Weekend Alone?

My weekend plans have been a 4 month discussion. In February at Valentine’s Day my wife and I had a conversation that I dismissed. She wanted us to have a weekend alone without the babies. (Mind blows up) She also wanted my boys and 1 nanny to spend the entire weekend with her parents (NNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!) She says it’s healthy for the boys to be around other family members. Her parents really wanted time to bond and this is what normal grandparent relationships are. I told her she was crazy and I can’t do it.

My wife is a lawyer. A great lawyer. For 4 months she has kept after this idea and finally I agreed to pick a date which by then was 3 months away. I really thought in 3 months she would have forgotten all about it Lol I was very, very, very wrong. It’s this weekend. She said her parents will be here after work. The babies will be all packed up and that her parents are going to take them back to their house and have all of the family come over and hang out all weekend. She said it’s an important step for everyone. She said it’s okay that I don’t have my own children for 1 weekend. I told her I have taken a few trips for work and that was enough. Why would I purposefully NOT BE WITH MY KIDS. We went round and round on it. I told her okay. Let her parents steal my children from me and I plan to have a miserable weekend Lol I told her I will be calling Brandi every hour to check in and see what’s going on, that I won’t be focusing on her at all and basically had a very immature meltdown over the whole thing. This morning I woke up a little warmer to the idea. We will see if this actually happens. Keep in mind we are still negotiating the drop off time on Sunday. I said 8am and she said that was unreasonable. My kids, my rules! Not when you are married. I’m trying to figure a way out of this. My kids are healthy, no one in her family is sick or even starting to have a cold. Everyone has agreed to wash hands, change clothes, do anything to make sure there are no germs (I’m a germaphobe) and best of all they have a room set up in her parents new house just for them. I said Oh so this whole thing has already been planned without my permission! I’m worried. I’m also upset because I love being with my boys as much as I can. I don’t want to give them up even for a weekend. I argued back and said our marriage is fine we don’t need a weekend without them. She said it’s healthy to have a break and let the family bond with them. I can’t keep them all to myself. Well actually sweetheart, I have legal documents that say I can Lol And yes I did pull them out and have them in hand when I said that. That went over as well as you are thinking.

I know I know. I’m being crazy but this is the stage I’m in. Now when they are 14 and driving me nuts, GO TO GRANDMAS! Right now, they are at the fun age. And I really don’t know how to share them. The only thing that saved her on this is she promised her sister who is an RN will be there most of the weekend. I said if your parents can’t even watch them without a medical professional and that’s when she blew up at me Lol

Our very first fight was over her taking my kids and throwing them to her parents! As you can tell I’m still pissed off about this. I said yes but I want my boys back here by 5pm Sunday. That’s the final straw. If they are late, NEVER AGAIN so she told them to bring them back at 4 just to make sure they will be on time. I also told her I’m going to have a talk with them as soon as they get here. And I’m sending my big mouth nanny (She calls herself that, I’m not being mean) Brandi. My wife said let the 2 others have a weekend off. They all deserve it. Brandi volunteered to go and that was fine. She also said most of my friends who live in Nebraska or elsewhere can come hang out with us if I wanted since most of their kids are now out of school. That made me feel a little better. Since I knew about the boys I forgot to plan a weekend without them. Even before they were born I spent all of my weekends getting their room ready, reading baby books, shopping, and taking baby classes. I am certified in every type of baby CPR they have. I can buy myself some time until real help arrives. All parents should by the way, give ya’ll a little shout out on that one.

This part is a little later. I’m at work still stewing and my wife continues to hammer my text message about all of the fun things we can do all weekend alone. I don’t wanna Lol I told her how about we go hang out with her parents, I was kidding but it didn’t go over well. I know this is a good thing. I know this is normal and I know my boys will be watched over by her very large, very protective family. I guess my boys do need it. I told her NO ZOO. They can’t do that. She said okay there are plenty of other places to take them.

So of course I’m sitting here looking up fun things to do with kids this weekend and making a list of the top 5 choices they can go to Lol I already negotiated if they take my boys out of their house her brother the Cop will go with them. I called him myself and said when you have twins it’s like seeing the cutest puppy on earth and everyone crowds around them. I just needed a little reassurance that his older parents had some backup. He laughed at me and told me to Chill out bro but he said okay. When I asked to transport them in his cop car he hung up on me Lol Hey, my boys would LOVE THAT! The siren, the flashing light. That’s sensory stuff. Not my fault he doesn’t care about the development of my children.

Either way I’m going to be spending my weekend alone with my hot, gorgeous, sexually charged up wife. I guess it won’t be all bad. I tell you what though. All of the things she doesn’t let me do to her, I’m doing it Lol I don’t mean just in the bedroom. I mean she’s going with me to a book store. And she’s going to eat vegan lunch with me on one of those days. I’m giving up a lot. This is not how I wanted the weekend to go. I just hope my boys don’t think I abandoned them. If they start crying I might kick everyone out of my house and lock the door Lol

We shall see. #TGIF my friends. Have an awesome weekend.

