Soul to Life – The Beginning

Close your eyes

I was born in a breath and I will die in a breath. In between, I must live fully. For years I’ve been going about my day. Nothing has really brought me into an awareness that I needed more in my life. Until now. I have been writing this book in my head for about 20 years. I have always been a seeker of things. I love life, but I have become stagnant to it. I feel like I’m no longer growing as I did when I was in school. I’m not challenging myself, I’m not being challenged. I am just…here. If you are reading this you have some common thoughts.

Let me be honest. I do not have the answers to your life. I only have the answers to mine, whether I recognize them or not. My goal is to provide you with the words I need to share in hopes that one thing I say may inspire you to shift all of your energy, love, and perception to a higher level. I want to wake you up just as I want to be awoken. What I am offering to you I am also offering myself. You and I, my new friend, are in this together now. As long as you are reading this I have your attention. I promise you I am going to make the most of our time together. When this book ends you will feel better. Your problems won’t go away, your broken heart won’t heal and your bills won’t be paid. I promise you will understand yourself more. You will begin to question yourself more. This is not going to change your whole life. It’s going to change mine. I am your guide into my journey. Together we will see where this takes us. Your thoughts will formulate on the things I say to you here. From that, your inspiration will begin to cook and bake. You will end up with something so delicious even your soul will feel it. I promise.

So close your eyes for a few seconds and prepare yourself for this. Give yourself a moment of silence and get ready. This is going to be fun, emotional, compelling, and necessary. You have to finish this book now that we have begun. Not to satisfy a curiosity. For yourself. This is the one thing you may have done all for yourself in a while. Give yourself permission to breath. Then relax.


You know nothing

You don’t know anything at all about your life. You may know the basics but there is so much more you have yet to learn about yourself. Just as I don’t know anything about my life either. So we are in this together. I know that I am male. I know my years are 43 and counting. I know I am a human being and I know what color my hair and eyes are. I know my height and weight. I know I can walk, lift up things, speak, think, and feel. These are all I know about myself. I am constantly changing. Are you? Yesterday I described the sky as big. Today I describe it as blue. Am I wrong?

Which is right? If both are right, how am I ever wrong? We tell ourselves descriptive terminology when it comes to how we define ourselves. We are completely wrong. Your soul has not lived this long for you to fail it so deeply. We all should be ashamed of ourselves to ever try to categorize who we are by adjectives. I am tall, yes. I am male, yes. I am a commercial real estate investor. What? Now we are starting to define ourselves by our careers? How bold am I to think that is all I am.

You do not belong on a list of things. You belong to a natural state of being. You are undefinable. I am undefinable.

Try to understand

There are no steps to follow on your journey. I can not tell you how to live. I can not tell you if you follow my 4 basic steps to enlightenment you will finally understand everything! That’s not going to happen. What I can tell you and with all of my heart, it’s going to be okay without instructions. Let me further crush all the things you know and say you don’t need instructions. You have always lived your life as it is. You can and will continue to make the rules up for yourself as you go. You know what it best. You know what brings love and what manifests fear for you. I am going to tell you the most ridiculous thing you will ever hear about my life. In all sincerity I do find it hilarious now. Now I do. Back in the olden days I did not find it funny whatsoever. I am going to open myself up and become vulnerable to make my point. Again, I am guiding you to where I need you to go on the next path of this journey we are on. We are going to talk about chickens for a moment. Yes, chickens!

I’m deathly afraid of chickens. I wish it was a joke but it’s not. Chickens make me hyperventilate. If they come near me I run. If they make chicken sounds, I run. If I even see a chicken. I run. It is a real fear inside of me. Logically I am aware I’m 10x bigger than a chicken. Logically I am aware that the chicken is not going to attack me. It doesn’t matter. Chickens are death ninjas to me and they will flap me in the face, peck out my eyes, and scratch my skin so deep I will be permanently scarred with chicken talons. Do we see how irrational that is? Yet, I’m still afraid of them.

