Traveling Dad

Every night I get home and bring my kids something new. It’s usually just a magnet of whatever cities I was in that day. We have started a collection. The boys help me put it on the fridge. The whole side of the fridge is full of the places we have been. It became a thing last year we keep buying them.

Things are going great. I have been busy traveling going to all of the cities I need to visit one last time. We have decided NOT to do a company/retirement party this year. I don’t want it. I want a small gathering of my local office and that will be good enough. Asking everyone to fly out right before Christmas is too much. I already know how everyone feels about me and I also know we will continue to communicate. My employees are like my family. I love them all. We have all been through so much together.

My wife is now 26 weeks pregnant. Our son Talon is doing great. It’s coming up fast. Probably faster than we are prepared for. In January we will all be moving to Paris, minus 2 of the nannies. We will begin our new life and take a month or two from working on anything to get ourselves and our kids settled in. We also will be welcoming Talon at the end of January, that’s why we want an extra month off after my move.

My wife is moving very soon. Ugh. I don’t want her to go but we need to fly her over before she can’t fly. She also wants to make sure the house is ready and his nursery is ready. Peace and Talon will be sharing a room just as Heston and Alex share a room for now. The new house is big enough for all of the kids to have their own bedrooms when they get bigger. I’m sure at some point Peace will out grow room sharing and need her own Princess space. Lord knows my wife dresses her like one everyday. I come walking into the garage and see more clothes boxes that arrived during the day. My wife is on a mission to buy out all of the baby things on Earth I think. She’s half way done by the looks of it all Lol She said she’s not sure what kind of clothes available over there and wants to stock up now since shipping from the States might be a few extra days. I guess.

We are all in our French speaking mode. My wife is practicing a lot and insists at night after the kids are asleep it’s only French. She is getting very good. The class she took paid off. She is working on writing things now. Even I can’t remember some of the spelling but it’s fun to look it up and learn again.

How is everyone doing? I haven’t been updating as much because I’m out-of-town every single day. Today I am finally staying in Chicago. Peace is 13 weeks and we need to go get her ears pierced today. I’m going into work late. I don’t know why this is a thing but my wife asked me to take her. Of course let her be mad at me Lol She already picked out the little earrings at the shop that will do the piercing. She went in twice to ask questions. I’m supposed to just take her in, get it done, pay for it, then make sure she is okay. I’m sure it’s going to hurt. When I went through my earring phases throughout my life (Yes it was popular a few times) I remember it not being that bad. It was sore but it stopped being sore pretty quickly. I hate seeing my baby girl in pain so I hope she can handle it. My wife says she wants it done. I said okay. I have no idea what the appropriate age is for this thing but she googled it and had asked the doctor the last time we went to see him. He said her ears are fine, go for it.

My dog Sam jr has been very busy. He has a 3 day a week play date set up now. He gets to run around an indoor dog park (Yes that’s a real thing) with a bunch of his dog buddies playing with toys they throw out there and sniffing butts. Sarah said he has a blast and loves it. I think he is much happier with a yard. I am still doing our morning and evening walks together and he sleeps in our bed. My wife banned him for a little while because his snoring was out of control but he warmed back up to her and he’s back at my feet. The cat is still chill. I don’t know what else to say I’m not really a cat person. I have owned a few cats and much prefer dogs. Much easier to take care of. Cats could give 2 sh**s less about anything. My dog seems to care about everything and wants to know where I’m at and what I’m doing.

I had a great workout this morning. I’m going to go start breakfast. I haven’t been home lately to cook for everyone i the morning so this will be fun. Then I have to go wake everyone up.

Have a great Tuesday everyone! Love ya’ll!


Travel schedule filling up

We have some fun family trips planned for this year. We are going to Ireland in the summer. We are taking the boys to go meet my wife’s family members. We are taking her parents and a few of her siblings and their children. It should be a lot better than the trip to Greece I went on Lol Nothing will ever be like that I hope.

My wife wants to show me places they have owned and maintained for decades. I’m happy to go along and let her be our guide. She’s been working on our itinerary for months with her mom. She’s really excited.

