up?

 

What’s up. Let’s see. Becky, who is your friend and has had a crush on me for over 2 years now is going to be sitting with Peyton someone I actually dated for 1 month on a plane ride back to Chicago for 3 hours talking about hmmmmm probably me and why I won’t date either one. Also Becky wasn’t invited and I wasn’t even aware of any of this add in the fact she hung up on me before I could say Yes, no, get lost, or what are you talking about?

 

Lindsay faked a bad connection by making static like noises into the phone and said she’d call right back which is her way of saying get over myself and she will call me when I’m not so pissed off. She does that often Lol

 

We found Becky who needed money to put in her car to make sure she could pay for her Long Term parking on Sunday when I drop her off. So I had to go walk over to her parking spot and give her $50 because I did not have a $20 on me. She insisted we “take care of it now because I’m so broke I shouldn’t even be going on this vacation”. Wait, vacation? My level of frustration only rose 3 notches when she yanked out 3 bags,

 

3 bags!!! for 2 days!!!

 

Then I remember she is Lindsay’s friend and this is pretty typical. So I wheeled her bags for her and she talked nonstop about this hair weave place downtown she wants to visit so she can look at some clip in feathers, she Googled the address and where was it located, had I ever been there before?

 

No! I get my haircut for $12 why would I go to a hair weavologist for feathers? What? Is that even a real thing? Keep in mind this is the Becky that rolled around on the floor in the kitchen then crawled out of the house when Lindsay threw a Honeybun snack cake out of the front door to get her out Lol So I was already prepared for some randomness.

 

Everyone loaded, still on time, let’s go.

 

Off to Las Vegas to pick up the final group. We land, park where I can offload/onload quickly. Call Lindsay. No answer. Call Ben. No answer. Okay. Call Lindsay, text Lindsay. No answer, nothing. Okay, hmmm. Call Ben, text Ben. Finally Lindsay calls me back. She’s walked towards me still calling me and makes me answers. Then she says “I have another surprise for you, you will love this, gotta go cuz you are like right in front of me.”

 

The next surprise was 2 fold. She invited Drew our best friend and his family to come with us which meant a quick stop in Lincoln, Nebraska to get them. No problem. She said only one problem. They need to bring their dog with them because they can’t find anyone to watch her and can’t leave her alone all weekend.

 

SON OF A >>>>>>>>>>>

 

Lol So now we have Tyson, Tristan, Sarah, Becky, Ben, Lindsay, Drew, his wife, his son, his daughter, and their dog. I said well we only have 1 more seat left on the plane are you sure there isn’t someone else you could invite? Being a smartass, she said Oh hey let me text…………….. I grabbed her phone and told her to get her ass on the plane Lol I announced we will be dealing with Drew’s dog from Lincoln to Chicago, sorry, and no one text, call, facebook, twitter, smoke signal, or american sign language anyone else to invite them on this “vacation”. Lindsay said quit being a big baby, where’s the f-word cheetos at Lol

 

Off to Lincoln. Loaded everyone up they put the little dog in the carrier and buckled her into her seat. They also let her out while we were in the air and she peed on my carpeting. Great. I’m not cleaning that up. Lindsay said she’ll get a can of Resolve and spray it on there. Yeah right.

 

We waited for car service, my group needed 2 vehicles and now we are all safely at the lakehouse Lol This is ridiculous. It’s like a reunion or soriety sisters who spend all of their time talking and touching Tristan’s fake boobs. I’m exhausted. I’m hungry and I just want to hang out with my babies. The girls brought the boys up earlier today and called to make sure our Services were going to be finished up by tonight. The groceries hadn’t been delivered yet and I had a bunch of add on groceries since our small group blew up out of nowhere.

 

Lindsay is someone that thinks more people is better because that way she can be the center of attention and make everyone laugh. I just see a bunch of people I have to clean up after and feed 3 to 4 times a day. She gets out of all of the work part that’s why she does this. This time I took her aside and said you wanted this party, fine, but you will be helping me or this will be the last time. She shoved my chest and said no probz daddy-o she will handle all of it.

 

We will see. I’m very anxious for some reason. I am just on edge tonight. Maybe because I’m exhausted. It really has been a long week for me. I just wanted to hang out with her and Ben this weekend with my cousins. I thought that would be fun.

 

This will be fun too. So I’m going to stop complaining now that I vented this all out. I really do love all of my family and friends and I do plan on enjoying my time with them.

 

Everyone is passing my boys around like bags of chips. Thank goodness I have helpers here to pitch in. I’m going to bed early so I can get up early and start prepping breakfast stuff for everyone.

 

Wish me luck! Lol

It’s a Lake but it’s not, right?

picture13707253107424  Good morning from Lake Forest. We made it up to the Lake house yesterday. Both of my kids are having a little bit of stomach issue which we are monitoring closely. Sarah said sometimes you get a bad can of formula and as their bodies are growing they react differently to it. So I threw that can out and opened a new one. Is that true? Can you get a bad can of formula? I meant to google that but then my doctor told me to stop googling stuff so would love to hear feedback.

