My Fox Interview airs tonight

My interview on a local Utah Fox station will air tonight. It was an hour of them asking me questions and me answering. They edit that down to 20 minutes and then it gets cut down to a 4 or 5 minute segment. It was a variety of topics and I was glad to film it. Anything I can do to clear my name from all of Meri Brown’s lies and end all of the harassment from the nameless, faceless, horrible troll group she heads is fine by me.

The text from the interview is here. I already received my copy of it and I must say I look great. My wife declined to be interviewed and as always I keep my babies from such things. They are innocent little beings who had nothing to do with that part of my life.

The reporter was very nice and friendly. The hardest part was sitting there waiting for them to set things up. We made casual chit-chat which is my least favorite thing to do with a total stranger. And she was very interested in my wife and boys which I refused to answer about.

With the recent news of a polygamy inspired rally coming up soon what are your thoughts about polygamy?

I don’t mind it as long as the women and children are happy and not used as a man’s excuse for not raising his family.

What do you mean by that?
Most polygamist men have children for their own separate and higher place in Heaven than the rest of us. They willfully and intend to breed children for the purpose of tax rebates, workers, or to raise the smaller children that come after them. The women are stopped from any educational future or career because they are too busy raising the kids full-time as the floating dad comes around part-time. If the father of a polygamist family can attend to all of his wives and childrens’ needs daily, and actively works to provide for his family without governmental supplements and/or income then I don’t have an issue with it. I think polygamy can be really great for the right family, if it’s done for the sole purpose of religious freedom of beliefs.

Do you think the Kody Brown family fall under that opinion?
I think that guy is full of (bleeped out) and he doesn’t follow the tenants of his own religious beliefs. I believe he just makes things up to fit and conform into what he wants to do. It seems to change on a yearly basis. And now that they are admitted Christians according to the latest Tell Lies episode I would bet he has went from minor league cult leader to full-blown Cult Leader by now.

You labeled the Tell All Episode as Tell Lies, do you think the Kody Brown family are liars?

Yes I do. It starts with Meri Brown lying about my existence. As you can see I’m not invisible. Nor am I female or a puppet. I am a sinner who had an affair with a married woman who told me she was single and living a single life within a polygamist family. She also told me she wanted to leave and start a monogamist life with me.

She did?
Yes. We had a plan to move her out and into my rental home. We had plans to date openly, get engaged quickly then begin planning her move to Chicago and a big wedding. We had a lot of plans.

How did it feel when you realized she was using the tabloids to disparage your secret affair or relationship into a catfish situation?
I thought she was full of (bleeped out) just like her husband. Those people grow up lying about who they are within a family, who their dad is and who their half siblings are so it didn’t surprise me how good they all are about lying. I was surprised that people actually started to believe her.

What did you do?
I got online and began refuting all of it on my blog, and on my social media accounts. I wrote a book and a follow-up book to tell my side of the story, with proof.

In your books there are no photos with you and Meri Brown standing next to each other…

(interrupts) There is now. I updated the books as soon as I began the beta version of Amazon Kindle Publisher. And today I brought videos for you.

(Video insert begins)
See. That’s Meri Brown and that’s me.

And that’s me, Meri Brown, and Lindsay. Now does that look like I morphed myself into a female clone and magically threw my voice into a higher pitch? She’s a liar. And this video proves it. That was after we all went out to dinner and came back to my house to hang out. This was I think around May.

I have to say that is concrete proof.
Yes. And I guarantee you there still be some very stupid people saying it’s not real. Ridiculous.

What else do you want people to know about your story?
That I fell in love and intended on being with Meri. I wanted to marry her. Instead of became Almost Meri’ed.


That really is a great title.

Thanks, my friend Lindsay came up with that one.

Well I want to thank you for clearing up some of the rumors. It has been an interesting conversation and I look forward to seeing the world’s reaction to this.

Me too. I pray everyone moves on and becomes as happy as I am. Otherwise they will stay with a douchebag like Kody Brown who only wants his family to earn him tv money.

