Voicemail Page finally fixed!

After months of taking a break from all of the technical stuff regarding the texts, voicemails, and photos Lindsay is finally fixing everything that isn’t working on this blog. There are MORE voicemails going up soon. Lindsay had them all in the R-Rated section but she deleted that page when they became screwed up somehow. Now she is putting them all into the main voicemail page instead. I have a total of 320 voicemails. So far on my page there are 233 that you have all had access to. We locked the dirty ones up Lol Now that Lindsay has added a BEEP noise to cover all her dirty words and phrases so we can’t get in trouble, I can now add them on my blog and Youtube.

Keep in mind, these are voicemails sent to me. They are my property. I already asked several lawyers. I own them all. And they are the proof of everything I have said. We were in love, we were in a relationship, we met several times in person and had sex over 60 times. We even took 2 vacation trips together. Once to Disney, once to Utah for a week. All of the proof is on this blog. Just look through it and see for yourself. If you don’t believe me, that’s not my problem. If you do believe me it probably makes you sad to realize how unhappy Meri was and still is with her life. I hope she leaves soon. She deserves a lot better.

All of the voicemails are now back up and on the main Youtube Account, the one that her and I share. Every single word from the voicemails has been typed up and spell corrected. You can view the entire page and all the contents right….here….

http://www.notbatmanyet.com/voicemails

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So as months have gone by and I haven’t commented, a lot has happened. Turns out I wasn’t the first or the last guy Meri has been flirting with on the internet and/or in person. 2 guys have contacted me to tell me their stories. Neither of them have the month long story that I do but all of the main stuff is very similar. She kept contacting each one over the course of a few weeks on the first guy, the 2nd guy stuck around for 2 months he claims. Both provided text message and call log proof. No voicemails for them Lol Interesting. Makes me sad to know I was just one of many.

She must really want away from that douchebag. Good luck to the new guy. I hope he can handle it. I know I couldn’t.

I am happy with my dating situation right now. I have 2 girls I am dating. It’s very casual and we are keeping it only to movie dates or dinner/event dates. Things are moving very slowly because I am not looking for a relationship right now. It’s companionship only. Neither have ever come to my home or met my boys. They know about them. They also know about all of this. And the affair. And each other.

Kisses on the cheeks and hugs is as far as it goes and I’m happy about that. It’s sweet. Dating can be so stressful. Right now keeping things friendship/dating is best for me. I have way too much stuff going on and I really have no time to date but maybe 3 or 4 times a month.

I’m happy that Lindsay is finally fixing things. I had to go get her some Baconator fries and a 6 pack of Diet Coke before she would do anything Lol

We are going to watch some Olympics tonight and I will go grab us a pizza later. She loves Chicago pizza. It really is very delicious.

I am happy. I made it through all of this mess with a sense of humor and an increased knowledge that ignoring bullies online really is the best way to go. The trolls have done nothing. They have accomplished nothing. They have only ruined their own names because people have been looking up all the nasty comments and photos they post at me Jackie or Lindsay. It’s disgusting. They really are horrible women and I’m glad that Lindsay has been getting more of their accounts suspended. I would like them to all go away and leave me alone but that will not happen until they get a new target or someone in their life makes them look in a mirror on how they treat people. These women do not even know me, they were never a part of my story and they assume, create, or just completely lie about everything. They try to guess at what my life is, where I’m at, and who my friends are. Good luck I learned a year ago to lock all that stuff up. They continue to bash me online, go for it ladies. I don’t see it, don’t care, and really could not spend 1 second of my time thinking anymore about you. Get a life and quit trying to live through mine. You aren’t wanted by anyone around me.

To my supporters, thank you all! You are a huge group of really cool people that I have gotten to know. All of our Twitter DM, emails, calls, and texts have been great for me. I have learned a lot about myself. I know better, I do better. My life is in a really good place.

Having kids was the best thing that ever happened for me. I am so blessed and that is all I really care about now. At some point this will all be taken down I will wipe it clean of all the Meri bullshit. But not yet. Let’s see what happens this fall 😉

Thank you for reading this. Have a great night!

