I sold out…then I hit pause

Because of the nanny situation I’ve decided to sell my app that I was working on to the software engineer that has been helping me create it. I know its monetary worth because I had it appraised and we agreed on a price I was happy with. And then…

I’m trying to deal with raising the kids on my own. I had a part-time nanny that would come in as needed. That did not work out at all. I’m here, trying to balance everything, and it just became too much. I had to choose. The app or the kids. I picked the kids. My kids have always been my dream. My career will be second to them always. I’m trying to get out of having a nanny. I want to figure out how to do the things I want to do and still raise my kids alone. I think that’s impossible at their ages. I know that in a few years they will be at school and I can continue on trying to find my next chapter. I kind of feel like I’m selling myself out or maybe I’m selling myself short. How many single parents have to actually go to a job 8 hours a day and still come home and do all of the family stuff. I can afford a nanny. I can afford several nannies but I don’t want that. I want to raise my kids.

Now a new idea has come up of having a live in nanny who can either stay in the house or stay in the guest house out back and would be available as much as I need. I could keep working on my app but limit the schedule down and mostly work from home. I could keep pursuing that dream and have the freedom to go to meetings and/or travel as needed for the app. I just don’t know. It’s complicated. I like my uncomplicated life. I’m thinking on it but how do you decide such a thing? I don’t need a nanny it’s more of a want so I can keep my app. But does this app mean that much to me? It’s a way to keep working. I’m not someone who can sit around and do nothing. I’m always needing to be busy.

How do you decide? I guess pray. The answer will come to me. I have plenty of time. I just have to figure it all out.

I have plans, don’t worry

My cousin Tyson came and picked up my kids. He is flying them back to Nebraska with 2 of my cousins. My twins are spending the entire weekend with their birth mom and family. It’s been a while since I took them back to Nebraska to see family so it was time. I don’t want to go because I am not allowed to spend time with the kids and the birth mom whenever she feels uncomfortable. She said this visit she wanted just them, not me. I’m fine with it. She deserves time with them whenever it works out for our schedule. She’s been doing really well in school and feels this weekend is a good break. We try to do this twice a year. She feels like that won’t make her feel bad, won’t bring up any doubts she may have had giving them up for adoption. She’s in their life but not a monthly thing. I’m fine with it. We agreed on an open adoption. My Sweet Pea does not have an open adoption so she will not be afforded the same quality time. It makes me sad but I understand. Peace went with Sarah, Heather, and Brandi for the weekend. I’m having my kitchen counters replaced and it’s just easier with the kids out of here. I’m also having the new cabinet doors installed and the new flooring in the kitchen put in. They are going to destroy my house and clean it all up by Sunday at 5….or else!

I can’t wait to see it all finished. It’s been a design frustration for a few weeks. The designer and I finally agreed and off we go.

I needed a break. We are back into full school mode, hanging with my kids all of the time. I think it’s healthy for me to have 2 or 3 weekends in a year without them. It refreshes me. No, I do not have a bunch of dates lined up. I’m not dating. I don’t want to. My ex-wife has been trying to talk to me. She’s blocked. I’m good with just being alone and being with my babies. I really want to enjoy these years with them. It all goes by so fast.

I hope everyone has a great weekend. I know I will! Love you guys!

2017 Year in Review – No

Merry Christmas everyone! We are wrapping up our Christmas eve things and getting the kids in bed so that we can attend the midnight mass at Church. We finally agreed to find a new Church and after much discussion and me telling her this is the Church for us, she gave up Lol To all the guys out there, I finally won an argument! Mark that down somewhere. That never happens. She said she trusts my judgement and didn’t want to keep stressing both of us out over something we both need to be supportive of. She also said if she hates it we aren’t going back Lol She also said if we don’t go back she’s going to call me a few names and find the right Church for us. That figures.

We all got to open 1 present each. The boys have been playing with their firetrucks all day. Peace threw her new handle toy thing around but only cared about the wrapping paper. My dog has been slinging his new snake rope toy around like crazy. The cat looked at her dragonfly toy and could give 2 sh**s Lol My wife LOVED the new perfume I found for her in Dubai. I am rocking my new sweater since it makes me look sexy and very Christmasy. We are all having the best time.