I understand it is a real fear to me. Are you afraid of chickens? Probably not. That’s why I have no answers for you. I stay away from chicken places simply because I do not want to die or embarrass myself by running away, well like a chicken. For me, my fear is rooted in childhood. I know that. But why am I still afraid after all of these years? That’s what I call remembrance pain. As soon as your memory is triggered on something your body, mind, and heart react. Remembrance pain is real. It puts you right back into a sensory moment of fear or other emotion. It is an attachment that you must learn to cope with or break free from. On sight, I see a chicken and I freeze. Then I run. My mind remembers that traumatic chicken attack of ’79 and my mind says Danger! Danger! My heart begins to speed up and I look to evade and escape. Completely irrational, completely silly. I know. It still doesn’t matter. I tried going to hypnotherapy once to remove the death ninja chicken scenario from my sub-conscious. What happened is I paid $150 to lay on a couch and cry about my chicken fear only to feel worse than when I came in. That did not work for me at all. What does work? I stay away from chickens. Very easy since I do not live on a farm. The concern is I am afraid of chickens. Which means 100% I will teach my children that I am afraid of chickens. In their empathy and love for me they may also begin to fear chickens. That’s the problem. I don’t want them to fear chickens. I want them to be okay around them.

My fear is real. My concept of it being silly, irrational, and probably very overdramatic is known. Yet here I am. Standing in my truth that chickens are death ninjas to me. You are not afraid of chickens (You should be!) and I’m happy for you. Let us explore what 1 of your fears are.

What do you fear in life?

Maybe it’s death? Maybe you fear being alone forever? Maybe you fear a child passing away before you? There are all common things and great answers. But the person that is also reading this book right now may not have the same answers. I promise you as life has gone on your fears have changed. Think about it. You may have been scared of dogs as child. Now you own 2 and are fine. What transition did you get to in your life where that fear was gone? Did someone make you pet or hold a dog? Did the fear suddenly go away when you saw and met a friendly dog? Replacement is a great way for you to replace your fear with love. Your fears have been feeding your ego your entire life. Your fear has replaced things you may not even realize you like or love. You have let fear guide you. It is the exact same as I am guiding you through my book. Fear showed up, said this is Danger! Danger! You believed it and you stopped doing whatever it was that caused the fear to manifest. You are letting fear dictate your life. Is that how you want to live? Listen, I do the same thing. We are in this together. Don’t forget that part. Let’s talk this out. Fear gives you no rewards. It actually steals things from you. Fear let you not talk to the cute girl at a party. Fear let you not go ask for a raise even when you know you truly deserved it. Fear made you not make that I’m sorry phone call that you regret. Fear left you at a bus stop and took off years ago. And where are you? Still at the bus stop waiting for a ride. Do not do that to yourself anymore. It is a declarative sentence now because I hit the bold button by accident and I like it now so I’m not going to fix it. Do not do that to yourself anymore! Fear is an ending to something you want. It’s not a bridge to cross. Fear stops life. You can reach a center point where you feel like you are fearless and you can overcome. Human beings by nature are survivalist. Look at all our evolutionary accomplishments. Yet, fear has always stopped us from moving forward. Why do we let it? For me, fear shocks even me when it comes up in my life. I don’t recognize it at first then I think, oh yes, that’s what that feeling is. I don’t like it. Fear is an undershirt to your body armour. The longer the wear it the less warm you will feel. You can not change from a place of fear to a place of love overnight. Why not start to see fear as not a barrier, but a hurdle.

Welcome to the beginning of nothing

You are here so that’s a great start. Your mind is slowly opening to what I am saying to you. You are awake and aware. Now it’s time to really see where your thoughts can take you. You are at the beginning of nothing. You will end up with nothing. But it’s the messages in between that I pray you will focus on. What kind of thoughts are you already coming up with? We have talked about fears. Did you think about what you are fearful of? Keep in mind there are all different levels of fears. That is why I am trying to tell you there are no instructions on your spiritual life. You are more connected to yourself than you realize. Your body reacts to your mind’s perceptions. Your mind’s perceptions make your heart react. Your heart impacts all of the sensory perceptions of your body. Everything you do, from soul to life, is connected. Everything. And guess what? When your soul leaves your body, it goes on forever. It takes with you everything you became on Earth. You carry it with you into your next energy. Please don’t think I’m trying to speak as if I know. I don’t know. I’m speaking on my experiences and my own ideas. I do know that we all die someday. I pray for you it’s many, many years ahead. I also pray for myself on that one too.