Those are some strong words.

Well he did threaten to beat me or Lindsay with a baseball bat. I think telling the world I think he is a douchebag is pretty tame compared to that.


Thank you Samuel.


Book prices have changed

After much debate and being hung up twice by my publisher, Next Press Publishing based in NYC, I have changed my book prices to what I feel comfortable with. They had upped the prices of my books to $9.99 and $20. That was bs. My book is not worth that much Lol

I have updated both of my books with more pages and more info. The new prices are $7 for ebook/kindle version and $14 for paperback. The paperbacks are now being printed through Amazon’s beta KDP print shop. I am blessed to among one of the beta customers using the program. I am assured after the beta trial period is over the printing prices will go down. This means I can adjust my paperback book prices in a few months to make it cheaper.

Again ALL OF MY BOOK PROFITS go to 2 charities. The first charity is for families in polygamy that run out of money, need medical care bills paid, need food, or basic needs met by cash donations. The second charity is to help people who want to escape polygamy and literally leave with nothing to their name. Often they are saddled with bills they must suddenly pay back to the polygamists families or businesses that offered them food, shelter, and basic needs. The choice to leave the cults are very difficult and emotional and by offering to give half of my book profits to these people make me very proud.

To date between both charities I have donated over $421,000 plus from the profits of my book sales. At one time my book Almost Meri’ed had reached #22 on Amazon books in the category it’s listed in, Non-fiction biography. That’s when my book sales were soaring. Every time the show is on tv my books sales go up and up and after 1 year of doing this I am so very proud to know I have been able to contribute all of that money to 2 well-meaning organizations.

I keep no money from either book, I have done 4 book signings in the Chicago/Milwaukee area and will look at offers to do more book signings later this year.

I also am doing a second interview for a local Fox station in Utah. They hosted my first ever tv interview with myself and Lindsay. It’s on Youtube if you care to view it. The interview will air on this coming Wednesday February 8th, 2017 at 8pm local Utah time. Again we will put that up on Youtube for anyone that cares to watch it.

I am working this weekend on my opinions and comments on the Tell Nothings that recently aired. As I have heard it’s more lies and bullshit. And also I will be commenting on the ABC News piece that aired a few weeks ago. Those will be added this weekend some time. I have already written them up but I wanted to go back through and make sure I covered all I had wanted to.

Thanks for reading this. I hope ya’ll have a great weekend!

Kendra Followup Interview Part 2

Why have the Browns never come out to protect you?

I really wish honestly I had an answer to that because this is how it is. No matter what happened over the past 5 or 6 years no matter what was said about this family I always defended them. Whether I believed it was true or not. Whether I even had the truth or not. I always made sure they were taken care of and covered. But the reality is they never once stood up or defended me. There was a time that I did ask them to not defend me in the beginning of all of this I kind of wanted just to let it go and see what happened. I think after this amount of time and to see how much I have been slammed publicly with all of this stuff at some point in time true friends would jump in the mix and say you know what Kendra did not do this Kendra did not do that. I definitely did not catfish them. I know that for a fact and that rumor is still going around heavy and strong. Another rumor going around is that Robyn and I created this story or scenario to get rid of Meri. That’s not true. You would have thought they would have at least defended me on that but they haven’t. So I don’t have any answers. Because the only thing I can think of is they haven’t gone out and defended me because part of them believes and knows the truth is out there still. And Meri is just not telling it.

What is the fan reaction to all of this?