Heston is smiling a lot. Alex is still crying a lot. They are doing the twin crying thing. It really is getting loud. So far no one in my condo building has complained. I keep asking the people downstairs do you hear us? They only said they hear running if one of us is running across the place to grab something so we have implemented a no running policy now.

I know in 2 more months my boys are going to become more mobile on their own. They are going to be moving a lot more, rolling over? Is that our next big milestone? Or is it laughing next? I can get both of them to smile at me. I will not embarrass myself with the silly faces or voices I do to get them to do it but it’s pretty epic Lol Those are not the times we do home movies. I have videoed everything! I have so many photos to add to my Flickr I need to sit down and do that. I have all of it organized into folders so that I can upload it all into one big swoop. It’s going to double what I already have in there. I literally take new photos everyday. Is that too much? I don’t care I don’t want to miss anything.

Yesterday is when the bad stomachs really started. Sarah said the formula smelled the same but with that reaction she wasn’t really sure what the cause was. She said for it to hit both of them like that it had to be the formula. She came to me and said the weekend nanny and her were talking about it together and decided as a team (That’s a first, usually Sarah tells them what to do) to talk to me. I came home from work immediately. I am that dad Lol What’s wrong?????????? I’m on my way! I hung up before she could say no need to come home. They told me what was going on. I sniffed the can. I know what it smells like by now I’ve probably made 200 bottles of this stuff by now. I checked the expiration date, it was fresh stuff, then pitched it in the trash. Sarah said that’s expensive to be throwing away like that without us really knowing and I said I don’t care, my boys going through this is more expensive if the rest of that formula is doing the same thing, pitch it. I will go get more. So we are all on baby watch. Well I guess technically it’s diaper watch. All night last night we seemed okay. We are still being cautious because babies can get dehydrated very quickly if you aren’t watching them closely. We have 4 adults on this. There is no excuse at all for them to be dehydrated. None.

The house renovations are coming along great. Every time we come up here it’s a new this and a new that. I love it. It’s looking great. I probably should have done this year ago but I always figured I would get married and my wife could handle it. Instead I have 3 women, an interior designer and me just signing checks and saying whatever they want. Yes, I have had many they are Sister Wives jokes except I’m not dating or being with ANY of them, they are all way too young and I have no interest in any of them. I’m treating them all like they are my kids. And I’m happy with the way things are in my life. They keep me young that’s for sure. I have watched more Youtube videos that are viral, virel? What’s the internet term for viral videos? I think it’s viral. Anywho, I’ve watched funny things, shocking things, and a ton of military home-coming videos.

Today it’s all about watching my boys. If things are okay I’m heading up to Wisconsin for a few hours for shopping. There’s a big mall up there that has a lot of baby stores. Now that we are into size 3 to 6 months I do not have the basic daily baby onesies enough to cover us more than a week. We got a lot of 3 to 6 months baby outfits. But that’s not what we keep them in all day. So I need to stock up on 3 to 6 and start on the 6 to 9 months. I also want to look at baby activity stuff. We got some baby sets that you lay them under and they can kick or grab stuff but they just kind of look at it and don’t do anything yet Lol I’m getting a lot of did you start them on baby einstein yet? What in the world is this baby einstein? No I haven’t started them on that, they aren’t even 2 months old yet my gosh. Whatever that is, I’m not doing it. My kids will develop naturally until it’s time they can actually start retaining and learning. Right now, I’m letting them just be babies and chill, poop, and eat. That’s their life.

Also I got a lot of comments in regards to me having them baptized so quickly. That’s my family tradition. We have done it the same way for every child. As soon as their doctor clears them to be out in public we take them right to Church and get it done. As Catholics we believe that you need to be baptized for a lot of different reasons, specifically within my family we get it done all in one shot. That’s why we also already pick the family spiritual names from day 1 of them being Catholic. We gather as a family the night before. And talk about what family names or what saint names are going to work best. It was my ultimate choice but I pretty much already knew Tobias was going to be one of them. That’s fine I like that name. I was fighting not to have Daniel at all. In the end, I caved and honored my little brother. May he rest in peace. That’s also our family tradition. It started with my great-great-great grandfather apparently on my mother’s side. I’m very sure on my father’s side hardly any of them were even baptized. My father was Catholic but never went to Church unless he was caught in the store or at a gas station by Father and told to show up. Then he would surprise us all and go with us. As soon as it was over, we were the very first family out of that door Lol He never even said goodbye to anyone. Then he’d yank off his tie, light a cigarette and tell my mother what a waste of time it is and how he could be working and not sitting there listening to the town “yapper” talk about how bad we all are. Guilty-much there, daddy? Lol The town yapper. It took me years to get up enough courage to ask my mom what that meant. When she told me I died laughing and got sent to my room to pray.