We will be going to Lincoln, Nebraska this weekend with the boys. We are going to meet up with their birth father and his parents. We are going to take a bunch of pictures and hang out together for 2 hours. That’s all he wanted. He said he wants to meet them while they are small and make sure they are okay. That way he has photos of them and will feel better about everything. Their birth mom is going to join us with her parents so this may be interesting. After that meetup the boys and Brandi/Heather will go back to my cousin’s house for the weekend and I’m taking my wife to Las Vegas. Lindz got us tickets to see Ricky Martin. My wife is so excited. She can’t contain how happy she is. We will be front row and mid center so we can see everything that goes on. I was told to just let her freak out for a few minutes then try to reel her back in Lol That shouldn’t be too hard. I’ve only seen her lose her shit one other time and that was the day of our wedding. After we were married and we walked down the aisle she lost it. She was so happy and crying and excited. She gave me a bunch of big kisses and kept saying how much she loved me. I hope she doesn’t jump on stage with Ricky and get thrown out. I probably should bring bail money just in case Lol Lindsay and Dave are going too so I’m guessing I’ll hang back with Dave while the girls dance the night away. I know a few of his songs but I’m not what you would call a fan. I did hear he does a great show so that should be fun. I’m more excited about Lionel Richie than I am Ricky Martin. Now that guy is awesome!

It will be a full weekend of travel and hopefully zero drama. I pray both of the birth parents families all get along. That’s why we are limiting it to 2 hours and I warned both sides if things get uncomfortable for my boys, we are cutting things short so we will start off with photos. That way we can do that before anything happens. You never know. My cousin tends to run her mouth and I told her this may be the only chance I ever have with both of the birth parents in the same room. It’s already going to be very awkward. We don’t need to add to it. Nice, pleasant, use your manners. That’s all we need to do. The boys will lighten things up. They always do. They make people very happy. My boys really are a blessing. So sweet and funny.

I wrote this last night and forgot to post it. So the last 2 posts are out-of-order but that’s fine because who cares anyway Lol It’s my blog and all of my 20,000 plus readers today will figure it out. Have a great day!


First day of Fall

Welcome to the end of my summer and the beginning of my fall 2016. So summer was a huge amount of fun this year. I had my boys, I had the Olympics. I had all kinds of baby stuff going on. I honestly don’t deserve all the good I have in my life. The best things are yet to come though. Fall is here! Pumpkin spice everything, candles that make my house smell great. Football! And Cubs post-season play. It’s going to be a great fall season for my little family. The boys have completed swim lessons. I got their certificates tonight. Our last swim lesson and I’m happy. I think they enjoyed it a lot. I found out the next cycle for baby fun is usually baby yoga. Which I find ridiculous and I said no to. I told the moms in the class my boys will be signed up for another activity at night but we haven’t found one yet. I want to get them into something before it snows. Because I’m already paranoid about taking them out into cold weather. I don’t want to deal with it again. It was hard enough at the beginning of this year. I didn’t know what to dress them in. I was confused so I kept them inside for 6 weeks.

We are going up to the lakehouse tomorrow. I’m getting off work at noon so we can enjoy a long weekend. I’m dropping everyone off then making a quick trip to Sam’s club to get a bunch of stuff for this weekend. The girls want me to make a few things. Cookies was high on the list. But of course not vegan cookies because no one put me and the boys like those. I think they are really tasty. But I’m used to it. Oh well. I’m also supposed to make chili. Yuck. They want 2 kinds of meat to go in it. I could just about hurl thinking about it already. Sitting there stirring that pot all morning. Is there any good slow cooker chili recipes that I don’t have to mess with much? Anyone know of one?

I’m really getting into these cooking ideas. I’ve been trying a lot of different things the girls find for me. They wanted a cheese fest night. So I got all kinds of things and made 4 different dishes. That was a big success. You know what didn’t go over well? Seafood night. Yuck. I told them I really don’t know how to cook seafood but they didn’t listen. It was a disaster Lol Really bad and the smell for days. Even worse. Never leave cut up fish in your garbage can for 2 days, people. It was really bad.

The Cubs won last night! Great game that started off with 2 runs. And then it died down for a little while. Then more and more. Great game. Cam and I sat on our European pillow seats he bought. It was hilarious. But everyone in our row asked to try it out and we all agreed very comfortable. Not very practical to carry around but no one thought we were smuggling in anything bad. Just 2 dudes, with seat pillows Lol You know, typical Chicago Cubs fans! Geez, Cam.