The fans are actually really devastated by all of it. They are hurt. Well you have to understand at the beginning of the show people did not understand polygamy. They didn’t know what it was. And what they did know about it was all negative. It was just the Warren Jeffs side of it. The whole point of the Browns coming out was to give a platform for these families to come out and be free and give space to discuss their lifestyle and their family situations and be proud of their families and gain acceptance for it. The Browns made that happen for a while. A few years. It was becoming more and more accepting so they gained a huge fan base over that. People fell in love with their family. They loved to see their family grow they loved to watch Kody take care of all of his wives and children. Even some of the haters turned into understanding of the family I thought it was great. Well unfortunately when this happened it kinda showed the cracks in the family and everything people questioned for so long. They questioned how can Kody handle so many wives and keep them all happy and emotionally and otherwise. Well usually when a wife steps out on a family for any reason whether it’s emotional or physical it’s because they are not satisfied at home. And it makes Kody look, he looks completely bad at this point. It’s made him look like he’s neglecting his wife. He got so much negative hate over this. That was the one issue I had in the beginning of all of this is how it was making the family looked. It was affecting  how Robyn looked. People already hated Robyn for just being in the family and now of course they started the whole she’s the favorite wife and how Kody is the worst husband because he neglects his family and on and on and on. So if the Browns had ever wanted to keep their family whole and safe and all that Meri’s actions are completely unacceptable. The worst part for me is to sit here and watch Kody and his wives defend Meri’s actions. And find it to be acceptable for even stepping out to have any of these conversations to begin with. Because in the polygamy world, especially in the faith-based of it this is not acceptable behavior. You don’t have outside relationships of any kind. You don’t do that. So fans are having a really hard time with that. They are having a hard time seeing all that happen on tv. And to see her sit here and talk about it they don’t believe her. They don’t believe it because they have seen too much evidence. They want to sit there and prove and discuss all of these voicemails and pictures.

What is the fans reactions to all the voicemails?

They think it’s disgusting and they think it proves she had a full on relationship with somebody. And at this point they don’t even care who. They don’t care about circumstances. They just said that she has completely stepped out of her relationship. Some of them, you have some defending her. She shouldn’t be in this relationship, the ones that are like me they don’t think she should be in a relationship, they think she should run and be with Sam. Then there’s the ones that find it disgusting in the marital aspect because they felt like its inappropriate spiritually. It’s just a mixed bag. But the majority is they give their ha ha, proved you right, polygamy is a bad thing. And that’s exactly what all the people who are supportive as far as me, never wanted to have happen. Was t o have a public figure or show, people representing these families in a way have these things happen because it just makes everyone look bad.

What will Meri get out of this new special she is doing on catfishing? They are already getting paid double what they used to make because they have filmed twice as many shows.

At this point in time first of all through all of the years of Sister Wives. When Sister Wives is off-season, online it’s off-season. Nobody talks about it. It’s a moot point. Ever since this started it has gone on season, on and off-season, 24/7 people are talking about this catfish scenario. First it was Meri’s relationship and who was she talking to. Who is Sam? That was the last season. And this season is all about the catfishing. Off season it has been nonstop talk. So in many ways the fans are correct this is absolutely a ratings and moneymaker keeping this show on air. Because otherwise what the heck were they even going to be talking about. I can’t even imagine how they were going to fill this season and the last season to be honest with you. There was not much more to do with the Brown family. So this has been a huge ratings kicker (The ratings are actually down) and moneymaker. And that’s the problem in many ways. The fans are 100% in belief that this was all set up. They really still, they are like this is the theory. If Sam is really not real they still 100% believe that Lindsay was hired to play whatever. And mystery Sam was hired. They even think a guy was hired. You should really see some of the scenarios, I don’t want to say that, but it’s pretty funny. This is a big time moneymaker. And that’s the point of it. They want to keep it going and now it’s going to become. I don’t even know. It’s going to be a big show at this point I guess. To be honest. I never even expected for this show to come out of it, I find it hysterical that a show is coming out of it. And proof of point there’s a catfish show coming out with Meri Brown on it discussing why she was catfished yet Lindsay is still around and Sam is still around. So I’m not too sure how all of this is being honest. Once again this goes back to honesty. If she’s making, if their profiting in any way from all of this then it shows that unfortunately it’s fraudulent. It’s not true.

What about the rumor TLC tried to pay you guys (Sam, Lindsay, and you) to shut up?