I would love to sit here for a few hours and recap how my 2017 went but you can literally read about almost all that happened on here. Hit the month you want to start at and go down the aisle I guess. I don’t have time to do the recap. My wife is a billion months pregnant and in constant need of my attention when my kids aren’t in need of me.

I can say I have had the best year of my life. If you had asked me 3 years ago would I be married with kids, NO. I just didn’t see much of a future after my very public affair.

I can tell how much I have grown and I still stand in the truth that there never was a catfish of Meri Brown. There was ONLY an affair and you are finally going to start seeing the truth on that stupid show. Their marriage was sh**, is sh**, and will not heal. The reason for that is Kody has read my blog, listened to the voicemails, and read my book. He now has the same information I had. He said at first “no fault” on her part at all. Now that he is more informed of the full situation he doesn’t want her anymore. He loves her and will always love her, but he’s not in love with her anymore. That is largely due to the lies she has told him and everyone. It also is because she still plays victim. She has done it with him for years, she did it with me, and she continues to play victim with all of you viewers. She has never owned up to the affair. She admitted to lying to avoid fighting with him. She admits that we had a love relationship, she even briefly admitted we had a great time and laughed. Then she realized if she told the REAL truth about our affair she would lose everything. She has NO WHERE TO GO. That’s why she stays. She’s not there helping raise kids. She’s not there because she’s in love with her husband. Meri stays in that awful marriage because since she was 19 years old this is all she knows. She is a part of that family and she does want that. She just has no way out. Think about it. She is legally divorced and got NO ASSETS in the divorce. The house is still in both her and Kody’s names. She is still providing money to her daughter’s living expenses, and continues to try to make money on the side wearing clown outfits and going around the country selling things to other clown outfit fans. She looks ridiculous in that stuff. Yes she is fully covered up but one of the things she told me is she couldn’t wait to be able to wear anything she wants. Hey, whatever got her out of all of that denim, I guess, right? She is an almost 47-year-old woman with a failed marriage and she continues to be selfish. She is very needy, she has no sense of self and if you really know her like I do, you can see her Pinterest quotes that get tweeted are all FOR ATTENTION. It’s not to empower herself or others. It’s to make people say Whhhhhhatttttt??? Meri are you okay???? And then the comments follow and her ego is fed. There is a lot of emotional trauma she has been through and none of it was with me. We broke up. I left her alone. She started harassing me, I stood up for myself. End of story. The truth will be coming out. You will see that Kody NEVER forgave her for the affair. He NEVER believed her story because according to her all we did was “talk on the phone and text on Twitter and cellphones”. If that was true why didn’t she block my number? Or how about this? Hang up the phone! She didn’t because she was in love with me and she lied about our affair. She wanted me. She just didn’t know how to leave.

She is going to leave some day because God help me something in her brain will trigger the exact response she should have had yeeeaaaarrrrsss ago. She married a douchebag that traded her in 3 different times for someone new. That has got to cause so much emotional damage I don’t even know what to say about that. They are not doing this multiple partner lifestyle because of their religious beliefs. They don’t even have a Church anymore. The few times we have seen the “Church” service it was in their own home and no one paid attention. They are doing this because Kody has convinced some very naive, helpless, rundown women that he can provide a better life for them. It’s about sex, and providing him with income. He is a cult leader and the more you step back to really see what’s going on the more you feel disgusted. I’m glad to be out of that mess. Lindsay had told Meri that Mariah was gay. I asked her if she was a few times and she said no she just concentrates on school and hangs out with her friends. Sorry but if a girl has never been on a date with a boy or EVER had a boyfriend all through middle school, high school, and college something is up. She was blindsided but not really. We told her. She just didn’t believe us. I think it’s very cool and I hope all of the best for her. She is a very sharp girl and I was happy to get to know her the little bit that I did.

I appreciate all of the support I have gotten. Yes I know that stupid show is coming back on. You won’t see anything new. It’s the exact same thing and that’s why they reduced it down to a few episodes and to air once a year. Their ads are down, they can’t come up with any new exciting storylines. This is all they have left. One hand gripping the cash and the other flipping off their own viewers.

I wish I made that up but it is all true.

I have grown up so much in the past 3 years. I am exactly with the right woman, creating a family and building my next chapter. My life is perfect. I am officially done working until I figure out what I want to do next. I still have no idea at all.