When you die what happens to your soul?
Where does it go?
Does it immediately leave your body or does it stick around until you ascend?
And by ascending what does that mean?

The clarity of it all

I don’t know. I mean I can spend the next few pages talking about my own beliefs but that’s not why you are here. You are here so I can guide you through my life and we can see what inspires your thoughts from it. That’s all. I don’t know what is going to happen when I die. I know legally, my businesses, homes, assets, and debits will all be taken care of. I have a will prepared. I know my children will be taken care of for the rest of their lives. I imagine the moment I die, a bright light will shoot down and I will fly up to the sky? With all of my heart, I really don’t know that answer. I wish I did. But then again, I wish I didn’t. I don’t think I want to know what happens to me. I would like to believe in what the teachings I have learned are all correct. Live a good Earthly life and seek the Heavenly rewards. Right? Do I believe I will move into a brand new house in Heaven on Samuel Lane, where all of my relatives will greet me and gather? Will we all still be watching the Cubs play from Heaven or can I just jump on a cloud and watch the game right over the stadium? (For free) I know, that I don’t know. I admit that.

Why are you sitting through life?

What do you do when you are having a bad day? I want to crawl in bed and sleep it away but that’s not going to help anything. I want to not talk to anyone or go anywhere. Again, not helping. Now that I’ve learned better, when I am having a bad day I go outside. Being outside helps my mood immediately. If it’s cold I go out for a deep breath and come back in refreshed. If it’s nice out I will sit outside for a while and just clear my head. If it’s raining, I will change clothes and go out in the rain. Rain doesn’t hurt you, so many people try to avoid it. My point is when you are having a bad day that’s the time to really get active. Do something, go somewhere, talk to someone, anything. Sitting in your sadness promotes longevity deeper into the abyss. Don’t do that. Find a new thought and go explore it. You can get yourself out of a bad mood. No one has ever died from a bad mood. It’s impossible to stay unhappy forever. There are far too many positive and interesting stimuli around that will change your perception.

I keep using that word perception because it’s a great way for you to realize you are both an internal and an external being. Your moods reflect your body posture. Your current activity level reflects your mood. When we have had a bad day do we want to go hit it hard at the gym or sit on the couch with a pizza and tv? See what I mean. Your perception will change at the dawn of a new thought. I remember helping a friend move out of her apartment after a breakup with her boyfriend. She cried the whole time. When we finally got all of her stuff put in storage I asked what’s next. She said I’m going to go dancing tonight, drop me off at my friend’s house. Just like that she was over it. She had cried it out and felt ready to move forward. How amazing is the human spirit that you can rise up so quickly after a fall. It’s great.

Soul to Soul Questions

Asked, Answered

How do you know?

I know enough to say that I don’t know about a lot of things in my life.

What is your philosophy based on?

My philosophy is based on the Catholic religion.

What is the source of your information?

The New American Standard Bible

Do your ideas come from Buddhist, Christian, or Sufi traditions?

Christian based

What is Evil?

Evil is lack of love

What is the distinction between recognizing something evil and judging it?

Recognizing evil is knowing that it has or shows no love at all. Judging evil is placing emotions or feelings onto what you view as evil.

What exactly is reincarnation?

Reincarnation is your soul leaving this life and being reborn into a new form of energy

Can your prove that life exists after death?

Yes. Look at a baby and see if you recognize their eyes

What physical proof do you have of life after death?

Flowers always come back every year

What do you mean by universe?

Universe is all that encompasses our world

Do you use the word Universe to mean God?

No. God is separate from the Universe

Does the Universe care about us?

Yes it does

If the Earth school ceases to exist due to a natural disaster of some kind, would the rest of this vast Universe even care, or be aware of it?

Yes it would. It would notice our absence

Do we have a destiny?

Yes, our destiny is set before we are born

If the Universe determines my destiny, what role do I play in shaping my fate?

Your role is to sit back and enjoy the ride your destiny is going to take you on

Why are thoughts powerful?

Thoughts are powerful because they create

How do thoughts create?

Thoughts create because they tell the mind how to put our body into action to make something happen. They are powerful because they

What is new about multisensory perception?

