Peyton, I will call you today, I swear

Dinner with Peyton. Here’s what happened.

Damn she looked good. That kind of surprised me. The last time I saw her she was in a beachy summer outfit and not really fixed up at all. I wasn’t either so I’m not bashing her. She cleans up good. She looked great and very professional. She said she created a response team at her hospital and they sent her to a conference downtown to learn more about how to facilitate it, how to staff it, how to get support staff, and how to request budget, equipment, etc. How cool is that? She was pretty excited to tell me all about it. It was interesting to learn about. She even showed me the pamphlet they made today for her to kind of explain what it is.

We caught each other up on our lives. I showed her more recent photos of the kids and pictures of our new house. She said Vegas is close to Denver if we ever wanted to hang out some weekend, she could fly up. I said hmmmm and changed the subject. She dropped it from that point. She told me about how her family is doing, how work is going, those kind of things. We had a delicious meal. Wow, was that salad good. I mean I liked my entree too but that salad. I’m going to have to take the kids there before we leave. I bet they would love all the things in that salad. So at the end of dinner I had no plans to extend the evening. I was going to drive home and probably go to bed early. I was pretty tired from helping move out furniture and then rearrange the house all day. Well….

So we walked out into the lobby and she said do you want to come up so we can talk privately? I said come up where? She said to my room. I said no Lol She said then how about the bar? Okay. We walked into the bar and sat down in a booth in the back corner. It wasn’t a big room but it wasn’t full of people so it was a good, quiet, spot. She started in with she has been thinking about me for a while and this week I’ve been on her mind a lot. I said I have to go and started to scoot out. She grabbed my arm and said Let me say this please. So I sat back down and listened. She told me that she regretted not finding out how far our relationship could have gone and that she doesn’t want to get back together. She liked how well I treated her but I have not in anyway held her back from dating and trying to find love. She said she had a serious boyfriend but they broke up because he wasn’t honest with her about some big things. She said he was hiding things from her and she didn’t want that in her life. She said the age difference between us wasn’t that noticeable and she didn’t care. She hopes that I do find the love of my life, she knows it’s not her, and she really does wish me and the kids well on our move. I said we didn’t even have to have dinner for that we could have said that over the phone. She said well if there was a chance for us to start back up she would see it on my face or in my eyes. She said that I had made it more than clear that I’m not interested in her and that she just wanted a solid closure on us. I do understand that. I wished her well and said we can be friends. I told her maybe some time next year in the spring she could come up to visit. That would give me plenty of time to get moved in, get the kids in school and get through settling in. She said okay with a laugh.

Guys, I was sweating Lol I wasn’t sure where things were going and I didn’t want to be that guy that said “It’s not you, its me”. We didn’t have to go there and I’m glad. I didn’t want to hurt her feelings more than I probably already did.

She walked me out to the lobby. We hugged goodbye and I turned to leave. Then I turned around and planted a giant kiss on her Lol I have no idea why I did it other than if this was real closure, I wanted one last big kiss with her. She melted into it and I did the only thing I could think of. I bolted out of the lobby with no explanation.

Guys, I kissed and ran Lol It was a “walkby snogging.” If you have ever seen the movie that quote is from you would be proud I used that last phrase properly. I had 4 texts messages by the time I got my Range Rover and a missed call by the time I got home. I answered none of them. I know I will call her back some time today but not yet. I don’t know what to say Lol The majority of the texts were What the hell was that????? Do you want to start over??? Was that a goodbye kiss???? Hello????

I’m an idiot. When it comes to women I know NOTHING. I had a clean getaway, I had left things in a very mature, friend in the future, spot. I ruined all of it.

WTF am I supposed to say to her now? Hellllllllllllppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp!

Weekend audible

welcome-iron-coffee-lg  It’s been a great first week back in Chicago. I have been running all over downtown checking out my buildings and projects. I love surprise visits to see how things are going.  It catches people off guard, I only stay a few minutes but I get to listen first hand on what people need or want. Then try to accommodate reasonable requests. Keep your customers happy and they will stay forever. 

I DO NOT LIKE SURPRISES, though.

My personal life is getting back to normal. I’ve been hanging out with my buddy Josh. He’s worried about me. He says I’m different. He says my soul seems sad or I lost my smile. I’m not sure if both or none are true. I feel okay. I feel like I’m working hard and going home proud of what I accomplished that day. But that has never been good enough for me. I push myself. I have to. I’m it. My employees have no one else to steer this ship. And I have all of our money tied together. If one fails, it will be a ripple effect across the board. This past month has been very tough. I’ve lost clients, leases, and a few will not be renewing with us. I understand, but I don’t understand.

I had planned on going up to my Lake house for the weekend. To really sit down and start writing this book. I have notes together, and an outline but no pages. The curve ball I got thrown this morning is that Peyton bought a flight out here and wants to come visit. I stunned her with my silence as soon as she said it. It took me a few seconds to recover and be the gentleman my grandmother taught me to be.

Sure, sounds like fun! What time do you get in I will pick you up?

Are you really sure it’s okay? You sound surprised?

No it’s fine. I mean it’s great. It will be great. Uh what time again?

My flight gets it at **:**pm.

Great. That’s really great. Haha Okay see you then. Fly safe. Bye

AAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

That’s what this feels like. I’m trying to be cool but I don’t understand this. I don’t know why she wants to come visit me. We have talked everyday on the phone, texted some. We are friends now. FRIENDS. I guess that means friends get to visit each other. But I was prepared to see her in December, with her sister. She’s coming alone. Staying at my house. Wants to see the big city.

Okay? I’m okay? Okay Lol Dang, it’s going to be fun. She’s a beautiful young woman and I have a great time with her. I’m just…

Wow, okay. Peyton is really coming here this weekend. Why?