I want a little Peace at home

Hey guys. How are you doing tonight? I’m good. I’m listening to a podcast as I type this. It’s pretty funny so I may pause a few times to listen to a story they are telling. I hope this won’t take that long. Like right there. I just learned how they both figured out Santa was more of a helper to our parents than we all figured out Lol It was a great story.

I have decided to keep Peace at home now. I put her into daycare to give her time to socialize and see if that would go well. Her brothers are in school all day now and I want her to feel a part of all of that. She only went half a day. This allowed me time to bond with Sky. Sky is older, sleeping longer at night, things are smooth.

Now I get both of my girls at home all day and I’m trying to figure out all of the girl type things they might want to do together with me. So far I planned a very special lunch that got crapped on by a bad phone call. It took longer than it was supposed to and I ended up missing out on the entire meal that I prepared. Peace was mad and she had every right to be. So I did what every guilt ridden, single, Catholic parent would do, I took her for ice cream. It helped but she still let me know that was not okay.

I am sorry Peace. Next time I will put you first and make a better choice.

Sky decided to chill with us the rest of the afternoon and it’s very interesting to see my girls interact. Peace loves her little sister. Now keep in mind she hates being a big sister to anyone. She still wants to be the baby of the house. And I tend to favor her over everyone in my life. I am working on that. She’s so dang cute though. She looks up at me and I just melt.

The boys are doing great. We had a great Christmas, a great Disney trip, and my quick trip over the weekend was a good break for all of us. I had a business trip to Napa, California and I got back way too late the next morning. That meeting turned out like complete crap. I’m not happy at all how that business is going and it got a huge change of command as of NOW. Not me, I put someone else in charge. It did not go over well but it’s a business. And I let it go for 3 years now. I’m done.

2020 for me is the year of ZERO FU**S. I mean it. I’ve finally been setting boundaries and walking away from my toxic friendships. Certain people in my life have about 1 more phone call left in me before I say, I’m done, bye. Click. I love my friends but some of them, time to go. And 2020 was the year.

The podcast I’m listening to is debating if some guy should shave his back Lol I do not have a hairy back. I have no opinion of this at all but I think it’s funny the answers they are offering up. A back scratcher with a razor taped on it? I guess that might work. I also do not have a hairy butt, thank goodness. Hairy legs, yes, hairy armpits check, yes. A small patch of chest hair I usually just shave off, yes. That’s my usual stuff. Shave your back Lol Wow. Good luck to that guy.

So much for finishing this blog. My kids are fighting over a puzzle so I’m wrapping this up. Have a great evening everybody! Tomrrow I’m getting us a new vehicle. I’m selling my Range Rovers. It’s going to be sad but I need a much bigger vehicle now with Sky in our family. Love you guys.

It’s Almost (Christ)mas time

Happy Holidays! 2016 is going to be the best Christmas celebration of my life. I have Heston and Alex to thank for that. I’m so excited to spend Christmas eve with my boys and Auntie Lindsay. Then at midnight we are all going to Christmas mass. It’s a family tradition that is important. I wish I would be back in Lincoln for Christmas this year but I selfishly want to be alone with them. To make sure they are getting all of my attention and I am doing all I can to spend the day with just them. If I take them out-of-town I will have to share the time with everyone else and I don’t want to. Not the 1st Christmas. It’s also hard to travel with them. That’s why I haven’t done it that much.

I am going to take the boys back to Lincoln, Nebraska to spend a few days with the family this week. I need them to enjoy the time they have and also let the nannies take a break. All 3 of my nannies will be with the boys for the 3 days I will be away. I have to hit the west coast of all of our companies so I can wish everyone a Merry Christmas and to also personally tell them all 2017 is my last year. I think it will be a shock to some of them. A few may try to immediately ask about who will take over. The plan for that has already been in place and I look forward to seeing all of my employees so I can thank them for their hard work. They will get off at noon on the 23rd and not come back to work until the 27th. Then they will get a half day off on the 30th and come back to work January 4th, 2017. I try to give everyone multiple days off to travel and spend time with their families. It’s so important to me and I want to honor my committment by offering the same to them.

We have been watching Christmas movies all morning and I’m already getting excited. My boys sort of know who Santa is. Every time we get out the Santa dolls or we tell them about Santa Heston says OOohhhh Lol He loves Santa as much as I do. Alex just cries. He is predictable. I want my boys to understand Christmas is all about the birth of Jesus. We have already been reading them stories about Jesus’s life and will take them to Mass so they will get to hear the songs we sing to praise His life. God’s sacrifice for all of us needs to be honored every year if not everyday. I want my boys to know from the beginning that it’s not all about presents and food. It’s so much more. And we will spend a great amount of time at Church events every year.

Both of my homes have been beautifully decorated for Christmas and we have made sure to incorporate a lot of religious ornaments and things for the boys to see. This year and the next they may not understand the huge significance but in time they will. I also brought out my family ornaments from my childhood. My brother and I made awful homemade Christmas decor in school or at Church and my mom always proudly displayed them on the tree every single year. I’ve kept that going and will one day explain to my boys each ornament. It’s always a reminder to see my brother’s face on his 4th grade ornament. I think of him everyday and wish he were with me. It’s been too many years since he passed away and I continue to pray for his soul. He was a broken young man without the love and support he wanted. We all tried and we all failed him. In the end he was buried alone without any type or marker being present. And it saddens me I can do nothing about that.