I invited like 11 people, what’s the big deal?

Greetings from the Lakehouse. It has been a really busy week for me. Today I had 2 trips out of town

 

which didn’t go at all like I planned!! @#@#$!@!!(((!!!!!!!

 

Now that I’ve gotten that off of my chest I am ready to finish this thought Lol Sarah out of nowhere decided she wanted to go with me this morning. Which left Brandi and Heather who had time off today to pitch in once again. That’s probably the only reason Sarah decided she wanted to go. She said she wanted to get out of the house all day and “just be a kid again”. Fine by me come on! I brought my cousins Tristan and Tyson with me as well.

 

We hit Oklahoma City first. I sent them off for shopping then lunch, I went to my meeting, checked in at my office and met up with everyone. Out of nowhere Lindsay’s friend Becky calls me and said Lindsay said she can come with everyone to my house and she’s supposed to be at the airport in a half hour to meet up with me Lol Oh okay, I said who decided all of this? She said I’m just telling you what Lindsay told me and I think it’s really fun so I’m on my way I will call you when I get close, okay? Uhhhhhhhhhhh ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm oh uhhhhhhhh

 

LINDSAY!!!

 

So Becky hung up on me really quick before I could say no. I blew up Lindsay’s phone then Ben’s phone which he answered on the 2nd call, amazing how that works when you know how to work the system. He said “Dude, I haven’t seen her” even when I heard her whisper a little too loud tell him I’m not here Lol Might want to work on your whisper game sweetness. Which I then said tell her I heard that and to get on the @#$@!@%% phone now. So he said here and she started in with Hey, what’s up?

 

What’s up. Let’s see. Becky, who is your friend and has had a crush on me for over 2 years now is going to be sitting with Peyton someone I actually dated for 1 month on a plane ride back to Chicago for 3 hours talking about hmmmmm probably me and why I won’t date either one. Also Becky wasn’t invited and I wasn’t even aware of any of this add in the fact she hung up on me before I could say Yes, no, get lost, or what are you talking about?

 

Lindsay faked a bad connection by making static like noises into the phone and said she’d call right back which is her way of saying get over myself and she will call me when I’m not so pissed off. She does that often Lol

 

We found Becky who needed money to put in her car to make sure she could pay for her Long Term parking on Sunday when I drop her off. So I had to go walk over to her parking spot and give her $50 because I did not have a $20 on me. She insisted we “take care of it now because I’m so broke I shouldn’t even be going on this vacation”. Wait, vacation? My level of frustration only rose 3 notches when she yanked out 3 bags,

 

3 bags!!! for 2 days!!!

 

Then I remember she is Lindsay’s friend and this is pretty typical. So I wheeled her bags for her and she talked nonstop about this hair weave place downtown she wants to visit so she can look at some clip in feathers, she Googled the address and where was it located, had I ever been there before?

 

No! I get my haircut for $12 why would I go to a hair weavologist for feathers? What? Is that even a real thing? Keep in mind this is the Becky that rolled around on the floor in the kitchen then crawled out of the house when Lindsay threw a Honeybun snack cake out of the front door to get her out Lol So I was already prepared for some randomness.

 

Everyone loaded, still on time, let’s go.

 

Off to Las Vegas to pick up the final group. We land, park where I can offload/onload quickly. Call Lindsay. No answer. Call Ben. No answer. Okay. Call Lindsay, text Lindsay. No answer, nothing. Okay, hmmm. Call Ben, text Ben. Finally Lindsay calls me back. She’s walked towards me still calling me and makes me answers. Then she says “I have another surprise for you, you will love this, gotta go cuz you are like right in front of me.”

 

The next surprise was 2 fold. She invited Drew our best friend and his family to come with us which meant a quick stop in Lincoln, Nebraska to get them. No problem. She said only one problem. They need to bring their dog with them because they can’t find anyone to watch her and can’t leave her alone all weekend.

 

SON OF A >>>>>>>>>>>

 

Lol So now we have Tyson, Tristan, Sarah, Becky, Ben, Lindsay, Drew, his wife, his son, his daughter, and their dog. I said well we only have 1 more seat left on the plane are you sure there isn’t someone else you could invite? Being a smartass, she said Oh hey let me text…………….. I grabbed her phone and told her to get her ass on the plane Lol I announced we will be dealing with Drew’s dog from Lincoln to Chicago, sorry, and no one text, call, facebook, twitter, smoke signal, or american sign language anyone else to invite them on this “vacation”. Lindsay said quit being a big baby, where’s the f-word cheetos at Lol

 

Off to Lincoln. Loaded everyone up they put the little dog in the carrier and buckled her into her seat. They also let her out while we were in the air and she peed on my carpeting. Great. I’m not cleaning that up. Lindsay said she’ll get a can of Resolve and spray it on there. Yeah right.

