I sold out…then I hit pause

Because of the nanny situation I’ve decided to sell my app that I was working on to the software engineer that has been helping me create it. I know its monetary worth because I had it appraised and we agreed on a price I was happy with. And then…

I’m trying to deal with raising the kids on my own. I had a part-time nanny that would come in as needed. That did not work out at all. I’m here, trying to balance everything, and it just became too much. I had to choose. The app or the kids. I picked the kids. My kids have always been my dream. My career will be second to them always. I’m trying to get out of having a nanny. I want to figure out how to do the things I want to do and still raise my kids alone. I think that’s impossible at their ages. I know that in a few years they will be at school and I can continue on trying to find my next chapter. I kind of feel like I’m selling myself out or maybe I’m selling myself short. How many single parents have to actually go to a job 8 hours a day and still come home and do all of the family stuff. I can afford a nanny. I can afford several nannies but I don’t want that. I want to raise my kids.

Now a new idea has come up of having a live in nanny who can either stay in the house or stay in the guest house out back and would be available as much as I need. I could keep working on my app but limit the schedule down and mostly work from home. I could keep pursuing that dream and have the freedom to go to meetings and/or travel as needed for the app. I just don’t know. It’s complicated. I like my uncomplicated life. I’m thinking on it but how do you decide such a thing? I don’t need a nanny it’s more of a want so I can keep my app. But does this app mean that much to me? It’s a way to keep working. I’m not someone who can sit around and do nothing. I’m always needing to be busy.

How do you decide? I guess pray. The answer will come to me. I have plenty of time. I just have to figure it all out.

No more freebies

That’s it those are the first 5 pages of my book for free. I hope it makes you want more. I tried really hard to write about my experiences and add a little humor. I think I am funny in a non-threatening way.  I am leaving at noon to fly to Seattle for the weekend. My buddy is getting married and I am a groomsman. Groom’s man? I’m standing up there looking pretty. I have to go pick up my tux after I leave work and try it on for the last time. It fit great the last time they had to alter one of the cuffs at the bottom. It’s been a while since I tied a bowtie I bought a clip on to make it easier. I hope the bride doesn’t notice. She’s already texted all of the groomsmen to threatened us about the bachelor party tonight. We are not allowed to get Kevin drunk. Only 2 drinks than sodas the rest of the night. Yeah right, sweetheart Lol Kevin used to lose to bad at beer pong in college he would throw up by round 5. He also used to piss himself about 4 hours into any frat party and none of us have matured beyond those years so I’m thinking Kevin might show up Saturday afternoon with one eyebrow and regret Lol

Ya’ll need to be watching American Idol. It’s the last season and it’s really good. This west coast feed stuff sucks because my twitter timeline gets filled up with everyone talking about the east coast feed. Check it out, great show so far.

Have a great weekend whatever you may be doing. Stay warm, have fun and go to Church on Sunday! I love ya’ll, God loves you too. Talk to you next week!