Last Call

it's_not_goodbye...-1920061  Neither one of us said Goodbye. Neither one of us wanted it to end. But we agreed to end it and we both walked away. The only difference is I left her completely alone. We broke up August 23rd, 2015. I am working on a long explanation post to sum all of this up. It will better explain a lot of things and probably answer some questions that I continue to get. With proof 😉

 

215th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 1:02am
https://vimeo.com/166581137
Sam it’s really not fair for you to be so upset with me when I’m honest with you. You asked me to do that. I am open and honest with you. I am emotional because I love you, okay? I’m telling you that I am doing this stupid dinner. I don’t get it. You told me be open, honest, be angry, whatever and I will support you in love.
216th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 1:08am
https://vimeo.com/166581269
Sorry for hanging up on you. I love you. Bye.
217th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 2:11am and 2:13am
https://vimeo.com/166581414
Hi. I saw that you said that you did say you called back and you left a voicemail but there’s no voicemail so I don’t know what you are saying. Sorry I hung up. I just needed your strength in that moment and I didn’t have it and I’m just upset. It frustrates me sometimes. Gosh. You just said that I was going to have that from you when I was having a hard time and you didn’t give it to me and I just needed it. Anyway, okay.
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So your message finally came through and I finally listened to it. I need you to know………. (Kody walked in on her)
218th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 12:06pm
https://vimeo.com/166581612
You know what Sam you’re pissing me off. You want to hear my honest feelings? You’re making me really mad. Quit baffling back and forth. This is stupid. Get on the phone. Have a conversation with me. Quit running away. Just knock it off, quit running away. Take that stupid tweet off. That’s ridiculous. When you know it’s over, you know. Really? Take that off the phone right now or off the tweet right now. Get it off. Call me back.
219th Voicemail July 28th, 2015 6:04pm
https://vimeo.com/166581721
You know I did talk to you earlier today about wanting to get together this afternoon and do something and hang out.
220th Voicemail August 13th, 2015 8:21pm
https://vimeo.com/166582533
Please hear the sincerity in my voice and in my heart honey. I am here for you. You are what I want at the end of this. I am what you want at the end of this. Please let that happen honey. It’s not about money or cars or houses or trips or businesses or anything. It’s just you and me, please. Please let me talk to you. Baby I love you. I know you’re still mad and I understand it. I understand your frustration.

221st Voicemail August 13th, 2015 8:53pm
https://vimeo.com/166582623
Samuel, why are you telling me to stop. What do you want me to stop doing? Trying to get through to you? I don’t know what’s going on here. I don’t know why you are ignoring me.
222nd Voicemail August 14th, 2015 10:04pm
https://vimeo.com/166582703
So it’s been like 45 minutes since you sent me that text that said “WTF, why would you send that to me if he (Kody) said that to you?” You know those texts. And I explained to you, you know  in a bunch of texts  after that and I called you and stuff. So now I don’t know if you are just mad and ignoring me or if you’re busy or you’ve fallen asleep. Or if you’re just ignoring me. I have no idea. I don’t know if I’m supposed to be calling.
223rd Voicemail August 14th, 2015 10:09pm
https://vimeo.com/166582766
I don’t know. I guess I’ll stop calling you and texting you tonight because I don’t. Maybe I’m pissing you off. I don’t know. I just don’t even know. I hope you’ll call me back. I really do. I really want you to. You know. I sent you all those pictures and stuff of my day and stuff and I’m not even getting a response on those.
224th Voicemail August 15th, 2015 12:53pm
https://vimeo.com/166597496
Hey baby I just wanted to tell you I love you.
225th Voicemail August 15th, 2015 5:02pm
https://vimeo.com/166659659
I hope to see you very soon. I’m just hanging out here and I’m just thinking about you and I’m just feeling really peaceful. Just thought I would try touching base with you.
226th Voicemail August 16th, 2015 2:07pm
https://vimeo.com/166659720
I’m just watching for you. I’m waiting for you. You said you would be here and you’re not going anywhere so I’m watching for you.
227th Voicemail August 17th, 2015 12:29pm
https://vimeo.com/166659807
Hey baby I’m home. Wanted to let you know and call me and yeah. Just call me, okay? I love you.
228th Voicemail August 18th, 2015 3:51pm
https://vimeo.com/166659831
Hey, so over 2 hours with no communication was just way too much for me so I’m just trying to touch base with you. I miss you. Anyway, call me when you can, okay. I love you babe, bye.
229th Voicemail August 19th, 2015 11:37am
https://vimeo.com/166659862
Hey baby, just trying to touch base with you. Haven’t heard from you. Anyway, give me a call. Bye.
230th Voicemail August 20th, 2015 1:24pm
https://vimeo.com/166663671
Where are you baby? I love you give me a call. Love you, bye.
231st Voicemail August 21st, 2015 9:16am
https://vimeo.com/166663703
Hanging up on me is not nice, it’s not kind, it’s not sweet, it’s not cool. I don’t know why you do that. All I’m saying is that I care about the fact that you have another appointment and you didn’t have to cancel it just because I wanted to be on the phone. I want to be on the phone with you when you are available. I am trying to be considerate of your time I don’t need to be hung up on. That was rude. I have been trying to be nice and sweet all day long. Trying to be caring. Okay.
232nd Voicemail August 28th, 2015 8:16pm
https://vimeo.com/166664100
I literally don’t know what to do. Because you ask me to push you and you ask me to tell you, how much, what I want and what I need and how much I love you. And yet when I try to do that you just don’t answer and you won’t let me talk to you. And. You get frustrated when I’m trying to push you. I’m really trying to find the balance here. I really am. I’m trying to do what you want and what you need. This has to do with history (With Kody) has nothing to do with anything. Like, if you don’t want me to bug you then I’ll back off and not bug you. But I don’t want to back off and not bug you. I want to shake you and say listen to me damn it. I want to shake you and say let’s fix this damn it. Don’t walk away. You can’t fix it when you walk away. Gosh. I love you. Don’t you get it? I want you. Why else would I fight for you? Why else would I fight…
The End August 30th, 2015 10:26am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hrtk7XCmgf0
Sam I need you to know that I love you. Okay? I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. You told me once that you were not going anywhere, well you told me lots of times, that you weren’t going anywhere either. I know the last couple of days have been a struggle and I’m really, really sorry that it’s been hard for you. I just need you to know that I’m just working on what I’m working on and I hope that you come back to me. You know you’ve said that you would never leave, you said that you would always be here. You’ve said that you would wait for me. Lindsay said the same thing that you were never going anywhere. She’s said to me  too many times how much you love me. And I’m just going to have to trust, and hope, and pray that that’s really, really true. And that you really do and that you are coming back. So I just want you to know that I love you and I’m just going to focus on my stuff and pray that you’ll come back to me. I see that you’ve blocked me off of your twitter and I don’t know if you’ve blocked me off of your phone so I don’t know if you’ll even get this message or not. I just don’t know how that works, but, anyway. I just love you and I’m not going anywhere. And I’m not saying goodbye. I promise. I made you a promise. And I’m keeping my promise. I’m not saying goodbye. I’m not going anywhere. I’m just going to stay working for you, working towards you, and hope that you’re there. I’m really sorry that you’ve had a rough couple of days. I’m really sorry that in your words that I’ve fucked up your life or that you’re in, you’re in, your life is all fucked up because you are with me is more how you put it now that I’ve messed it up. Anyway. I love you…