 

We waited for car service, my group needed 2 vehicles and now we are all safely at the lakehouse Lol This is ridiculous. It’s like a reunion or soriety sisters who spend all of their time talking and touching Tristan’s fake boobs. I’m exhausted. I’m hungry and I just want to hang out with my babies. The girls brought the boys up earlier today and called to make sure our Services were going to be finished up by tonight. The groceries hadn’t been delivered yet and I had a bunch of add on groceries since our small group blew up out of nowhere.

 

Lindsay is someone that thinks more people is better because that way she can be the center of attention and make everyone laugh. I just see a bunch of people I have to clean up after and feed 3 to 4 times a day. She gets out of all of the work part that’s why she does this. This time I took her aside and said you wanted this party, fine, but you will be helping me or this will be the last time. She shoved my chest and said no probz daddy-o she will handle all of it.

 

We will see. I’m very anxious for some reason. I am just on edge tonight. Maybe because I’m exhausted. It really has been a long week for me. I just wanted to hang out with her and Ben this weekend with my cousins. I thought that would be fun.

 

This will be fun too. So I’m going to stop complaining now that I vented this all out. I really do love all of my family and friends and I do plan on enjoying my time with them.

 

Everyone is passing my boys around like bags of chips. Thank goodness I have helpers here to pitch in. I’m going to bed early so I can get up early and start prepping breakfast stuff for everyone.

 

Wish me luck! Lol

She told me…………

She left me a voicemail today and said you miss me more than you realized you would. She said you have been wanting to call me just to talk but you don’t know what to do about that. She also said you miss laughing and all of our silly jokes. She said you cried when you were talking about me to her and that she could only hug you and tell you it’s going to be okay.

I just don’t get how these people really don’t know you at all. I can see it all so clearly. I know your whys and your hows. No wonder you found me.

So if you are wondering if you should call me, if I would answer, that answer is always Yes. For you, everything will always be a Yes.

 

alone

 

Last Call

it's_not_goodbye...-1920061  Neither one of us said Goodbye. Neither one of us wanted it to end. But we agreed to end it and we both walked away. The only difference is I left her completely alone. We broke up August 23rd, 2015. I am working on a long explanation post to sum all of this up. It will better explain a lot of things and probably answer some questions that I continue to get. With proof 😉

 

215th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 1:02am
https://vimeo.com/166581137
Sam it’s really not fair for you to be so upset with me when I’m honest with you. You asked me to do that. I am open and honest with you. I am emotional because I love you, okay? I’m telling you that I am doing this stupid dinner. I don’t get it. You told me be open, honest, be angry, whatever and I will support you in love.
216th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 1:08am
https://vimeo.com/166581269
Sorry for hanging up on you. I love you. Bye.
217th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 2:11am and 2:13am
https://vimeo.com/166581414
Hi. I saw that you said that you did say you called back and you left a voicemail but there’s no voicemail so I don’t know what you are saying. Sorry I hung up. I just needed your strength in that moment and I didn’t have it and I’m just upset. It frustrates me sometimes. Gosh. You just said that I was going to have that from you when I was having a hard time and you didn’t give it to me and I just needed it. Anyway, okay.
and then
So your message finally came through and I finally listened to it. I need you to know………. (Kody walked in on her)
218th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 12:06pm
https://vimeo.com/166581612
You know what Sam you’re pissing me off. You want to hear my honest feelings? You’re making me really mad. Quit baffling back and forth. This is stupid. Get on the phone. Have a conversation with me. Quit running away. Just knock it off, quit running away. Take that stupid tweet off. That’s ridiculous. When you know it’s over, you know. Really? Take that off the phone right now or off the tweet right now. Get it off. Call me back.
219th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 6:04pm
https://vimeo.com/166581721
You know I did talk to you earlier today about wanting to get together this afternoon and do something and hang out.
220th Voicemail August 13th, 2015 8:21pm
https://vimeo.com/166582533
Please hear the sincerity in my voice and in my heart honey. I am here for you. You are what I want at the end of this. I am what you want at the end of this. Please let that happen honey. It’s not about money or cars or houses or trips or businesses or anything. It’s just you and me, please. Please let me talk to you. Baby I love you. I know you’re still mad and I understand it. I understand your frustration.