I was actually threatened a few times by phone call that I was going to be sued by the TLC network if I didn’t shut up and I had to basically had to completely detach myself 100% from anything TLC. And I had to, I even unliked pages and everything. I was a little bit freaked out by it all. And that I was going to be paid basically to shut up and to not talk to anybody because I had so many people coming after me for interviews. You have no idea how many people are coming after me for. Still always trying to get interviews from me. To the point where some of them seem fake and they are not true and I have to question them, which I recently did online. Which I feel bad about because there’s a few people that were coming after me and I really shut them down thinking they weren’t real and they were actually real for major networks and I feel bad about that. So my apologies to anyone I was mean to. My phone number has been distributed, my address has been distributed. I’ve had people show up at my door which was a little bit strange. Yes, TLC definitely was behind trying to shut people up. I’m sure for a fact I’m going to get in trouble for discussing any of this because nobody wants the truth to come out. But unfortunately this is the truth and this is my truth and I’m not worried about really what happens at this point.

What about this new interview Samuel just did today?

There are some casting networks that were interested in a separate show. The show has absolutely nothing to do with glorifying the Browns or the catfish scenario. They actually want to do a show with Sam, Lindsay, and myself to get our side of what really happened and take a peek into of Sam’s life because they actually interviewed Sam and met with Sam and they have some really great footage of Sam in this interview. So that was exciting for him. I know that. I don’t how far it is with Lindsay at this point. But they wanted to share this side of the story basically when you are caught up in a scandal that you didn’t create and yet it kind of ruins you in many ways. That kind of story. So I thought that was pretty cool but of course there have been no answers as far as if I would even be involved in that or not. So that was the other way that it’s been proven that Sam is actually a man because they have all of this footage of this guy and it’s the same person that I know and it’s pretty interesting. It’s great I guess when you have people who have met and been able to validate that shoot I believe this. It’s good. It makes you like okay, I’m not losing my mind here. I know for a fact I’ve talking to somebody I met this guy I know he’s real and it’s crazy. It’s just nice to be validated. So hopefully the interview eventually does come out. I’m not sure when it will, if it will or if it’s going to end up on the show or not.

What about the rumors you are trying to get money off of this?

Interesting making money off of Meri Brown’s affair that’s the other rumor going around is that I’m just trying to bank off of it. Or get famous off of it and the funny part is, believe me, you don’t want to be recognized or known or famous for working with a polygamous family on tv. I’ve made this comment many times before in the past. I’ve lost jobs being associated with this family. Trolls and haters out there, that’s bull. You know what, that’s not true. I have no interest in that. And no I don’t have an interest in destroying the family or taking them down. I have interest in the truth. When you have faith in God and you have religion in your heart whatever you want to call it people of all different kinds of faiths, being truthful and honest is the best point. It’s kind of what you should be doing anyway. Practice what you preach. I guess I’ve had enough evidence presented to me to know my reality and my truth and what I’ve seen to be real. I will just hope that they would do the same.

Foxy, News interview

This morning I took my kids into the dr for their 3 month check up. I have two 13 pounders. They are both 25 and a half inches long. My gosh, they are getting so big. Everyone is healthy, thriving, and happy. All of the shots are up to date and we no longer need the dietician weekly. They do want her to come by once a month and do weights so I told her see you in 29 days Lol I’ve had enough arguing why I use vegan formula.

I ate lunch at my desk because I got back to work a little later than I expected. Then I had the Fox news people come in and do an interview. I thought we had said next Friday and I’m dang sure I did but they wanted something right now. I guess there’s some big rush to get me on the air. Alright.

So I sat there for about half hour while they set up all of this stuff. I wanted to play with all of it. I asked questions and kept to myself. I texted my lawyer get your old butt over here now, tv crew here. He rushed right over and sat close by out of camera range. He said any question he felt I should not answer he would just interrupt and say No Comment. There were 4 he vetoed. Not going to discuss those. The lady was very polite and friendly. She was nervous. I was nervous. And I found out I really don’t like having a camera shoved in my face. I don’t like sitting there. I don’t like the big light things or the big wing? What is that called? It’s to help the lighting. I don’t like it. And I really don’t like being hooked into some microphone pack thing.