I pray everyday that everyone that reads my blog is healthy, happy, and living the best life they can. Even my haters. Very few people these days harass me. The ones that still cling to their made up version of my life are losers and have no business commenting on anything. Look at their lives. What have they accomplished in a year? The got blocked by me and spent the next 11 months calling me names, saying I’m a girl, and embarrassing themselves? Lol That’s a waste of your life.

I’m happy. I’m not going anywhere. My proof and truth are RIGHT HERE. I answer any nice question I can and love meeting the people who are interested in my book. I have made a ton of real friends from all of this mess. I have kept my old friends and we have had the best vacations together. I very much look forward to the birth of my son Talon in late January. I can’t believe my boys are almost 2. I can’t believe I have a daughter! My dog is healthy and awesome. Life in Paris is going to be an adventure. My life turned out great.

So Merry Christmas Batfans! I’m so happy you are here. Here’s to another great year together. My 2018 is going to be Batastic!

I love you guys very much and I hope you get all of your Christmas dreams! May God bless each of your families and bring you all closer together this year.

You all deserve the best!

Love, The Samuel Cooper Family

P.S. Santa is going to be extra generous to my kids this year. Lindsay must have bribed him Lol

Ho HO HOOOOOOO Meerrrrryyyyyy Christmas!

The No Hot Dog Video

I posted it last night on my Facebook. Yes that really did happen and it was hilarious.

I took my boys and the 3 nannies to the Cubs game last night. My wife took my NBC Chicago prize tickets to the Mummy preview party with a co-worker so we all had plans. We got to the Cubs game, got to our seats and were just hanging out a little bit. The game was going slow, we were down by 1 early but made a monster come back. Not that I was able to be at the game when the big rally was happening. Cubs win, that’s all that matters. So last night we were sitting there, probably the 3rd inning. My nannies had all gotten their food and were happily munching on hot dogs. Please keep in mind that I never deny my kids food at fun places. If they want to try regular food, fine. That’s the only way I can

  1. Figure out any food allergies
  2. See what food they like/don’t like
  3. Figure out what foods they gorge on and not bring it into my house

Some guy in our row was getting himself and his 2 kids hot dogs. He saw my boys sitting in their seats not eating anything while my 3 nannies all had hot dogs. I was not paying any attention to him. I was watching my boys and half- ass watching the game. Now keep in mind he obviously didn’t see them both plow through 2 bags of their vegan snacks and before we even left the house they both had supper. Sarah made sure of that. We have found out that’s just the best way to do it with them. Give them snacks while we are out but they eat beforehand. It’s how we have always done it.

This really nice guy bought my boys a hot dog each and passed it down while saying “Hey buddy feed your kids a hot dog, it’s baseball”

I know. I was stunned then just grinned. I handed $20 to Brandi to pass to him to pay him back. I said thank you and left it alone. I have my babies right there. I know better than to stand up and be a dick to some guy that had zero bad intentions. He tried to deny the money but eventually took it.

We helped them unroll their hot dogs and Sarah peeled the bun away so the tip of the dog was sticking out. Alex licked his. That was pretty funny. Heston just held it. I think he tried to sniff it. So I got out my cellphone and threw it on video. This is what happened.

Heston grabbed his hot dog with his hand. He waved it like some kind of Sorcerer and threw it down Lol I died laughing and everyone in our area that saw him did too. It was a small, but loud burst of laughter from our row. He didn’t hit anyone with it. In fact it went all of .3 feet and landed on the ground and stayed there. Yes I picked it up and yes I threw it away. The guy that bought him the hot dog just laughed and that’s when I said,

“They’re vegan. No hot dogs for my boys!” Which made everyone else laugh and that’s when Alex threw his too Lol

It’s all on video. I didn’t tell them to do it. I was just sitting there recording it. The guy said Huh? Which is what I get often and he just laughed it off as little kids being little kids.

Proud vegan dad moment there. Even my kids won’t eat hot dogs. That’s a good thing. Those things are made up of the leftover parts. It’s really disgusting. I eat a hot dog maybe once a year at a game if I have some weird craving. Yes it is baseball. Hot dogs and baseball go together. It was very nice of the guy to do that. I wasn’t insulted. I was curious as to why he would think I don’t feed my kids anything. When we left I took a closer look and both of them still had the peanut butter stuff all over their lips and mouths from their snacks. Sarah had to wipe them both clean before we got in the Escalade.