221st Voicemail August 13th, 2015 8:53pm
https://vimeo.com/166582623
Samuel, why are you telling me to stop. What do you want me to stop doing? Trying to get through to you? I don’t know what’s going on here. I don’t know why you are ignoring me.
222nd Voicemail August 14th, 2015 10:04pm
https://vimeo.com/166582703
So it’s been like 45 minutes since you sent me that text that said “WTF, why would you send that to me if he (Kody) said that to you?” You know those texts. And I explained to you, you know  in a bunch of texts  after that and I called you and stuff. So now I don’t know if you are just mad and ignoring me or if you’re busy or you’ve fallen asleep. Or if you’re just ignoring me. I have no idea. I don’t know if I’m supposed to be calling.
223rd Voicemail August 14th, 2015 10:09pm
https://vimeo.com/166582766
I don’t know. I guess I’ll stop calling you and texting you tonight because I don’t. Maybe I’m pissing you off. I don’t know. I just don’t even know. I hope you’ll call me back. I really do. I really want you to. You know. I sent you all those pictures and stuff of my day and stuff and I’m not even getting a response on those.
224th Voicemail August 15th, 2015 12:53pm
https://vimeo.com/166597496
Hey baby I just wanted to tell you I love you.
225th Voicemail August 15th, 2015 5:02pm
https://vimeo.com/166659659
I hope to see you very soon. I’m just hanging out here and I’m just thinking about you and I’m just feeling really peaceful. Just thought I would try touching base with you.
226th Voicemail August 16th, 2015 2:07pm
https://vimeo.com/166659720
I’m just watching for you. I’m waiting for you. You said you would be here and you’re not going anywhere so I’m watching for you.
227th Voicemail August 17th, 2015 12:29pm
https://vimeo.com/166659807
Hey baby I’m home. Wanted to let you know and call me and yeah. Just call me, okay? I love you.
228th Voicemail August 18th, 2015 3:51pm
https://vimeo.com/166659831
Hey, so over 2 hours with no communication was just way too much for me so I’m just trying to touch base with you. I miss you. Anyway, call me when you can, okay. I love you babe, bye.
229th Voicemail August 19th, 2015 11:37am
https://vimeo.com/166659862
Hey baby, just trying to touch base with you. Haven’t heard from you. Anyway, give me a call. Bye.
230th Voicemail August 20th, 2015 1:24pm
https://vimeo.com/166663671
Where are you baby? I love you give me a call. Love you, bye.
231st Voicemail August 21st, 2015 9:16am
https://vimeo.com/166663703
Hanging up on me is not nice, it’s not kind, it’s not sweet, it’s not cool. I don’t know why you do that. All I’m saying is that I care about the fact that you have another appointment and you didn’t have to cancel it just because I wanted to be on the phone. I want to be on the phone with you when you are available. I am trying to be considerate of your time I don’t need to be hung up on. That was rude. I have been trying to be nice and sweet all day long. Trying to be caring. Okay.
232nd Voicemail August 28th, 2015 8:16pm
https://vimeo.com/166664100
I literally don’t know what to do. Because you ask me to push you and you ask me to tell you, how much, what I want and what I need and how much I love you. And yet when I try to do that you just don’t answer and you won’t let me talk to you. And. You get frustrated when I’m trying to push you. I’m really trying to find the balance here. I really am. I’m trying to do what you want and what you need. This has to do with history (With Kody) has nothing to do with anything. Like, if you don’t want me to bug you then I’ll back off and not bug you. But I don’t want to back off and not bug you. I want to shake you and say listen to me damn it. I want to shake you and say let’s fix this damn it. Don’t walk away. You can’t fix it when you walk away. Gosh. I love you. Don’t you get it? I want you. Why else would I fight for you? Why else would I fight…
The End August 30th, 2015 10:26am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hrtk7XCmgf0
Sam I need you to know that I love you. Okay? I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. You told me once that you were not going anywhere, well you told me lots of times, that you weren’t going anywhere either. I know the last couple of days have been a struggle and I’m really, really sorry that it’s been hard for you. I just need you to know that I’m just working on what I’m working on and I hope that you come back to me. You know you’ve said that you would never leave, you said that you would always be here. You’ve said that you would wait for me. Lindsay said the same thing that you were never going anywhere. She’s said to me  too many times how much you love me. And I’m just going to have to trust, and hope, and pray that that’s really, really true. And that you really do and that you are coming back. So I just want you to know that I love you and I’m just going to focus on my stuff and pray that you’ll come back to me. I see that you’ve blocked me off of your twitter and I don’t know if you’ve blocked me off of your phone so I don’t know if you’ll even get this message or not. I just don’t know how that works, but, anyway. I just love you and I’m not going anywhere. And I’m not saying goodbye. I promise. I made you a promise. And I’m keeping my promise. I’m not saying goodbye. I’m not going anywhere. I’m just going to stay working for you, working towards you, and hope that you’re there. I’m really sorry that you’ve had a rough couple of days. I’m really sorry that in your words that I’ve fucked up your life or that you’re in, you’re in, your life is all fucked up because you are with me is more how you put it now that I’ve messed it up. Anyway. I love you…