It is a new way to say spirit

Multisensory perception apparently does not exclude the products of thought and influence — so what makes it so new?

It is a new way to learn about the things that our 5 senses can not help us understand or learn.

What is the basis for the Earth School concept?

The basis is realizing that you are on this Earth and you are meant to learn what your life is all about while you are here. Everyday is a new learning experience.

What do you mean by spiritual?

Spiritual means beyond your body

What do you mean by inner work?

Inner work are the things you need to work on that come up as a conflict with your soul. When you are hesitating, when you are fearful, when you are feeling out of balance with your life, you have inner work to do.

You often say that a person has to do the work to change and to create a more compassionate self and world. Could you better define what you mean by work?

Work is anything that makes you off balance with yourself.

What are the first steps of spiritual growth?

The first steps of spiritual growth is realizing that you are not your body. You are a soul inside of your body.

What are the first steps I should take to begin to explore my spirituality?

To being to explore your spirituality, start questioning your belief system and see if you can really stand behind it.

What is the role of sacred practices in spiritual development?

The role of sacred practices is to help you find a routine that suits your beliefs and works within the balance of your soul.

What does the scientific method have to do with spirituality?

The scientific method is the evolutional explanation for how life was created and how your spirit fits within the realm of your life.

If we replace the scientific method with other ways of knowing, how will we replace the certainty that science provides?

Science is a technique to prove or disprove theories, without the scientific method you are relying on your faith to know something as true or untrue.

Why strive for spiritual growth if the world is coming to an end?

Your world is coming to an end quicker everyday. You are meant to live a peaceful existence while you are here on Earth, to do that, you must examine your spiritual growth everyday.

What’s the point of trying to grow spiritually if our destiny has already been written?

If you stop learning, you stop living a life full of enlightenment.

Do you believe in soul mates?

Yes I do. I have found the mate to my soul.

How can I let go of my expectations of others?

Let it go and let other people in your life, be who they are. Accept them for who they are. Do not expect anything in life and enjoy what comes your way.

Why is letting go of my expectations so difficult?

Because we want what we want. And we want it right now.

Why can’t I fall in love?

Falling in love is hard to do. You have to cultivate the feelings over a period of time, it means pulling down walls and boundaries. Opening up to someone and showing them who you are.

I feel complete but can never seem to fall for anyone. Why is this?

Because you are not focusing on love. You are focusing on finding someone to love.

How can I love without fear?

Open your heart, shut your eyes, and just love everything and everyone.

What is the difference between judging and discerning?

Judging is putting an emotional attachment onto something you see, think, or feel. Discerning is establishing what something is and viewing it just as it is.

Is discerning something in another person and judging another person the same thing?

No its not. To discern something in another person is to factualized what it is. To judge them is to see what it is and put your opinion behind it.

How can I protect myself without becoming judgmental?

Stay away from things that bring you harm, open yourself to everything else in your life.

How can I tell a friend about a flaw?

Be open and honest and speak to them in relation to you.

How do I tell a friend he is too judgmental without hurting him?

Telling someone something like that will hurt them no matter how you say it. Use compassion. Say it gently.

Do people who irritate me reflect a part of me?

Yes they do. It’s a mirror image of what you see yourself doing that annoys you

Will you speak about people mirroring each other? If what another person does irritates me, is that a reflection of myself?

Mirroring is viewing something in someone else that you recognize in yourself. Yes it is.

How can I avoid being drawn into the chaos of others?

Simply do not engage in their energy.

How can I remain authentic when others in my life try to draw me into their chaos?

Stand in your peace and do not let negative or dark energy enter

Why do children and parents have conflicts?

Because parents feel responsible for children their entire lives, no matter how old the kids get.

What steps can I take to resolve conflicts with parents?

Listen to what they are saying. Really listen

How can I teach my children to be non-judgmental?

Be the example of being non-judgmental

How do I move my children toward authentic power?

By example. Live an authentic life and let them see how it affects you. They will follow that path if they choose to

How do I set an example for others?

Do your best always, be kind, show love. And let others witness your actions

Is it possible to set an example for someone else without expecting a particular reaction or response?

Yes. Be an example everyday for everyone. People are watching you all of the time.