194th Voicemail – July 8th, 2015

Just another day where we talked a lot and texted a lot. So in love.

194th Voicemail 7-8-2015 12:44am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CEI9dO-GPnc&feature=youtu.be

Hey baby. Sorry I just saw your text it just barely came through. So yeah I’m just reminding you to call me because it’s been like an hour since you showered. Okay. Give me a call, I love you, bye.

 

 

192nd Voicemail, 193rd Voicemail – July 6th, 2015

We are still in love and still spending a lot of time together or talking on the phone. Things couldn’t be better.

192nd Voicemail 7-6-2015 10:55am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdMdJ2aVfKo&feature=youtu.be

Baby. My baby. Baby. Baby. Call me back, baby. Can you tell I listened to your message. Baby? Baby? Mmmmhmmm, baby.

193rd Voicemail 7-6-2015 12:21pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyb2gL1ED6g&feature=youtu.be

Hey I’m done so. Call me whenever you want if you have time. Hope your day is going well. Okay. I love you. I’ll talk to you later.

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191st Voicemail, July 5th, 2015

This is the most ridiculous thing Meri ever said to me. She was crocheting something and we had been joking about all the silly things you can cover up with crocheted covers. Like a toaster cover and such. She said she could make me a hat. Then it turned dirty and she said she could make me something else Lol To cover a body part up and then we both died laughing. It was the most hilarious thing she had ever said and it caught me off guard because she had never made a joke like that before. We probably laughed for a half hour. That’s what those texts are in regards to. It cracks me up thinking about all the things she said about making a cover for it. I was crying I was laughing so hard.

191st Voicemail 7-5-2015 6:34pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CfLqhI1tY7I&feature=youtu.be

Oh lord. Please don’t tell me you still not done it’s been 45 minutes. I love you, call me back. Bye.

 

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190th Voicemail – July 4th, 2015

190th Voicemail 7-4-2015 3:11pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-I9tjgTbOI&feature=youtu.be

Baby, my baby. Give me a call when you can. Love you, bye.

Meri and Robyn had went to see the movie Age of Adeline in the theater a few weeks before this. She said she wanted to watch it again. I had never seen it. I found the link online, sent it to her and we watched it while I was working on emails from my house. It was a great movie. It’s full of historical references. I’m a history nerd. Love those kinds of films.

