Did you throw your shirt in a tree?

I have reached the point in raising twins that they don’t think I know anything. They argue with me when I present them with the right answer to their question. They also act like I’m dumb. They finally stopped whispering into each other’s ears when they are trying to figure out how to get out of trouble. The new thing is stand there and assassinate me with their words Lol Heston is not my shy one. He will blast away with whatever is on his mind. He’s good at holding back the big stuff but he eventually lets it out. I got yelled at yesterday because his life is too happy. It’s too fun. He’s always happy and he doesn’t like it.


Alex is my social butterfly. He wants to be around people all of the time so they can listen to him talk nonstop. It’s cute and exhausting and I love it. He is so curious and wants to know everything about everything. He’s turning into my reader. Heston will get through a book or text to get it done with so he can go back to doing whatever he wants. Alex will bring books to us and say let me read you this really funny part. He loves it. I love seeing him read.

Twins is not easy at all. I don’t know how I have survived all of these years with them. It was much harder when the were babies. It’s getting easier but this is the part in life where I can really f*** them up if I’m not careful. I need to fill them with confidence, joy, strength of mind, and a sense of adventure. I’m watching when I criticism them, I’m being careful with my words. This is the age they start remembering big moments. I wanted to fill this summer up with so much travel but maybe this is God’s plan for us. Family time. ALL. THE. TIME! It’s not so bad. They can be annoying, I’m sure I can do. But we really have no complaints. Other than Heston getting mad yesterday and throwing his shirt up in a tree. I had to climb up and get it. Then I made him say sorry to the tree Lol He was confused but he did it and then we both laughed. He’s never going to remember that moment. But I will. And that’s what keeps me happy and loving my life.

My twins are turning into little people. It’s so interesting to see how their minds work. I’m doing the best that I can. It looks completely different than other parents but I think I’m doing great.

And no more shirts up in trees. I hope.

Good to be back home

I had a really fun weekend with my son Alex in Denver. Mike and his mom made it up to visit us. The hospital stuff was routine and I’m waiting to find out all of the test results. It usually takes a week or so to hear back. Unless its something bad then I hear back soon.

We did manage to do a little shopping and get him some new toys. Of course we got the same toy for his brother because you know, sharing is caring Lol My daughter got a few things too. Mike’s mom has always been really good about picking out little outfits for her. As long as it’s pink we are fine.

We got home last night just in time for Game of Thrones. Did you guys see that? Wow! The battle was unreal. The dark smoke was a little annoying I had to stop and adjust the brightness on the tv a little. And the last scene. I knew Arya ran off for some reason I just didn’t realize what that reason was.

I’m home. Stephanie came over last night to say hi Lol Well and other reasons. She left early this morning. She’s a lot of fun.

Hope you have a great week!


Alex is doing a lot better. I took the night off and slept like a rock. I don’t think I’ve slept more than 2 hours a night since Sunday. My kids are on their way here now. I hope this will pick up his spirits a little. He’s eating, he’s doing what he needs to do to heal up. Things all look good and I really hope he is out of ICU later tonight. At the most it will be tomorrow morning. Having him in a regular room is going to be a lot easier.

Big giant sigh of relief. We are getting through this. Scary, heart-breaking, worrisome. It has tested my last fiber of faith. I really was not ready for any of this. It just happened all at once. Isn’t that how life goes, though? I thank God for every moment of this and pray all day long my son gets better soon. God has big things for his life and I can’t wait to get him home. He just wants to be home.

I spent yesterday replying to all of your wonderful messages, prayers, comments. Thank you guys. So many fans have reached out to ask what they can do. We don’t need a GoFundMe page Lol That’s really nice, don’t ever do that for me or my kids. We are fine. We just like positive thoughts, prayers, good wishes. That’s enough. You guys are amazing! I do not want to provide a mailing address so you can send gifts and cards. I really appreciate the sentiment but no thanks. If you want to send an Ecard for him, that will be fun and I can open it first to read it then show him and read it to him. My email is Samuel@NotBatmanYet.com. It’s on the top of the website somewhere I think too.

We are all healing. This year, honestly just kinda sucks for me. It’s like a never-ending something and something else always going on. I knew having kids would be hard but dang. This whole thing is stressing me the f out Lol

Hope everyone has a great day. Thanks again, guys! Love ya’ll!

They are 2 and I’m getting old

Yesterday was our small family birthday party for my twins Heston and Alex. It’s still too soon to have a bunch of people in our home with Talon so we are waiting to do a bigger party for them in March with all of our family and friends. Because of the way Talon came into this world being sick my wife said we are holding everyone off to come meet him for a month. Whatever she wants to do I’m fine with. She knows best.