The questioning I was fine with. I was ready. I kept my answers short and to the point. I was honest. I told my story. I declined to give a shoutout to either of my books because that was too nerdy and if people want to find them, they will. I didn’t want to be one of those guys holding up my book and saying GO BUY THIS. I also declined to have them come to my home and film my kids. Instead we had Sarah Facetime me with them off camera to show the reporter to verify I have them. Isn’t that the dumbest thing in the world? Who on Earth doesn’t believe I don’t have twins? Are ya’ll that stupid? Really? Anyone that has been talking to me the past 3 months would tell you because they are very loud and present in my life. That’s just offensive. Ya’ll should be ashamed for even suggesting that one.

What was only going to be an hour took 2 hours and 45 minutes because her list of 20 questions all had follow ups and follow ups to the follow ups. She said I was very interesting to talk to and my story had her on my blog for days researching it. She was surprised at how polite I was. She said online I am labeled some very bad words and she found me to be nothing like what I was described as. She asked to take photos with me. I said only if my lawyer can be in there too. He hates that Lol She also asked that I not divulge the questions. I told her I did not sign anything and would not agree to any stipulations so good luck trying to boss me Lol She laughed and said she realizes she will be making my blog sometime soon and couldn’t wait to see what I said.

So hello, Fox news lady. Nice meeting you today. Hope you like that Naked Juice I told you about. Good luck on your event this weekend.

I have no idea when my interview will air. My guess is all of you will know long before I do because I know I will be hearing about it Lol That’s what always happens.

It was not a fun experience. It was interesting.

The only question I have is, are we all over this by now? Am I really worth all of this?

Kendra Follow Up Interview Part 1

  1. The first time and only time you have met Samuel and Lindsay was after your baby was born, how did that go?
Actually it was really sweet. Lindsay had contacted me. She hadn’t heard from me in a while. Contacted me and I had answered the phone and I was pretty hysterical at the hospital. I was in a very scary labor situation. It was one of scenarios  where I had expected and hoped my true friends would have reach out to me. And regardless of the situation right now with Robyn or anything that was going on you would have hoped. I know for a fact if anything  seriously was happening with Robyn I would definitely reach out and try to be there for her. Because I still care. But of course that didn’t happen for me. And Lindsay contacted me through the hospital because I wasn’t taking my phone calls on my phone and the nurse actually brought the phone in and she said that she knew that I was going through whatever and that they were actually in town. In town to see me. And they couldn’t come to the hospital while I was laboring because it was serious but they actually showed up the following morning and I got to personally meet Sam and meet Lindsay. And they were just really supportive and sweet. Luckily thank God everything turned out okay. The baby is perfect. It was unexpected and it was nice. It was kind of a last minute thing. I didn’t know about it. It showed what a true personality of who they are as people. So that was nice.