What is a healthy diet?

A healthy diet consists on eating vegan food Haha ONLY Vegan food!

What constitutes for you a cleansing, healing diet? How can it help?

Vegan food. It changed my life. I have more energy, I fill up on healthy snacks

What is the role of fitness and physical health?

Exercise and eat a balanced diet. That is how you stay healthy

How connected or disconnected is this to our spiritual health?

It is directly connected

What is the relation of diet and spirituality?

The healthier the diet the healthier your spirit

Are antidepressants useful?

They can be on a temporary basis

What is the meaning of dreams?

Dreams are nightly letters that give you information about your life

What do dreams have to do with life? Are they a tool for discovery, and how can they be used?

Dreams can guide you into understanding things going on currently in your life. Yes they are. They can be used to interpret how you really feel about things.

What is the role of my soul in my life?

Your soul is who you are. It is there before your physical body was born, it will be there after you die

Why are souls created imperfect?

They aren’t. Every soul is created perfectly by God

If souls have parts of themselves that need healing, doesnt it mean that they are wounded, or not whole?

It means those are lessons that the soul has not learned yet and will have to learn sometime

Is it possible to experience my soul?

Yes it is.

How can I feel my soul?

Anytime you feel an emotion, that is your soul making you notice

Why do souls leave when they still have work to do?

Souls leave when they are supposed to leave. No matter how hard it is for us to understand, every death is on time

What is the difference between a personality and a soul?

A personality is the label you put on yourself. A soul is who you are

How do I keep from feeling at constant odds with my personality?

Accept you for who you really are. Do not label yourself anything because labels expire

Can souls communicate with us after their personalities die?

Yes. Souls are around us all of the time. When a loved one dies, their soul stays near us.

Do we need to grow into great souls?

No. We already are a great soul

Do we need to grow into great souls before we have the chance of leaving the Earth School?

No. We leave the Earth School when we are meant to

What is intuition?

Intuition is a nonphysical force that tells you by an inner voice or inner reaction how you feel about a situation

How do I find my intuition or inner voice?

Listen for it when you are presented with a situation in your life

How does intuition differ from paranoia?

Intuition is a subtle energy shift that guides you. Paranoia is an unstable energy that makes you afraid of situations that are non-existent

What is the difference between habit and addiction?

A habit is a repetitive action that does not harm you. An addiction is a repetitive action that harms you

How can I overcome my addiction?

You have to heal the painful history that is causing you to numb it out

If I have an addiction, how do I take away its power?

Focus on healing the part of you that is in pain

How do I change a behavior I want to change when the decision to act that way feels involuntary?

It may feel involuntary but it is not. A behavior can be altered to change the pattern of its activity.

How long will it take to find all of the unhealed parts of myself?

It will take as long as your soul keeps finding a reason to reincarnate

What is my responsibility to friends and family members who are addicted or in emotional pain?

Your responsibility is not to enable their destructive behavior, but to always love them.

Why do I get such bad karma?

Karma is not real. You can not get good or bad karma for actions in your life.

How do I challenge my anger or fear?

You challenge your anger and fear by setting a better example of love and compassion for yourself

Why does my anger increase when I challenge it?

Challenging something is changing things and thats what causes the anger

What is the difference between challenging my fears and repressing them?

Challenging your fears you are bringing them up to deal with. Repressing your fears you are not dealing with them. If you do not deal with your fears they will linger around for as long as you repress them.

How can I really change?

You work on living a loving and compassionate life and not holding onto things that cause fear or anger

How can I change my unconscious intentions?

Shift your energy to focus on positive things that show love

Why is the unexpected so painful?

Because its a change in your life that you did not see coming and we do not like change

Why do nonphysical teachers allow violence?

Violence is going to occur because thats what is happening when there is no love.

Why is my life so difficult?

It is difficult because you are stuck living it in a way you do not like. Your soul is making things hard so you learn the lesson and can move into a place of love

Why do some people find their path in life easier than others who seem to struggle and get nowhere?

They have let things go and are not wanting to stay in the life that is holding onto bad feelings.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

Bad things happen from time to time to everybody. Labeling it happening as a bad thing to a good person is not true.

