This was the day the guilt for her finally hit. It took 2 months. I had told her she really needed to figure out what she was doing with me. The rumors were getting thick. She was starting to see a lot of people online ask me if I was dating her. She was starting to get questions from people about what was going on. We both laughed it off but it wasn’t funny. We had been too public talking to each other on Twitter and too arrogant about being open about our relationship. It was beginning to start rumors.
We had a long talk that day and I told her you need to pick. The life you know or the life you want. She had also found out that Mariah wanted to come home for the summer instead of staying in Utah. This would throw a giant monkey wrench in all of her plans to move out soon. She was scared I was not going to wait. I told her I would but I was pissed. She wanted out, I wanted her out and we had a plan. Now we have to wait until Mariah moved back up to school. She took time alone to think. I told her to contact me when she had an answer.
She picked me.
89th Voicemail 5-10-2015 7:42pm
Hi Sam. I just wanted to let you know that I just got your texts. I know it’s a couple of hours after you sent them. And I just wanted to respond and say I am very glad that we talked too and I do miss you extremely. I really miss you. I love the conversations that we have and I totally understand that you need to be careful and where you are coming from. I do understand that. I had to just leave my house for a while. I left my phone. I just needed to go be alone for a while. Just to drive and just was alone in my thoughts. Went up to the mountain a little bit and so that’s where I’ve been. That’s why I didn’t respond I just needed to just leave my phone and be alone and just figure some stuff out and just think. Anyway, I love you very much. I really do and I don’t want you to think that my response was anything about not wanting to talk to you because I do want to talk to you so that last one that you said maybe it’s better that we don’t talk I understand your frustration because I didn’t respond but it’s not because I don’t feel like we shouldn’t talk. I just needed to leave my phone at home because I drove around for a while. Anyway, alright, I hope you are having a good evening whatever you are doing. Thank you so much for talking to me. And…