On Facebook overnight the damn video went crazy. It’s not going to go viral but it has had a lot of shares, likes, and comments. About 100 comments so far. It really was funny.

We left the game early which was fine. We got the boys home for baths and bedtime. My wife got home just before midnight. She texted me they were going out to a bar afterwards. She came home not drunk. She said she just had one drink to be social and had a good time.

My wife says the Mummy movie is predictable. She said it’s just like all of the other Mummy movies that, is it Brendan Fraiser? Wasn’t he the guy that did those? She said she liked all of the action but it’s going to bomb at the box office. She said it would be something we rented.

Remember when we all went to Blockbuster Friday after work to rent movies for the weekend? That’s so funny I just remembered that.

Today I have no meetings which is a miracle. I can catch up on a lot of emails.

We just did the random drawing for the 3 employees that are sitting with me at tonight’s Cubs game. I told them I’m going to pick all of them up at their homes so feel free to drink beer. One of the woman just called her husband and told him he has to take care of the kids tonight she’s going to a Cubs game. I don’t think that went over very well but she said she doesn’t care. It’s her turn for fun Lol That’s funny.

The other 2 have never been to a Cubs game before so I’m very happy to be providing them with that experience. I’m letting them all go at 3pm so I can also get home and get ready. I have their addresses and I’m trying to figure out who to pick up first. I’m excited. I’m going to buy them all some Cubs gear at the game and send them home full of food, happy, and excited from a great evening. My wife asked who won and I just texted her the 3 names. She said Ok, Ok, Hmmm to the young blonde in our group. I said ? back to that and she said we will talk at lunch. That means I’m about to get the “She’s blonde and young” speech. I deserve it because of the affair I had and I now take it as a good reminder and not as a criticism or man-bashing session. I have zero reason to look elsewhere in my marriage. My wife is perfect! I love her very, very much and there is no other woman on Earth for me. She knows that but she’s also aware of my past so she likes to claim me from time to time.

Look at the time. I need to get back to work here. I hope everyone has a great day. Don’t eat hot dogs Lol God loves you and I love ya’ll too!



Dropping bombs, all kinds today


Today has been tough. I didn’t get much sleep last night. My boys are a lot more active and want to stay up longer after the night diaper changes or night time feedings. It’s really hard. I’m exhausted this week. Every one that has spoken to me on the phone the last few days has been yawned at or at the very least heard my sleepy daddy voice Lol This is really hard. This is not easy. Sarah is beyond exhausted. She had to call in one of the part-time nannies today she said for a few hours just so she could take a shower and a nap. We have to take them into the doctor tomorrow morning for a 3 month check up. I’m really hoping we can finally get rid of the dang dietician lady. She was assigned to us and I willingly accepted her advice and help when Alex wasn’t gaining weight. Now he’s a chunk and I want her gone. She is nice, but she nitpicks every single thing I do or say about their formula. She says she is only “letting me use vegan formula” because I have proven its good stuff and she called the manufacturer herself to verify what I had told her was accurate. She is seeing the benefits of using it but she still thinks they need regular formula. Well if there was a medical reason, absolutely, I would switch them both right away. But we have been there, done that, and we are okay now. She sent me an awesome email and I kind of told her off in my reply back. I did say sorry I think somewhere in there that I am really tired but I disagree with half of what she said. She waited a half hour then called me at work. Then chewed at me for 5 minutes about the benefits of this and that and told me to think on it. I said okay thanks and hung up right away. That was me trying to be nice but I really wanted to just hang up on her! If Alex is fine, she is gone as of tomorrow.