I also think of my grandmother at Christmas. She loved this holiday. I miss hearing her voice yell at me from the kitchen and tell me to get in there. I miss her hugs and her snapping at me to stand up straight. She would have loved my boys more than anything. She would have loved everything about them. I miss having her here but I know she is up in Heaven telling God to stand up straight Lol

I wanted to spend a little time talking about all of you. Over the past few years I have enjoyed reading the comments. I have gotten a lot of support from total strangers. The strangers have stayed around and become good friends. I wish all of you the best Christmas has to offer. Please donate money, time, prayers, or anything you can to others this year. There is always a need. You have a responsibility to provide something for someone else during this season. It’s what makes you whole. Doing for someone less fortunate than yourself is the best way to live you life. I will volunteer on Christmas day as I always do and help feed the homeless. I’m going to spend 4 hours helping with a breakfast my Church hosts each year. I can’t wait to see the faces of the people who will enjoy a good hot meal and the warmth of love and charity. I pray for each person I serve and I ask God to make their lives easier. I love them all as I love all of you. You have all continued to watch my family grow. You have offered great advice on how to deal with the new things my babies are doing. And you also voice your opinions and thoughts about my writings. I love hearing what you think. Please never stop reaching out to me. I may never respond but if Lindsay allows a good positive comment through I do read all of those.

You are always welcome here as long as you are respectful. I appreciate each of you and I pray your Christmas for the 2016 holiday season is all you wish for. Happy Holidays to all other religions and belief systems. I’m aware not everyone here is a Christian. I offer my prayers to you and your families as well. I love you all. Merry Christmas everyone!

Catchup Day

Any holiday where my employees do not come into the office is a catch up day for me. I am at work and trying to get as much done before lunch time as I can. I promised Sarah to pick up lunch and bring it home. Then I will take over the babies for the rest of the day. It’s a really nice day out I’m going to get out their stroller and take them for a walk later. I haven’t done that yet. I have wanted to but I was waiting to really make sure they were okay and ready to get out a little.


I couldn’t sleep much last night. I had a headache but my phone kept going off. That’s what happens anytime it’s a Sunday. I get all kinds of comments, emails, texts, and calls. Everyone wants to fill me in. I stopped responding. I will read the messages but I really don’t have anything I want to add. I’m past that point. It is what it is. I’ve already said enough, haven’t I?


Things have been really great lately. I had a bad week and I was tired but over the weekend I did get caught up on all of my work stuff I needed to do. Minus the things I wanted to do. That’s what I’m working on now. We had a great weekend. It is always fun having a houseguest. I go out of my way to make everything fun and entertaining. I also got a couples massage and that helped me out a lot. I have been working out twice a day to get ready for the Chicago marathon. I have wanted to run in it the past 3 years but my health wasn’t ready for it. This year I’m going for it. I have been working on my legs to bulk them up and also running a lot. When it’s nice I go out for an hour-long run and try to beat the last set of distance from the previous week. My iPhone has a Health app built-in that shows me how much I have run in distance. It’s very helpful. I tried that Fitbit and didn’t like it. It didn’t give me the stat I wanted. Working out always puts me in a really great mood. I feel better, stronger. It makes me proud of how committed I am to my fitness and healthy lifestyle. Eating vegan controls my food intake but exercise is what keeps me in shape.


I’m trying to figure out what Sarah wants for lunch. We are texting back and forth here. She can’t decide. It’s a lot better than one of Lindsay’s lunch time suggests. A big white birthday cake and beer Lol I didn’t buy that we went for Mexican food instead but she said she sometimes just craves birthday cake. Her birthday has already come and gone. I don’t know why she would crave that. She has lost a lot of weight. The past several months she is walking a lot and hitting the gym at night. I’m proud of her. She is also not drinking as much. That is probably helping out a lot. She said her mom passing away made her realize she’s not invincible and she has definitely ate everything she has ever wanted to eat her entire life. She is working with a nutritionist friend to help get her eating habits changed. I told her go vegan which she is doing for a few meals each week. The problem is her husband. Or I should say soon to be ex husband, Ben. He is a meat and potatoes guy. He doesn’t think going vegan is good he thinks it deprives your body of a lot of key nutrients. He couldn’t be more wrong. I told Lindsay that’s why you should divorce him Lol They are getting a divorce because she only got married to make her mom happy. It was one of her dying wishes to know Lindsay would be taken care of. The fact is she has always taken care of herself and everyone around her. She just wanted to make her mom happy. Now that her mom has passed, she wants a divorce. She had a tiger shark pre-nup so Ben is getting what he brought to the marriage. She is also throwing him a little money to help replenish his bank account for anything he did spend the few months they were together. She also calls it Shut Up money so he won’t tell anyone any dirty secrets Lol I’m sure there’s a lot. She disappears all of the time and never says where she went or what she does. She gets on her phone and takes off to talk to whoever it is. Then comes back as if nothing happened. They are going to the attorney on Friday to see what they need to do to get the divorce started. The weird thing is they are going to continue to be together and live together. She said she just wants the option to get rid of him if she suddenly gets sick of being in a relationship. He accepts it. I don’t know who would, but he does. I have never really understood those two. They couldn’t be more opposite if they tried yet he loves her a lot. He treats her very well and he really lets her be who she is. He doesn’t put up with her, he enjoys her. I’m glad somebody does because all she has done is frustrate the heck out of me for almost 21 years now Lol She is a pain, demanding, bossy, defiant. In fact she is the most defiant human being I know. If you even think of telling her no, she is going to do exactly what she wants despite the protests. She said she only asks me things as a courtesy and I only waste her time trying to talk things over before she decides. She said her life would be much simpler if I just quit trying to stop half of the things she does and stops emailing her all together Lol I wish it were that simple!


So I’m playing catch up. I enjoy my quiet office. I look forward to seeing everyone tomorrow. For now I need to get back to work and try to figure out if Sarah wants Greek food or Thai. She can’t decide.


I hope everyone has a great Memorial day. God bless our lost loved ones. You are all missed. I love you and God loves ya’ll too!