2. Samuel is really good-looking, he’s not some 50 year old fat guy?
Samuel is definitely not a 50 year old fat guy. He is actually adorable and he is quite tall. I’m really short. I would say he is 6′ something. He’s very cute. He definitely does not look his age I know that has been a big critique amongst people. Lets be honest, I don’t even look my age. It’s possible in this day and age to actually not look your age because of a healthy lifestyle. I don’t think. I don’t know what else to say. He’s adorable he could be a little country Kerr. You know he kind of looks like, he could definitely be on one of those cute little videos. I still don’t understand what he saw in, you know. Well anyways.
3. What did you think of Lindsay when you first met her because she has quite the reputation for being mean and rude?
She doesn’t have kids but she should have kids. She’s like a mama bear. She is just very protective. She has always been very sweet and very nice to me. She always looks out for everybody else but herself. She just, I don’t understand. I know what people are saying things about her because she comes off a certain way online because she has to be  defensive because everyone is attacking her. She is so nice and she made me feel so much better. She’s probably one of the only people who made me feel like I was actually thinking I’m going to be okay. She’s even kept in touch with me over the past few weeks because I had concerns or whatever. And she just asks are you okay? Is everything okay? Never has even been about herself, it’s just, totally selfless. I had not come across too many people like that. Honestly and especially this is such a huge surprise because she and I hated each other. From the beginning of all of this I was fiercely protective over the Browns and she was fiercely protective of Sam and that was great but it was not working for me at all. She was, it just didn’t work. Out of nowhere I think through all of the crap that we both have been through online and through all of this I’ve been completely 100% with her and I have not caught her in any dishonesty fortunately. Every thing she has ever said to me she has backed up 100% with evidence. Nothing else. I mean there were times she would even say I’m not going to say anything I’m just going to show you this. I mean come on. How more real can you get? It’s not all talk and no walk. It’s mostly all walk and no talk with Lindsay. She practices what she preaches and she backs it up. I’m a tough person to convince, believe me, and I don’t let a lot of people into my circle but I absolutely believe that she is a good person. A genuine person. And like I said, if she was a catfisher, she wouldn’t be around anymore. No way would she put herself out there like this. No way.
4. There is a large group of fans that want Samuel and Meri to be together. Have you heard about this?
There’s actually a support page for Sam and Meri (15,032 members). There are a lot of people also that thought that she should be with him. They thought it was crazy that she had to think twice about it. They didn’t understand. To be honest at some point in this, in the beginning of all of this I believe I even said to her You seem so happy he seems to make you feel happy I don’t understand why you aren’t with him. I didn’t even understand that to be honest. But a lot of people want her to be happy they want her to be with the person, Sam, who makes her happy and a lot of people, the biggest reaction I ever get from  people are oh my god I hope it’s true. I hope it’s real. Because every thinks he’s a dream guy it would be amazing for her to be with him. Then there’s the ones that have actually spoken to him, I believe some have actually met him and they said the same thing. That he is amazing I don’t understand why he chose Meri but for whatever reason, they want them to be together. There has been a lot of different reactions.
5. What will make Meri finally tell the truth that Sam is real and there was no catfishing? Because Samuel’s tv interview is coming out soon.
I think the only way that this is going to come out is that. I do believe Sam has to come out eventually and say this is what’s going on and that’s one way. And the other way is like I told Meri a long time ago honesty is the best policy. At the end of the day her fans will love her more for being truthful because unfortunately she has been so back and forth. One minute she was like I’ve fallen in love blah blah blah. I was flattered go back to the original interviews. And you look at them now and it was I was totally catfished I was totally ambushed. And TLC has definitely, they are benefiting big time now they are creating shows around it? Come on. This is ridiculous and let me add the majority of the fans like I said don’t buy it. They believe she did have a relationship with somebody. They believe whether it was emotional or physical they don’t care. And on top of that they all say that they believe it’s been setup for ratings. And it’s 100% turning out to be that way. This is a ratings shoot it’s turning into the catfish scenario. Here we got with the catfish story.
6. There is a rumor going around that you and Lindsay are working on a book, can you tell us more about that?
At this point and time nothing has come out, the truth hasn’t come out yet. About any of it. And so I think that it’s a good time to clear up everything that’s been said and that is in question. And I think it’s a great opportunity for Lindsay to tell her side of the story because she is constantly being portrayed as this catfisher, this bad person or whatever. And  I don’t believe she’s this person. I don’t believe that she’s catfished anybody. Because my reason is she’s still here. And she still communicates publicly and on social media. And she hasn’t went into hiding. She’s actually always been there to defend me anytime anything has gone down publicly.
7. What do you think of Meri being on that catfish show?
I think Meri being on that catfish show is a complete joke. And my reasons are this, number 1, when you are catfished by somebody you’re not carrying on with the relationship for 6 to 8 months even a year. You don’t put your heart and soul and invest completely in that person with I love yous and everything else. You don’t go hang out with their friends and associate with them and then get creeped out by them and then invite them to meet your family and become business partners in one way or another. That actually happened. You don’t sit there and, the problem with all of this though is the biggest problem is that she’s just not being honest and it comes out 100% out in her face you can read it all over her face. The problem I have and I’m trying to be calm about it is that she’s not being real. She’s not being truthful. She’s just telling everybody what she reads online and what people are saying because this is not really what happened.
8. What about all of the recent new people Meri is following on her Twitter account. Who are those people? They have hatefilled accounts and harass people online daily.
I don’t understand also how Meri can go and buddy up with the biggest trolls on the internet. The people that she’s friends with online are the people that trashed the family for years. They are the worst of the worst. They were the ones that went out there and created Facebook groups just to bash on them and destroy them, create lies and rumors about them. They are the ones that we were fighting against for the longest time. And for her to sit there and pull them into her corner, where is her loyalty to her family? I don’t understand that. Believe me there are not her friends. Meri if you listen to this, they are not your friends. I don’t understand why you are doing that. You are basically creating relationships with the people that hate you guys. They don’t believe in your faith. They don’t believe in your family. They just want a part of this disgusting nonsense that is going online.
9. Do you think Samuel is going to sue Meri now that she is saying his name finally?
Absolutely. I think what’s happened is she never once mentioned in the past, really brought up anyone’s name, she’s kept it private and quiet. And I think the fact is she’s just now putting the two names on blast. And in some people’s minds, in some fans minds it’s going to be in this version of the way people are thinking. Some people, most people right now are thinking she’s full of shit. They don’t believe her. And so they are going to see this and you know what she is actually naming people now. And Sam’s reaction, Lindsay’s reaction is going to be that’s slander. That’s defamation of character. That’s putting us in a position of dishonesty and now it’s going to be on national tv. So most people in that position would sue the shit out of somebody.
10. How do you know Meri is lying?
It’s all up on the face. She’s not, this is hard to explain. She’s not. Her guard is still completely up. Her eyes are shifty she doesn’t make a lot of eye contact with whoever she is speaking with. She looks up quite a bit. Usually if people are being dishonest they look around they pause and they fill in words. They kind of create fillers and filters in their conversations. They want to kind of think about what they are going to say before they say it. And that’s exactly what she’s doing. Full honesty, you know we are sitting here having a conversation, fully honesty is you just come out and say exactly how it is. When you have to sit here and think about it, it’s like well, yeah I’m not sure. You know what I mean? She’s filling up space. Because she’s not being honest. There is no way she is being honest. I still don’t believe she is being honest. You can not tell me. You can not sit here and be in the public eye as much as she has been. Dealt with social media the way I have, the way she has, the way so many others have. You know when you are being screwed. Come on, it’s really not that tough. And you don’t egg on for months. And you don’t sit there and let it go and not go after these people. If she were legitimately catfished, why has she not gone legally after these people, a. and why hasn’t she not protected the people around her? That’s my other question. Because that’s what you should do.