Then Lindsay Lol I swear it is ALWAYS Lindsay that grinds my headache into a pounding migraine in a few minutes. She sent out a mass email to all of our upper executives about what her plans are for the next 2 months and why she will be taking money out of everyone’s budgets to feed into her latest project, the one I’m scared to go forward with. She said she made an executive decision and if she’s wrong she will pay it back. This came out of nowhere this morning. I tried calling her she answered and said “Yeah, hi swamped here call laters” and hung up on me Lol She only does that when she knows I’m about to go off on her. So I left the office. I called up my buddy Josh and asked what he was doing for lunch. He said he was playing hooky from work today to watch the Cubs game so I said I’m grabbing beers for you, a salad for me and coming over. I hid out there the rest of the day until the game was over. Then I went home. After I got my boys settled I took a longer shower, a really long shower. The kind you just stand there with the hot water pouring all over you and you don’t move at all. I was probably in there for a half hour. I think I wanted to cry from stress but I held it in. Or I was so tired my tears melted before they flew out of my eyes and the water dissolved them.

I am really stressed out this week. And I don’t know what to do about it. I am working out like a beast trying to get some of the pressure off but that is only making me more tired.

Then Josh called and asked if I wanted to come watch the next Cubs game at a bar with some buddies of his and Sarah overheard me talking about it and went off on me. Actually used an F-bomb at me for skipping work and not coming home. And she is 100% right. I was selfish, she needs help, I could have taken that 3 hours from work and went home to watch the game with my boys. She was really pissed. Hold on let me go out and ask her a mundane question to gauge her temperament.

Yep, still pissed Lol I asked her if she knew what the weather would be like tomorrow she said Why don’t you go ask Josh. Can a nanny put you in the dog house? If so, I’m there tonight.

Bombs everywhere tonight! I need to eat dinner. I haven’t even done that yet.

So we are putting the photos page back up. It a page not a post. I’m supposed to mention that because everyone will be looking for it in the posts. Here is the link for it. Yes it is blank right now because Lindz is looking into Photo Plugins that will organize all of the photos and make it look cool. That’s all I care about. I want to be able to write a label on each one to explain them. I have so many photos no one has ever seen. And it’s time to let that out there. Has anyone noticed every single time something gets said by the other side publicly I have a response to it? With more proof, more info, and more questions being answered.


Also, the NBC interview is/was a TLC thing for that show she is doing next. They wanted my response. So I gave them one. I answered about 15 questions for the producer lady. She was nice and respectful. Then she began hounding me. She wanted more info more this and that. So I called my lawyer to ask what to do. He said he would look into it and call me back. Yes, NBC is working with TLC on a new series. Yes NBC News really does want to do an on camera interview with me. But so does FOX and CBS now. So we are getting more info gathered up because the last thing I want to do is ANYTHING for TLC. I would like to insert the same word Sarah used on me earlier tonight, right here

_ _ _ _ No!

I will do nothing to help TLC at all. Look at what they have done to my life. And do you really believe they are going to let me actually tell my story and not edit me into whatever version they need this to be? Come on, ya’ll. Even if NBC News is contracted with them to do it, TLC still has the ultimate control over it all and my lawyer said put a pin in it until he can make some calls. We have been emailing back and forth for a few days prior to this exchange. CBS and FOX are local affilates just wanting a short interview they will splice together, not a big sit down like this NBC offer is.




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  • May 18 at 3:47 PM
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No more freebies

That’s it those are the first 5 pages of my book for free. I hope it makes you want more. I tried really hard to write about my experiences and add a little humor. I think I am funny in a non-threatening way.  I am leaving at noon to fly to Seattle for the weekend. My buddy is getting married and I am a groomsman. Groom’s man? I’m standing up there looking pretty. I have to go pick up my tux after I leave work and try it on for the last time. It fit great the last time they had to alter one of the cuffs at the bottom. It’s been a while since I tied a bowtie I bought a clip on to make it easier. I hope the bride doesn’t notice. She’s already texted all of the groomsmen to threatened us about the bachelor party tonight. We are not allowed to get Kevin drunk. Only 2 drinks than sodas the rest of the night. Yeah right, sweetheart Lol Kevin used to lose to bad at beer pong in college he would throw up by round 5. He also used to piss himself about 4 hours into any frat party and none of us have matured beyond those years so I’m thinking Kevin might show up Saturday afternoon with one eyebrow and regret Lol

Ya’ll need to be watching American Idol. It’s the last season and it’s really good. This west coast feed stuff sucks because my twitter timeline gets filled up with everyone talking about the east coast feed. Check it out, great show so far.

Have a great weekend whatever you may be doing. Stay warm, have fun and go to Church on Sunday! I love ya’ll, God loves you too. Talk to you next week!