I was dressed in my Batman suit because it was a full on Batman party. I’m not going to be dressed up on the next party Lol No way. I realized how hard it is to sit down in that thing and it takes forever to get it on and off. I had to have help getting out I had sweated so much it felt glued on. However…

My boys loooooooved it. That’s the first time they’ve seen me in it. I have put it on a few times for my wife (Don’t ask Lol) and that’s been it. It still fits, which is amazing after how much we all ate during the winter. I’m happy to know it’s still in pretty good shape after all of these years. The hard part today is I have to clean it all up and that takes about an hour.

We had vegan cake, regular cake, ice cream, vegan ice cream, and an assortment of snacks. I took my boys out for a special birthday surprise. We got to meet some Super Heroes at a book event that just so happen to be on their birthday. They won’t know it was just a book event and not part of their actual party so we won’t tell them that until they are older. I got a ton of photos with a lot of the characters holding or behind my boys. It was really cool that when I said hey it’s their birthday today they all let me take photos with everyone. I had to buy 4 books but that’s fine because I like to read that type of book anyway. The other 3 copies will be mailed off to friends.

Seeing how much my boys have grown up, it’s crazy. I remember them being tiny little guys and how scared I was to even change the first diaper. I always felt like I was going to hurt them when I held them wrong or if I wasn’t sure how to hold them up on my shoulder the first few times. Now I just whip right through all of it with no problems. I was all alone when they were born. I had no wife, no girlfriend, no plan. Just me and my boys. Now I have a family for them. I have contact with their birth parents which is so important for me and them. We know their medical history and we also pretty much know what they will look like as they grow up. I’m so happy my amazing little boys are living a happy, stable, life. I’m doing my best everyday for them to make good choices and not get overwhelmed. I’m very patient with my kids and even when they are screaming bloody murder and I’m getting mad I keep my head cool and remember they are just little kids.

The hardest part for me about having twins is when I’m giving attention to one the other wants in on it and I try to balance that. I don’t know how to do it other than just try to keep focus one at a time when needed. Honestly most of the time my boys are either with me or they are near me. They really don’t leave my side that much during the day now. I love it. I don’t like the WWE style beatings they dole out on each other but I know that’s just boys. I remember my brother and I duking it out when we were little and it was a constant whooping that he would get Lol But I always hugged him later and said sorry. I know they will be best friends their entire lives. I want them to remain close to each other and close to us. I don’t care how old any of my kids are, they will always be my babies and even now when I’m out-of-town I make sure I call home a few times a day because I want to and I want to know how everyone is doing.

I love my boys so much. It’s indescribable how much I love my kids. I tell them everyday several times a day I love them and they are finally getting to say it back. They are smart. Man, are my boys smart. They will be smarter than me someday I know that for sure. I want to provide a happy home. I want my wife and I to continue to nurture them, teach them, but also let them figure things out on their own. I will always be here for my boys. Always. I know my family and friends will be too. I’m so happy things are going great. I know that my wife loves them with all of her heart and when we go back to the States for summer vacation she is seriously wanting to adopt all of the kids. She was the one that chose not to. I asked her to adopt but she said no. Then she realized that she is their mom. She feels it, she wants it, and I’m happy she figured it out. I knew she would eventually. I even told her when they all turn 18, go ahead and adopt them. I know that her hesitation was about me and my past and nothing to do with not wanting my kids. I have proven over and over I have changed and I am making better choices. I have proven my complete dedication only to her and I have given her no reason at all to worry about me and other women. Those days are done. Thankfully I got all of that out of my system before my kids were here. I have calmed down, I’m a lot nicer, and I really try hard to be thoughtful. She sees all of that. She said I really am her soul mate and these kids belong with us both in Heaven. She’s taking care of whatever legal steps we need to do and I will happily sign any paper to give her rights to my babies. I trust her with my kids. I trust if we get a divorce we will split custody (And that will be in any new paperwork Lol) but I also know that I will work with her. My kids are our kids and I’m doing my best to make sure everyday she feels like their mom. I think having Talon sealed it for her. Knowing we have a child together, knowing the best thing is to keep all of the siblings together. God forbid anything happens to me, I do want all of my children together. I knew Lindsay would always have them together and that’s why she was in my papers to take custody. She said she’s happy to give them up to my wife, but she also had an hour-long conversation where my wife said Lindsay basically told her if she visits and sees the kids in disarray she’s stealing them and taking them to Mexico Lol I’m pretty sure she means it. My wife just laughed but I got a pang in my heart like Oh god she would do it.