Work was good. Got a lot done. Lindsay is starting a campaign to get me to move to Las Vegas with the boys. She said if she starts now I may change my mind and stay in America. I doubt it. I have bigger dreams than raising my kids here. I want to go explore and travel with them.

She has been traveling more than I have. We haven’t been talking much. Just business. Anytime I ask her what she’s up to she does the whole Huh thing, goes completely silent then says gotta run and hangs up. She’s squirrely.

So what is everyone doing this weekend? Anything fun?

Have a great rest of the week. I’m sure I will have time to update more this weekend.

Quick update

You say you aren’t special because the world doesn’t know you, but that’s an insult to me. I know about you.

Hello from Oklahoma city. I am on a late lunch break and decided to write a quick…something.

Another busy week for me. I had planned on going back to Chicago on Friday morning but it looks like I need to venture that way tonight. Which is good, maybe I can leave Friday afternoon or night to get to Denver earlier than planned. I had bought 3 tickets to the Super Bowl because Lindsay told me she wanted to go. Ben doesn’t like football, he’s a baseball guy. When she suddenly got married I just assumed she didn’t want to go to the Super Bowl. Which led me to a 2 hour “discussion” last night via text, voicemails, and a photo of her middle finger over snapchat Lol So she and Ben will both be going but Ben will be spending the game time with a friend of his instead of going with us. I offered to try to get him a ticket and thankfully he said no. It was hard enough to buy 3 tickets all together. That new Ticket Exchange website the NFL has is awesome.

Mike is in full on Broncos mode. He is so excited. Again I will be sporting my Jay Cutler Bears jersey to the game. He begged me not to, but I have to. I can’t sit there in another team’s gear. That’s not how you do it. Lindsay, actually I don’t even know what team she is rooting for. Last I heard she said whoever her Bookie said is the bigger spread? Not sure about that. I’m mainly going because Mike’s team is in it. If the Broncos weren’t playing I wouldn’t go. I like Super Bowl parties. The food is always great, everyone watching the game and laughing at the commercials. That’s more my pace. I’m a natural-born party host. I love that part of it.

I got a preview of the new Buick spot, it’s really funny. And I also saw the Budweiser spot. Let me just say I didn’t think anything would top the little horse growing up and leaving the farmer. That one got me, I admit it. But this year. Just wait. It’s the music that brings it home. Great job advertising people. You work so hard for this one 30 second spot and it is well worth it.

I OPENED A CAN OF WORMS, with that relationship blog I wrote the other day. I love all the comments. I love getting dinged for never being married. I was in an on and off 15 year relationship with my high school sweetheart turned fiancée. We were having a baby. No that’s not a marriage but it’s close enough. I do have that long-term commitment experience. I qualify. We fought, we struggled, but mostly we sat down and talked things out. She is the one that threw the shoe at me. We lived together, we had joint accounts. We were a future. Then that future ended. And I was left with all of these What If’s that have come in and out of my mind over the years.

After that I waited 10 years. I was mourning the loss of her, but mostly it was the loss of our son, Ryan. I didn’t know how to move on from that. I didn’t want to start over until I knew I could handle it emotionally. 10 years is a long time to wait for love. In that time I would daydream. I would attend my friends’ weddings, see them have kids, build a life. I wanted all of that too, but I wasn’t ready. Finally I tried to date. Complete disaster. I ended up with a very controlling woman who said she loved me but it wasn’t me she loved. She loved the situation of having someone in her life. I was a bench. I supported her, I was there when she needed me but that was pretty much it. We had these great talks. And that’s when I realized how different we were. I ended it. She was wrong, very wrong for me. And I let months go by. Then I met Meri. We all know that story.

So here I am. Wondering when I will be ready to welcome love back into my life. But this time I’m done praying for it to happen. I can’t. I just can’t. I’m going to have babies in my life soon, I have a lot of great things going on with work. I just can’t ask God for a woman in my life right now. If one shows up, I hope she is patient. I hope she has a sledgehammer because the walls I have up now are 100 stories high and at least 10 foot deep. She’s going to have to be amazing. She’s going to have to want to get me to open up. And it’s going to take a very, very long time.