Dropping bombs, all kinds today


Today has been tough. I didn’t get much sleep last night. My boys are a lot more active and want to stay up longer after the night diaper changes or night time feedings. It’s really hard. I’m exhausted this week. Every one that has spoken to me on the phone the last few days has been yawned at or at the very least heard my sleepy daddy voice Lol This is really hard. This is not easy. Sarah is beyond exhausted. She had to call in one of the part-time nannies today she said for a few hours just so she could take a shower and a nap. We have to take them into the doctor tomorrow morning for a 3 month check up. I’m really hoping we can finally get rid of the dang dietician lady. She was assigned to us and I willingly accepted her advice and help when Alex wasn’t gaining weight. Now he’s a chunk and I want her gone. She is nice, but she nitpicks every single thing I do or say about their formula. She says she is only “letting me use vegan formula” because I have proven its good stuff and she called the manufacturer herself to verify what I had told her was accurate. She is seeing the benefits of using it but she still thinks they need regular formula. Well if there was a medical reason, absolutely, I would switch them both right away. But we have been there, done that, and we are okay now. She sent me an awesome email and I kind of told her off in my reply back. I did say sorry I think somewhere in there that I am really tired but I disagree with half of what she said. She waited a half hour then called me at work. Then chewed at me for 5 minutes about the benefits of this and that and told me to think on it. I said okay thanks and hung up right away. That was me trying to be nice but I really wanted to just hang up on her! If Alex is fine, she is gone as of tomorrow.