My boys, wow. 2 years old! We made it to 2 and I haven’t lost my mind yet.

Happy Birthday Heston William! Happy Birthday Alexander James! I love you with all of my heart and I hope we made your 2nd birthday very special! Long Live Batdad!


#Cubs win, of course

Last night my wife and I had a double date at the Cubs game. We met up with one of her sisters and the brother-in-law. Nice couple. I like them. We are all still getting to know each other but her sister pulled me aside and told me that my wife just gushes about me constantly. I guess I’m good at this marriage thing. She also said she’s very happy for her sister and that she just loves the boys. She’s excited about our little baby Cooper coming up in January and I’m glad to hear it. My wife talks to her family members daily. They are always texting or on the phone. I love they are so close. I hope I’m as close with my kids as they grow older. Her parents send texts. They haven’t mastered Facetime yet but they will learn. Very good people. Her family has just welcomed us in like we belonged to them forever. I was nervous the first time she took me to a birthday party and we were making our official debut to her family. It went great and it was a lot of fun. I’m usually wanting to leave those kind of things after a half hour. I have a lot of things to get done and I really am not used to just hanging out just to hang out. At least not at a party I wasn’t hosting. I pop in. That’s what I’m trying to say. I’m a pop in guy. Hey, great party, oh food. Happy (Insert whatever kind of congratulations here) this was great, I need to get going. That’s me. Not anymore.

The cubs won 3 to 1. Didn’t even need the bottom of the 9th. Looking good but still floating below where they should be. It’s early but time does go fast in baseball. The Astros are looking strong this season. Have you seen their record? Wow. 1st in the AL West. They are a team to watch. We all had a great time and I drug home even more Cubbie gear for everyone. They always have new stuff. I can’t help it. We are a Cubs family.

Tonight I’m taking the nannies, all 3 of them, and my boys to the game. It’s going to be beautiful weather. Perfect for my boys to be outside for hours. I’m aware we most likely are going to have to leave early OR we are going to end up holding 2 sleeping boys by the end of it. I want my boys to get experiences in crowds, to learn how to stay near Daddy and to listen. I also want them exposed to baseball. It’s a great sport and I’m an avid fan. The nannies have been group chat texting about their outfits for 3 days now. Like I care. Just throw on a Cubs tshirt and let’s go. How is that hard to decide. I guess it’s because it’s a huge place to meet guys (That are half drunk btw) and with all 3 of my nannies single I’m going to be saying, Don’t talk to that guy a lot Lol They make me feel old. They also make me watch them more than I watch the game. Someone is always hopping up to go somewhere. Last time Brandi was literally holding a hot dog and said she needed a hot dog as soon as a guy she wanted to approach went by. It was ridiculous. Women!

We are now at the half way point of the year and I’m leaning on Lindsay more to take over things. She is learning very fast and trying to get all of her Mexico business passed off to the 4 people that she is going to push it off on. I have 6 more months of this working career before I retire. I’m taking a break. I need one. I have kept my foot on the gas pedal for almost 10 years now. It was really hard in the beginning. It was just me and my secretary from Nebraska, Shelly starting out. She had all of the faith and I had none of it. She kept encouraging me to hang in there. Even when I lost deal after deal after deal. I’m so thankful I listened to her. I wanted to quit a dozen times but she told me the only way up is through. She was right. I’m excited or it to end. I’m also excited about cashing the checks I get each month for my ownership. It will be nice not working and still getting paid. Perfect timing too because our baby is due in January. God has blessed me so much. I almost feel like I don’t deserve this much good stuff.

I had won 2 tickets to go see the movie the Mummy at a preview event. I gave those tickets to my wife. She’s taking a coworker. I didn’t want to see it. It doesn’t even look that good but she said Ooohhh Tom Cruise so that was easy to give away. I know they will have fun tonight. She said movie previews are usually packed. Thanks again to NBC Chicago for hooking me up. I appreciate the tickets. They are going to get good use and the theater will be making money off of my popcorn, snack, soft drink loving wife Lol She always has to get the biggest combo they have then doesn’t even finish half of it. And doesn’t take it home to finish later. She says she thinks she wants more than she actually does.

Tonight’s Cubs game will also be a winner and I pray my boys enjoy it. It’s always Alex that has the issues. He just doesn’t like to sit still very long. Heston will sit on my lap and munch on his food with no problems. The girls usually have to take Alex to walk around a few times. That’s my boys. Identical and completely different. I’m so glad they are mine. We are a perfect fit. I love my family. I really do!

I hope ya’ll are having a good start to your work week. I will update more tomorrow. Have a good one!