Did anyone else get sent to your room to pray? We did, and we did. We actually had to go kneel by the bed, our little hands pressed together in prayer and silently pray unless my mom yelled down the hallway, I don’t hear you praying in there, then we would yell out our prayers and an Amen for good measure then we had to ask to come out of our rooms. For whatever reason, as soon as we prayed all was forgiven. We learned that very fast that if we avoided the argument of I don’t want to go pray and just did it, then we were left back to our own freedom. The few times, and it was never me by the way, one of us would fight it out and refused to go pray out came the belt. Now the belt in my mother’s hand was more of a scare tactic. In my dad’s hands it was out for a whipping. And we got one. I will never in my life paddle, whip, smack, or touch my kids out of anger. No way! I grew up like that, I am ending that cycle. Before I hired my nannies I explained to them my beliefs and told them if I ever saw them hit any of my kids they would be fired on the spot. Now if my kids tattle and say they got smacked when they really didn’t we will address that immediately in front of the nanny. I’m also not worried because I have video cameras all over both of my homes Lol I will see what happened and it also has a zoom on the software so when or if I ever do get around to watching those videos I can zoom in closer to see what actually went on. The girls all agree smacking a kid into correction is not needed. A stern look or a quick discussion is going to be a lot better. I don’t want my kids growing up to fear me. I want them to respect me. I don’t want them to have childhood stories of one time when I was 6 my dad took off his belt and beat us both on the ass for taking the last piece of cake Lol That is my childhood and that did actually happened.

Drew texted me the other day and said he was mailing us another check. I said why? Did Linsday say she was mailing another college fund one, is this another one of those God-parent games you two are doing? He said no, it’s from his parents. I about fell over. Both of his parents do not like me. They don’t hate me because we are on speaking terms. But they are not fans of mine at all. So to hear him say that I was shocked. He said they wrote the check and gave him a card but talked to him about if they should send me a card or not. Then his mom said it’s not money going to me, it’s going to my kids and she wanted to acknowledge them in God’s love. Which is very sweet. Then 3 days later, of course Drew hadn’t even mailed the card out yet, she came over, grabbed the card, ripped it open and tore up the check and card. She gave him a new check written out to him and told him to just send me a check in his name and not tell me. See, it’s complicated. So thank you to Drew’s parents. You two were always parents to me too, you were my mom’s best friend her entire life, and I miss you both very much. I love ya’ll. You are in my daily prayers and always have been. Even through our rough time. I think that’s a very good sign that maybe things are getting healed. I don’t know. Every time I am back in Nebraska I go by their house now to say hello. I’m never invited inside, I don’t even stand at the door, I ring the bell and step back down on the sidewalk away from the door. We do a pleasant greeting then I update them both on what’s been going on. I always ask if they will go to dinner with me and they say no, politely. Except for a few times I was yelled at, and the one time Drew’s mom chased me off with a broom Lol That was funny but also very sad after I stopped laughing as I drove away. I won’t give up on them. I believe God will show them someday I’m still me. I’m still here. And I’m still one of their “other” kids. I’m really hoping this means they want to be in my boys’ lives. I asked Drew what that meant and he said give them time. Just keep waiting they seem to be coming around.

God is awesome. I tell you, that’s been 13 years in the making now. 13 years of rejection you would think I would have given up on them but as long as I am respectful to them and try, I know I’m doing what I need to do. I think they secretly like it when I show up but they won’t admit it Lol At least she stopped chasing me off with a broom!

I hope ya’ll have a great weekend. I am going to be able to catch up on things tomorrow. So I will be around more then.

God loves you and I love ya’ll too!

 

Freedom is coming, I promise

freedom-fb-covers  The best news I could get is something I can’t share just yet. It’s been months in the making. I told ya’ll it would happen and it is. Be patient as things unfold and watch what I do. All I needed is one chance, one shot. And my shot is coming. I am on Cloud 9 right now.

Everything I have prayed for, every wish, all the hopes and dreams I have for my life. I am getting it soon. I trusted God. Even when I had my doubts, even when nothing but prayer was keeping me going, I surrendered my will and gave it to God. In time, you can have all of your prayers answered. Scratch that, in God’s time, they will come to you.

This is why you don’t give up on things in your life. You can’t afford to. The moment you give up is the moment you weaken your core beliefs. You owe it to yourself to keep faith. I have learned over the past year of my life that I thought I knew better. I thought I knew how to love, how to give, how to be kind, how to be graceful. I’m not at all the same guy I was back then. I’m better. I’m kinder, more graceful. I am everything I ever wanted to be. It took me losing a great love, a soul mate, to realize just how much I needed to work on me. I’ve been working on things, I’m still working on things. And it is paying off!

Ya’ll don’t even know. I’m living Heaven right now in my life. I couldn’t be happier. Thank you all for the support and friendships. Thanks for the love and all the great messages. You are all loved.

Just watch what happens next 😉 Right, baby?