How can I heal bad memories?

Talk about them

How can I handle my negativity?

Try very hard to stay positive, even when you do not want to

When I find I am upset, what can I do to stop the negativity in me?

Calm down and relax. Quiet yourself. Then figure out why you are upset.

How can I heal my competitive nature?

Do not compete. That’s very hard to say because I am so competitive

How can I get over making comparisons of myself, my house, or my children to others, and judging that I am better or worse?

You have what you have. There is no need to compare it to anyone else. Appreciate what you do have

How can I let go of the pain of ending a relationship?

That one I’m still trying to figure out. The pain from my last relationship is crushing me. I’m trying to deal with it but I’m completely paralyzed. I’m trying but its very very hard.

How does a person learn to let go of the pain, accept and move on, without your partner, when he or she no longer wants to continue the relationship?

Just let it go and accept it. You don’t have a choice. Be graceful and loving as you exit.

How can I forgive myself if I don’t feel worthy of forgiveness?

You have to forgive yourself. You have to.

How can I learn to trust?

I don’t trust very easily at all so this one is hard for me to answer. I am learning to give people a shot now. Before I would not. Now I am opening myself up to them and sharing what is going on in my daily life. That seems to be building a bond with them and we are trusting each other in being so vulnerable.

How can I become the person I want to be?

Figure out what you want to become and become that.

How do I change my ways and behavior to what I want them to be?

That is hard for me. I have been angry for so long. I am learning to let the negative feelings go and trying to understand why I get angry over such small things. I know it is a control issue, a trust issue, and an insecurity. But it’s hard to admit that I have behaved very very badly. The truth is, I have. And I am working very hard now, not to.

How does a person know what he was put on earth to do?

You will feel a calling to do something.

What is a person’s calling?

Whatever it is that aligns your souls and your happiness. That’s what you should do forever. Whatever it is

How do I find my purpose?

Your purpose is to live a peaceful life. That’s it

I feel so unfulfilled and lonely inside. How do I find my purpose?

Seek peace. Go be with people. They will fulfill you and make you not lonely

What is the single best thing I can do for myself?

Do not turn into a recluse like me. It does damage to yourself and to anyone else. Learn to live life and be happy.

What is the single best thing I can do to grow spiritually?

Read and learn

How can everyone in a community be equal?

If they put away all of their competitiveness, it can happen

How can I tell the difference between wants and needs?

A want is something you know you do not have to have. A need is something you have to have.

How do I know when I am running away or moving to my next lesson in life?

If you are running away you are turning off emotion to it, if you are moving on, you have dealt with the feelings and can let them go and move forward. A lot of people run away from feelings and never acknowledge them at all. They choose to stick their heads up their backsides and pretend they are happy. It pisses me off to see people do that when life is so precious.

Can awareness overcome temptation?

Yes. You can not be tempted by things that are not meant to be yours.

Is awareness the key that allows temptation to lose power?

Yes. Becoming aware of what urges you towards the temptation can help you shut your emotional attachment off to it.

Do intention and motivation mean the same?


What is the difference between a healthy boundary and emotional withdrawal?

A healthy boundary is setting up the line that is acceptable to you. Emotional withdrawal is choosing not to feel anymore towards somebody or something.

Does doubt have a purpose?

Doubt will teach you how to decide.

What is the purpose of doubt in our lives?

It is meant to show us what one decision can do over another decision. But we then must quit doubting and pick.

How can I feel authentically empowered every day?

Wake up grateful for life, be happy, find love, and enjoy your day.

How can I remember my spirit?

You will feel it in your heart when your spirit moves through you. Mostly during joyful moments but your spirit will also come through when you are sad.

How do I remember my spirit in the midst of a very negative situation?

Feel it wash over you and calm you down.

Do my surroundings prevent me from creating authentic power?

Yes they can. If you are not feeling authentic, remove yourself from that situation. I had to and it was very very hard to do. But it was for the best.

Do I need to isolate myself until I am strong enough to continue in the real world?

No you shouldn’t do that. I have done that and its not working for me anymore. I was trying to heal my heart from my pain. What makes you strong is being scared and still living the life you want. That’s strengthen.

Can I remain a christian and create authentic power?

Yes you can.