Birthday party or social event?

Thanks to Lindsay’s email and now Facebook page she created our small family get together has turned into a bigger party than I expected. We have ordered more food and drinks, more cake, and more seats and tables. Thanks a lot Lindz! She said each year will only get bigger so be ready. I hope not. I’m at work looking over everything and still trying to get through all of my To Do’s for tonight. We are leaving after supper to go up to the lake house because all of our family portraits are done and up. My wife wants to go see them. Fine by me. Because if they are not what we want on display we will yank them all down before everyone can see them. The proofs looked good but it always looks different when you blow photographs up.

The next few days will be all about the family and hosting them so I won’t get to update for a few days. I pray everyone has a great weekend and enjoys the rest of today. Wish me luck. It sounds like this birthday party is turning more into a social gathering. Geez.

God loves you and I love ya’ll too!

1st Birthday party coming up

We had an amazing Valentine’s day yesterday. It was all I wanted it to be. My wife loved it and all of the gifts she received. I also loved her gifts to me. She was overly generous. Thank you baby.

Back to the next big thing in my life. My boys’ first birthday party is in 2 days! The party planner has done a really good job. She sent me photos of the lake house. It looks like all of the things are set up and ready to go. Now it will be about coordinating all of the family and friends coming into town for the big event.

I still can’t believe they are going to be 1. I just can’t believe it. It has really flown by. I still remember the first moments of their lives. How scared then happy, how worried, then in love. And the sheer panic of the first few minutes of Alex not breathing well. Then hearing him let out his first cry and then they swooping him off. I thank God everyday for allowing their birth mom to choose me. She was really considering an abortion at first because she didn’t want her parents to know. She said she couldn’t do it and didn’t even seriously consider it because she didn’t want that on her life forever. I’m glad she chose to adopt them out. I’m glad my cousin called me that day to just vent and how slowly it turned into I Will Take Them. I was laughed at so many times by family, friends, and others. No one thought I could do it. I didn’t either Lol And here we are.

My wife is really starting to grow into family life. She is really excited about the party. She took the whole day off of work tomorrow so we can go up to the lakehouse to pitch in. She NEVER does that. She only took off a week for our honeymoon. So that was shocking. I’m happy to see her do that. It won’t mean much to them right now but when they are older I can say she took the day off of work for you guys because she loves you and wanted to help make your very first birthday party perfect. That will make a difference. I love her for it.

This small 50 person gathering has now turned into over 300 Lol Only because Lindsay got on the email and invited all of the employees and vendors we work with. We had to order more food because so many more people RSVP’ed for the party. And Lindsay said anyone that wanted to travel in for the party would get all of Friday off but they need to show up. I think that’s hilarious. I don’t see any of them fly all the way here just for this. But we will be happy to host them if that happens.

My boys loving coming to my office. Sarah brings them in more now that they have all of their immunizations and can be around big groups. She still doesn’t let people hold them. Or even touch them. She says Sorry germs for twins are double. Who can ever argue that one? That’s a great line. We have had a few runny noses but neither one has had a full-blown illness yet. Alex had a failure to thrive for the first 2 months but we got that reserved very quickly. He just had bad gas. A few drops in his bottle and he was perfectly fine. And he caught up with Heston within 3 months.

Geez, I feel like I remember everything. I think because I was so scared every day the first 4 months. Things got easier just like everyone said it would. Now that they are walking a little things will get harder again.

The party is going to be fun. We saw photos of the 2 smash cakes. The design looks great and the caterer will be making them first thing Friday morning. She’s bringing 8 cakes, 6 different round ones for the party and the 2 smash cakes. I can’t wait to see them dig in. Their smash cakes will be vegan so they can eat as much as they want. I am told they mostly squish it and only shove so much in. I really think Alex will squeal laughing and Heston will just pound the crap out of it Lol Two very different personalities. They look exactly the same. I thought about doing different hair cuts when they get older but I don’t know. We are going to match them for part of the party. Then after they get baths from the cake smashing they get their own outfits.

The next few days will be very busy for us. I can’t wait to see everyone and show off my family to everyone. They are my biggest pride and love. I married very well and I have raised two sweet and amazing babies.

1 years old. Geez! Did anyone think I would survive?

Thank you Sarah! She is the only reason I made it this far. And to Brandi and Heather thank you ladies too. All 3 of you are family and I hope we all stay together for as long as you want. Your help has been invaluable. Priceless even. I pray you all 3 enjoy the party without having to lift a finger for my boys. You deserve a great time and to get to watch them like we will.

Have a great work day everyone! God loves you and I love ya’ll too!