I don’t have answers for anyone’s relationship. I don’t pretend I do. But I do know that if you are feeling unwanted, unimportant, and lonely, exam that. Look into yourself. Look at how you live your life. I wake up smiling every morning. I can’t wait to get showered, have my breakfast and start the day. I am so happy to be…free. I love my life right now. And I want everyone to feel that same with. Whether in a relationship or not. All I meant to say with that last post is you don’t have to stay where you feel stuck. If you aren’t happy, if you have really tried everything and nothing changes, yes go. By all means leave. Because what is waiting for you on the other side of that door is more rewarding, more freeing than you realize. A lot of people think you should stick it out. If someone is dying soon and you have put your entire life on hold, that’s something worth sticking it out for. Because leaving someone who is about to die will make you regret the decision to leave for the rest of your life. I promise you this is a truest thing I can tell you about broken relationships. The guy, 9 times out of 10 will sleep with someone within the first month you leave. I promise you that’s true. Now keep in mind it will be denied for years but it’s the truth.

I have a new friend who broke up with her long term boyfriend recently. I told her, if he’s at the bar he’s going to go home with someone tonight because that’s what guys do. She didn’t know if he would or not. He did. And she moved on. She is still trying to move on and she is struggling. But she’s doing it. I think she is very brave. I think she put years into a guy that wasn’t right for her. And I hope she realizes all of those years were worth it in the sense they made her figure out who she is and what kind of man is right for her. I’m there for her in anyway she needs. She is so strong. I remember what that feels like the first week of a breakup. Man is that hard. Everything hurts. She is surviving and doing very well. I am proud of her. She is going to be just fine.

I have another new friend battling something that will take all she’s got. I pray for her every day. I hope she knows how important she is to everyone. She is awesome. Always makes me laugh.

Me? I’m doing great. I have been enjoying talking to my employees here. We went out to dinner last night. Had a great time catching up. Trying to get through today so I can get going. I think tonight is going to be a beautiful flight into Chicago. I am looking forward to it.

God loves you and I love ya’ll too! Have a great week!

August 3, 2015

In the mornings she would go for a walk and call me. We would talk about an hour every morning. During the day it was texts and maybe a quick call. But like I said, she was on a schedule for filming everyday. Long filming hours so she had no time to stay in touch. She did the best she could and I really appreciated it. At night when she got home, got all the kids settled she would call me and we’d talk a few hours. I was missing her very badly.

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I got a lot of things set up for next week. I will be in Chicago. My floors are getting torn up and replaced. Not only do we have to let the wood get settled into the temperature of the house before it’s installed, but it also can’t be walked on. Hard to do with 2 pets and myself. A week back home will help me get those 2 homes prepared for my moving back. Which is going to be sooner than I thought. Mark is in a good place and I feel confident he can handle this office in Vegas. He has been working with OKC and Chicago offices learning a lot from them. He was a blank slate when I hired him which made it easier for me to train him how I want things to run. And he’s very respectful of people. That’s the most important thing to me.
Today will be my last day in this office for a while. I’m going to Utah in the morning until Saturday night. Sunday I’m packing my stuff and flying to Chicago Sunday evening. I’m excited to go. I really am. A week there will do me a lot of good right now. It’s what I need.


I have owned a house in Las Vegas for the past 8 years. I called it my condo because I only used it for boys trips for a weekend or vacations with my family or friends. It’s been a party place the entire time. And I’ve loaned it out to my friends so they can have a fun weekend in Vegas anytime they wanted. I upgraded it through the years and did a lot of landscaping out back. I finally sold the house. I am in a different phase of my life and owning a party house set up for movies/sports nights, pool parties, and all kinds of guy stuff just doesn’t fit my current life. I bought a rental house 2 blocks away from that house and moved into it. That’s where I’m living at for the moment. I’m going to be moving again soon. While I’m here I’m upgrading and changing out the flooring. It’s out of date big time. I already had a company remove all of the rocks in the backyards and lay down sod. I’m having to water it a lot so it gets some growth. I was told several times it’s going to die on me. But after a while it will grow. And be a nice grassed backyard. That’s what I’m hoping for at least. The inside of the house is pretty big. It’s going to be a nice family home for a family that is looking to upgrade. I’m getting a lot of the things fixed in the next 3 weeks. I think it’s going to come out really well.