Then Lindsay Lol I swear it is ALWAYS Lindsay that grinds my headache into a pounding migraine in a few minutes. She sent out a mass email to all of our upper executives about what her plans are for the next 2 months and why she will be taking money out of everyone’s budgets to feed into her latest project, the one I’m scared to go forward with. She said she made an executive decision and if she’s wrong she will pay it back. This came out of nowhere this morning. I tried calling her she answered and said “Yeah, hi swamped here call laters” and hung up on me Lol She only does that when she knows I’m about to go off on her. So I left the office. I called up my buddy Josh and asked what he was doing for lunch. He said he was playing hooky from work today to watch the Cubs game so I said I’m grabbing beers for you, a salad for me and coming over. I hid out there the rest of the day until the game was over. Then I went home. After I got my boys settled I took a longer shower, a really long shower. The kind you just stand there with the hot water pouring all over you and you don’t move at all. I was probably in there for a half hour. I think I wanted to cry from stress but I held it in. Or I was so tired my tears melted before they flew out of my eyes and the water dissolved them.

I am really stressed out this week. And I don’t know what to do about it. I am working out like a beast trying to get some of the pressure off but that is only making me more tired.

Then Josh called and asked if I wanted to come watch the next Cubs game at a bar with some buddies of his and Sarah overheard me talking about it and went off on me. Actually used an F-bomb at me for skipping work and not coming home. And she is 100% right. I was selfish, she needs help, I could have taken that 3 hours from work and went home to watch the game with my boys. She was really pissed. Hold on let me go out and ask her a mundane question to gauge her temperament.

Yep, still pissed Lol I asked her if she knew what the weather would be like tomorrow she said Why don’t you go ask Josh. Can a nanny put you in the dog house? If so, I’m there tonight.

Bombs everywhere tonight! I need to eat dinner. I haven’t even done that yet.

So we are putting the photos page back up. It a page not a post. I’m supposed to mention that because everyone will be looking for it in the posts. Here is the link for it. Yes it is blank right now because Lindz is looking into Photo Plugins that will organize all of the photos and make it look cool. That’s all I care about. I want to be able to write a label on each one to explain them. I have so many photos no one has ever seen. And it’s time to let that out there. Has anyone noticed every single time something gets said by the other side publicly I have a response to it? With more proof, more info, and more questions being answered.

Also, the NBC interview is/was a TLC thing for that show she is doing next. They wanted my response. So I gave them one. I answered about 15 questions for the producer lady. She was nice and respectful. Then she began hounding me. She wanted more info more this and that. So I called my lawyer to ask what to do. He said he would look into it and call me back. Yes, NBC is working with TLC on a new series. Yes NBC News really does want to do an on camera interview with me. But so does FOX and CBS now. So we are getting more info gathered up because the last thing I want to do is ANYTHING for TLC. I would like to insert the same word Sarah used on me earlier tonight, right here

_ _ _ _ No!

I will do nothing to help TLC at all. Look at what they have done to my life. And do you really believe they are going to let me actually tell my story and not edit me into whatever version they need this to be? Come on, ya’ll. Even if NBC News is contracted with them to do it, TLC still has the ultimate control over it all and my lawyer said put a pin in it until he can make some calls. We have been emailing back and forth for a few days prior to this exchange. CBS and FOX are local affilates just wanting a short interview they will splice together, not a big sit down like this NBC offer is.




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