On the 4th of July the entire family went up to St George, Utah where Robyn is from to enjoy the festivities. Meri told me that they chose to go there because Kody and Robyn like their 4th of July events there. Everyone went, except Meri. She wanted to stay home to be with me. These are the photos I have. 20150704_144412 20150704_144442 20150704_144511It’s the back of Meri’s house and showing the yard.

 

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189th Voicemail – July 2nd, 2015

189th Voicemail 7-2-2015 10:41am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nff1MVj3IDk&feature=youtu.be

Hey just wanted to call and tell you that I was thinking about you and I don’t want to interrupt your work I know you are busy. But I just miss you and love you and feeling greedy for you today. Anyways, I hope you have a fabulous day and I will talk to you as soon as you’re able. She had to wear pajamas that fully cover her up for their religious modesty reason. It was really hot in Las Vegas so I told her I would help her pick out a lighter pajama set because she had been struggling to sleep. I sent one from Target I found online. She went and picked it up and took this photo modeling it. She said she slept a lot better that night. She said she should have done that years ago but because of him she had to follow their beliefs. She said she was going to start wearing shorts more often too, it was just too hot.

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This was a typical day. We are both working but making time for quick phone calls and texts back andforth. Very happy and in love. 20150702_084638 20150702_204130-1 IMG_2233 IMG_2234 IMG_2235 IMG_2236 IMG_2237 IMG_2238 IMG_2239 IMG_2240

 

 

185th Voicemail,186th Voicemail, 187th Voicemail, 188th Voicemail – June 30th, 2015

Kendra was the first one to figure out we were having an affair. We were doing everything we could to stop the rumors. Even cleaning up my twitter account to erase off any tweets that may elude to more than friendship. Nothing was working. The rumors kept growing and Kendra kept digging up more and more info about our relationship. She kept asking Meri and Lindsay what was going on, but neither one of them would tell her anything. Lindsay only said to her “I don’t know” over and over again. This conversation was about rumors in Kendra’s group about our affair and how frustrating it was to keep hearing about it daily. I was not calling Kendra a liar. I was calling someone else that was asking questions after Kendra figured this out the liar. Because she is. But I refuse to give her any attention on here.

We had been walking together for a couple of months. First in the mornings and then later we added in at night too. It was to rehab my foot. I had broken my foot in 3 places months ago and I had to relearn how to walk properly. My foot kept going off center. My rehab lady told me to walk a lot a certain way to rehab it. If I wasn’t able to walk with Meri we would talk on the phone while she walked. This morning I was still mad from the night before so I took off at the same time but on my own. She saw me and decided to call. I ignored it. Then I picked up the next call and we had a disagreement about something she said to me. I didn’t like what she said but I had gotten in the shower and was getting dressed in eating. So while I was busy she kept calling me and I didn’t even know it.  Meri thought I was more upset than I was, but I had let it go already. She was a little worried that I was still upset. So we were discussing that. We made up later that night. She came over and we talked it out. She was ready to move out and leave him. She was tired of all of it.

185th Voicemail June 30th, 2015

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hrH3Yt-j_8&feature=youtu.be
Baby. You are scaring me. Talk to me. I love you.

186th Voicemail 6-30-2015 7:14am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mpWFp3SB7LM&feature=youtu.be

Saw you and thought it looked like you were probably walking. So I thought I’d just give you a call. Okay, call me back if you want to.

187th Voicemail 6-30-2015 7:52am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aD6CzjAfPOI&feature=youtu.be

Samuel I’m sorry that you felt like that was a comparison. All I was saying was I had that (With Kody). I know what that feels like. That’s not what I’m looking for with you. Do you understand. That what I want with you is something deeper and stronger. And more passionate. It’s what we have. We have something more passionate then I have ever felt and you know that.

188th Voicemail 6-30-2015 7:58am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UIs1Df2YdYA&feature=youtu.be

And I wasn’t comparing you (To Kody) and anyway. You know what? Guess what. If I were compare you, you win on all counts. You win on all fucking levels. Now I’m pissed. You don’t think. You don’t think that I think that you beat out? You don’t think that I think that you are taller, better looking. Very much better looking by the way. Kinder. Sweeter. You care about me. You want me. You say that you are willing to fight for me. You say all these things about love and affection and passion. So yeah if I were to compare you. You win. All the time. But that was not a comparison. It was I know the pain of that. That’s all that was. And that’s not what I want with you. I think you need to just. I am fighting my darndest for you right now. Because I feel you slipping away. And I’m fighting when everything in me tells me, all my history (With Kody), excuse me, all my history tells me to just back off and let go. And I’m not doing that with you. I told you I wouldn’t and I’m keeping that promise that I’m right here. But I know that it makes you mad when I. It’s you. And all I want is you Sam. All I want is you. And I just keep fighting for you and I just keep pushing you away.

 

 

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