I hired a kid a few months ago named Mark to help me start the Las Vegas firm. We have an office finally and are working on a lot of different investment deals. I had originally planned on flipping houses but it’s a softening market and I might get stuck sitting on them for longer than I want to. The price ranges I’m buying the houses for are great, but the upgrades and all the fixes leave a little profit. And that concerns me. So we are shifting things around and moving forward with our casino investments. I’m going to concentrate now on buying buildings. There are a lot of great opportunities here and I’m excited to see what kind of deals we get. I love buildings. I love standing there looking at it and dreaming in my head the things we can do with it. It’s like my own personal Monopoly game. Mark is doing a great job. He asks a lot of questions and gets things done on time. He is still not very confident but he’s getting more comfortable. He comes from the FLDS faith. He has 2 moms. Which is a little weird but they are both very nice. They both have long hair and wear long, homemade dresses. They are very pretty. He says they don’t wear dresses everyday but are always covered up. I guess that’s a religious thing. He is a nice kid and he’s smart. He is working hard to provide for himself, his family, and his Church. I guess his family still tithes to the FLDS Church because his dad and moms both have family still involved and he said if they stop tithing, they will always worry that their money isn’t going to help our their relation whether they agree with the beliefs or not. His dad and 2 moms left the faith before he was born. But they travel back to visit family and have to act completely different around them. I like Mark. He’s a good kid. I think he’s going to do a good job when I go back to Chicago. He is always finding things to check out or talk over. I like seeing how ambitious he is.

My construction business is booming. We have 12 divisions and they are all booked nonstop. Even in the winter time we have jobs lined up already. It is funding all of my investment firms and gas stations. Which is good since my gas stations are not doing so good anymore. I don’t make money on the gas, I make money on the things sold in the store. And listening to everyone we put in cafes to build up the coffee business. That’s the only thing saving my ass right now. Who knew coffee was so important? I don’t drink the stuff.

I’ve been able to travel and see my family a few times this summer. Being back in Nebraska is always a good time. So many memories of growing up there. It’s where I come from, but it was never my home. Texas is also one of those places I grew up but never really considered it home. I feel home in Las Vegas. I didn’t use to feel like it here.

Home to me will always be Chicago. It was my first big, bold, courageous move as an adult. I left Nebraska knowing I would never live there again. I loved my times in Miami and Miami Beach, year after year. But Chicago, man that’s a great place to live. I love it there. As soon as I get my businesses set up in Utah and Las Vegas I will be moving back to Chicago. And I plan to stay there for a long time.

I have met some interesting people in the past 5 and a half months of my life. All for the better. I have learned a lot and have found myself being more open and honest about my dreams. Work is finally calming down so I will have more time to write and read my books. I love read. I’ve been able to cook a lot more too. I usually prep everything on Sundays but this week I’m going to try to just cook. It’s different. I need different in my life.

I am adjusting to everything. A lot has changed the past few days and I am getting myself together. I know that things are going to be okay. This week at work is going to be tough. But no long hours. I’m getting burned out. I have a cruise to the Caribbean coming up soon. I’m looking forward to that. A week on a boat. I love to travel. I’ve been doing a lot of that. And I’m going to Dubai in a few months. I will stop in Paris on my way. I love going overseas. The Dubai office is finally starting to show a profit. It will be great to go see what my brokers there have purchased and what they are doing with it. It’s a booming part of the country and I’m proud to say I got in on it early. All of my connections through construction helped me find the right people to partner with to start a firm there. The laws are backwards and everything is 10 times bigger and more expensive than 5 years ago, but it’s a beautiful place on Earth. The architecture there is amazing. You can stand out on a hotel balcony all night just looking at the skyline.

I’m on my lunch break. I need to finish my sandwich and get back to work. I have miss ya’ll. I hope ya’ll are having a great summer! I love the comments. I only publish a few of them. The rest I just smile at. Thank you for coming here. You are loved!